Finishing the Journey: MM After 100lbs Lost - Florida

I have lost 100lb over the last four years after struggling with my weight for 20 plus years. I am happily married mother of 3 (9, 7, and 5 years). Breastfeeding 3 kids plus the weight loss has left me "deflated".

I am scheduled for next week, still struggling with if "I deserve this" Wondering if I have lost enough weight for the procedures to be "worth" the pain, surgery cost and time off work. I am currently 5'5" and 157lb. I was hoping to be around 145lb for surgery, but have gained 5lbs instead of losing..total stress eating!

I have lost weight through learning to love exercise-running and elliptical mainly, so I am very nervous about not being able to exercise for (? 6 weeks!). I am use to being active, never sitting still, ultimate multitasker, so hard to imagine all this down time! I don't want overly large BA, just want enough volume to fill the stretched skin. Nervous about picking the size. Plan is for 297 cc silicone after consult appointment. Sorry so rambling, just trying to get some thoughts down! I'll post before pictures this week. So much stuff to do before the surgery!