A Dream Coming True

I am 27 and I've had 2 c-sections. My stomach went from a six pack to drooping skin and stretch marks... Oh and a belly button is in there SOMEWHERE! Every morning when I look in the mirror and get dressed I am sad. Evervsingle day for the past five years I look down and ask.... Where did MY belly go, I dont recognize this one, this isnt ME! A lot of people see me in clothes and say it can't be that bad, it's not worth the money, there are more important things. The very few times I've showed anyone my stomach there is a look of horror in their eyes for a split second before they choke out, oh it's not THAT bad. YES, YES IT IS!

So... For once ever, I'm being selfish and doing this for ME and only me, and only with the ones who are supportive. It's as terrifying as it is exciting! This is my number one dream and its coming true!

I went in for surgery today! Thanks to the staff, I was not near as nervous as I expected! We joked, we laughed, they comforted me, and were excellent to the person whom came along with me to help! I was given an I.v. After dr. Garazo drew his lines and went over the process again, and next... I woke up lol! I was in a little more pain than I expected, about a 7, as soon as I voiced so, meds to bring it to a 2 or 3 were given IMMEDIATELY! Very impressive. Once home, I did take nausea meds, an antibiotic, and a percocet. Just one percocet has been enough so far. I've had to empty 2 drains a little early but I am up and walking slow and hunched... Not too bad! I will post before pics within the next few days!

Day 2 ... HELL! I was in a lot of pain today so I took a percocet instead of a vicodin... Terrible mistake! Commonly, percocet makes people vomit... Apparently I'm one of them. I threw up 3 separate times. I was on my hands and knees on the floor, drenched in a cold sweat, very close to passing out! The pain was so extreme that all I could do was scream with every heave! I felt two huge pops inside (assuming those were bursting sutures). Nerve wrenching feeling and sound. I almost wished death upon myself and began to ask why I did this to myself?! Dr. G called me back promptly and even though I had to hang up on him to vomit, he called back to talk me through it. He said each stitch was done separate so the torn ones should be ok. Stick to the vicodin. This was the most frightening, painful night of my life (even after 2 c sections and a complicated wisdom tooth surgery - trust me, I am no wimp)