My Jouney for Removal of Giant Implants - Forked River, NJ

Hi everyone. Thank you all for reading my forum...

Hi everyone. Thank you all for reading my forum and going thru this journey with me. When I was about 20 years old I was so excited to get breast implants. I was fit but curvy and I felt i needed the extra curves on top. I was barly a small C cup. I am a total extremist and everything I do always have to be over and above. So when I got my breast implants I wanted the biggest she could do. I was a large D cup. Two years go by and they were not big enough for me. So again, I go back under the knife for even bigger implants. Then I was a large 36DDD. Both sets of implants were over the muscle. Cause I liked the "round look". I was young and skinny and they looked great on me at that time.
Well now I am a 37 year old wife and mother of 2 boys. I am much much thicker (we dont say fat) lol. I feel ridiculous with these objects in my chest. Its amazing, the older you get, when you have a large chest all of a sudden you appear older and heavier. I started noticing in pictures that I just looked huge and old. It was because of my enormous chest. Then I started looking online at breast implant removal and I saw that I liked all the small breasts the best. I thought the small breasts were so much more attractive. Now, when I look at people on tv with small "barley there" breasts they are acually more appealing to me. Its amazing how tastes change so drasticly!
I havent had any medical problems with the implants, just mild rippling. They are so uncomfortable and heavy. Im over it!
I want to share my journey with my fellow explanters and do this together. Its so cool I feel like I have a huge group of friends all going thru the same thing. Love you all and thank you for all of your storys courage and just learning to love the skin we are in!

Forgot to mention

That I am going to also get a lift and fat transfer. They are going to use ssome fat cells from my inner thigh via: lipo.
I probably wont see any change in my thighs because they dont have to use that much. My goal is to have small tiny bobbies. I want to sit without a bra and not feel like there laying on my belly. Lol
When I sleep now I have to put a pillow in between by breasts to avoid the "pulling feeling". I really look foward to laying on my side and my 2 breasts dont touch and squeeze together... ahh that will be awsome!

I started my forum a lil late

Cause I already have a surgeon lined up. But let me tell you shopping for a doctor to explant your implants is like going out to buy a car!
Just a consistent case of disappointment!
After almost every consultation my time was left crying in my car.
Every doctor was like over an hour away! I heard everything from ... that "I will not like what my breasts look like if I just remove them", to "no I dont do fat transfer", to "yea, but it will cost you $15, 000!.
It was just one thing after another.
I know that the pain that I felt with all the disappointments with the ps is nothing that I will have to deal with post op.
But yea, it was a nightmare. Thank god that search is over! Now the ps that I chose is 30 min from me and im really confident with him. He was my first choice the whole time. :)

I'm so impatient!

I WANT THIS DONE NOW!!!
I want to call the office so bad today and see if any surgeries had gotten canceled so they can get me in sooner. But I know they already think I'm a major pain in the ass. I'm calling all the time. I have 91 days to go and that seems like forever!!!! I am ready now. It's so frustrating. Ya think I should keep calling?? Lol

The saga continues. ..

I did call, they said "no cancelations yet" So I Continue To Watch My Office Countdown on my phone. Ha ha!
As my lovely ladies on here keep telling me, "use the time to get in shape"
I really am going to take there advice cause I know I'll enjoy the end result much better if I'm happier with my body. I'm sure it will make the transition easier too.
My husband is so supportive he loves me anyway I look I truly feel like the luckiest woman on the planet.
However, he's also not a "boob man". All he cares about is that I have an ass. Lol
I on the other hand am the worst critic of myself. I guess as we all are.
Well... I'm babbling my point is that.. I'm putting it out there that I'm going to try my best to get in shape since I have 91 days till my big surgery day!
I'm so lucky I have all of you to talk too. I'm sure my Husband thanks you too...cause my boobs seem to be the only thing I talk about. Now I can just vent to u girls! Yay!! *kisses*

I'm so bizarre. . but I gotta share

So I know I have been writing about how I can't wait to remove these balls from my chest, and yes I really am excited and I can't wait (90 days by the way).
But,
Is this normal??
I was just at work and I looked down at "the girls" and started thinking all the things I'll miss about them. The shirts that they look good in, I feel sometimes your eyes divert to my chest instead of the many areas I'm self conscious about, how they look in a bathing suit. Just all these things that I enjoyed about them. Do any of you go thru this? Like I am so ready to have them gone, I just still feel like my best friend is moving away and I'll never see her again. Lol
Oh god, being a girl really is hard!
I guess in reality it's just like they have been a part of me for so many years that I'm just questioning myself that I'm going to be OK with the change.
Am I going to be more confident in myself? Or more self conscious?
Am I going to regret taking them out or wish I did it sooner ....
Ugh
Mabel I'm just having one of those days... I do feel fat and gross today so mabey that's what's going on. I'm just an emotional mess. Lol
Well since you all are basic lyrics my only friends that will listen to me, I needed to share my feelings with you.
Thank you my girls, all of you. You make this so much easier for me to do such a drastic change. *kisses*

Having a better day today.

So I am having a better day today, thank god. Lol
I found pictures of my goal breasts. This is what I'm hoping for! Realistic? Not sure...
Hey a girl can dream!
And yes.... I had to look thru porn pics to find good ones. Lmao! But I tastefully cropped. Lol

Hello Girls..

Officially 68 days untill I've crossed over to the other side! (But whos counting?) Lmao!
Ok so I officially started working out last night. I made my son do it with me. Lol.
So im partially motivated to not feel gross and do something about it. I want to feel great about my body when I get the surgery cause I know if im fat with small boobs im going to focus on my belly. So I really have to stop being impulsive with food and work my ass off to get in shape! Im not sure if im telling you or me. Lmao. I kinda feel if I tell you girls then I have to not f up. Ya know.
So I will keep you posted!

Question.....

All of my post-explanters did you feel the extreme urge to buy cute bras prior to your surgery? I keep finding myself shopping online and putting a ton of bras in my shopping cart. I havent actually purchased them yet but I really want to!! Should I? I am assuming I will be a 36B. I am a 36DD now pushing a 36DDD. Thats just cause im getting bigger everyday. Lmao!
Is there any way to kinda figure out what size you will end up being?
I know.... im totally just being impatient. I know I should wait.. but do you reallize how cool it will be not to wear huge ugly bras and have pretty small feminine ones!!
Thoughts??
:)

Fingers crossed

Just emailed my surgical coordinator to see if theres been any cancelations or anything and to see if I can get a sooner surgery date!
Ugh .. patience is not my strongest quality. Lmao!
Ill let you know what she says!

Damnit

Lol. No luck. She just emailed me back, "No we dident have any cancelations. But we have you on the list"
Damn you woman!
Ugh
Im over these titties over them!

What the girls look like in a bikini top

Ok my girls...Post-op bras are ordered

Supplies? ?

Hi girls! All my post op friends, can you tell me some items I should get for my recovery? Theres so many lists out there and it seems that alot of the items probably wont even be used. So can you share with us a real world list for an easy comfortable recovery. Also im trying to avoid making my husband go out for me every 10 min cause I forgot to get things. Lol.
You girls are the best thank you! !

Ok can I vent?

Ugh! Ok so I was just reading back on my past post and I saw the one that says im 91 days away from my surgery and how I have all that time to get in shape. I ok well now im freaking so depressed cause I noticed the countdown on my phone says 59 days... guess how much weight I lost .... ugh!!!!! F-in nothing. I am so depressed. I feel so gross. In that amount of time I could of dropped an easy 10 lbs. I really dont overeat I am aware of everything I put in my mouth and I am always a complete spaz so I go at 900mph at all times!!! I should be rail thin, wtf!! And if I hear my wonderful huband tell me one more time how active he has been at work, and explaining how much weight he is losing I am going to drive screwdrivers in my ears!! I battle my weight my image and my looks constantly. I know I have an addiction to image and issues deep within myself. Its just something I have to learn to fix, somehow. Now you guys get to listen to me bitch and cry. Lmao. Im sorry. I just have no girlfriends that I trust so your all I have. I love you girls. Even though your not really here I feel like your here. Xoxoxo

Step one .... Fail. lmao!

So my first step thru this process...ordering post surgical bras. Ordered them in a large and the band was totally not snug. So I need to return for a medium. Ugh. Hate returning stuff. The amazon chart was different then the web sites chart. So my first step is a big....Fail! Lol

Yay... I feel like im sorta moving forward

Ok girls my 6, yes I said 6 week off doctors note is being mailed to me and my pre-op information! Yay! Also I have my 2 week pre-op appt set too! Appt is April 11th! Woo-hoo!! I feel like im taking a step ahead finally. Ok im pumped! I just wana do this so bad! Yes girls...today I want it done. Lmao! Im so excited bout the 6 weeks too. I just told her thats what I wanted and shes like "ok ill mail it to you" lmao!!

Forgot to tell you......

I was just messaging one of my boobie friends on here and I think I forgot to mention that noone at my work knows I have implants!! They all think im getting a breast reduction! I dont feel its anyones bissness and I have always been the kind of person that keeps her personal life out of work.
Yea, so im coming up with all these storys about my "breast reduction" to my co-workers cause they keep asking about my surgery. Lmao!! So funny.
Oh and if one more person says "save some for me, I can use some" (with a fake laugh, like I never heard it before). God help me! Lmao

47 days to go!!!

Hi girls!!!
Omg im so pumped! I cant freaking wait it feels like the days are not decreasing and time is stood still!
I have a strange question for you girls... as soon as you knew you were definitely doing the surgery, did your boobs start hurting?? Psychological, of course it is. But its weird, very soon after my booking all of a sudden my breasts started really hurting. Then I got some dryskin rash. Gross I know but this all happened after I booked!!
I dunno just weird!
But anyhow I am just so excited I offically have my doctors note for 6 weeks off of work...yay! So anyhow just wanted to touch base with u girls. Xoxoxo

I NEED TO LEARN PATIENCE!

Lol!!
Yea im dying to get this surgery done with! I swear, time is not moving at all!! I know patients is not my #1 quality but I have been waiting for my surgery since January! All my ordered supplies are starting to get shipped and thats exciting! I bought a wedge pillow for my back, a special pillow that elevates elevates your legs cause of the lipo, surgical bras and ice packs! Yay. I think I got everything! Its so freaking exciting I camt stand it! I have 42 days till my surgery and 25 days till my pre-op appt!! Yes I even have a countdown on my phone for my pre-op appt! Lmao! The only thing that was positive about waiting this long is that it gave me plenty of time to go back and fourth with my emotions... now I know for sure....IM READY. No more thought that I may regret it!
Xoxo

Previous scars.....

Here is a picture I attemted to take of my old scars ... im glad someone asked me to see them cause I dident realize how light and barley noticable they really are. Yay! Dont mind the pictures they look weird. Lol

Happy Birthday to me!

Good morning girls! Yup today is my 38th Birthday! And my countdown is officially at 29 days!!! Yay! God I cant freaking wait! Im sooo ready!

20 Days till the big day!!!

Hi girls! So not much new going on.. I cant belive its only 20 days away. Friday is my pre-op appt. Any tips on things I should ask?? Im so ready for this. Tgis month I have been busy looking at houses for rent. Im going to be moving soon. Lol. This will be an interesting recovery. My potential move in date will be May 15th! My surgery is April 28th! Omg... how the hell am I going to manage that one? Think ill feel ok by then, god I hope so! Lmao. I can use my boys to carry boxs, but all the fun girl stuff im going to have to do! Never a dull moment!
Well ill update after my pre-op appt and let you know how it goes!
Xoxoxo

Its really feeling real now!

So I went to my pre-op appointment today and it's really starting to feel real now! Im so excited! The doctor is all paid, signed all my consent forms and asked all my questions. So im set! I found out that after all my purchases of my compression bras that... I dident need them anyway! I was told that because im having the fat transfer, I cant have compression on my breasts during healing. It will kill the new fat cells! Who knew! So I dont really know what im going to do with all the bras I bought. Lol. Guess ill use them later to sleep in after I heal.
I was also told that I wont have any drains either. Im happy about that!
I asked and he told me that he is going to remove the entire capsule as well. He said if you leave them in it leaves more room and space for fluid and problems. So there going to be gone. And I think that's it. So yup.... im all set. AND IM PUMPED!!!! Its almost my time ... now 2 short weeks! Yay!!!!!
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10 (T-E-N!!!!!!) more days!
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Thank you for thinking of me! I know im so excited! The butterflys in the belly are starting but I am soooooo excited! I cant wait! Thank you for being there with me thru this! Seriously!
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Good luck
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Thank you!
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yes get capsules out for sure! i wish i had as i have had a seroma (fluid buildup) for 8 months!
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Yea...who knew. I just randomly asked and that's what he told me could happen. Im glad hes a step ahead of the game. If it wasent for you girls I wouldn't even of known to ask! Are you better now? Can you feel them under your skin??
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Go, cat, go!!! (Well, I say this to my ACTUAL cat... but I still like it) :)
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Lol
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18 Days!
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Yay!!!! Thank you for thinking of me!
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Happy belated birthday girl!! Yay countdown! It's gonna fly now :)
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Thanks girl! !! Yea im 20 days away from surgery I cant believe it! Friday is my preop appt! How are you feeling? You look like you never even had implants. Absolutely beautiful!
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Yay! Yes, I know how hard it is to wait for our surgery date! I'm having my surgery on Friday the 11th and I can't believe it's finally here! I can't wait to be on the other side!
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Congratulations! Yay for tomorrow! !! Thats so exciting! Good luck to you make sure you keep me updated!!!
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Happy belated birthday and congrats on your decision! I have to have mine, after 20 years, explanted for medical reasons tomorrow and I am so scared. Not of the pain because I have been living in constant pain for the last year but because of having them been a part of me for so long that I cannot imagine how I will feel or look at myself without them. Wish me luck and I look forward to continuing to watch your postings.
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Oh good luck to you!!! We are all here with you. Think of it this way, you get a new body tomorrow that you cam dress totally different. Its fun. And remember its not your breasts that make you sexy, its YOU that makes you sexy. Your going to do great amd in a few weeks I bet your going to say, "I wish I did it years ago"!
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And thank you for the birthday wishes!
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thank you. so kind of you to say. Unfortunately, I know that I have always been an insecure person, thus dd boobs. I do not know how to handle this all. If you look at the pics I posted, you can see that there is going to be some deformity. I am a 47 y/o divorced fem. I had hoped someone would fall in love with me before I lost my sexy boobs but no luck. I am a lost soul but hope that the saying "there is a reason for everything" certainly is true for me and I realize it sooner than later. Happy Tuesday to you and all.
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Good luck tomorrow, Dalene! I'm on my 10 day countdown and I feel the same way as you do. But, we'll get through this TOGETHER!! Be sure to keep us all posted on your progress! I'll be thinking of you and sending good thoughts your way. XO
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I don't see any pics on your profile, Dalene. Am I looking at the wrong one, perhaps?
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I'm sorry. I thought when I posted a question that the pics, along with the question, would go to my profile. any ideas on how to do that? And thank you. I can sure use all the good thoughts! xo
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I don't know how to post a blog type story like all of you nice ladies did. If I did, I would have been on here a year ago!
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good luck to you! you will be so happy when they are out!
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Thank you I believe your right!
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Happy bitthday
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