Breast implants removal while nursing - Germany, DE

I had my implants done in 2005, I thought it would...

I had my implants done in 2005, I thought it would help me being me... But I was wrong... Shortly after the operation I regret that I had done it..... Now years later, my relation at that time ended two years post OP. I found my soul mate, we married and have a lovely child of 1,5 years old. I was happy that I have been able to breastfeed, but also very scared about if the breast implants could harm my child. I am still very confused about that. As much as I find the breast so beautiful (not my implant breasts, but natural ones) as they can feed a baby. The more I hate the implants. It took me a long time to find out who I am and did not needed the implants (I see that now). I still can not understand that I have done that. The big problem is now, that I am still breastfeeding my child, but also would like to get rid of the implants. For this I need to wean my child.... I feel so selfish... But what if the implants have effect later on my kid, I will never forgive myself. We also want more children, and ideally I like to have the operation done and not worry about that anymore.... On the other hand I like to continue breastfeeding till my child weans himself. But maybe by that time I could be pregnant again.... My doctors say it is not so bad and the implants (275 mentor Siltex gel) are safe and have no influence on my milk whatsoever. I made an appointment for the 16th of Jan 2014 to have them removed... The PS came with two option, just take them out or take them out and lift. With the second option I have little chances to breastfeed again, and if I am not happy with the result a lift would be very hard to do afterwards... I decided for the first option, as I really want to breastfeed in the future...
Today I also visited my gynecologist today and she was surprised when I said I want to have them removed before our second child... And said that I should be prepared for the outcome and that the previous surgeon did such a good job and that it looks so good.... This made me even more confused...Shall I leave it (and keep on worrying about my health and quality for my milk, next that I feel uncomfortable with the implants) I will add some photos in the next days.... Thanks for reading my story.... I am just very confused....

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Hi Rachel, thanks you so much! Wow... You have done it! And you are looking great! For me, it somehow still feels so far away (16th of Jan 2014), but also so close..... Pretty scared.... And one day I really looking forward to have them out and the other day I have doubts (specially after talking to doctors who are asking 'but why'? I can not explain to them, because they do not understand. I want to have them out because they are not mine, they do not belong in my body! Luckily my PS understands it)..... My husband is supporting me, and I am thankful for that! Also this website helps...Yeah, I feel also so stupid that I did this to my body... But I think I feel will feel somehow 'free' once they are out.... Well done you! Many thanks again! All the best!!
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Hi! I just had implant removal without a lift. The pain was minimal and I'm recovering quickly. You can always go back later if you need a lift. But I am so happy! And like you I wish I had felt better about myself. How stupid I was to do this to my body! Hope this helps. Hang in there!
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Some photos of how it looks now

As promised, some photos... As you can see it does not fit my body.....

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The most important thing to do is what you feel is in your best interest. If you don't like your implants and are worried about whether they are leaching chemicals that could harm your infant while breastfeeding (valid concerns) than get them out. You have to feel comfortable in your skin and it sounds like you don't right now because of the implants. Don't pay attention to anyone's opinion on this....this is your body and decision to make. I bet you'll great without the implants and feel great knowing for sure that there is nothing causing harm to your body or your child's. I wish you the best!
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Thank you so much! It so good to hear comments like this.... And when I read it, I think, yeah! They are right! I WILL feel better, more confident without the implants.... I will be ME, just natural! That all I wish for now! Many thanks again!
Hi Bloem. I consulted with 5 different PS's in the Los Angeles area before choosing my surgeon, and all of them suggested that I wait to see whether or not I really need a lift about 6+ months after the surgery. I think in the past they used to recommend doing the explant and lift at the same time, but the skin contracts so much in the months following removal that it's considered better to wait and see if they lift on their own. As you can see from many of the posts on here, breasts look pretty deflated and sad immediately after surgery, but photos from months later show them looking much more perky and firm. Lifts are both costly and painful, and I believe the general consensus these days is to wait and see if you really need one before putting you through that. As for your gyno's comments, you never know what she was really thinking. She may have thought she was complimenting you by expressing surprise and saying they look great. If I were in her shoes, I may have said the same thing simply because I didn't want to hurt the patient's feelings and make them feel like they had a bad boob job. She may not have realized the impact of her words. Your implants are bigger than mine, and mine get in the way constantly, they're very uncomfortable, I always hope for cool days so I can hide them under clothes, and I have no doubts whatsoever about wanting them out. But I can understand your concerns. If the docs say breastfeeding can continue post-removal, I think that would be a big incentive to go ahead and do it and get back to being yourself again and feeling more comfortable in your own body. When I was getting my breast implants (in 1996), I was focused entirely on how they would look, not how it would feel to walk around in them every day, pulling on my skin and limiting my physical activities. Don't let other people's opinions about how your breasts look affect your ultimate decision. With the awesome push-up bras that are around today, almost anyone can have great cleavage, and what's most important is your health and how you feel. You'll be more attractive if you feel good about yourself and have small breasts than if you feel uncomfortable with yourself and have big breasts. But in the end, do it for you. And no, you are not selfish for wanting them out when you still need to breastfeed. The fact that you even have that concern demonstrates that you're the opposite of selfish, willing to sacrifice your own comfort and health for your child(ren). You're a good mom to your son, but don't forget to be good to yourself, too. Whatever you decide, good luck! I hope you keep us updated.
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Thank you all so much for your support!

I did feel a long time quite alone with this. Most people around me (even my parents) do not know that I have implants (I wear often tied sport bras) and people often see me a a healthy eating, living sportive, nature and natural person. I feel like I am cheating on myself, I like to be like that, but these implants do not fit there! I am so happy that I found this website, it is so nice to have a community like this. I do have my husband who I can talk to (he is very supportive), but as much as he tries to understand and support, he does not feel what I feel.... Also the fear for another operation (but the last one!!), leaving my husband and child alone for the night because of some implants... But as my husband also says, needs to be done, this is what I want and better do it as soon as possible.... He also wants to see me free.... (I already had my implants done before we met).
Today, I made an appointment with my PS to meet in December for the last meeting, just for me another opportunity to talk it through and ask my the last questions....
Thanks again for reading..... Bloem

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Thanks Pink56... Good you could breastfeed also.... In that case I think we are so lucky somehow! Yes, I fully agree with you, weaning is best done slowly.... This all makes it so confusing..... My PS mentioned that the breasts do not really need to settle, just only a few weeks of rest. He will not touch that part as my implants are behind the muscle... Also because I do not want a lift there is not need to wait..... Except my little one need to be weaned.... So far I am not forcing it at all and notice that only bedtime weaning is wished.... A little during the night also..... That makes it all so cinfusing, as I am unhappy with my breasts (and breastfeeding is very confronting), I wished I could enjoy it more often..... But because of the implants I find it sometimes difficult.... There is something between me and my child! Something so unnatural.... I just really want to hold my kid close..... But as you mentioned, weaning slowly is the best for the child...... Feels like my head is spinning.... but thank you so much for your comment and sharing your experience.... You are looking so great!
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Sorry double entry......
I understand you wanting your implants out. I had mine removed 8 months ago I breastfed my (now 26!!) child for 16 months. (whilst I had implants) I had no issues breastfeeding but was amazed that I still could after having implants. The implants had been in for about 4 years. Discuss it with your doctor, but I'd say that if you have no problems breastfeeding, then wait until you would have weaned your child. Weaning is best done slowly, it is easier on your body and easier on the child. If your breasts are engorged after sudden weaning, you'll have to wait anyhow, for them to settle for a while, as I am sure that that would not be the ideal time to remove the implants. However, mine is only an opinion based on my own experience. .
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'Cold feet' moments....

Yesterday I spoke to my lactation consultant about weaning my child and actually my little had already started the process. Of course I noticed that she is not asking often anymore... The lactation consultant reckons that it will circa 4 weeks before my little one weaned herself..... Somehow good news, other side we will start also a new phase. My husband and I really would like to have more children, we are 33 and 38, so sometimes I think that it would maybe be better to wait with the explant till our family wish is fulfilled... Other side I think, I want to feel free from these implants... You know, 'have it done'.... Somehow January seems sooo far away, but also sooo close again....... I also read on the web that some doctors advised to wait for six month with the operation once you weaned your child, others say it does not really matter as long as it is only a explant. Also, I would prefer not to wait to long after the explant with getting pregnant again..... But again, there are so many different opinions..... Thanks for reading... Bloem

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Coming closer....................

Merry Christmas!

Here an update, last week I had another meeting with my pc. Discusses briefly my questions and the next step it the blood test on the 6th of January.
I am very nervous and scared/Starting to doubt if this is the right decision and the right time and right pc. When I first met my pc I really thought he was good and he understood me why I wanted my implants out. He explained that I will look different, but did not continue (like other pc's I have seen) with telling me how 'unhappy I will be' if I do not exchange them. So that is all positive. But somehow I start to doubt now, not sure because I am so scared of the operation...

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Have you read NewGirl74's review? She had her implants removed while still breastfeeding her twins once a day. Good luck!
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Thanks Prettyasyoufeel! That was very helpfull! I never knew that it was possible and that people still could breastfeed after implant removal. I had the same, wanted my implants out and.... Pregnant.... My little girl is now 18,5 months and still breastfeeding regulary, moslty evening/night. We tried to reduce, but not easy and actually.... I do not want to stop breastfeeding.... suppose you can imagine... I have an appointment on Monday with another PS..... Lets see.... Hope you are well! Thanks so much for sharing your story!

Hope

Wow... Via Prettyasyoufeel I found out that there are woman (like NewGirl74 here) who also want or even already had their implants removed.... NewGirl74 really gave me hope!
After reading some stories I decided to contact another pc, and I have an appointment on Monday. I am going to search for a pc who does not find it necessary that I have weaned my daughter.... Lets see Monday.... Otherwise the search continues.....
I am still breastfeeding my daughter, but mainly evening and nights. She just eats with me during the day and drinks also water or sometimes fennel tea.
For me it would be great to have the implants out and continuing breastfeeding my little girl.... I will cancel the other appointment as the pc wanted me to have my daughter weaned by the end of the year, that is not going to work and I do not want it either anymore! (It is not that I wanted her to be weaned, but I thought there was no other way. For me it has been difficult the decline her request to breastfeed and therefore we still do) I want to give my little girl the time she needs.....I am so exciting about Monday, also a little nervous....

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Consultation went well! SURGERY DATE SET!!

So... I had my consultation yesterday with this new surgeon. It took about 1,5 hours and he took really the time for me. I could ask questions, he asked me questions. He looked at my breasts, the implants, and he also said that they were not straight and one implant is much higher as the other.... Funny enough I never noticed it, probably because I never really liked (and took time) to look at my breasts. But now I do see, have a look at the first pic... How clear is this? The surgeon who implanted the implants told me that was because of breastfeeding, but the one of yesterday said that that was not possible. Anyway, he is ok explanting them while I am still breastfeeding. He will speak to the anesthetist and I will contact our pediatrician and also my lactation consultant in the new year (all are now on holidays). In Germany it is common to stay one night overnight, but as he does not expect any problems and that I recover soon with little pain I could go home even on the same day!
I can choose to have the capsule of the implant removed or not, he said it is not really necessary as the body will 'clean' the capsule itself. I would like to ask some of your opinions or experiences. I read somewhere that the capsule can contact silicon particles of the implants and that this still can cause (health) problems just like the silicones. During my meeting I was not aware of this so I could not ask him any about this, I will do during my second meeting (14th of Jan). But maybe you girls have some info, opinions or experiences? I first thought I leave the capsules, reading all the negative stuff about it I might have it taken away straight away as well. Fully clean? What do you girls think? (For info, he did say that my capsules were very thin and if he sees anything odd during the operation he will take the capsules away).
I was wondering, the antibiotics are prophylactic, did any of you girls did not take them? I read a little about it and so far I believe I can take them as they will not have a big influence on the milk and of course my daughter does not drink so much anymore. Other side I did not like the idea ( I am not a person who takes drugs regularly at all, no aspirin etc. I believe the body heals. But sometimes there is no other option of course and definitely do not want an infection!) Maybe I can reduce the dose, something to ask also.

Anyway, I still have some 'homework' to do. Any tips, advice, suggestions and experiences are very welcome! But I definitely made a step forward!

And... The explant is planned for the 22. January 2014!!!!!!

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So happy to hear you have a date set.. How exciting. Definitely keep us posted. Im still searching for the right Dr and have a consult tomorrow morning. Praying it goes well. Ill be traveling 1.5hours away... I will update when Im home... You are in my thoughts and prayers.
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Hi again Bloem! You have a surgery date set, that's fantastic news! It sounds like the meeting with this surgeon went better than the last. You definitely seem more excited and more ready for this. Though of course you still have some questions and concerns. I think it is probably good to leave that up to the surgeon about the capsules- if he sees anything abnormal during the surgery he can still remove them. Did he mention if you would need drains if you had the capsules removed? I know that can be common. Wow the 22 January will be here soon! Well Happy New Year, what great news!! Please keep me posted on your surgery and I will keep you updated on mine too! :)
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Hi misspixie! Thanks! I am also very happy! This meeting went very well an the surgeon was very kind and understandable! Indeed, I am more excited now, but also a little nervous for the operation. But looking forward to getting these IMPLANTS OUT finally! He mentioned that I might need drains for the day, but maybe not. If I leave the capsules I do not need to go home with drains, if the capsules go there is a bigger change that I need drains. I have a blood test on Monday and a week later I have a appointment with the anesthetist, also exciting. I will keep you posted, of course! How are you? Are you doing well? Any other appointments planned for you or now waiting for the day? You wrote you did some research about removing the capsules or not, do you maybe have some links/information for me? Many thanks! Happy New Year!!

Another step made...

Another step closer... I had blood taken for a full blood analysis today (surgeon his request) and I will have the results by the end of the week... Expect that it will be all fine.... Another step taken and another step closer to become natural......

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Hope the explant goes well for you. I'm sure your going to be so happy once they are out. X
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Congrats on setting a date! I also believe the body heals itself well and hardly take any medications myself, but I did do the antibiotics post surgery. It's just one of those things I didn't want to chance...my immune system was down and I had drains so infection was higher. Maybe you can get some clearer answers from your surgeon on this. In any event....I'm super excited for you!
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Hi Znikie, thanks! Yes, I will keep you posted! It is very exciting, I am looking forward to be free, but before that I need to go through the op first, so I have mixed feelings..... Take your time in finding the right surgeon, it took me also a few meetings with different surgeons. It sound feel right, and you should be able to discuss you concerns and ask all your questions. I am very pleased with my surgeon now, he respects my opinion and wishes. I learned that I should make clear what I want and not want, and be also clear in that. In the end it is my (in this case your) body! If it is the right Dr, sure it is worth traveling! I wish you all the best today! Please update upon your return! Take care and thinking of you!

Photos before implants (2005)

It took a long time to request my photos, but here they are... Had them already in my inbox for some days and did not really dare to look at them..... Why did I ever had implants????.............................

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Many thanks! Yes, I am going to be happy also..... Finally!! Just to be natural me.... For now I have mixed feeling, really looking forward to have the implants out... But also a bit nervous for the operation..... In any case, countdown now.... Thanks! X
Indeed, I do not want to have a change of infections, so will take the antibiotics ( I checked and can take them while breastfeeding) also. I will speak to him in any case again before operation. Thanks you so much! You are really looking good! Happy 2014!

10 days to go.......................

As the title says, 10 days to go before explant! Cannot believe it is really going to happen! Looking back at the photos I posted a few days ago from myself before implants.... I think, yeah, they are small... But SO WHAT??!!! They did fit my body, I was healthy and completely myself.....

Anyway, I am still contemplating if I also should remove the capsules, I read that silicone implants can sweat (or also called bleeding) and leave (e.g.) silicon behind in the capsule. So basically the implants are out but the silicon is still in and can migrate (sorry sounds all horrible) through the body. I also read that the operation will more difficult and recovery a little longer (but hey, most/all is gone). And drains are needed for maybe some days... I will contact my surgeon tomorrow to ask him. We did briefly discuss and he said it was not necessary and when he has doubts during the operation he will see if the capsules need to be taken out.

Somehow I like to take the 'easier' way and have the implants out, leave the capsule, same day home, no drains.... But how will I feel long term? Knowing the capsules are still inside me (and I also read that the body can not resolve them as many surgeons say)..... There are so many controversial information and opinions....

Still more 'homework' to do..... Any of you girls have some advice?....

Source: http://implantawareness.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/ImplantCapsuleProblems1.pdf

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2nd appointment...... 8 days to go!

Today I had another appointment with my surgeon and with the anesthetist. Both meetings went well. With the surgeon I discussed the issue I have with the capsule. He mentioned that the mentor implants I have will probably have a slimy cover and this will content most silicones particles. He suggest that he will have a look and decide during the operation. He knows I am worrying about my capsules, it is all depending in which state they are. He also informed me that I could have the capsule tested on silicone, just wondering if I should/want to do that. What would you girls reckon? (he informed me he also explanted several PIP implants, which have been tested. The outcome was that there were little/no silicone found. And the amount that stays in the body is so small....

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Hi, I had my implants out about a year before getting pregnant. But, there is no need to wait to get pregnant after removal. You will heal regardless. My baby is 7 weeks old and breast feeding is going well. You can read my post if you would like details :) Good luck on your removal - it has been one of the best decisions I have ever made!
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Thanks! I just read your story.... You are looking great! Enjoy your time with your baby!

It doesn't happen all at once

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I hope everything goes well, and you are able to go home the same day. I am excited to see your results! I would be torn about getting a capsulectomy as well, if I had silicone. I hope it does not interfere with nursing any more that way. It sounds like your surgeon will do what's best! I'll be thinking of you. I have my first consultation with my original PS on the 22nd :)
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I am thinking of you and wishing you luck! You have tough decisions to make :). Maybe get the whole thing out (en bloc) as you are going to have to heal regardless? I had drains for about a week and they were actually fine. Of course, my children are 10 and 12. Good luck :)
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I am so excited for you! And this gives me hope and confidence to proceed with my explant! I have a ruptured silicone implant and I want them out but instill nursing my almost 15 month baby girl and don't plan on weaning. I too want to get pregnant soon but want the explant before getting pregnant. It's so scary. Good luck momma, I'm so happy for you!
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One day to go....

Can not believe that it is really going to happen tomorrow..... I took all my old bras out and will through them away!
Over the weekend I had a look at my breasts, I think this is really the fist time since I have implants..... Was strange, because looking at myself.... It was just not me.... Also noticed some strange bobbles on one side, think this is the implant... Will ask the doctor tomorrow...

Another weird idea is, that tomorrow this time there are out!!!!...... So, strange, exciting and also scary..... Do not know what to think or feel.....

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Bloem! Today is your day!! I've been thinking about you and this date quickly approaching on the calendar. I am wishing you good luck with the surgery and a speedy recovery. Please let us know how you are doing because we are thinking of you! Soon you will be free of these unnatural things in your body!! Sending big big hugs! CONGRATS! :)
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Thanks! I will keep you posted as soon as possible! Good luck with the consultation! Keep us posted! Take care!
Yes, I was also thinking, but there are also risks regarding taking the capsule out also.... Although I agree, I need to heal regardless....... Nursing with drains for a week, not sure how to imagine that..... Still ideally I like to have the capsule out as well.... Ahhh..... My head is turning of all this thinking, makes me so confused..... Thanks a lot anyway!

Photos!

Hello ladies! Here are some photos from directly after the operation till today! I will write my review tomorrow. I can tell you that I am feeling great and VERY HAPPY!

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Amazing results! I am so happy for you!
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And, you look great natural :)
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So happy for you :) yay yay!!!! Heal fast :)
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Day 3 post explant

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Day 4 post explant... Doing well!

Hello ladies! Just to ket you know I am doing great! Did not manage to write my review yet.... Busy here with my daugther at home and I try to rest when possible...Will write it asap! But update now with photos!

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Hey Bloem, I finally got mine removed yesterday. I was wondering how long did you wait after surgery to use the side lying position when nursing? Also, did you take antibiotics at all? Thanks!
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Hi there, thanks for sharing your experience! I was wondering if you used a breast pump right after the surgery? Also, did u breastfeed right after the surgery? I am removing mine soon; but am also nursing a two month old baby. I am doing a nipple incision so I am afraid I won't be able to nurse. Since the reviews I've read on here regarding breastfeeding and explanation.. I haven't seem anyone with a nipple incision and still nursing after. How long did u wait after the surgery to pump?
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You look wonderful!!! Thank you for sharing your story with us!
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