“new pics 2 months 17 days”

I have had two csections my babies are 12 months and 3 weeks apart i got my biggest with my first baby which was 174lbs my second i delivered at 164 but i lost the weight extremely fast and now I am left with no boobs and a lot sagging skin and a mothers apron. I am not a big person and I feel kinda of weird to get the tummy tuck since I only weigh 113lbs but i cant get rid of this skin or the mothers apron and my boobs will not come back from my knees LOL! I am scared...but i cant live with the way I look now I will post pics soon

Updated on 22 Nov 2011:
I am so nervous about doing this because you cant take it back after you do it. I wish I could put it back without the surgery.

Updated on 28 Nov 2011:
Ok now that I have a minute from the babies I can possibly update a little. My DH and I had to go through AI to get pregnant with our first child and it failed the first time so we said we would try again and we did conceive so during the pregnancy we talked about what we will do after we have our child well both of us waiting until we were in our 30's to have children didn't really think we could have children on our own so we didn't use protectiona and ended up getting pregnant 3 months after having our first baby so my body never went back to its normal self. Then after the second one I got back to my pre fertility meds and first baby body which is 113. So I have a lot of skin and I need muscle repair is what the PS has told me and he also said I didn't need a lift that he could achieve the look with just implants which is great since it saves us money which I do feel guilty about spending since this is going all on me and we could pay off our car with it. My husband is behind me all the way with it he says it is my decision either way he just wants me to be happy with myself. Neither one of us knew what to expect about having kids would do to your body..I know that sounds naive but seriously think about it does anyone really tell you I mean I had sisters who had babies but they never came out and said you know since I had babies my boobs deflated or my skin is saggy no one tells you this (i'm thinking about writing a book about the stuff no one tells you about having babies even the pregnancy book don't say...









Well enough about that I will be getting the breast Augmentation with it and we haven't set a cc but I did like the 500cc under the muscle high profile silcone implant but not really sure about the cc size I didn't get pics at the PS office. I want to be at least a D cup.









I am scared about the tummy tuck scar. I do not scar that bad if you can see my csection scar it is not that bad and I just had a baby in July and that pics was taken in september. I will post more pics since I am smaller than that now. Them pics was taken to see if the mothers apron was getting smaller which it was not I was just losing weight every where else.









I go see my PS for my pre-op appt on Dec 16th which that I think they will tell me everything that I need to know I hope and I have a few questions to ask as well. I really need to write them down since I have the worst memory ever but I blame it on being so busy.









This does really help to talk about it I am still really nervous that my surgery is only about 5 wks away. I can't believe I am that close to having my new body. I just want to start the healing process so I can get to normal.

Updated on 8 Dec 2011:
Well it is getting closer and I do not know what to think about all this i go in for my pre op 12/16 Ahh!! I wish it was here and done so I can heal and be me again

Updated on 15 Dec 2011:
My Pre op is tomorrow I am so nervous I hope I remember what I want to ask the PS I hope I remember to bring the list to ask. I just want to be around for my daughters.

Updated on 17 Dec 2011:
Ok so I went for my pre op appt. yesterday and I feel so much better even though there was a lot of you need this and that. I guess I was thinking for as much as I am paying they should provide at least the gauze that I will need. I am still not sure of what all I need I will have to go through my book they gave me and make my own list but I pretty much think I have it.









3x8 gauze




paper tape




neosporin




tylenol




sports bra




sweat suit one I can zip up instead of pull over my head




dial soap




vit E and I think a multi vit (not sure about that one so if any knows please let me know)




stool softner




anything else that I have left off please comment.









I am going with 500cc high profile silicone smooth under the muscle boobs! I think they are going to be huge my husband is please with them LOL!! I wish the rest of the people in my family were more supportive well at least my sister is but my other one is not she thinks I should accept my body and so does my mother but I think my mother is more worried for the risk reason than me changing she should be use to me changing because once I put my mind to something I do it no turning back. update more later crying babies

Updated on 23 Dec 2011:
My surgery is getting closer I am so excited and nervous. I have gotten all of my prescriptions not sure when to start taking them....

Updated on 23 Dec 2011:
I also been wondering if anyone has had any problems out of people from work only certain people know from work and I am scared to tell my plant manager what I am taking off from and I am scared of the reaction when I come back. I don't think people will understand I am doing this for me...I am almost certain I will get negative comments from the women there I work with a bunch of people that still think they are in high school instead of focusing on the job.

Updated on 25 Dec 2011:
Got a little scared today after speaking to my mom she dont want me to do it she has had 5 babies and not thats she is old fashioned bc she has her belly button pierced she just thinks something bad will happen and I have two little babies to take care of so she put fear back in my head today after it was gone from talking to the ps on the 16th she said well I just dont think it is worth the risk and my dh husband made a point to me is and it is true that I would regret not doing this for the rest of my life if I don't do it. Also my mom made a comment that well your still young you can do it. I guess she thinks I should live with the way I look (I have even showed her what I look like with out clothes gross) she had all her babies vaginally so she don't have that overlap just a pudge now my momma is not big she only weighs 105 but she just don't see how I feel about myself. I guess she thinks I dont have any more sexy years left well I want to be sexy into my 60's and damn it I will! The only thing that bothers me is I don't want to die I love my family dearly the love I have for my daughters consumes me and I know it does for everyone here but I have to stop and I guess be a little selfish because if I am not happy with myself even if it is just physical it brings my whole family down and I know my whole family will enjoy this because I will have a happier outlook about myself not that I am not happy I truely am and God has blessed me in more ways than I can count and I thank him everyday for everything he has given me. I know I will be happier sexier everything will be better. This site makes a world of difference just being able to say what you are feeling makes you feel better. Thanks for who ever made this. Merry Christmas everyone Happy Healing!

Updated on 30 Dec 2011:
ok so I am 6 days away if you count the day of my surgery. I have had so many mixed emotions but they clear when I look in the mirror. I just want to be around for my girls and hubby. I don't want to do anything to jeopardize that. The love I have for my daughters consumes me and I can not imagine them growing up without me, this worries me...but I can't think like that...On different thoughts I am so excited about having a flat tummy and boobs. I remember a time when I had boobs it was nice. The day is drawing closer I really would love to know what I am going to look like....Update more later thanks ladies for listening.

Updated on 1 Jan 2012:
I have so many different emotions going on right now

Updated on 1 Jan 2012:
I am going to go into my surgery so bloated I really don't know my right weight..Since I had to stop taking my BC I have started my period and I am super bloated plus I haven't been drinking enough water I have been retaining..On another note besides my husband my sister is the only people that are supportive of me doing this...It sucks I want to talk to them about it and can't bc all I get is negative feedback. Ok so I don't have to do this and yes I guess we all can live like this but WHY do I have to when I can change it. Do I have to be depressed about how I look? NO i mean HEll NO! All I want is for them to be there for me

Updated on 2 Jan 2012:
Okay so I am wondering if most of you women went through the same feelings and emotions as I am and which I know you all have since I have read your posts and comments...I am torn that I could leave my children motherless and then I think why am I acting so crazy I have had two csections that I could have lost my life with. My husband tells me that I don't have to do this and I know I don't He loves me just the way I am he just wants me to be happy and he knows that I am not happy with the way I looked that is why he is okay with me spending 13g to look and feel better. I need some help

Updated on 4 Jan 2012:
I didn't think it would ever get here I had to reschedule once because of work and I was like it is never going to get here well it's tomorrow. I am so anxious and nervous. I hope I don't pass out when they are marking me up I do my surgical scrub tonight and put on my transderm patch it is really going to be here...say bye to the flat boobies and flabby belly and hello to swelling lol and then flat tummy and boobies!!! I Love my girls and my hubby..prayers for my daughters I love you Savannah and Isabella! I love you John!

Updated on 5 Jan 2012:
I am pretty calm right now which is weird...but this transderm patch i don't like the feeling it is giving me I feel like I am off balance. I wish I could drink some water my mouth is so dry and I am starving right now which I knew I would be since I can't have anything lol. Wish me luck ladies!

Updated on 5 Jan 2012:
pretty drugged up right now but the pain in my muscles hurt more than the incision right now. I can deal with that. I have been saying some crazy ass..poor husband..we are having a hard time keeping up with the meds and we have written it down.LOL! I can't believe i was so scared until the day came and then i was just like come on lets do this! I want to thank all the ladies everytime I was freaking out you ladies cheered me and gave me the confidence to do this. I hold a dear spot in my heart for everyone of you! this time I will say I love you ladies! Happy Healing. Even though we have never meet I found some new friends. I will post pics as soon as I can i am in a full body suit to my news and don't know how really to take it off let alone put it back on and neither does my husband. When I was doing the drains he was like I am not sure I can do that but he went into the bathroom when I did it and was a trooper! I love him and I miss my girls they are at there Aunts until my post op appt tomorrow morning...Do you think I can have coffee? I hope so. oneof my nurses named Diane was my Angel the other ladie was very sweet too but didn't speak much so I am not sure about here. My dr told me I am going to look HOT and Fantastic gotta love your ps!

Updated on 6 Jan 2012:
update
I can stand straight up. I feel like I have done 100 crunches. I got to look at them today but no pics. my face is red i think from the muscle relaxer.

Weight before surgery 119.8(which is water or I would be down to 113 need to pick up my water intake)
after surgery with everything on CG,ace bandages, sweat pants, sweat shirt that zips weight was 118.2. I don't want to gain too much weight and does anyone know how much you can gain or lose before it messes up your tummy tuck?

Updated on 6 Jan 2012:
Went for my follow up this morning and was very late and the ladies were not mad at all. I didn't want to be late but the bridge was backed up and then my dear husband took the wrong exit twice so we had to go a very long way but I got to see everything just no pics. I will try again tonight when I clean my wound which I don't think I will be able to get the cg back on with the foam??? I wonder how long i have to wear it with the foam. The nurses keep saying how little my waist was and that I was going to love the results when I healed. The only thing I didn't like is I think I seen a suture coming out and i hope it don't get bigger and the nurse said she was not going to remove it so I hope everything is alright with it. I can't wait to get these nasty bulbs out they burn and the band they have over the cg is bothering me enough that i want to take it off. I noticed this morning my face was flush the nurse told me it was from the pain meds but I have them before and it has never done that I think it was the muscle relaxer or antibotic one of them you can't go out in the sun..

Updated on 6 Jan 2012:
I wish I could get these drain tubes out and these sponges that are under my CG. I think I ate too much today but for some reason I was starving..

Updated on 7 Jan 2012:
ok I go back to the PS on Tuesday at 11 but I need someone to go with me bc they will remove the drain and I dont have anyone my husband has got to go back to work and I am afraid it will hurt so bad that I won't be able to drive.

I really would love to take this CG off I have foam under it not sure y but it itches like crazy right now.

I still haven't had a bm but I don't feel like I have to go so should I worry about it or not?

Also when should I start taking my BC again not really sure about that since i am taking antibotics it wouldn't work anyways not that my hubby and me are having sex no way! lol

My drains are barely draining anything i hope they take both out

Updated on 7 Jan 2012:
ok so I believe I found out what was leaking it was not my incision I think but it was the pain pump site I guess it was leaking from there if it still keeps on leaking I will call him back and see what they say about it. So I took the pain pump out and put a gauze over the site. It had two lines to it and one of them didn't hurt at all the other one I felt it and it didn't feel good...keep you updated.

Updated on 7 Jan 2012:
I am itchy and my insicion wasn't leaking it was my pain pump. If I said that already sorry just a little loopy right now. trying to stay on top of this pain

Updated on 8 Jan 2012:
ok.. I am so aggravated right now... I want these drains out they are barely producing anything and I am swelling which I don't like and I weigh more than I did when I went in which I knew I would..I hate having to wait which I knew I would but come on. This morning I was going through the emotions of y did I do this to myself but I have to think positive and know that it will change it just going to take time (suck)I have so much air in my stomach it hurts so I know what my 6 month old is screaming about when she has gas. My stomach is so numb that I cant feel it to push. I having a burning sensation on the top of my left breast which is my muscle and I have another burning sensation right above my pubic area which is a muscle. so if I walk it pulls and burns and if I twist a certain way that burns too. Sorry about ranting but I want it done!!!! I want to take this garment off I need to take this garment off. I hate sleeping with it on I feel like I can't move or someone is laying on me GRRR!! I think they should give you happy pills too with your pain pills. Right now I need them.

Updated on 9 Jan 2012:
ok I woke up with a terrible headache and it has to be from the pain meds so I am not taking them anymore I am just going to stick with advil. I don't feel good I feel like I have no energy and everytime I take my cg off to clean my incisions I get sick I just want this to be over. I feel so swollen that I am going to burst

Updated on 10 Jan 2012:
I go see my PS today hopefully they will take the drains out but I am worried I started running a 102.8 fever last night even though it has went down this morning it is still a fever of 101.0. I feel terrible and this is the first day my husband had to go back to work and I have the kids.

Updated on 11 Jan 2012:
well they didn't take the drain out yesterday. but when i called today they took one out today ran a fever all day yesterday but it finally broke and I feel better today. I still have to take care of my girls bc my hubby has to work. no one said anything about the burning they have i have some serious burning in my lower abs ps says it is from the muscle tightening and lipo

Updated on 12 Jan 2012:
ok feel much better today have not taken any pain meds just advils. still swollen but my fault have been drinking cokes and dont really know why bc I dont drink them and have been eating everything in site. but i hope I go tomorrow to get the second drain out I dont want to work on Monday with this in my hip. my boobs have started to drop. I just want to get back to me. I hate this CG and I have to wear it for another 2 wks ugh!!! I will burn it when I am done lol

Updated on 13 Jan 2012:
i know i have swelling but really i weigh 5lbs more than before surgery is it swelling or weigh gain also i could fit in these pants weighing the same so y not now!! Plastic surgery messes with ur head i did not want to pull out my bigger clothes i guess im glad i didnt throw them away i dont want to go back to work looking bigger well except for my boobs lol not my waist!! took a pain pill last night wont take one tonight could not fall asleep after that. ok when is ok to have sex? i know we just come off of surgery but i am still human..

Updated on 13 Jan 2012:
the second drain came out today! I want to say to all the lovely ladies on here THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART! I LOVE YOU GALS REALLY I AM ON NO MEDS LOL SO IT IS ME TALKING I WOULD NOT MADE IT THRU IF IT WASNT FOR THIS COMMUNITY!! I mean I had my husband and sister but they had no idea on how I really felt but you ladies did and it helps. I feel so much better. I feel like I am living at my ps office I get to go next wk to have my stitches removed from bb and then on the 30th but what can you do work will just have to deal with it (i love the new found confidence I have he he) Love ya ladies Happy Healing

Updated on 15 Jan 2012:
okay I told my hubby this afternoon why did I have the tummy tuck if I am still going to have a pooch I was thinner before so I am hoping it is just swelling it better be just swelling I will take a pic later and post. I had a flap but I guess after the flap was removed and everything tighten I have a pooch from my uterus being stretched not sure but will ask PS when I see him but I dont really like this not sure anymore I will have to have some patience and see what the future will hold...

Updated on 18 Jan 2012:
I wish the healing was done with but work sucks never get a break and I sure dont get one at home!! You just do it!!1 I need to update with pics still very round. start scar treatment friday

Updated on 20 Jan 2012:
ok 15 days po so today I went to the PS today to have bb stitches removed and to start scar treatment which I had to buy Hybrisil and that is not cheap...I am posting pics not too happy with the left side or right side for that matter but they say it is swelling and sutures and it will go down so lets wait. Also I have this major burning in my right boob sometimes I don't want to move my arm bc of it so they told me that they didn't think it was anything but nerves and muscles and I believe it I mean the same pain was in my groin area from lipo but it has already went away this is worse and is lasting longer but it feels the same so fingers crossed it too will go away. I am posting pics but it is after working all day so the swelling to me is bad. Happy healing ladies

Updated on 29 Jan 2012:
Well lets try this again I just updated and it didn't go through. I have been working 10hr days and then working when I go home got little ones that don't stop for you to heal I am pretty much pain free except when I am bending down too much I get this pain/burn to the left of my bb that side seems to swell alot and I really don't like these love handles I can handle the one on the right but the left is much bigger and you think as much as you pay they would fix that for free but yeah right. Don't really care for my bb I liked mine before it was small and now I look like it is the size of a nickel. Hope everyone is great!

Updated on 30 Jan 2012:
ok went and seen my PS today. I'm not in the best of moods I am getting ready to start and am cramping like crazy and the swelling needs to go away I mean enough is enough but on the other hand I just wanted to smack my PS I mean I am happy with my results but I was asking a couple questions and he just seemed like I was complaining and I wasn't I wanted information since he is the dr but it just seem like he wanted to cover his ass well Buddy I spent 13g on this I have the right to ask. I asked him if my nipples were going to come up anymore and he tells me well you were droopy before and that didn't answer me I mean your the one who said I didn't need a lift and then I asked about my left side and he said I didn't do anything about the love handles and I had to tell him no I am talking about the difference in the front and he said I can show you how you were different before well no shit I know I am different on the sides but he could have made it flatter than it is I mean he is the DR. but all in all it was good just didn't like his bed side manner today which maybe he had an off day to and we just rubbed the wrong way. they took some sutures that were popping through the skin out which hurt but was ok. glad they are gone they were bothersome. he also gave me a breast band which feels really good and got onto me about not wearing my binder over my cg but the damn thing was so loose up top it wasn't even on me up there so he told me to cut it. I wore all this stuff before the surgeries to hide everything and to try to push it back into place but I didn't expect to pay all that money to still be wearing them. I want out of my fat suit and into a swim suit ha ha no patience huh I don't have time to be patient right now bring on the beautiful body I am done with recovering lets go! I hope everyone is feeling great today and happy healing (p.s. I really do like my PS)

Updated on 4 Feb 2012:
Here I am a month out. The swelling is almost all gone is except on my left side and right and my sternum. I really wish I would have went bigger with the boobs but my husband says no they are big enough. I wish I could have gotten to keep my little bb but I guess the one I got is fine. Oh ladies when you check into the MM see about lipo on the flanks bc I am thinking about maybe getting my love handles removed if I can't work them off. I feel like I can do anything now even though I have practically been doing it since day 3 but much slower. My skin is a little sore and I one little pain left but my period is screwed from having to stop my BC and start it again after so it is much longer right now. Oh I almost forgot be prepared to live in you GC I can't wait until tomorrow so I only have to wear it 12hr instead of 24 which I am not sure if I will be able to take the 12 I am so done with wearing it and it is too loose I do not feel like it is doing anything for me anymore I told the dr that and he still says wear it but when it is wrinkling up and it is a full GC that goes over my shoulders with bra straps and down to my knees but around my waist and it is baggy so why wear it i thought it was suppose to compress well whatever tomorrow is it. I told my hubby that I will be his hooter girl tomorrow for the super bowl. I do not regret any of this and I am so glad that mothers apron is gone Yeah for the new body now when is this scar going to go down and not be so prominent. the redness has went away for the most part of it but it is still dark and lumpy I have been rubbing it and putting Hybrsil on it which feels good and it is starting to itch on the left side just a little but I am going to have to buy some high panties and bikinis bc it is not as low as I thought even though it is at the top of my pubic hair I think that is bc he pulled that part up a little. I am thinking about getting a tattoo to cover it when I can since mine wear removed when I had this done.....Happy Healing ladies I will update pics hopefully tomorrow

Updated on 8 Feb 2012:
what the hell why wouldn't the PS tell me that you know when I do this you need to think about after you will have more noticable love handles. I didn't even think of that I thought that would be gone too! UGH!!

Updated on 8 Feb 2012:
I mean I love my results but I feel like I am not even from the bottom of the cut to above it if that makes any sense like the lower half is smaller and then it gets bigger

Updated on 22 Mar 2012:
ok so I hate my left side and my luv handles are getting bigger by the day. I am not happy with the scar it is way too high. Over all though I am glad i done it I love my boobs and the flat tummy. I need to go on a diet I am gaining weight I have gained 7lbs I think it is because i have not been keeping up with my water and started drinking sodas again so i must stop this or my back will be fat. sorry havent been on in awhile but work is crazy 10hr days 6 dys a wk plus the babies have been sick and so have i.

My skin still hurts and some days I feel like I have torn some muscles bc it still can burn and my 8 month old kills me when she is won't sit still and she thinks i am her play mat but what can you do... I missed my 2 month check up bc everyone was sick with the flu, strep and pink eye all at once.