“Umbilical Float Tummy Tuck, Vertical Breast Lift with Implants Scheduled 8-1-11 - Hawaii”

I am 24 and have had two children one year and ten days apart, both weighing almost 9 lbs each . I just want to like the way i look in the mirror naked ! lol

Updated on 22 Jul 2011:
in ten days i will be on the operating table ! nerves are comming in hard !

Updated on 31 Jul 2011:
i am so sick of looking at before and after pictures, i swear i have seen all that there is ... watched all the live procedures there are out there , for hours . i dot think i will ever look at boobs the same again . i keep having these little anxiety moments where i get all stiff and take a deep breath , the wait is killing me , i bet i could count the hours . monday at 7 am is fastly approaching !! im getting so anxious i have to remind my self that i want this ! , i actually said bye to my boobs today. kinda weird but not realy at the same time .

Updated on 1 Aug 2011:
wow i had expected to be in more pain then this, i am 5 hrs. post opp and have pain only from where i had muscle repair. when i stand and try to move, its a whole different story... makes me realize how much i use my abdominal muscles . my boyfriend has to dead lift my back up until i am leaning over enugh to not be using my abs , and a whole lot more, he really is being sooo patient. i am drowsy from the pain meds so sorry if this does not make any sence. i had my ps take a pic of me before he bandaged me up , i remember being happy but i cant picture it at all now

Updated on 2 Aug 2011:
3am had to pee.. , cant get up with out my boyfriend/saviors help.i immediatly realize there is alot more pain when u have been sitting still for long periods of time. i started shaking/having muscle spasms. it felt like beginning of labor , but alot shorter. i took 3 vicoden and one valumne and slowly got in to bed with the help of my bf. i kept waking up just to make sure he was thre(really weird). i after realized it was because i had twilight sedation and would wake up when there was an extreme pain and ask the nurce to up the meds . is it common to remember alot of twilight sedation and also some of the pain ? and in one of my after pictures , one nipple is higher, will ths even out a little ?

Updated on 5 Aug 2011:
constapation sucks, i was taking way more stool softeners then needed but it still happened. plan ahead for this, it was about the worst part of recovery so far . i also got my drains out, that does not hurt, dont be scared, really easy

Updated on 19 Aug 2011:
Lying awake... Day like 18 po, uugh... Can't get comfortable. I am swollen, well I hope I am. No one can seem to say how swollen or how much my breasts or tummy will go down. I just feel like my stomach is the same as far as not being comfortable looking at it, it still sticks out... Hmm it's just one of those nights I guess . I am thankful for so much tho ! this is just a place I feel comfortable expressing my uncertainties and :( moments. I just miss the comfortableness of simple things like pajamas with no underwear, I hate this tight clingy spandex crap... Blah blah blah..

Updated on 26 Aug 2011:
swelling goes up... swelling goes down .. my smile goes up then my smile goes down. my body is just constantly morphing , so weird !! looking through my pics, some from last week look better then this week :/ dear self be patient ! grrrrrr