I finally made my 1 year mark!!!!!!!

I dont know where to begin :) Its been a long journey for me.back in 1999 i had my first set of implants thinking i wanted big boobs LOL!!I Back then the saying was, "go BIG or go home".So I went BIG I went from a small "A" to a FULL "D"I had saline implants,Mentor under the muscle the left was 360cc & the right was 335cc which put me at a "D".As soon as i got them i was miserable.I felt i had gained a so much weight and i instantly wanted them out. I suffered through and kept them and while having them i got capsular contraction in my right breast.Not to terrible,deffinatley still live able. A year Later i noticed one was much larger than the other.So i had the smaller one replaced with a larger one,the left was then changed to a 385 to even it out.after years of not liking them still, i decided to exchange them for smaller ones. i wanted MUCH smaller.So in 2008 i had them replaced with Silicone Mentor under the muscle. the Left was at 300cc HP & the right was 275cc HP. Explaining to my doctor i wanted to be a "B" that i was really over the big breasts. First i contracted an infection a few days after the surgery. I was uncontrollably shaking.My body was so cold but the coldness kept moving around so i had heating pads and electric blankets and it was summer time. Couldn't get a hold of my doc. So my husband being a GREAT guy. started giving me antibiotics that we had left over,"i know your not suppose to do that but desperate times call for desperate measures LOL :) "

Finally getting a hold of my Doctor he subscribed me some antibiotics and i was feeling much better.After all that then my right breast started hurting a LOT and was tightening and was as hard as a rock and now deformed. I could barely use my arm. I also discovered a swelling on the incision.So of course i contact my doctor.He wants to prescribe me Cingular for the capsular contraction which im already taking for allergies.I email him a pic of my breast incision where there is an infection. My response back from the doctor and his nurse was "that i had burnt my breast with a curling iron!" I was like are you kidding me??!!!! I would know if i burnt my breast with a curling iron.I finally got to see him in person,mind you i had a sever capsular contraction and was in soooo much pain i could barely move my arm. He told me he wouldn't touch it.He said he was going to just leave it alone. UGH!! so after living with this pain for a while a friend of mine suggested acupuncture.I know there's a lot of skeptics to acupuncture cause i was one of them,but at this point what did i have to loose.It either worked or it didn't.i wouldn't be any worse than i was.It worked a lot!!! It loosened the muscle quit a bit,so at-least its livable and soft. I still have a capsular contraction but no where near what i had. So that's my long story now im at the roads of what i want to do. I've always thought id change my implants out for some that are really small like 150cc,but after finding this site i have finally made a decision to "ex plant" im very excited and scared. Im scheduled August 10,2012 Ive met with quite a few doctors and have finally chose one in Orange county CA I am having my nipple lifted on one side just to even them up.He said i do not need a lift and i should be a "B" when all is said and done.Im really scared about doing this of course on how there going to look.I keep coming back to this site and reading everything all you ladies have gone through and its been soooo helpful to me. Everyday i keep hoping im making the right decision.I truly feel i am but still scared out of my wits :)