Hey, y'all! First off, thank you everyone for...
First off, thank you everyone for writing your reviews! They have been extremely helpful.
I want to pay it forward, so here I am!
Only a few people know I am doing this. I remember when I was younger I told my sisters that I wanted it done and most of them flipped out on me. One said I was being vain, one said I would be losing my "character", the other two said I didn't need it. I was very impressionable and I backed out. It's been years since then and I still stand by my decision to want to do this for myself. I am not telling anyone until after. (My husband knows and will be taking care of me during that week)
I chose Dr. Grigoryants based on a lot of wonderful reviews, great website photos, and 3 other consultations I've had in the past few years with other surgeons. I didn't mesh with the other surgeons and didn't feel at peace. I feel at peace with my decision this time and I believe my expectations are realistic.
I don't hate the overall shape of my nose, I would like the base not as wide, septum straitened, and the bump reduced. I like the fact that my tip is round and already has somewhat of a supratip, however I dislike how wide my tip is when I smile. My nose is also crooked (probably from the septum) hopefully it can be made straight and a little more symmetrical. I seem to rely on one angle for every photo. So annoying!
I am very hopeful about my experience with Dr. G!
2 months to go!
I hope Dr. G and I have similar visions for my nose.
Paid for surgery yesterday!
After keeping up with all the rhinoplasties on this site for months and months, I found girls who went to Dr. G and I went to his website. I was really shocked at how many before and after photos he had. I sent the office an email with my photos as the directions on their website instructed to do and Dr. G wrote me back.
He told me all the things he had in mind for my nose and they were spot on with what I wanted. (Tip reduction/ hump reduction and alar reduction) For someone that was told for so long that there wasn't anything "wrong" with my nose, it was SO validating to be on the same page.
I felt really good about him and continued to follow the realselfers. He and his staff have been punctual and kind to me. The front desk ladies have thick accents and I think they are a little rushed when they talk to you, but it didn't bother me.
I originally scheduled last year for November. I had to reschedule because I was breastfeeding and decided it would be easier to travel once my little one was older.
I had a small gap in late April/early May I could schedule for where my husband would be able to come with me. I was told they only schedule three months in advance, so I waited patiently for February to come. I called Zara the first day in February! I got booked for April 30th.
So here I am waiting!
I live in Kansas. We are driving with my 1yr old daughter AND our dog! I just couldn't leave her behind, she's sooo attached to me. I am also still breastfeeding but my daughter is fine with bottles and I'll be pumping and freezing for that week.
Dr. G. said I can't breastfeed that week because I'll be on antibiotics. (I don't plan on taking any other medications, but don't hold me to it)
I can't believe it's almost here!
Took some selfies today
having troubles uploading. I'll try again
We are heading out tomorrow for California!
I have been having some pretty crazy dreams lately. I dreamed that I was at my consultation and they started preparing me for surgery. I was like "Wait, this is just a consultation, I need to speak to Dr. G first!" the staff kept telling me that he no longer does in person consultations, only email. I was like "If I don't see him, I'm not going through with it" So they let me off of the operating table and i started looking for him in the hospital (which looked like a mall, accept the walkways were spiraling up, I passed a haunted room that was really scary and dark like a black pit(this dream sounds like Beatle Juice) finally I met up with him (at a bar, lol) and he started telling me all the things he would fix on me and finally I agreed to meet him back at the operating room. When I finally made it through the haunted maze of a hospital (which was packed with people) and back to the OR, I saw Dr. Gr walking in, he had a Jason mask on and was pulling up is mouth mask up over it. SCARY!!
The following night I dreamed I woke up from surgery only to find out that another person did my surgery and didn't change anything but my nostrils.
Think I'm a little anxious maybe? lol
So far my only post surgery items only include a neck pillow and bioten (spelling?) spray. I'll be consuming lots of fresh fruits and green smoothies to help with healing.
I'm off to bed!
Thanks for all the support!
I made it to the other side!
I showed up the next day bright an early at 6am. Went to admitting then a holding room where i changed and got the IV line started. The staff at the hospital were soooo nice and comforting. The orderly came and got me about 7 and wheeled me into a pre-OR room where i waited more. Met with my anesthesiologist who was really kind. Then dr g. Came in about 745 looked at my face, chitchated a second then a nurse came in and wheeled me into the OR. I had to remove my underwire bra (for future reference) the last thing i remember was moving to the operating table then bam, lights out. Then i remember darkness and someone talking to me but i was too tired to move or open my eyes. I remember hearing myself say "my nose hurts" lol. Then someone shoving crackers in my mouth and pills. I must have been so knocked out. I couldn't even wake up when my husband came to get me. They wheeled me out to the car and he drove me home. I was still passed out. Got home got into bed and you guessed it..I passed out.
I don't remember anything of recovery except the crackers going in my mouth and someone putting my clothes on. They were so kind to me.
Day 1 I slept. I already had hydrocodone from hospital. It helped me sleep. I didn't take it that night and it was too uncomfortable to get into deep sleep. So i took one at 1am then i was out.
Day 2 (today) has been pretty easy. The only time i feel nauseous is when i change my drip pad. Only dull pain like a headache. And breathing through my mouth is much easier than i thought! Although when i sleep i breath out my nose still (it wheezes and wakes me up)
I didn't take arnica as you can see my pretty bruises. Swelling hasn't kicked in yet. I've been icing with pees. I've been eating from the farmer's markets and they have not disappointed! Pineapples are sweeter, cherries are rich with flavor, the watermelon tastes like bubble gum. Really enjoying California!
an interesting side note..
Lost my appetite today but have been trying to eat all day. Had smoothies, watermelon, pineapple, and a peanut butter sandwich. Think ill try some quinoa tonight. Just feel yucky. I think recovery may have been easier if id never started the hydrocodone.
So far the best thing i purchased was the biotene. Really helps at night. Also i have been drinking about 3 liters of water at least. Im really thirsty. The neck pillow was definitely worth it.
Sorry if this update is hard to follow! I feel a little loopy.
Still oozing pink/clear liquid. Still wearing my drip pad.
I'm hopeful that tomorrow will be easier and that today was hump day!
technically day 5
i wanted to go more into detail about my cast removal.
If you're doing this with a baby, get extra help. I had my husband, and he was amazing, did everything for both of us all week, but now we're traveling home, we are both spent! Should've asked mom to come out. But we made it through.
Thanks for all the love and support, yall really mean so much to me.
I told my mom a week or so ago and her reaction surprised me. She said she was proud of me for doing what i said i always wanted. That meant a lot. I have since told two other sisters as well and they have been also surprisingly supportive. However, they're no where near as excited about it as i am and how y'all have been for me. If it wasn't for all you guys i wouldn't be here right now. All those reviews on here led to me finally having the courage to do it.
The waiting game. Warning- Gross!
Today something cool/gross happened. Two scabs located on the internal stitches came out with some stitches. I know that may be tmi, but when you have crusties in your nose forever then finally their out, it's the best thing in the world. The alar sutures have completely closed and the clear stitches are almost completely dissolved or came out. Bruises almost completely gone. But I still look like a mole.
Irrigate and Lurbricate:
I have a routine that has made this whole process more comfortable. I take a shower every day sometimes 2x if i have time. I use the saline spray in the shower and let the steam moisten everything up. Then i get a q-tip and gently twist it in my nose to get any stuck boogers (because you can't blow your nose for an additional week after cast removal) usually because of the saline and steam you can get your nose really clear. I then apply vasoline (Dr. G said vasoline or olive oil. I tried both. I found the olive oil too runny) on the inside of my nose with a q-tip as well on the alars. I do this usually at night. Then I apply the tape. I keep vasoline and q-tips with me incase i need to gently itch my nose or moisten it.
Sometimes my nose looks like it has a significant bump. I assume this is swelling.
2 weeks post-op!
Swelling is going down but it's a slooow process for me. The "avatar" swelling between my eyes is being stubborn. It's also very hard between my eyes, almost like bone. The other day I wondered if Dr. G actually did more to my nose because it felt like bone up there. But that's silly. Why would he make it bigger?? lol. I'm also very calm with the swelling process because sometimes my nose looks gigantic, usually at night! Like way bigger than before. Dr. G. took away from my nose, he didn't make it bigger! So I'm just patiently waiting. However, even though the swelling makes it look huge sometimes, it still looks more symmetrical and less of a distraction on my face.
Couple of stitches fell out after my nightly shower routine (YES!!) Sometimes when the stitches are working their way out the tickle and poke the insides of your nose and OMG that's annoying!. Sorry, I run a tight ship with my nose. I like it cleaaan. It feels so weird to smile. Like my nose is really stiff and I just want to wiggle it around. I think it's my allergies acting up. Allergies since I got back have been crazy worse! It seems like EVERYTHING is bothering me. I wasn't bothered by my cat when I left. Why is he bothering me now?? Maybe it's not him, maybe it's pollen. Poor cat, I'm always blaming him for things. Lots of boogers and weird crusties coming out still. I think my stitches are almost completely out now.
Weird fact. I need to email Dr. G. Where my stitches are, there is a whitish looking flesh around the stitches, I thought there might be puss on it (or a booger). If it's still there tomorrow, I'm going to email him.
This was a really boring update, but I want to make sure I include all the details I can so y'all know what to expect or get scared if something like this happens to you.
i emailed Dr. Grigoryants
3 weeks post op
Breathing is almost 100% although at night it crusts up and i wheeze through my nose.
The in-laws are here and haven't noticed it. They're too distracted by my hair! No one has noticed. My sister said that now that my eyes aren't as swollen she hardly notices it. My husband says he can't imagine my old nose, that he's already forgot what it looks like. I take so many selfies now (i may have a problem LOL), i forgot the old me too....except when i smile...then its like "Who the heck are you?!!!"
I'm busy with my little one right now but i will load pictures later. :)
pics as promised!
I found some pics of me that I thought would be interesting. One is when I was 3 months pregnant and so sick from morning sickness I was reaaally skinny. My nose looks small in that one. And in my 8th month preggers photo I was quite chubby and all the extra fluid made my nose look so huge! So I'm adding those photos for fun. Also, the fact that with different hair color I look like a completely different person! No wonder no one has noticed. :)
Will add more photos of the new nose at my month mark. Hope y'all are doing great and thanks for all the encouragement!!
Post-op 1 month!
Nose still feels tight when I smile, but my smile is returning! I made time for hair and makeup today which was amazing! So I'm adding all my gussied up photos.
Swelling is a lot less, but stubborn between my eyes. My tear ducts are even swollen. I don't think there is one part of my nose that he didn't "help". LOL. Bridge, tip, alars, I got the works.
Alars are completely healed and the incision sites are healed. Every once in a while strange boogers come out and my nose feels swollen. Other than that, I'm back to normal. I have picked up running and start back with weights on Monday.
Will try to add no makeup photos tomorrow to show better detail.
I am still taping even though he said 1 month. I tape because it looks better in the morning when i do. I no longer lubricate and irrigate unless im stuffy or my nose feels dry/ichy.
Im so glad i did this. It makes me wish id done it sooner, but then i wouldn't have had y'all to help me find Dr. G and get through the whole journey!
I deal with fears sometimes that it will change over the next year for the worse. Esp with the swelling, that fear arises. Or what about 5-10 years down the road. Do y'all ever think about that too? Anyway, i try not to dwell on the unknown and just enjoy it now! It wasn't getting any smaller or straighter before surgery!
side by side comparisons
3 Months Post op!
Felt like a rant
My nose used to be a constant source of irritation for me. I felt annoyed that I was insecure about it. Like I just wanted to be free of that distraction. It worked...I hardly think about my nose and I am enjoying my life so much more than before.
I used to want to be a model or an actress when I was in high school. I would watch films or see magazines and be filled with inspiration and wonder. I was tall and would get approached in public by scouts but I would usually just toss the cards away because I was so insecure about my acne (hiding under pounds of foundation, that was the wrong color LOL) and of course my nose. It was easier not to try. In my family, honor, being smart, and prudent were strong values. Our appearances were never praised and the influence of "worldly" things was minimized. I'm grateful for my sheltered upbringing because it protected my innocence. I value my innocence greatly as an artist. I love my parents with all my heart. But there came a time (which happens to be now) when I needed to go my own way regardless of what they wanted for me. The funny thing is, I had no idea until this year how much I used to live to gain their approval. Someone once said to me "no one else has to live your life but you". I think this is true.
Out of high school I wanted to go to art school and maybe Hollywood. I was always playing around with the idea. My older siblings who had graduated college with degrees and couldn't find jobs kept telling me to ditch the art school dream and go medical. They love me and only want to set me up for success, but that sounds like soul suicide to me. I took a job as a dental hygienist assistant working for an uptight woman and her uptight father who was a dentist. To this day, that was the most miserable job I've ever done. I was in Afghanistan one winter night, sitting on my spot box next to my aircraft, eating a nasty Styrofoam tray of food in the freezing rain at about 0300 and I thought to my self (I will never forget this moment) "This is still better than working in that dentist office with all those stuffy uptight people." I'm probably paraphrasing but you get the point.
After years in the military, an amazing husband and a baby... the realm of art still calls my soul, SO.....
I decided to get some photos taken professionally (which is a huge step for an introvert) and am going to try some local modeling for some extra cash (to pay off this dang beautiful nose) I might get involved in some local plays. I'm tired of being afraid or listening to negative thoughts that have literally stolen years of my life.
It all started with the red hair...
One night, months ago, my soul was feeling restless and caged. I asked my husband to pick up red hair dye and I glopped in on my hair and voila! Red hair! I then started to plan my rhinoplasty and kept it a secret. Now I'm planning on taking acting classes, going to open calls and even considering art school again. I know this sounds strange but I feel like the red hair gave me super hero powers! It was the first thing I did that my family didn't think I should do and the dam broke. This fall I am starting the transition back to my natural hair color (light brown) but I needed to borrow some mojo from my inner-red head.
I'm so excited about the future, as long as I'm creating, that is a true adventure. Before the red hair, I was considering medical school because I'm book smart but deep down inside I knew that I would be miserable...but my family would feel happy and in control.
I'm not taking as much of a risk because my husband is in the medical field so I don't have to worry about making ends meet. But if you are young and have a passion for something, I encourage you to pursue it with ALL YOUR HEART. Take risks! Live! Life is short. If you find yourself in a position where you are having to make safer choices and are unable to pursue full throttle then I would say find a way to keep doing your passion on the side, meet others who are passionate...don't let that fire die.. If you have to, dye your hair red, or change your nose LOL, don't let anyone hold you back ;)
This rhinoplasty has freed me up. I really can't express the gratitude I feel for Dr. G and all of you on here! Not to mention proud of myself for taking a risk.
Ok...that's my soap box moment for the day. Wishing you all a great day!
3 month pics
6-7 months update!
The tip still as some considerable swelling, but isn't big to me. It's such an improvement I'd be happy if it stayed this size.
The down side.. dun dun dun....
There is a small divot in one side. I looked at before pictures and it was there before (Dr. G said that this is wear I had a deviated septum and even asked me if I had, had a previous rhino!)
I'm wondering if this can be fixed.
Halloween was my 6 month mark and I sent him photos to look at. He said that he wants to see what it looks like at 12 months, when the swelling is mostly gone, to decide if I should get a revision. I'm kinda hoping there is an easy fix...It bugs me in pictures (but no where NEAR as bad as my old nose) Some days it's not as bad so hopefully when swelling goes down it won't be as drastic.
Lessons I've learned:
Even though my rhinoplasty came out beautifully... different insecurities still arose after surgery. It sounds cliche but if you don't love yourself before surgery, chances are you won't after. Im learning to treat myself good and not crucify myself for flaws....good lesson. Very cheesy. Haha.. kicking myself for all the time i held myself hostage from life because of insecurities!
Love to everyone who's been with me along the way :)
Dr. Grigoryants was always polite with a no BS attitude. He was very clear about what he thought we should do and also listened to what I wanted as well. He took very good after-care of me. He responded to my emails quickly and Zara was very kind. She helped me with payment/ scheduling and all of my questions along the way. I am very happy with my experience.