Hi everyone. Thank you all for reading my forum...
Hi everyone. Thank you all for reading my forum and going thru this journey with me. When I was about 20 years old I was so excited to get breast implants. I was fit but curvy and I felt i needed the extra curves on top. I was barly a small C cup. I am a total extremist and everything I do always have to be over and above. So when I got my breast implants I wanted the biggest she could do. I was a large D cup. Two years go by and they were not big enough for me. So again, I go back under the knife for even bigger implants. Then I was a large 36DDD. Both sets of implants were over the muscle. Cause I liked the "round look". I was young and skinny and they looked great on me at that time.
Well now I am a 37 year old wife and mother of 2 boys. I am much much thicker (we dont say fat) lol. I feel ridiculous with these objects in my chest. Its amazing, the older you get, when you have a large chest all of a sudden you appear older and heavier. I started noticing in pictures that I just looked huge and old. It was because of my enormous chest. Then I started looking online at breast implant removal and I saw that I liked all the small breasts the best. I thought the small breasts were so much more attractive. Now, when I look at people on tv with small "barley there" breasts they are acually more appealing to me. Its amazing how tastes change so drasticly!
I havent had any medical problems with the implants, just mild rippling. They are so uncomfortable and heavy. Im over it!
I want to share my journey with my fellow explanters and do this together. Its so cool I feel like I have a huge group of friends all going thru the same thing. Love you all and thank you for all of your storys courage and just learning to love the skin we are in!
Forgot to mention
That I am going to also get a lift and fat transfer. They are going to use ssome fat cells from my inner thigh via: lipo.
I probably wont see any change in my thighs because they dont have to use that much. My goal is to have small tiny bobbies. I want to sit without a bra and not feel like there laying on my belly. Lol
When I sleep now I have to put a pillow in between by breasts to avoid the "pulling feeling". I really look foward to laying on my side and my 2 breasts dont touch and squeeze together... ahh that will be awsome!
I started my forum a lil late
Cause I already have a surgeon lined up. But let me tell you shopping for a doctor to explant your implants is like going out to buy a car!
Just a consistent case of disappointment!
After almost every consultation my time was left crying in my car.
Every doctor was like over an hour away! I heard everything from ... that "I will not like what my breasts look like if I just remove them", to "no I dont do fat transfer", to "yea, but it will cost you $15, 000!.
It was just one thing after another.
I know that the pain that I felt with all the disappointments with the ps is nothing that I will have to deal with post op.
But yea, it was a nightmare. Thank god that search is over! Now the ps that I chose is 30 min from me and im really confident with him. He was my first choice the whole time. :)
I'm so impatient!
I WANT THIS DONE NOW!!!
I want to call the office so bad today and see if any surgeries had gotten canceled so they can get me in sooner. But I know they already think I'm a major pain in the ass. I'm calling all the time. I have 91 days to go and that seems like forever!!!! I am ready now. It's so frustrating. Ya think I should keep calling?? Lol
The saga continues. ..
I did call, they said "no cancelations yet" So I Continue To Watch My Office Countdown on my phone. Ha ha!
As my lovely ladies on here keep telling me, "use the time to get in shape"
I really am going to take there advice cause I know I'll enjoy the end result much better if I'm happier with my body. I'm sure it will make the transition easier too.
My husband is so supportive he loves me anyway I look I truly feel like the luckiest woman on the planet.
However, he's also not a "boob man". All he cares about is that I have an ass. Lol
I on the other hand am the worst critic of myself. I guess as we all are.
Well... I'm babbling my point is that.. I'm putting it out there that I'm going to try my best to get in shape since I have 91 days till my big surgery day!
I'm so lucky I have all of you to talk too. I'm sure my Husband thanks you too...cause my boobs seem to be the only thing I talk about. Now I can just vent to u girls! Yay!! *kisses*
I'm so bizarre. . but I gotta share
So I know I have been writing about how I can't wait to remove these balls from my chest, and yes I really am excited and I can't wait (90 days by the way).
Is this normal??
I was just at work and I looked down at "the girls" and started thinking all the things I'll miss about them. The shirts that they look good in, I feel sometimes your eyes divert to my chest instead of the many areas I'm self conscious about, how they look in a bathing suit. Just all these things that I enjoyed about them. Do any of you go thru this? Like I am so ready to have them gone, I just still feel like my best friend is moving away and I'll never see her again. Lol
Oh god, being a girl really is hard!
I guess in reality it's just like they have been a part of me for so many years that I'm just questioning myself that I'm going to be OK with the change.
Am I going to be more confident in myself? Or more self conscious?
Am I going to regret taking them out or wish I did it sooner ....
Mabel I'm just having one of those days... I do feel fat and gross today so mabey that's what's going on. I'm just an emotional mess. Lol
Well since you all are basic lyrics my only friends that will listen to me, I needed to share my feelings with you.
Thank you my girls, all of you. You make this so much easier for me to do such a drastic change. *kisses*
Having a better day today.
So I am having a better day today, thank god. Lol
I found pictures of my goal breasts. This is what I'm hoping for! Realistic? Not sure...
Hey a girl can dream!
And yes.... I had to look thru porn pics to find good ones. Lmao! But I tastefully cropped. Lol
Officially 68 days untill I've crossed over to the other side! (But whos counting?) Lmao!
Ok so I officially started working out last night. I made my son do it with me. Lol.
So im partially motivated to not feel gross and do something about it. I want to feel great about my body when I get the surgery cause I know if im fat with small boobs im going to focus on my belly. So I really have to stop being impulsive with food and work my ass off to get in shape! Im not sure if im telling you or me. Lmao. I kinda feel if I tell you girls then I have to not f up. Ya know.
So I will keep you posted!
All of my post-explanters did you feel the extreme urge to buy cute bras prior to your surgery? I keep finding myself shopping online and putting a ton of bras in my shopping cart. I havent actually purchased them yet but I really want to!! Should I? I am assuming I will be a 36B. I am a 36DD now pushing a 36DDD. Thats just cause im getting bigger everyday. Lmao!
Is there any way to kinda figure out what size you will end up being?
I know.... im totally just being impatient. I know I should wait.. but do you reallize how cool it will be not to wear huge ugly bras and have pretty small feminine ones!!
Just emailed my surgical coordinator to see if theres been any cancelations or anything and to see if I can get a sooner surgery date!
Ugh .. patience is not my strongest quality. Lmao!
Ill let you know what she says!
Lol. No luck. She just emailed me back, "No we dident have any cancelations. But we have you on the list"
Damn you woman!
Im over these titties over them!
Hi girls! All my post op friends, can you tell me some items I should get for my recovery? Theres so many lists out there and it seems that alot of the items probably wont even be used. So can you share with us a real world list for an easy comfortable recovery. Also im trying to avoid making my husband go out for me every 10 min cause I forgot to get things. Lol.
You girls are the best thank you! !
Ok can I vent?
Ugh! Ok so I was just reading back on my past post and I saw the one that says im 91 days away from my surgery and how I have all that time to get in shape. I ok well now im freaking so depressed cause I noticed the countdown on my phone says 59 days... guess how much weight I lost .... ugh!!!!! F-in nothing. I am so depressed. I feel so gross. In that amount of time I could of dropped an easy 10 lbs. I really dont overeat I am aware of everything I put in my mouth and I am always a complete spaz so I go at 900mph at all times!!! I should be rail thin, wtf!! And if I hear my wonderful huband tell me one more time how active he has been at work, and explaining how much weight he is losing I am going to drive screwdrivers in my ears!! I battle my weight my image and my looks constantly. I know I have an addiction to image and issues deep within myself. Its just something I have to learn to fix, somehow. Now you guys get to listen to me bitch and cry. Lmao. Im sorry. I just have no girlfriends that I trust so your all I have. I love you girls. Even though your not really here I feel like your here. Xoxoxo
Step one .... Fail. lmao!
So my first step thru this process...ordering post surgical bras. Ordered them in a large and the band was totally not snug. So I need to return for a medium. Ugh. Hate returning stuff. The amazon chart was different then the web sites chart. So my first step is a big....Fail! Lol
Yay... I feel like im sorta moving forward
Ok girls my 6, yes I said 6 week off doctors note is being mailed to me and my pre-op information! Yay! Also I have my 2 week pre-op appt set too! Appt is April 11th! Woo-hoo!! I feel like im taking a step ahead finally. Ok im pumped! I just wana do this so bad! Yes girls...today I want it done. Lmao! Im so excited bout the 6 weeks too. I just told her thats what I wanted and shes like "ok ill mail it to you" lmao!!
Forgot to tell you......
I was just messaging one of my boobie friends on here and I think I forgot to mention that noone at my work knows I have implants!! They all think im getting a breast reduction! I dont feel its anyones bissness and I have always been the kind of person that keeps her personal life out of work.
Yea, so im coming up with all these storys about my "breast reduction" to my co-workers cause they keep asking about my surgery. Lmao!! So funny.
Oh and if one more person says "save some for me, I can use some" (with a fake laugh, like I never heard it before). God help me! Lmao
47 days to go!!!
Omg im so pumped! I cant freaking wait it feels like the days are not decreasing and time is stood still!
I have a strange question for you girls... as soon as you knew you were definitely doing the surgery, did your boobs start hurting?? Psychological, of course it is. But its weird, very soon after my booking all of a sudden my breasts started really hurting. Then I got some dryskin rash. Gross I know but this all happened after I booked!!
I dunno just weird!
But anyhow I am just so excited I offically have my doctors note for 6 weeks off of work...yay! So anyhow just wanted to touch base with u girls. Xoxoxo
I NEED TO LEARN PATIENCE!
Yea im dying to get this surgery done with! I swear, time is not moving at all!! I know patients is not my #1 quality but I have been waiting for my surgery since January! All my ordered supplies are starting to get shipped and thats exciting! I bought a wedge pillow for my back, a special pillow that elevates elevates your legs cause of the lipo, surgical bras and ice packs! Yay. I think I got everything! Its so freaking exciting I camt stand it! I have 42 days till my surgery and 25 days till my pre-op appt!! Yes I even have a countdown on my phone for my pre-op appt! Lmao! The only thing that was positive about waiting this long is that it gave me plenty of time to go back and fourth with my emotions... now I know for sure....IM READY. No more thought that I may regret it!
Here is a picture I attemted to take of my old scars ... im glad someone asked me to see them cause I dident realize how light and barley noticable they really are. Yay! Dont mind the pictures they look weird. Lol
Happy Birthday to me!
Good morning girls! Yup today is my 38th Birthday! And my countdown is officially at 29 days!!! Yay! God I cant freaking wait! Im sooo ready!
20 Days till the big day!!!
Hi girls! So not much new going on.. I cant belive its only 20 days away. Friday is my pre-op appt. Any tips on things I should ask?? Im so ready for this. Tgis month I have been busy looking at houses for rent. Im going to be moving soon. Lol. This will be an interesting recovery. My potential move in date will be May 15th! My surgery is April 28th! Omg... how the hell am I going to manage that one? Think ill feel ok by then, god I hope so! Lmao. I can use my boys to carry boxs, but all the fun girl stuff im going to have to do! Never a dull moment!
Well ill update after my pre-op appt and let you know how it goes!
Its really feeling real now!
So I went to my pre-op appointment today and it's really starting to feel real now! Im so excited! The doctor is all paid, signed all my consent forms and asked all my questions. So im set! I found out that after all my purchases of my compression bras that... I dident need them anyway! I was told that because im having the fat transfer, I cant have compression on my breasts during healing. It will kill the new fat cells! Who knew! So I dont really know what im going to do with all the bras I bought. Lol. Guess ill use them later to sleep in after I heal.
I was also told that I wont have any drains either. Im happy about that!
I asked and he told me that he is going to remove the entire capsule as well. He said if you leave them in it leaves more room and space for fluid and problems. So there going to be gone. And I think that's it. So yup.... im all set. AND IM PUMPED!!!! Its almost my time ... now 2 short weeks! Yay!!!!!
OMG! LESS THEN 24 HOURS!
Well tomorrow is finally my surgery day! I cant belive it is actually here! It feels surreal. I want to thank each and every one of you for being there with me through my entire journey. I cant thank all of you enough. I love you all. I couldent have gone thru these feelings without you. I will keep you updated as soon as I can. I have a feeling I am going to be in bad shape tomorrow. See ya on the other side!!!!!! Xoxoxoxoxoxo
IVE CROSSED OVER TO THE OTHER SIDE! !
28 Apr 2014
Day of treatment
Here I lay... Implant free!!!!! All went well today. Im a little out of it right now, but im going to share as much as I can.
As far as I know the surgery was a success, I was told I wasnt going to have drains... but he ended up putting them in me anyway. Not sure why, but Im going to ask him. I cant belive I have to go see him tomorrow! Pain is very minimal im just being veryyyy careful. Im taking valum just to help me sleep. But havent needed the pain med yet. Im sure tomm. is going to be worse pain wise. It feels so liberating to have no implants and be natural! I can't believe its over and im flat! Im sooo happy and relived! Well im going to post pics and updates as I go along. As for now I just wanted to share that im ok and safe and sound in my bed. Thank you for all yoyr prayers and good wishes! I love you all.
Hi girls I took a couple pics with the bandages on. This is what they sent me home with.
Feeling bummed a little.
I went to the doctor for my (day after surgery) visit. I felt nauseous and just hurty. Hated being out of bed. Anyhow he took my bandages off and I hated the way they looked. They looked so deformed and weird. The nipples looked crooked and just plain ugly. I am soooo bummed. He said it's cause the compression of the bandages and swelling make them look weird. I guess hes right. I just really wanted to see pretty little boobies...thats all. And weirdly enough they looked bigger then I wanted them too as well. Im sure its due to swelling to. But today was not a good day for me. Because im unhappy feeling sick is just not what I am needing right now. I guess time will tell.
Day 3 update
As most of you know, I have been feeling really sick and horrible! Well I figured out why I cant stand for more then 5 min and feel hot and winded in a few seconds of walking. ....IM ALLERGIC TO THE ANTIBIOTIC! As soon as I started taking it thats when I felt like crap. Well it just hit me today what was happening! So I threw those damn things away! Took some this morning, (before realizing) attempted to drive to my doctor to get my drains removed and made it 1 mile and had to turn around, I was so sick feeling. So im sure thats what it is. Im assuming im going to wake up feeling like a new person! Oh and yea boobs are still lopsided and crooked but as you all told me...give it time...so thats what im going to do. I will update you all as I move along. And thank you all again for all your support prayers and love!
So unhappy... So disappointed
Im really freaking out. It sucks so bad. Everyone keeps calling and asking me.. ("are you excited?" "Do you love your new boobies?" "Do you feel better?")
And what can I say... He really f'ed me up! I look like a plastic surgery nightmare! I know everyone keeps saying. .. "give it time, its the swelling, everyone looks messed up at first" Well NO I have been on this site a long ass time and I know what they look like after surgery. I know how weird they look during healing. But not like this! Mine look like 2 totally different boobs! The nipples are completely different. Ones pointing almost down the other is crooked! ! Then there's pulled wrinkled skin in the center and to top it all off the shape is completely different! There lumpy and look totally totally different shapes! Keep in mind I had the fat transfer as well. From my thighs to fill the top of my breasts. Its so f'ed up! Im so depressed. Everything I have been looking foward to is not even fun now. I dont want to go bra shopping. .. I dont want to do anything! Im going to go get my stiches out tomorrow. Im not even seeing the doctor. The nurse is taking them out. I am just completely appalled that I have waited such a long time spent sooooo much money and I look like a f'ing circus freak! Biggest mistake ever and dont know how to fix it!
Been a week today since my surgery
I have gotten so many positive beautiful posts from you ladies and I really want to thank you. Thank you for the time you took to write to me. I love you all for that. So ill give you all a update as of today. So... I went to the doctor to have the stiches removed. Of course, I dident even see the doctor. The nurse did it. I knew I wasent going to see him today. I dident even want to. Cause I knew as soon as I started complaining to him the first thing he would say is... "its to soon to tell, its the swelling blah blah blah" So I will wait till the 3 week appt to talk to him so he cant say much of anything other then .."wow, I f'ed up"! So we got the stiches out and they look freaking scary! Now girls keep in mind I had a breast lift as well. This is where everything went wrong! One nipple is almost pointing down and really low, the other is pointing strait. They have looked the same since I first had the bandages off. I understand swelling inflammation and everything else would make them look funny at first. BUT...I have looked at thousands of breast lift before and afters and they always look weird BUT ALWAYS MATCH! I would need 4 inches of skin to disappear from the top of my breast to make it even look close to the same as the other. I wont even mention that when she took out my stiches my areolas are 2 different shapes too! What a nightmare! Biggest mistake I ever made! I am so f'in depressed! Oh and p.s. the nurse agreed that they looked odd..and said if they dont get better mabey he can fix them in the office under a local. Great. Ugh just what I wanted to do....have another surgery, but I know im going to have to.
Just about at the 2 week mark...
2 weeks have almost past... and here I am in the exact same situation. (Like I told you) they still haven't improved at all. As I knew they wouldent. I dont want to sound like a dick, I just need to tell you. They are in the exact same shape they were in the day I came home from surgery. I knew it...I freaking knew it. Wana know something sad to... my husband hasent even seen them yet. I wont show him im so embarrassed. Can you believe it. He hasent seen anything that the public hasent seen. Just me in a shirt. Thats it. I cant, wont show him. Where before id think nothing of sitting having a serious conversation topless. Just how I was. So sad that I let someone to this to my body! Shoulda just left well enough alone and had an extra 9000 in my pocket and had great big boobs. Wtf! Biggest mistake I ever made in my life! I want my old boobs back soooooooo bad! So much better then Google eyed boobs! Uggggg I feel like screaming! Showers have turned into a drama scene. I hate undressing anywhere near a mirror. Done venting. Im just pissed off!
One more thing...
I just spent the last 2 hours looking up post op breast life photos... (now I really feel like im gonna vomit)...
They all have assematry. . Everyone of them there nipples match up!!!! Im over hearing.. time, swelling, etc..... HE F'ED UP!!!! W H Y M E!!!
Called office and bitched...
Ok thanks to my girls boosting my courage to call the office... I did. I told them I want to get in the office either today or Monday cause im a mess from this surgery. The receptionist said ..."let me get the nurce to talk to you" .. nurse gets on the phone, I told her, "I need to get in there to see him asap, he messed me up I look like a circus freak and he needs to do a revision surgery during my time off of work" she asked how long has it been, I said 2 weeks and cut her off before she even had a chance to mention swelling. .ugh and told her "listen I knew something was wrong the second day when he took those bandages off. He messed up I know that this is not a result of healing and swelling..im not stupid and he needs to fix this during my time off"
She said let me call you back im going to go talk to the doctor...
She calls me back and said the woman is going to call me back on monday to give me an appointment for next week.
Ok ...so I called and I really am glad I did. Thank you for your support and tge little kick in the ass that I needed. I love you guys and I wish I could hug each and every one of you.... so we will see what next weeks update is going to be. Lol
Requested Doctor Appt Update...
Ok girls after the highly anticipated doctors visit. I have to say it went very well. Heres the story: I waited about 15 min for him to come in (I swear he was dreading talking to me) lol. He walked in with a gloom face on, I told him "sit down I need 10 minutes of you not talking and just listening to me"... I explained everything (basically everything I have been saying to you girls) explained my complaints and how I felt he messed me up. I also explained how I expect him to fix everything! Then after all the pictures I showed him and when I was done venting, I told him he may speak.. but I said dont even say the words Swelling or Time! He smiled asked if he can see my breasts and said " I see what your upset about and I agree with you" he said "your right, the asymmetry will not improve with time, they will look better but not what you want them to look like." He said he would be willing to perform another surgery and he will cover all the charges of the facility and anastasia and himself and he will fix the problem. I told him I wanted it done right away, he told me tge soonest I can safely do it is in 3 months. He said because the surgery requires removal of the nipple doing it again to soon you risk losing the blood supply to the nipple. So the absolute soonest he can do a revision surgery would be 3 months. I said that was ok cause the last thing I would need is lossing a nipple! Omg! So he said "come back in 3 months and if your still unhappy we will book it"...I said "hell no, I will be unhappy still in 3 months so book the surgery date now so I have it set in" he said ok. So....... July 30th ismy new revision surgery date. Thank god! So I feel good and relived. Ok...im starting to see the light. Thank you my girls for being there for me! I can be a bull dog when I want to be! Well my husband would correct me and just say that im always a bull dog. Lol
OMG! I FINALLY SHOWED MY HUSBAND
Ugggg! So my husband finally said to me, "honey you have got to show me so I can understand" I wanted to die! I was so embarrassed!!!! Noone has seen them except for my doctor and his nurse! Just the thought of my husband seeing me like this made me want to vomit! ! But he grabbed my hand, walked me into our room and was being so kind and supportive and I was standing in the corner saying "no, I can't". Over and over again! Finally after about an hour he helped me open my shirt, and said "it's OK I'm here and I'll just be honest" "trust me" well I allowed him to open my shirt on the count of 3. Lol and showed him. He was great! I knew he would be, it was all me and my mind. I made him promise not to tell me that they look good to make me feel better, I was so afraid he was going to do that. I told him "I know there really bad, so just tell me the truth". So, he said that he agreed he thinks the doctor completely f'ed up. He said at first he thought I was exaggerating but that's why he wanted to see them so he can help and support me. But he said that it looks as bad as I have been saying and now he understands why I would go thru another surgery. So just wanted to share the new boobie news in my world. It was another big day for me.
Finally have something to update about...
Ok this is gross but I have to share with my girls. Lol. Alright so im 6 weeks in thru this horrible surgical experience. So healing wise I haven't had much of any issues. Keep in mind I had a lift too. So, 2 days ago inwas about to go in the shower, took off my sports bra and I had a sore spot on part of my incision, part thats around my nipple. So I looked at my sports bra and it was a lil bloody and wet. I looked close at my incision and it had a puss spot on it, of course I squeeze a lil and puss and blood came out!! Now its 2 days later and its still leaking nasty puss and lil bits of blood. There are 2 lil spots size of a sesame seed that its coming from right on the incision line. It looks as if an internal stitch popped or something. ..I dont know. Has this happened to anyone else 6 weeks post op?? So weird! Please dont message me to call my doctor. Lol. I know to look for an infection. Im going to try n see if I can handle it with benidine and neosporine and if it dosent get better, then ill call him. But I really was just curious if anyone ever heard of this happening this late in the healing process? ? So weird. Thoughts?? Lol I know I know your saying to yourself "how much more is going to happen to this girl?" Lol lol. Never ending drama. Lol
About the 10/11 week mark... the new journey begins!
Hello all my long lost friends!!! Well I have been back into the grind with work and wife-ing and all that good stuff. But here I am at the 21 day mark to my revision surgery! Cant believe I will be back under the knife again! Im super nervous (as expected) cause of what I recently went thru. But im as ready as ill ever be. I guess he has alot of pressure this time to makr them as perfect as they can get. I will be sure to be putting alot of pressure on him as well. Its bull sh@t tat I even have to go thru it all over again. I will say its fun to grab my soft breasts though! It feels so nice. I havent felt them like this in about 20 years! I just cant look at them in thw mirror. Its a fright. Lol. But anyhow, I miss you guys so much and I will keep you updated with my new revision journey. I hope your all doing well! Hugs and kisses!
Had my Pre-op appt last night.
16 Jul 2014
3 months post
Hi girls. Ok so went to my pre-op appt and im not sure what to say how it went. I felt alright going in, mentally im talking. Then when he walked into the room, I got really bad vibes from him. It was weird like almost like he was annoyed with me. I felt my body start shaking and feeling major anxiety! I need him to be positive and reassuring... that is not what I got at all. Then he pointed at the most f-ed up boob and told me that one is the better of the 2. I explained everything that I needed to, I just hope he was listening. Cause I dident feel like he was! I just felt like it was not good and I dont feel good about it. My surgery as you know is on the 31 and im going to do it but I ask that there are alot of good vibes being put out there for me...cause I certainly did not get any from him. Well thats all for now... I just hope everything goes ok. Theres no excitment just nerves. Uggggg!
In response to the comments.
17 Jul 2014
3 months post
Girls please know that I appreciate all of you and your thoughts and opinions. But instead of repeating the same thing over and over again. I made the decision after my first surgery to go ahead and have him do the revision.
I understand that you girls dont know me on a personal level to understand the way I am and how strong minded I am. But just so you know I share on this site to let you know my feelings and thoughts. To bring you into my head thru the process. By the time I post something, my decisions have already been made on a very smart level. You need to understand that I work in one of the largest trama hospitals in the pathology department. I deal with doctors surgons and pathologists all day. I know them on a personal level and I know inside and out about each one. Regarding my doctor. I see his work everyday, I know his reputation from his colleagues. I know hes a very well trained respected talented surgeon. My case was the "one in a million" unfortunately. So I am not going to "bad mouth" him or put down his skill. He f-ed up on me, ive never seen him do this before to any of his other patients. So my case was unique. So one girl mentioned "im not going to pressure you into giving your dr a low score on the stars" Understand I cannot be pressured into anything. Its something that is not possable with me. I am to strong minded. So that was insulting to even assume anybody has that ability to pressure me into anything. I have made all the decisions I plan to make and im just here to share my experiences with all of you. I appreciate the concern, I really do. But unfortunately with someone like me once I have made a very thought about decision, thats set in stone. Im proud of this. Im also not here to bad mouth my surgeon. He obviously was my top pick due to the work I have seen and the recommendations I have received from my fellow surgon co-workers. He made a mistake on me, yes. But he is willing to fix his mistake and say out loud that he dosent like the work he did on me. Trust me doctors dont like admitting mistakes. So given that fact. I do respect him and trust him to go back in and make me look right. So thank you for your thoughts and I love all your comments. Just please dont attempt to try and change any of the decisions I have all ready made. This is being said with the upmost respect. Cause you all have been a huge part of my whole experience and I love you all for that. I just needed you to know what kind of person I am and where I stand. Xoxoxox
OMG! SURGERY IS TOMORROW!
30 Jul 2014
3 months post
Hi girls! I cant believe its going to be tomorrow that I will be in the same place I was 3 months ago today! My revision is set for 7:30 and I have to be there at 6:30. Im so nervous, But prepared. I made him a diagram to bring into surgery with him so he fixs everything I need fixed, since I of course will be asleep and wont have a voice. From many years working in OR's. I know how everyone is chatting, music is playing..I dont need him to get distracted and forget something. Lol. So please send me out lots of good vibes and wishes and I will let you know how I made out tomorrow after I get out. I love you all....Ahhhhh!!!!! So nervous!!!
The day of surgery.
31 Jul 2014
3 months post
Ok revision surgery is complete. I have a good vibe about today, not sure why I can see anything exept huge bandages and ace wrap. But I have a positive feeling. Surgery went well. He liked my diagram and my typed out instructions. Lol. He used it when he marked me up and said he wants to bring it into the OR. So that's good! Im laying here hours later, anastasia is wearing off nicely and feel very sore but no pain. Tomorrow I have my appointment at noon where I will have my reviel. Thats when I will be super nervous! This is it so I pray that they look amazing! Ok girls just wanted to let you know im safe and in bed. Xoxo
Revision Post-op Reveal......
First let me give all of you a great big thank you for your prayers and good wishes sent to me! I couldent of done this with out my girl army behind me! Thank you thank you...
Ok so, I went to my 12:00 appointment and they took the bandages off and they were perfectly symmetrical and the same size!!!! Yea they look like frankinboobs of course im 1 day post-op. But who cares they dont look like faternal twins anymore, now identical twins! Thank god!!!! Ill be excited to see the changes they make as they heal now. Im so happy. (Deep breath)...
He did say it was a really tough surgery givin I was only 3 months post op, that I had alot of bleeding and scar tissue. He was joking and said plus the pressure I put him under....lol. Good! Guess it worked cause now they match! Ok well my husband went back to work today so I had to drive myself to the doctor an hour away...im now shot out and in my bed. Time to rest with a clear head and sleep a bit.
Girls, from the bottom of my heart Thank you! Really!
Need to keep modisty because oviously with all my tattoos everyone can tell who I am. Lol. But you get the idea. Just put nipples in place of happy sunshines. Lol
So went to the doctors today and had my stitches removed. The girls definitely look symmetrical and even but I am soooo swollen. More then last time. My poor girls have been thru so much. Im also more sore now then ever, since I had the stitches taken out. I just hope the swelling goes down so I can see what they are gonna look like. I will post more pics once they look a bit better. Xoxo
Picture update comparison! !
12 Aug 2014
4 months post
Hey girls! Im just checking in to say hi and update you with my First surgury on the bottom picture and the new revision surgery on the bottom. Look at the difference! I know its kinda hard to tell with my sunshines. But notice the shape of the breasts, where the nipples are located (sunshine are directly covering only areolas), all weird lumpyness is gone.... Check it out!
oops...in the above post
12 Aug 2014
4 months post
I ment to say the top picture is the new surgery. Thats pretty important. Lol
21 days post-op.....
19 Aug 2014
4 months post
Hi girls, ive been doing good. I cant belive its been 21 days since my revision surgery! But ive been doing ok. Still have alot of swelling and there are a few incisions that are fighting to heal. But I do have a question; anyone who has has a breast lift... How long does it take for the swelling of the areolas to go down. There like sticking out and puffy and look so weird even in a sports bra and shirt. I know its just swelling and it takes time but I would assume that they would at least start to have reduced swelling. Any time frame would be appreciated!
Other then normal surgical healing phases, im doing good. I dont see my doctor again for a few weeks but lll keep you updated! Xoxo