Back to me and feel totally free and natural - Folsom, CA
- updated 2 months ago
I've had Sientra Silicone 320cc implants under the...
- 24 Jun 2013
- 21 days pre
I have a brachial plexus (nerve) injury from the surgery
still have side effects from the general anesthesia (hormones out of whack, numbness and tingling in feet, anxiety, feeling weak, etc.)
and just feel overall weak and crappy all day.
I was in the best shape of my life before this surgery. I had just run a marathon and got my taekwondo black belt in the months prior. I was kicking ass. Thought this would be a quick recovery and I'd get back to life soon. Who knew that the tummy tuck part of this mommy makeover would have been the easier part...
I wanted to do this to enhance my life, not ruin it, so out they are coming!!
I meet with my PS tomorrow and will schedule asap. We talked briefly about it at my last appointment and he said it's a quick procedure, no need to do anything but take them out. However, I do have to have sedation. I just don't want to go under again. My body does not like medication and especially not anesthesia. I wish I could just do local and pop a valium or something. I will be begging for that and see if he will in any way consider it.
My husband also finally confessed that he really didn't want me to have it done in the first place. WHAT??!!! I wish he had told me that to begin with. I must have asked him 1,000 times if I should do this or not. He just told me what he thought I wanted to hear. Makes me mad. I was partially doing this for him and have hung on to them this long because I thought he liked them. I just wish he had been honest. Would have saved me thousands of dollars and potentially permanent problems from my nerve damage and other issues I'm now having. UGH!
PS thinks that because I've only had them in for 3 months they should go back to normal.
I'm wondering if the muscle will also heal and stop moving everytime I lift anything or flex my pec muscle. Does anyone have any comments about this? I hate that my breast moves everytime I do anything.
I know that even though I want them out badly, I am going to be in shock when I look at them. It's now hard to even remember what they used to look like. I'm going to upload before implants, with implants and then after my procedure photos for comparison.
I just want to be done with this and move on.
Explant scheduled for 7/19
- 25 Jun 2013
- 20 days pre
So, no I'm gearing up for surgery again and getting off any supplements and vitamins, motrin, etc that is on my forbidden list and getting my post op stuff together.
I'm so happy I didn't get rid of my pre op sports bras, I'll be needing them now!! I had a few that were very expensive and my favorites and was going to list them on eBay and I snatched those out of the box and they are back in my drawer! Under Armour Armor Bra and my Moving Comfort Bras are my favs.
So, I'm doing a simple removal, no capsule removal, no drains with local and a light IV sedation. I'd do it without the IV as I am not looking forward to those meds again, but he won't do it without.
Will take a few days of recovering and a few weeks off of running again.
Then I hope to be on the road to healing and hope all of my troubles with nerves, back pain, neck pain, etc start to retreat.
Back to basics and I'm ok with that. I just wish it was sooner, but with the 4th of July holiday, they are booked up until then. 3 more weeks with these boobs...
Thoughts about removing capsule?
- 25 Jun 2013
- 20 days pre
I feel like I'm car shopping... If I'm buying a new Honda, all I see is Hondas!!
- 27 Jun 2013
- 18 days pre
Sometimes Doctors just don't understand
- 3 Jul 2013
- 12 days pre
"You have had an excellent result and there is absolutely no correlation between your back pain, neck pain, etc. and your implants. However, if psychologically it will satisfy you to have them removed, yes there is no need to have the capsules removed as well, especially if they are soft. I would leave them in place because there is a good chance that you will regret having had your implants removed and will want to have them back, in which case it will be easier to re-insert them with the capsule intact."
Wow, I love how he knows my back pain isn't related. Funny, the three other doctors that I see say that it's directly related to the weight of the implants and my posture because of them. I thought it was funny that he thought I would have them replaced again later anyway. Are you kidding me? I am not going to go through all that I've gone through and have another surgery to put these things back in when I can hardly wait to get them out.
Anyway, just had to vent. I read that response and was left shaking my head. I'm so glad to have several of my own doctors and friends and of course all of you wonderful ladies on here that understand where I am coming from and that I'm not imagining that my neck and back pain are from the implants and that I didn't make the decision lightly to have them put in or have them removed. Now I just can't wait to have the out! 16 more days and counting...
Surgery is 7 days away!
- 9 Jul 2013
- 6 days pre
They took my vitals, went over post op info, gave me my prescriptions for post op pain meds, paid for the procedure and bam, pre-op done. That was fast!
Things are much easier the second time around. I'm not even nervous. I'm more excited to just get this done.
I asked questions about using my arms and muscles after surgery. He said it will be similar to the BA when I needed to not lift anything heavy for a few days. He said to take it easy the first week and wear my tight sports bra at all times and try to sleep on my back. This is all to help avoid any bleeding or fluid accumulation in the capsule.
He also told me he will be scoring the capsule to help promote it healing back together, I was happy about that.
I'm ready to get this done and move on with my life. Boobs have taken over way too much over the last 6 months. Now I just need to work on not feeling so guilty about all the energy and money spent on this entire process. I feel so bad about it. We have bills to pay and things are piling up and I spent so much on boobs, it's really disappointing. I know that this must have been a lesson I needed to learn, but gosh, I wish I could have learned it in a less expensive way.
I will be doing some cooking and cleaning over the next week so I won't have much to do after. Hubby is going to take that day off of work so he can drive me to and from and help me after. I don't think I'll need much help the day after. I'll be sore and need to rest, but my 9 year old can do many things on his own.
So, until I'm on the flat side, ciao for now!
Tomorrow is the big day...
- 15 Jul 2013
- 1 day pre
So, I'm picking up my meds today and getting ready. I've taken care of all the house stuff, yard work, cooking food for the family and now I just need to get through one more nights sleep and be at the office tomorrow at 8am.
I will update as soon as I can and let you all know how it goes.
Thanks for all the support on here, it has really helped me. :-)
Yay! They're out and I feel fantastic!
- 16 Jul 2013
- Day of treatment
I took a quick peek at them and they look just as they did before, just a little jelly like and squishy.
I'll take pics as soon as I can.
Post op in 1 week.
Thank you ladies for all of your support. It meant the world to me and I was thinking of all of you as I was going in for surgery.
Time to get something to eat, drink and take a nap!!
Day 1 Pics
- 16 Jul 2013
- Day of treatment
- 17 Jul 2013
- 1 day post
I told myself that my reward for loving myself enough to go back to natural is going to be pretty bras. I'm never wearing a plain squishy bra that is unflattering again. I would just throw on anything sometimes, no wonder I didn't like them. Thankfully I got rid of all of those after BA, so I'll be making a stop at Nordstrom and VS soon for some pretty stuff for my poor jellies. They are not to be neglected anymore. I feel so bad for what I put them through.
I found an awesome bra at target yesterday. None of my old sports bras were fitting right under my breasts, they were pressing on my incisions. I'll take a pic of it so you can see it. It was $20, but worth every penny. So comfy. And I can wear it after healing since it stretches. Went from a large to a small in a day!!
I thank all of you wonderful ladies for the support. It sure has made this process easier. My husband can only tolerate so much talking about the same thing over and over, so I'm glad I have RS to go too when I needed the support. I'll update more later. Happy healing to all!!
4 days post op
- 20 Jul 2013
- 4 days post
I've been up and down over the last few days, more ups than downs though and getting better every day. I can't wait for the incisions to stop hurting. It's hard to wear a bra because it presses on it.
We are headed out, so just a quick update and pics. Hope you are all well.
Oops, almost forgot.
- 20 Jul 2013
- 4 days post
Added a side by side comparison
- 21 Jul 2013
- 5 days post
Favorite sports bra
- 23 Jul 2013
- 7 days post
2 weeks post op already - new pics
- 2 Aug 2013
- 17 days post
I took pics yesterday at 14 days. I really don't think much has changed. They may have shrunk just a little now that all the swelling is gone, but they look like they used to look before I had implants. The only permanent thing that I am going to deal with is of course the scar, but also the muscle changes. My muscles seem to grab the bottom of my breast and pull it up about an inch when I flex my pec muscles, which of course is all the time. It's amazing how much you really use those muscles. I hate that they make my boobs jump around. I wonder if I will ever be able to do chest exercises ever again, or even push ups.
Last December, after three years of hard work, I tested for my black belt in Taekwondo. For that test, I had to do 100 pushups, from my toes. I don't think I could even do one now. It makes me sad. I know 1000's of women do this surgery every year, I just wish I hadn't ever done it. I hope that the muscles get better with time and doesn't do this quite as much, I just don't know. I also am not sure if working them more would help, or just not working them at all. I'll have to experiment when I'm released to do more.
I am not supposed to run until next Thursday, but I help coach my sons cross country and struggle with not running with the kids. I ran at practice on Tuesday and I took my son for another 2 miler yesterday. I just strap them down and go! Everything seems to be fine. They never hurt at all.
I feel so glad I took these things out of me, my body really did not like them. Now I just have to get used to the permanent changes and accept them as my new normal. I somehow got caught up in the whole plastic surgery enhancement thing and regret the whole thing. I had an entire mommy makeover at the time I had my BA and am still having issues with my tummy, well mainly numbness. My skin is all numb over my whole stomach and it's bothersome. I really wish I had left my body alone. I didn't need the enhancements, they were really just small tweaks, but have left me with some pretty major permanent issues to live with. I guess I'm feeling a little down today. I almost feel depressed at times that I did this to myself. yes, things look fine. My stomach is completely flat, my breasts are back to normal, it's my mind that needs to heal. I think it will just take time.
I'm sharing all of this so that anyone considering this knows that the roller coaster still takes some time to go away. I don't miss my implants AT ALL. So happy to be back to me. Emotions just take time.
I hope everyone is doing well. I've enjoyed seeing all the other stories on here. RS is an amazing platform for all of us going through this craziness.
Muscle Deformity with flexing
- 6 Aug 2013
- 21 days post
One more pic side by side
- 6 Aug 2013
- 21 days post
- 7 Aug 2013
- 22 days post
I just wanted to post an update. It feels so good to get back out there. Maybe tomorrow I will go cycling!!
Dr. Mabourakh was my original surgeon for my mommy makeover and he did a great job. I'm not explanting because of anything that he did. His staff is always courteous and supportive. I had an excellent result, but they just aren't for me. I would recommend him again to anyone thinking of having plastic surgery.