Explant Scheduled 4/23 - No Lift, No Capsulectomy, Still Breastfeeding - Jackson, MS

I had 350cc (I think) smooth saline implants...

I had 350cc (I think) smooth saline implants placed under the muscle in 1997. I had just turned 20 and was not even an A cup. I was convinced I was deformed after being teased mercilessly about it in junior high and high school (until I discovered padded bras and changed schools). My stepfather even teased me about it. Blech. So, although all I wanted was to be a natural full A or small B cup, I ended up with full C's. I had only one consult. Fortunately, the surgeon did an excellent job, and I haven't really had any issues until more recently. I enjoyed having them at first, but always hated that they weren't real. The funny thing is I got them thinking I would finally be able to wear sexy bras, but once I had them I was only comfortable in sports bras 24 hours a day. i couldn't even sleep without a bra on until I started breastfeeding and had to. I would consider removing them through the years, but thought I'd be worse off than before. I started researching it again in 2010 and decided to get them removed after reading stories on another forum. My fiance,now husband, was totally supportive and happy that I wanted them out! So, in 2011 I was researching surgeons, and what do you know, I end up pregnant :) That brings me to now. When I first started to breastfeed (which i am so, so grateful I've been able to do) I finally truly realized what our breasts are here for. Our society has sexualized breasts so much, it's ridiculous. If only I had known. My 17 month old still nurses frequently day and night. I really want them out now, but I think I am going to wait at least a few more months to see if she reduces her nursing frequency. I have major issues with plugged ducts and have had 3 bouts of mastitis. I am now taking evening primrose oil, lecithin and b complex and have been avoiding processed food (following a modified Eat to Live program) since my last round of mastitis. I also have constant tightness in my upper back that started in 2009. I am sure this is implant related, although I think stress triggered it. I cannot wait to get these things out! I will update with pictures in a few months when I actually have a surgery date. Thank you to everyone that has posted their stories!

Some pictures

So, I have had at least 4 episodes of plugged ducts since December 22. Not fun. Fortunately, no progression to mastitis, which I attribute to taking raw garlic as soon as I start to notice a plug now. I wish I had some topless pre-pregnancy pictures. They have definitely gotten saggier. I also developed a vein-y road map on my chest in my last trimester. The stretch marks happened right after I had them placed. I am actually okay with how they look. If they were real and comfortable, I would be totally happy with them. Oh well. So, although my daughter still nurses every two hours (sometimes more frequently!), I am going to start actively looking for a PS. At this point, I'd be happy with just having them deflated and removed later, although I know that's not the ideal way to do it.

Consult with original surgeon

I saw my original surgeon today. He was much nicer than I remembered. I was surprised that he seemed okay with doing the explant and did not try to talk me into anything else. He was mainly concerned about the effects of the anesthesia on breast milk. The only problem I see is that he has not done many (1 other) removals without replacement and was not comfortable using local anesthesia, which is the type I'd prefer. So, I have a consultation with another surgeon next week. Has anyone else had an explant with a surgeon that hadn't done many of them? He seems to be good at everything else. They also made me some copies of my original pre op pictures. Sad that I thought I was so deformed and lopsided at the time. They're not my ideal, but they weren't that bad. I think I was a 36AA. I'm 5'8".

Scheduled Explant for March 26th!

I had a consult with a surgeon in Jackson last Friday. He seemed nice enough, has done several explants without replacement and costs about $1000 less than my original surgeon. So, I think I'm going to go with him, even though he seemed really rushed during our consultation. He was pretty cavalier about the whole thing and didn't spend much time with me. He didn't try to talk me out of it whatsoever. I think he could tell my mind was made up, so there was no point in trying. He also doesn't have a problem with me breastfeeding still. Yay! I asked him about compression afterwards and the nursing, and he said that he actually prefers not to bind/compress very tightly and that he would rather have a seroma develop (and just drain it in the office) than to risk the tissues adhering together while healing. He explained that the fluid build up acts as a bit of a cushion, and when it is naturally absorbed by the body, it's not a big deal. His nurse told me that I'll be in a surgical bra after surgery, but that I could bring a loose sports bra. It's kind of different from what I've read on here, but his seroma theory does kind of make sense to me. He does a lot of breast reconstructions, so I will trust his judgement. He agreed to do local / twilight for me, since that's what I prefer. I'm definitely nervous about the outcome. They are going to be lopsided for sure, but I hope that resolves after weaning. I am so used to having C-cup or more breasts, and I have a wide-ish ribcage and broad shoulders. I have to work on feeling feminine without boobs. Wish they didn't matter so much! I am really going to have to get serious about getting the rest of my body in shape now. I've let things slide and my breasts have given me a way to hide the fact that I definitely have a belly! By the way, in case anyone else out there is having problems with "mummy-tummy" or anything, really, I highly recommend Katy Bowman's book Alignment Matters and her blog KatySays. It's not exactly a quick fix, but it is full of excellent information and advice!

Should I postpone?

I'm scheduled for sx next Wednesday, but thinking that maybe I should postpone until April. I have been under extreme stress the past couple of weeks. My dad had a major heart attack on March 10th and has been in the ICU. He's still not 100% responsive, but he is slowly improving. My sister and I drove 7 hours and stayed for several days, but had to come back home. Now I have a cold, and I rarely -like never- get sick. Plus, my husband is now saying that he's going to miss my current breasts. He even compared it to having his penis amputated! :( When we first talked about it, he was all for it. I'm going to do it, no matter what he says, but should I wait a few weeks until I'm less stressed? Is riding in the car for 7 hours a week or so after surgery a bad idea? We will be going back in the next couple of weeks. I guess I'll make my decision Friday, since I have to reschedule 48 hours in advance to avoid a fee. Ugh.

Rescheduled for April 23rd

I decided to reschedule my surgery after my last post. Sadly, my father ended up passing away shortly after that.
I'm feeling pretty nervous - not about the surgery itself, but the outcome and recovery time. My main concern is being able to take care of my insane, demanding, constantly nursing toddler! :) Also, my stepdad does not know I have implants, so my mom has to figure out a way to help me without lying and without telling him what's going on. I know I'm 37 and should be able to deal with things in a more adult way, but I don't want him to know. My husband works out of town, so I have to rely on my mom and sister for help.
So, anyway, here are a few things that I hope improve after explant: constant tightness between my shoulder blades, melasma (started in 2009 and got worse after pregnancy), stubborn white coating on back of my tongue, and some digestive issues. I also had joint pain and all over fatigue for a few months last year (it was physically difficult to get out of bed in the mornings), but changing my diet seemed to have cleared that up, thank goodness. Also, I kept having problems with plugged ducts, but I finally realized I just cannot sleep on my right side. It must be the way the implant presses against my breast tissue.
I will try to update somewhat regularly after explant, because these reviews have helped me so much.
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I'm so sorry for the loss of your father. I just found your thread. I am 53 and have had implants for most of my life. I am considering explant and my body type sounds like yours. I had no breasts at all, never wore a bra before because had nothing (teased mercilessly too - by my mom in front of boyfriends). Currently 36B or C. I had bad capsular contraction and 2 years ago had revision and they are hardening again. I am concerned about the empty bag look. I think I could deal with it but not sure about my husband. I have not been able to find any explant photos online of women who were flat before. Everyone seems to have at least some breast tissue. I hope you will share photos, it may give some of us courage! Best wishes for your upcoming surgery!
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Thank you. I'm sorry you had complications. I've been very lucky for the most part. I've read a ton of reviews on here and can't remember anyone with an empty sack look long term. It seems like most tighten back up. Off hand, the reviews I can think of that started out with the least breast tissue are nomoresilicone, writer310 and tiggerousity. All 3 of these ladies had great results, in my opinion. There are a lot more, but I can't think of their names right now. It does seem like doing a capsulectomy sometimes decreases the amount of remaining breast tissue, but not always. You could always explant and wait a year or two to see where you are then. If you are unhappy after that long, re-implanting or fat transfer might be an option?? That's what I told my husband just to ease his fears, but I'm hoping we will both be accepting enough of my results that I won't ever have to do that.
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Thanks so much - I will look up those ladies and see if they have after pics. It's interesting that for many of us our partners are the ones that might have more trouble with our explant. I would be fine I think to just prop up whatever I have left with padded bras. At my age I now care much less about what others think of how I look and more about how I feel. I too, find it uncomfortable laying in bed. I have a lot of rippling and there places where the implants come to a point and feel like they will poke through my skin making me highly aware of how unnatural my body is with these implants in it. And I hate how tight and hard they are when I lie on my back. I think the benefits of feeling normal will outweigh aesthetics, that's what I'm telling myself anyway! So your sx is in 3 days- best wishes for a great outcome and I look forward to hearing about your experience.
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OMG I just looked at nomoresilicone and writer 310. nomoresilicone looks EXACTLY like I did pre BA and her results are great. And writer310 is the same stats as me to a T and she looks great too! This gives me so much hope and courage!! Thank you so much!!
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That's a tough one. I almost postponed on mine but knowing explanting simply would be 30 minutes and no capsulectomy or drains etc I decided what the heck just do it it'll be over in 30 min. I was STRESSED!! Even the day of surgery when I got a phone call re why I was stressed at 6am. My grandmother was hospitalized (I'm primary care taker) and I was in the hospital for three days in and out. She gets discharged under certain conditions and making a LONG story short my mom agreed to watch my grandma hole I got my surgery. Then to put the cherry on top I had to take care of my grandmother overnight the day of explant. To be honest I was stressed I can be along with issue on top of issue all within the same days and right before surgery too! But I really wanted these saline boobs past me and I did it!! Plus I had already payed etc. I'm finishing up my degree and struggling with a general math course i HATE MATH!! And luckily I won't even use it as a social worker :) but I have to get past the math now to graduate I left it for last for a reason! So all that on top of math struggles with tutors. As part of my math course we have to learn how to prepare taxes etc...not my thing. So stressed. A week and a couple days later I literry feel like I didn't even gave surgery. No pain meds prescribed taken, no antibiotics, he just said take morin as needed and I haven't needed it all the time. I'm more sensitivity and discomfort but not pain. Incision area sore yes but nothing major or comparable to the breast augmentation. I feel great. I can totally relate on the stress before surgery due to personal issues. As far as 7 hours in a car...if the road is smooth not too bad but if it's bumpy it might not be so good for you. It's definitely a tricky one. I hope all goes well with your lived one.
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While not home sorry pardon typos
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Not home or hole it meant to say while! Ugh auto correct!
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Thanks for the encouragement. I feel better about going through with it, if you could do it with all that going on! I really want to get it over with, and I've already paid, so I might as well. I think I should be over this little head cold soon anyway. I hope your grandmother is doing okay now. Thanks so much!
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Thank you :) good luck
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Hi. Your surgeon kind of sounds like mine. I just got mine removed Monday and he said wear whatever felt comfortable. No compression necessary. Among other things like I can do many things but thanks to people here with their advice and my body talking I've decided to take it slow. But hey I've slowed down as much as I can with kids and I hope all goes well. Good luck!
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I'm glad my surgeon's not the only one. Your results look great! I'm definitely going to take it as easy as possible. I can't wait to get them out. Thanks!
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Hey Pretty! How did it go with your other surgeon's consult?? While it's probably a good idea to see another PS, I personally wouldn't be too out off by him not doing too many other explants, as long as he is very good in other areas. Did he have pictures of the explant he did before? Or could you be linked up to speak with that person?? Keep us posted!! :)
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Hey! Saw your update and you look so great! I ended up canceling the second consult. It would've been with the surgeon's PA which seemed kind of a waste of time. I plan on scheduling a consultation with another PS when I get back home - I'm out of town this week. I don't know if the first PS would've shown me pictures of his one explant. I should've asked, but I chickened out. She actually ended up re-implanting 3 months later.
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Hi Pretty, I read on Bloem's review that you have a consultation with your original PS today! I'm thinking of you and hope it goes well! Hope he is responsive and understanding and positive! Keep us posted!! :)
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Hey MissPixie, Thanks! It went better than I expected. I hope I can find a good one and get these out soon.
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Wow Momma.. Your story is a lot like mine. Im still breast feeding but I can not wait to get these things out. Hoping everything happens quick for us both :) Love and hugs.
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I hope both of us can get these things removed without complications and maintain breastfeeding! Wouldn't that be great? :) I was so glad to read NewGirl74's review and realize that it is possible! I just need my little one to cut back on her nursing some. Every time she skips a feed, I end up with plugged ducts/mastitis, so I'm not sure how I'll ever be able to wean - at least not anytime soon!
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Wow... I wish I had that problem... Only one boob worked because of the severe capsular contracture and even that boob I had a hard time producing and the only thing that helped my milk come in was Domperidone... :( Should be really easy for my milk to dry up but Im not ready. My son is 10 months and I want to keep breast feeding for as long as I can. Right now he is on my milk which isnt much, donor milk which a friend donates to me, and formula.. which I hate giving... This sucks ASS. Im so pissed at my implant surgeon for not suggesting these things come out a long time ago since there is a way to remove and still breast feed. Really makes my blood boil and I wish I could sue him!!! Ill be thinking of you soon. Love and hugs/
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That's frustrating, but at least you are able to nurse some and have access to donor milk. I feel very fortunate, for sure. I don't think any PS that has not breastfed could understand the importance of continuing, so to them, it's no big deal to just wean asap. It will probably be another couple of months before I can schedule mine. Until then, I'll be watching for your results, which I am sure will be beautiful!
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Thank you Momma.... Im excited to be pain and silicone free that is for sure. I do know that I will do whatever it takes to continue to breastfeed even after they are out. I am not going to wait to dry up since they are telling me it takes at least 6 months for that to happen and I dont have that long... Im ready now. Plus, Im getting married in Aug and want not to look like a porn star in my wedding dress... haha. seriously. Keep me posted... :) xo
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Thank you for helping me see things a bit clearer from the other side :-) good luck with your explant journey :-)
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And thank YOU for starting your story here. I can't believe people tease others for having small breasts (or big breasts, big nose, etc.) It's horrible. It sounds like you've really come full circle, though and are taking your health into your own hands. I'm looking forward to following your journey!

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Thanks for the welcome :) It will probably be several months before I'm able to get these out, so it will be awhile before I post an update. Until then, I will be reading everyone's reviews!
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