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Emotional Rollercoaster Ride - Houston, TX
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This is my first time ever blogging so please...
Laredo3852March 1, 2012
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This is my first time ever blogging so please forgive me if I do this wrong :) I guess I should start of by telling you a little about myself. I am 26 years old, mom of a 9 yr old and 6 yr old. I am 5'4" and weigh about 145 lbs. I only breast fed my sons for about 2 weeks total. I have been married to my high school sweet heart for almost 12 years now. He is my everything and has been very supportive through out this whole process.
I have always had some difference in breast size but it seems that after my second son was born there was a big difference. 1 breast seemed to almost stay the size it was when my milk came in and the other went back to normal size. I would say that I am an A cup in 1 breast and a B in the other. I am VERY insecure. I do not like for my husband to see me naked and I refuse to look at myself in the mirror. I dont like to wear tight fitting shirts because I feel like people are going to notice.
My husband is amazing, he has been supportive of my decision to have this done. He doesnt think I need to have it done, but for me to feel better about myself he is accepting of it. I am beyond nervous! I guess my main fear is that I will be put to sleep for the procedure and never wake up. I feel selfish, my boys could possibly grow up without a mother all because I want boobs!
I am also afraid of the finished results, the pain doesnt scare me at all. I have been through so much in my life, I know this is just another obsticle that I will and can over come. But I am just worried that they will not look like I want them too. My surgery is scheduled for March 12th and it seems to be going by soooo slow! I am on this website daily reading others stories and most of them seem to calm my nerves. I will not be posting pictures on here simply because I cannot stand to look at myself. I know pictures help, but I just cant do it :/ I would love to hear anyone who has reassuring words for me! Or anyone who has possibly had a BA done in Houston. It is always comforting to hear nice things about the surgeon who is holding your life in his hands!
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Well this time next week I will be in SURGERY!!!!...
Laredo3852March 5, 2012
Well this time next week I will be in SURGERY!!!! Time still seems to be going by soooo slow! I dont think there is much left in my house that I can clean or disinfect lol my sons probably think that I am going nuts. My 9 year old has asked me several times why I am going to have surgery. He is aware that something is going on but I havent explained to him what just yet. Maybe when he is older. I just told him not to worry, mommy is fine she just has to have a little something taken care of. I reassured him that I am not sick and I will be home and back to normal in no time at all. It seems so easy to reassure my son, why cant I convince myself?!? I guess it is only womens nature for us to worry. I guess in my heart I know I will be fine, its my mind that keeps playing tricks on me! I really hope that this week flys by fast! I have my final appointment with my doctor this Thursday at 11am. It is a 5 hour drive for me to my doctor. I will be staying in a Hotel for a couple of days after surgery to recover. I am so not looking forward to a loooong 5 hour drive home after surgery! But I guess that is all part of it! Everyone keep me in mind and I would like to thank everyone that has left me such kind words. It really does feel good to hear words of encouragment at a time like this. Thanks again :)
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March 5, 2012
Since you have children I would ask the surgeons about a 24 hour recovery program. Surgery was breeze for me. But I wish I would have went with the Gel implant the first time. Your going to love you new look.
March 5, 2012
I hope you are right! I've waitied long enough and I have such high expectations!
March 5, 2012
Everyday my breasts are equalling out. Its been 10 days and I'm just being patient. The doctor used sizers while I was under to make the breasts match. I trust the end result will be as close to perfect as possible!
March 5, 2012
I am so nervous that my breasts won't be what I am hoping for! I understand that they will never be perfectly even, but anything is better than what I have now lol so the doctor should have an easy task! Keep me posted on how it goes, its nice to hear from someone that has the same issue. Being on this website showed me that there are plenty of women out there struggling with this also. I wish you a speedy recovery!
March 5, 2012
Before I read what others have said I am going to post a comment. Reading the above was sooooo good for me. My surgery is tomorrow and my journey has been a long process but I am now here. :) Yippy! :) Anyway, I have had past surgeries but I am still totally freaked out about not waking up this time!! I think that whole Michael Jackson thing has given anyone going under this feeling. The nurses that called to confirm my surgery picked right up on it with me. She went onto say that Michael had no one monitoring his sedation and that I would a full team and would also be hooked up to monitors showing all my vitals, etc. That did make me feel allot better. :) Second, the selfish thing, I can totally can totally relate to that as well. It's our nature as women to always sacrifice for others. I am less than 24 hours and I am still doing this. So because I am better at supporting than encouraging of myself, I am here to tell you to go for it! You deserve it, you are worth it and I know how personal this is and how I know it will change my life! I think breast augmentation has gotten a bad rep due to all the Hollywood stars, models, etc. doing it primarily to further their carears. But I bet more women do it for personal reasons like ours but that doesn't sell magazines, etc. so we don't hear about it. I love this website! It has really opeded my eyes and to encouraged me to stay on course. I'm yet to read one blog, review, etc. where a women is say, "I doing this to further my career." Every woman has their own personal story and I am so glad we are blessed to be in a time where we can do something about it. :)
March 5, 2012
It was very comforting reading this! So I guess we helped eachother! I seem to have the same frame of mind as you. I see soooo many women that have had BA for all the wrong reasons and they are all fine, why wouldn't I be??? it only seems natural to have a fear of being put to sleep, we wouldnt be human if we didn't. But with that being said, I feel like it is time I did something for me! I love my husband and my sons are my world, which is why they should understand that mommy always puts everyone else first, this is something that I needed to do for myself. I want to feel comfortable in my own skin. I am not insecure about anything else, of course I have some stretch marks and the little mommy belly that we all get, but those dont bother me. I feel like I earned those. My breasts however are something that I was born with and no matter how hard I try I will never be able to fix them UNLESS I go through with this surgery. I have weighed out the pro's and con's for years now and I finally decided to just go for it! I have to agress that 99% of the stories on here are encouraging and help me feel a little better about my decision. I have learned alot from other womens journeys and I hope that by sharing my own, I can help others also. Good luck tomorrow, you will be fine! I will say a little prayer for you tonight :) Keep me posted on how it goes! I will be waiting lol
March 8, 2012
Hi Laredo3852 :) Im very excited for you! Hang in there with the anxieties, I have been dealing with plenty of them as well. (being put to sleep, results, etc) Youre right though, this site has been wonderful :)
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Tomorrow is the big day!!! I cant believe it got...
Laredo3852March 11, 2012
Tomorrow is the big day!!! I cant believe it got here so fast! I cannot wait to get this surgery over and start the recovery process! I just want to wake up in the OR room and know that everything is okay. First thing I am doing when I get to go home is calling my sons. I am so worried about dropping them off today with their grandma. I know everything will be fine, but its in my nature as a mother to worry about my babies. Well enough about the stressful part of this whole process. I went last Thursday to have my pre-op and also register at the hospital. Discussed some things with my PS, decided to have a slight lift on my right breast due to my size difference. He says that my left breast is an A and my right breast is almost a C, which I already knew thats why im having the surgery :) But to try and get the girls looking as perfect as possible he said I needed to lift the right one so my nipples are both at the same level. Sounds like it makes sense to me. Last thing I want is to FINALLY have the same size boobs and have one nipple looking up and one looking down. I have to admit when he first mentioned the lift I was a little taken back. I knew in the back of my mind it was going to need t be done but for some reason I was hoping he was a miracle worker and could do it without a lift. I had a very long ride home that day (about 7 hours) and it slowly started to sink in and the scar wasnt so bad to me anymore. Im pretty comfortable with the idea now. And of course the price went up lol as well as the lenth of my surgery but again, it was expected. My house is clean, my bags are packed and I am ready to go! Everyone keep me in mind and say a little prayer. I will post an update as soon as I can tomorrow! Thank you everyone for all your well wishes :)
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March 11, 2012
Hi there Laredo. I have my surgery on March 14th.. Right after you. : ) I have a 7 year old daughter and a loving husband. I too have the same worries about being put under. I thought I was crazy. I wish I would have found this site sooner. You do deserve to treat yourself and be happy in your own skin. I know having children can change Alot about our bodies. I am very exited and happy for you. Maybe when your done you can post some pics. That is my plan. Best of luck to you for tomorrow!!!! This is all so exiting and Im sure you will do great.
March 11, 2012
Hi there :) I think that the anxiety issues is something that all us moms going through when it comes to a big decision like this. I am feeling alot better now, and for some odd reason a very calm feeling has come over me. The only time I start to get worried is when I think about saying goodbye to my children when I drop them off with their grandma. I will be doing that today so I can make that looooong drive to Houston. I am really trying to prepare myself for that. I keep thinking what if that is the last time I ever get to see my boys. I know it is a silly thing to worry about because I will be fine, but it is just something that I cant seem to get over. I am not even worried about the surgery anymore. I went to the hospital on Thursday and met with the amazing nurses there and heard wonderful things about the anestiology(?) team they have so that defin put my mind at ease. My husband and I were just talking about posting pictures after the surgery. I really didnt want to but he was telling me not to be selfish and maybe my pictures will help calm someone elses nerves. Guess he is right, but need to make sure I like the results first lol. I will keep you posted on how the surgery goes so you can kinda know what to expect. Im sure we will both be fine and loving the new twins in no time at all!!!
March 11, 2012
Good luck :) and be careful on your way to Houston, lots and lots of rain today :(
March 11, 2012
Ugh that stinks to hear! I am only going to San Antonio tonight, staying there and heading to Houston in the morning around 8. Hopefully the weather will clear up some for the drive over there. Thanks for letting me know :)
March 11, 2012
You will be in my thoughts :) goodluck I know everything will turn out great.!
March 11, 2012
Laredo if you don't mind me asking who is your PS?
March 11, 2012
No not at all, that's what were all here for! Dr. Vitenas, he came highly recommend and his before and after photos are great. And you?
March 11, 2012
I decided on Dr. Straka. He came highly recommended as well. I looked at his website and was pretty much sold on his before and afters. So when I met him and felt at ease it was a done deal. : ) I looked at your PS website. Beautiful work. Im so exited for you. We are about the same height and weight. How many cc's are you going with?? On my preop i decided on 380-410 he is going to use the sizers, I just want to make sure I go big enough, but not too big.
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Thanks for sharing here on RealSelf! I have the same EXACT breast issue as you with one A and one B after nursing. I just put a "cutlet" in my bra on the smaller side and call it my prosthetic. I will say that it doesn't work so well when I actually want to go swimming.
I'm glad you're able to do this for yourself. Are you going with saline or silicone?