I Wish I Could Go Back in Time and Punch Myself in the Face - Jacksonville, FL

I don't have pics to post today because I don't think they are different than yesterday. What I do have to report though, is amazing. Let me start at yesterday. to record this chronology for myself as well as others.

Yesterday my guy and I took my car to the garage to drop off and have brake pads replaced and maintenance updated. I was sore after driving over there and a bit tired. We took his truck to lunch, and after that I was so tired I needed to come home and take a nap (I think it was the driving). However, I did note that not only are my feet and ankles starting to feel better, I wasn't tired because of eating, I was a bit tired because of driving. I also noted that, even without a week on caffeine and being on antibiotics, I had more energy than I did before explant (even when I'd get 10 hours of sleep and take energy shots).

Today, I woke up at 7:30 and got up. I showered and we drove to Ulta to get my hair washed (yep paid someone to wash my hair and do a deep condition, it was incredible after not having clean hair for almost a week). On the way in I remarked how happy I was and the guy mentioned how much of a difference he could tell in my mood, because for a long time I've had "at least a 10% grump on at all times." I thought that was cool, because it's not just in my head. Then I started noticing other things. My brain was more alert. I could actually FEEL his hand (yes we hold hands) more than normal, to the point I think my fingertips may have actually been steadily going numb and I didn't realize it. After my hair appointment we had lunch and the food had a much more intense taste, suddenly the food was REALLY good. I tried a cup of cappuccino and could taste the bitterness in the coffee. Then we went to get my car. My chest wasn't sore this time when I drove. I called my friend on the way and felt so-much-energy and happiness talking to her. Then I got home and went into the man cave to give the guy a kiss, and I realized when he was squeezing my arms that I had zero pain. (For a long time, it has hurt whenever he hugged me too tight or squeezed my hand or my arm.)

It's mind blowing how much my body is recovering from stuff that I didn't even realize was wrong, and stuff I'd gotten so used to I didn't realize it was gone until it didn't hurt anymore. Ladies, if you even mildly suspect your implants could be a health problem, and you are reading this trying to decide whether to explant, please go for it. I can't even type emphatically enough to convince you how much you are probably right if you suspect your implants are causing issues in your body. We KNOW ourselves. We know when we don't feel well, so please, listen to the voice inside you. Much love and light.

Not much new to report. Still going being bursts of energy and being exhausted. I think part of it is my antibiotics because I seem to get sleepy soon after taking them. I can feel pockets of air in my chest now which apparently is normal. I am sleeping MUCH better than I did with implants. Last night I only took one tylenol before bed (and didn't take any pain meds all day) and I still slept soundly. Happy Saturday everyone. :)

I've been resting a lot and didn't really unwrap and take pictures until today. So the day of surgery we actually got in a half hour early because the office was running ahead of schedule. The nurses were amazing (shout out to Ann!) because at the last minute, despite being calm up to the time of my surgery, I had a small panic attack. I don't know where it came from, but I was scared to death for a bit. Ann kept checking on me, the Man kept me company in the waiting room and in the office where my IV was started. Once they got me settled into the room and started the IV sedation it was a bit better. Dr. Csikai was awesome, and checked on me before I went into surgery and talked to me while he was doing my injections and making sure I was really numb. After that, I only felt a little pinch and when I said ouch he gave me a bit more numbing and then gave me more sedation when I asked. From start to finish, it took about 30 minutes. When I sat up and looked down at my little boobs my first thought was "huh...they don't look as bad as I thought they would."

Today when I undressed for my shower I took pictures before I lost my nerve (you can see the mark on my arm where I just took the bandage off from the IV). My guess is, since my chest was so small to begin with, I didn't have a lot of tissue to sag maybe. I'm so happy to be on the other side and healing.

Today is that weird time in healing, where you have to be careful not to injure yourself because you feel good but your body isn't healed yet, you know the time I'm talking about if you've already gone through the surgery. So I'm being extra careful today and even though I feel like I want to clean and put up laundry, I know better.

I'll update in a few days. Right now I'm resting as much as possible (ladies, am I the only one with the sore as hell ass and back, since we can only sleep on our back for a few days?? It SUCKS).

I am so freaking happy, beyond happy, that I explanted. I wish I'd had the surgery last year. Oh yeah, and my feet and ankles are already starting to feel better. Before surgery, they were getting worse every day, each morning when I woke up my heels hurt like hell, and my ankles were stiff and I was starting to walk with what I call an "elderly shuffle." They aren't 100% better, but I can tell the difference. I also haven't had caffeine since Sunday and I still have more energy than I have in a while (and THAT'S with being on pain meds and antibiotics). Overall, I feel very lucky that this has gone well so far. I wish the same for everyone who is currently going through or getting ready to go through explant.

Oh yeah forgive me if I'm rambling. I haven't had any hydro today but I think my system is still processing it because I'm not focused. Much love and thanks to you all for being here and supporting me and each other.