What Was I Thinking??

Hello!
I will finally have my 32 year old silicone implants removed in January 21st. The right one has ruptured and is painful so I am anxious to get on with returning to my real self.
In my late 50's now I feel my breasts look ridiculous on me. So I will be glad to be rid of them. The implants were an engagement gift from my (now ex) husband and my initial reaction back then when I got my first look at them was "oh no! What have I done?" They were disappointing to me from the very beginning - they are under the muscle and to me look like I have had chest implants, not breast implants. They have always been uneven, with the right implant sitting slightly higher on my chest than the left. My skin scars easily and I can still see the incision scars from the original surgery, which is one reason I don't want a lift. Okay, money is the other reason, as I simply don't have funds for surgery (luckily Medicare pays for removal of implants). As I look through this site and read other women's stories I am saddened that I allowed myself to be disfigured all for the sake of having bigger boobs. I would hate to think of my daughters feeling that they should need to do something like this to please someone else or to fit the mould of what society thinks is attractive!
This forum has been incredible and to all the ladies on it a HUGE thank you for sharing the stories of your brave journeys.
I am looking forward to NO UNDERWIRE, no shoulder pain, no button gap, and sleeping on my stomach again!

I was able to shower this morning and a bit nervous about what I would find under the mummy wraps. They are small and wrinkly and squishy and all mine! I love them! I no longer feel like I have balloons on my chest. Soooo happy! :)

I couldn't resist the temptation to try on some of my tops this morning and oh yes! They fit so much better, even though I am still compressed into my Marena bra (a great investment). The clothes drape where they should drape and flow where they should flow and no gaping buttons.
I no longer have to worry about cleavage popping out the top. I have to tell you ladies, I've been in office work for my entire career and I am appalled at the way some women think cleavage is acceptable business attire. But then flip through the tv channels and every actress portraying doctors or lawyers are "practicing" with her boobs half exposed!
I'm not a prude but I don't believe boobs and boardrooms are synergistic.
That's my rant for the day - lol. Loving my "new" old wardrobe!

I managed to get these on here. Before is the night before the explant. The right implant always sat way higher on the right and had ruptured, effectively pushing up under my armpit. Nice, eh? Not something they tell you about on implant is it?
The wrinkling on PostOp2 is from the compression and now sagging skin. It is slowly getting better. Please remember these are post menopausal, 58 year old boobs!