Just joined so please bear with me. I started my...
Just joined so please bear with me. I started my TT journey a while back. I have 4 beautiful girls 11, 9, 7 and 2.5yrs old. They were all normal deliveries. I count myself very lucky to have 4 healthy children but for 11 years my body confidence has been in shreds. I won't dare wear a bikini on the beach. My whole 20's has basically revolved around me being pregnant, breast feeding and gaining and losing weight. I am quite petite (UK size 8) and feel my tummy does not look like that of a 29yr old! Had all my pre-op appointment today and in have the go ahead for Saturday. I have 2 more long days at work and then FINALLY I get to say goodbye to the monster tummy! It almost doesn't feel real! I have waited over a decade for this! Quite nervous though about the pain etc, also, me and my husband have not told a soul about it so we will be managing between us with the kids. I hoping to go back to work after the 2nd week PO. Not sure how realistic this is but I am quite a determined person so will hope for the best. Just taken a set of the most hideous pictures of my tummy in all it's glory eek! 3 days and counting!
2 sleeps remaining!
Went to my usual Wednesday evening boxercise class yesterday and gave it my all, as I knew it would be the last one for a long while. Feeling quite sad that I won't be able to gym as normal, will really miss it (probably my gym buds more if I am honest lol).
Not long finished a very long shift at work. More of the same tomorrow then I really must pack my stuff! Has anyone got any suggestions or advice on what to take to the hospital that I may not have thought about? I have the added bonus of my period being due on the day of my surgery to contend with! Got 2 packets of santitary towels and my tranexamic acid. Fingers crossed tomorrow goes quickly!
Night before the big day!
Just finished another long (and stressful) day at work! Started to pack my bag but I am so exhausted I might just go to bed. Had an awful night sleep last night. Hoping for a better night sleep tonight, although I am sure I am going to be up over thinking the op through the night!
Here I am being an insomniac! Knew that I would be tonight, but still, it's frustrating! I just wanted a good night sleep! So much to do before I leave in the morning and it keeps going round in my mind! Off to try and catch some more zzzzz before it's time to get up!
Today's the day! :-D
12 Jul 2014
Day of treatment
The big day is finally here YAY! I am all checked in at the hospital, my nurse seems nice, she asked why I needed a TT as I was slim and my tummy is flat...! I then explained that I had 4 children and I was tucking skin into my pants and my abdominal wall is in shreds lol! Surgery is not until this afternoon so I have a bit of a wait ahead of me. Had my last cup of tea and breakfast at 7.30am and got ready to leave. Said goodbye to my babies and instantly felt guilty about what I am doing. They are heading to the beach today with daddy! It's such a lovely day, I wish I was too!
My room is nice, I have a TV and nice clean bathroom. Period not arrived yet (probably will make an appearance just before I go for surgery!) Still have to meet the anaesthetist.
Feeling a bit surreal at the moment. Still don't believe it's happening and probably won't until I wake up post surgery! So tired after another rubbish night sleep. Could really do with a cup of tea but nill by mouth now, boo!
FINALLY on the flat side! :-D
12 Jul 2014
Day of treatment
Just thought I would update and let you all know I AM ON THE FLAT SIDE!!!! Got called down a bit earlier than expected and woke up in recovery at 1.15pm. Have just been dozing on and off since. Had to have some more pain relief in recovery as I felt like my wound was burning but feeling quite comfortable now. Feel like I have done an insane abs workout though! Period stayed at bay and I am sitting here pantless with the catheter and 2 drains so im hoping it stays away until I can get some pants and pad on! Felt really sick post anaesthetic and had to have some anti-sickness mess. I dreaded the thought of heaving with my sore tummy. PS came to see me a couple of hours ago and said it went well. I asked if the muscle separation was quite severe and he said it was pretty bad. Glad it all fixed now! Can't wait to have a look at my tummy. The binder is really tight and not helping too much with the sicky feeling. Otherwise feel like Ive had a few too many glasses of wine! If I can get some pics later (with my pants on) I will! :-D
8 hours post op!
12 Jul 2014
Day of treatment
Been napping on and off throughout the day. Managed to very slowly eat some dinner. Couldn't manage much but funnily enough the icecream and fruit salad pudding went down well :-)
Feeling slightly more 'with it' now. Was still in my horrible theatre gown and had no pants on so just manoeuvred myself to the edge of the bed and stood up (all be in hunched like an old man with my drains and catheter) to my bag to get out a pair of low rise pants and pad and a clean nighty or my own. Crouching down was fine but standing up was not too good. Poor healthcare assistant got a shock when she saw me changing my nighty on the edge of the bed and putting my pants on so she went to get one of the staff nurse lol! She helped me thread my drains through the leg of my pants and I managed to stand hunched and pull them up. Cleansed my face and now re-settled back in bed again. Took some shots of the binder and drains. You can see the shape is looking good. Really want to see it now!
The morning after!
12 Jul 2014
Day of treatment
Morning realselfers! Managed a fair bit of sleep over night last night. Can see I am quite swollen and bruised now in the groin area. Took some arnica tabs to help bring the bruising out. Not much in my drains to be honest. 50mls left, 20mls right. Drinking and draining lots of urine eek! Feeling pretty good. Going to dose myself up on pain relief and get moving this morning. My PS is going to pop round this morning to see me. Drains and catheter will likely be removed then. Can't wait (although secretly enjoying having the catheter as not having to get up for a wee lol) my throat has been a bit sore where they intubated me, but feeling otherwise pretty good this morning!
Cooking on gas!
Both my drains, catheter and cannula have now all been removed! The nurses kept commenting about how tiny my waist looks. I imagine it's likely a lot to to with the binder because I didn't think PS was going to do any lipo, I forgot to ask this morning when he came to see me. Took some pics standing up (hunched over still though) now that I have no nasty drains! Shape is looking really good I think! Still not seen the wound yet, doesn't look like I will for another 11 days! The binder seems to be velcroed onto something else underneath too :-/
PS said I can go home later today if I want to. Just deliberating what I should do as obviously going to have kids bounding all over the place asking questions!?! (We didn't say I was going for a TT) . I could stay another night but I think DH wants me to come home. Bless!
Home at last!
Went home yesterday evening and managed a good sleep in my own bed. Was sleeping propped up most of the night but managed to sleep on my side for a short time too. I am coping ok with just codeine and paracetamol. Feeling quite swollen now though. The binder is getting itchy and is bunching in the waist area, making it uncomfortable but I can't take it off for another 10 days! Took some pics this morning. Legs look quite puffy still with water retention.
Might have slightly over done it!
I have been more and more mobile as the day has gone on. This morning I had a strip wash at the sink and shaved my legs and underarms. This afternoon I managed to single handedly wash and condition my hair over the sink. I have still been falling asleep a fair bit through the day, which I hope is normal but otherwise lots more active. I went downstairs and saw the kitchen was a tip, so started cleaning it! Then tidied the living room and sat down for dinner. I then came over really hot and clammy, and had to get some air and roll down my stockings. I think that was my body telling me I had done too much. I managed to eat a good sized dinner but now I am wiped out and want to sleep. My abs and scar are also hurting a bit now so will have to take some codeine which I have been avoiding all day (it's sends me to sleep). I hope I have a better day tomorrow. It's so frustrating when you are used to being so busy!
Day 3 PO and getting there!
Was a bit slow to start this morning but once I was up I was almost whizzing about as normal (except with a hunch). I would say I am about 90% upright now. Just a little way to go! Was having my morning stand-up wash this morning and thought I would take the binder off to check the bruising and put it back on afterwards. I also rolled down a small bit of the soft foam tape underneath to see if I could get a peek of my new bb! I took a couple of pictures from the back/side and I have no bruising which likely confirms that PS did no lipo. My upper ribs look bruised and I could see the top of the white steri-strips where my new bob must be! The right side of my abs are more swollen than my left (not sure why that is) hopefully that sorts itself out. Otherwise though, I am not as battered and bruised as I thought I would be which I guess is a good thing and probably why I am quite mobile already. Still wearing my sexy socks and weirdly my period has not put in an appearance yet! It's now 3 days late so expecting it any day which is going to be awful! Still not been for a No.2 yet, is that normal?
So we have a heat wave predicted here over the next week or so. It's roasting already and it's only 8am! I have taken my TED's stockings off "to be washed" as I was getting really hot in them and I am pretty mobile anyway so not really sure they are necessary. I am a bit worried about how hot I am going to be wearing the binder! I've ordered some spanx high waisted pants so when they come I can hopefully swap them for the binder!
Sorry if TMI, I finally managed to go this morning, YAY! I also weighed myself and I am down a pound to 118lbs although was wearing my PJ's and binder so might be more like 2lbs! Whoop whoop! Anyway fingers crossed I manage to stay cool today! :-D
Sorry if TMI but I have to give credit to the lactulose big time! I have been to the toilet 6 times already today! Talk about backed up! Don't know if my cramps in back and tummy are being caused by the impending period that is now 4 days late, the TT or the damned wind and bloating caused by being backed up for 4-5 days! Whichever it is URGHHHH! Thought I would do a bit of garden sunbathing today. My big dressings and binder totally ruined my bikini party! Luckily I was just hanging out in my garden with my toddler and not going anywhere in public lol! :-)
Forgot to say, DH only took Monday off so all mummy duties resumed yesterday bar the school run (as I can't drive) and so far so good! Hope you are all enjoying the lovely weather ladies!
Down another pound!
I know it's silly to keep weighing myself but down another pound this morning to 8st 5oz (117lbs to our American friends). Is this just fluid then that I am loosing? I am usually quite hungry too and haven't been post surgery. :-/ just seems a lot to loose in 5 days!
Wow I can see abs!
Wow ok I am the most excited I've been since going in for the surgery. Took my binder off for a wash this morning and OMG I have abs!!!! I knew they were hiding under all that skin before but so impressed with how it looks! I know credit needs to be given to the surgeon but heck credit for busting my bum in the gym 4 times a week too! Totally paid of to see this! No stretchmarks either yet from the bit I can see. I am expecting some lower down as I had some above the belly button. Hurry up next Friday already....I want to see under there!!!!
The arrival of the spanx!
Thank god is all I can say right now! My spanx have just arrived and they are like a silk glove compared to the binder! I have been wearing the damned binder all day long in 30 degree heat! That is no fun believe me! My skin has been scratched raw from how uncomfortable it's made me! The only problem with the spanks is getting them on and off! This is not an easy task let me tell you! It needed to be done though. I can actually stand straight now too!!
Update on spanx
Morning RSers! Just thought I would give you an update on the spanx, they were a great relief for about an hour, then I needed my binder back on because I was swelling up, they were not tight enough and I didn't feel secure after a while. I actually wore the binder on top of the Spanx and it felt much more comfortable. Those were the smallest spanx do so I guess I will have to wait a bit to wear those! I just ordered a different compression garment which I hope will get here quickly! I did a bit of de-sticking with my bandages. I have come up in a bit of a red raw rash from the soft foam tape they used and I ended up with blistered skin on my hip so I had to remove it! Took a peek of my right hip just now and it looks brutal under there! Honestly I am wondering what the hell I allowed happen to myself! Also my bits seem to have been given a face lift :-/ I know it's swollen and full of fluid but looks like it's been pulled upwards quite a bit! Going to venture out today and join the rest of civilisation. Going to have to hide my binder somehow and try and walk as straight as possible! That should be fun! Anyway here's a snap shot of what's going on under the dressings! Enjoy :-p
Just doing a casual bit of binder hiding for my trip out in a bit! I've got on a camisole followed by the binder then outfit on top! Fingers crossed I'm disguised enough!
Ok so I know it's late in the day but I just took all the soft foam off to have a look at what's going on under there. The white steri-strips are still covering the wound and my new bb so I can only see 90% of the result. I won't remove those till next friday. The bb in particular looks like a mess and in the pics looks offset to the left but we'll see when things have settled down. The suture line etc seems ok. It's low enough to be covered by pants. The redness you can see is the reaction to the soft foam dressings :-/
1week PO today :-)
So I made it through the week! It's been tough but I am getting there! I am hoping with the arrival of the new CG and the dressings coming off next week, it will be more comfortable for me! Kids broke up from school yesterday so no more school runs to worry about for the summer! Just got to get through my work days and I will be ok :-)
I am just about to head out for lunch with the girls (gym buds and babes lol) I have really missed them. I wasn't going to go but I am feeling ok and we got to have something to look forward to during this healing process eh! Another day, another bit of binder hiding with yet another playsuit! I am so glad this is the fashion right now as they are so comfortable and very covering, I love them! Here's to a good afternoon! :-)
Morning RS'ers. Had a lovely lunch with the girls yesterday, food was amaizing, totally stuffed my face with a 3 course meal! Was sad to be the only one not enjoying a lovely glass of pink champagne but there will be other lunch dates! Got in and crashed afterwards with the help of some codeine, 4 hours sitting in a binder is not ideal! Had a totally insomniac nights sleep as a result, so feel less than human this morning! Decided to take some pics this morning with binder off before the swelling sets in! Down to 8st 4oz on the scales now. Unreal considering what I ate yesterday! You can see from where I replaced the dressings the bb is off centre. I am hoping this pans out ok because I would not like to have a correction procedure. Anyway rant over, hope you all have a lovely day!
More binder hiding!
For those unfortunate enough to have to endure the binder, here's another binder hiding outfit. Got my high waisted denim shorts on and a loose shirt which I have tied at my waist.
Did a fair bit of cleaning and sorting today of our play room (it was a tip with way too many toys!). Had to lay down for a bit afterwards as my back was sore. Managed to mislay my codeine somewhere so not had any proper pain meds for more than 24 hours now (probably why I am slightly grumpy lol!). Boredom is really starting to set in now. I really miss the gym, all this laying down has meant my booty has joined the flat side also :-( going to be toning that up ASAP! Miss work and work colleagues. Just having one of those days I guess. Kids have all been really good today, helping with the sorting. Can't complain really! Just wish I could go out and enjoy the lovely sunshine!
Belly button update!
Just took the little dressing off to change it and check bb.....it looks gross! Pretty much a slit with sutures. Took the little stuffed in, bit of gauze out to check the inside of my bb and at the moment I am not sure what it's going to turn out like. It doesn't look pretty and round like other ladies bb's. I was also a bit disappointed to see some big stretch marks either side of bb, so I will still have those crashing my bikini party :-(
It's also still very much a lefty bb.
I am definitely not in love with it yet. It does need cleaning up though as it's covered in that brown cleaning solution from surgery. Friday the sutures come out so fingers crossed it looks like a happier bb then! It's so numb around it too, feels really bizarre not to have any feeling in my bb what so ever :-/ most disconcerting! Anyway Realselfers here it is.....
So damned period FINALLY decided to show up yesterday 10 days late! Having surgery really messes with your cycle huh! I knew my back had been killing me but assumed it was the surgery (WRONG!) it was the dreaded Aunt Flo all along! Needless to say I was cramping up bad wearing the binder so it had to come off and some ibuprofen had to go down! I wore my spanx after that for most of the day which were nice and comfy. I had to take the kids to the dentist yesterday so I drove for the first time post surgery. It was fine and no bother at all. I took all 4 kids to pizzahut afterwards for a summer holidays treat and they were very good! I was a bit swollen when I got home so put the binder back on and laid down. I am loving the fact that usually I would look 6 months pregnant at this time of the month and I would gain 4lbs in water weight, but I look normal and flat now! Maybe slightly swollen on the lower belly but otherwise FLAT! I hope you are enjoying your day ladies. It's another hot day here! Day 12 pictures going up, excuse the horrible period pants (they are supposed to be that colour but they ugly!) then there's the spanx! :-)
New CG arrived....too big! :-(
Morning Real selfers :-)
Well my new MACOM compression garment arrived today, I was hoping to get some relief from the horrible binder. The CG is lovely, feels so nice on my skin and looks pretty but....it's too big!!! :-( I bought it in a size small going by their sizing guide. Should have got an XS as it is almost gaping round the back and it's on the last set of hooks. The only place it's providing any compression is my lower abdomen due to being on my period and swollen! I've got another slightly different one coming in the same size and now going to have to send them both back :-(
Hi RSers, well my stitches came out earlier and I just had my long awaited post surgery shower! Like have to apologise in advance because the pictures are not aesthetically pleasing at all. So my bb looks better than I thought it would (although it's still over to the left and quite noticeably so). It's supposed to be round but it's not very inny, so I might have to try and put a marble in it or something. The main scar looks absolutely awful. I was actually quite shocked at how bad the pleating was along it. I don't know why I didn't think there would be pleating but there is a whole bunch of it. One side is much worse than the other, with a much deeper pleat. I am so worried about this, I can't see it healing straight or flat. My stretchmarks also look quite big now, when they were quite small before. What made me the most upset was my daughter came in and saw it and she said how awful it looks and how it looked better before. :-( I know I have a lot of healing to do. Just feeling quite sad right now at the state of it.
Made it to two weeks PO!
So I made it 2 weeks out. Walking pretty straight now, evening time when I'm swollen I will walk a little more hunched but otherwise good. Really looking forward to being able to exercise again although will have to take it super easy to start with. Back to work next week. Actually looking forward to not sitting around most of the day but not looking forward to the swelling after working a long day shift. Started to massage my scar yesterday, have to do this daily with bio-oil according to PS nurse. Will start with the silicone tape next week hopefully when all the scabs have gone. Fingers crossed there is lots of improvement with the scar but not at all hopeful about my right hip! Will update again next week. Got this little number when I was out in town :-) won't get worn to the beach etc until next year but it was nice to have a preliminary look lol!
3 weeks PO today :-)
Morning RSers!! Hope you are all well! :-)
This week seems to have flown by quite quickly. I had a few stiff days at the start of the week but It was from sitting around a lot! Went back to work yesterday and did a long shift (13.5 hours). I was absolutely fine, I was actually surprised how much better I felt for going to work!!! I am on my feet most of the day and this actually helped!!! I was a bit swollen when I got home but nothing too drastic (maybe being complacent here lol). I have to say I am feeling almost normal now to be honest. I could probably go for a small workout....tempting..lol! Maybe just the cross trainer??? I have been doing scar massage and applying silicone scar tape to the non scabby bits of the wound and my bb and I have noticed the difference in just a week! I am still pleated but they are working themselves out! :-) I took a few pics and will put the one of my right hip from last week next to the one of this week for comparison. Weight this morning was 8st 4lbs (116lbs). I love looking at my flat tummy, I keep peeking at it throughout the day as I can't believe it belongs to my. I used to be able to grab a whole roll of skin and now....I can't even pinch an inch soooo amaizing hehe! Hope you all have a good weekend!
Scar tape is awesome!
Sorry pics are sideways for some reason :-/
Hi RS'ers. Just wondering if anyone else has experienced quite a bit weight drop post surgery? I didn't expect it as I didn't have any lipo. I am not sure I like it to be honest. I am down to 8st 1lb (113lbs) which I haven't seen for 7 years. I am quite muscular and do lots of weight lifting so obviously being really small is not my goal! It seems to have come off quicker since going back to work. Don't know if that is co-incidental? I am eating pretty normally and not been gyming so thought it would be the other way around!
Nearly 4 weeks PO!
Hi RS'ers, I am almost 4 weeks out now YAY! I am at work tomorrow so I thought I would update today. I am feeling great, going to have a little trial run back at the gym tonight, even if I don't achieve much I know I tried. Feeling pretty much back to normal bar the swelling on and off (usually evening time). Wondering if I will ever not be able to wear a CG or binder lol! I will post my right hip scar comparison again so you can see the progress. If you are at all worried about your scar, I urge you to buy scar tape! It's absolutely amaizing! What it has achieved in literally 12 days has been staggering! In another 4 weeks I am hopeful that the pleats will be totally gone! I hope you are enjoying your day lovelies!
4.5 weeks PO!
Went back to gym on Monday And managed 20 mins on the cross trainer, some bicep curls, squats and rowing machine. Didn't push my luck because I didn't want to set myself back, but I felt great and didn't have any aches or pains the following day. Really struggling to be good with the no lifting rule but think I made a good enough compromise at the gym. Going to try running this evening and see how I go.
Just been doing some scar massage with bio-oil. Really impressed with how quickly the scar has healed. It has to be mostly down to the scar tape which I think is amaizing! Been finding some suture threads the past week and pulled a few out, there are a few that are too short to get hold of. They are not causing me any issues though. Just thought I would share my scar and bb today. I am a little swollen as I worked a nightshift last night.
Excercise and swell hell!
Period came on Saturday morning just 24 days after the last period (damned thing) so avoided the gym until tonight. Thought I would try doing my normal boxercise class for the first time post surgery. OMG I am so swollen it's rediculous! I got through the class ok but I feel really unfit as I am usually boxing like a machine! Also in the gym before the class I did some 20KG back squats and had trouble lifting the bar bell back over my head (usually 20KG is like lifting a feather to me). I am used to back squatting and dead lifting 55-60KG's so I am feeling like a right weakling! I compromised by using the Smith machine (hate that thing) and did a 30KG back squat on that and my lower back felt quite sore. It didn't feel right at all! I know it will take time but didn't realise how much my fitness level would drop. I've signed up for a marathon relay at the beginning of October and now I am panicking I won't be able to do it (running around 10Km). What with working and kids etc I can't really commit lots of time to gymming and running :-/ really hoping things will improve quickly!