4.5 Months out--update
- Sleepless in Turquoise
- updated 7 months ago
I am 19 years old. I have asymmetrical breasts by...
- 26 Sep 2012
- 3 months pre
I am 19 years old. I have asymmetrical breasts by a full cup size. One breast is a full A, the other is a full B. My breasts have been uneven since I began to develop as a 13 year old.
My asymmetry makes me really self-conscious with guys to the point of interfering with my relationships. Bras never, ever fit. Bikinis are a nightmare as I have to try to conceal my lopsidedness. When I wear low cut tops, my cleavage is uneven. I can only wear padded bras because when I wear molded I look lopsided. I cannot go braless even though my boobs are perky because it looks off!
So, after several months of research, I've decided to get a breast augmentation to improve symmetry. Initially, I considered doing an implant on one side only, but after thorough research I decided that while that might match my breasts for now, down the road they would become asymmetrical again as one began to sag. Also, I didn't want the difference in feel.
I consulted with 4 or 5 doctors. I finally found a doctor who said he could do silicone implants because my asymmetry qualifies my surgery as "corrective" rather than cosmetic. I prefer to use silicone because it gives a more natural appearance and feel overall. I am thin and want to avoid rippling and palpability of an implant, which is more common with saline.
I really want a natural look--I want people to not notice I had surgery, if possible. I would not be considering breast surgery if not for my asymmetry, so "big" is not the goal here. I told my doctor I would be okay with being a full C or small D (so a cup size increase over my larger breast), but no larger as I have a small frame despite being almost 5"6. I am 120 lbs.
My biggest concerns are that because the doc will be using different cc amounts, my cleavage will still be uneven as I'll have more upper pole fullness on one side. Not sure if this concern is warranted, I will need to discuss further with my doctor. But I guess no one is perfectly symmetrical. Also, I worry that because silicone isn't adjustable, I will still have noticeable asymmetry. But silicone implants come in 25 cc increments so I guess even if the difference still ends up as 25 cc or fewer, that's not going to be super noticeable unless I am looking for it. Another concern: implants come in different widths, so I don't want one side to look a lot wider. I will talk to my doc about all of this and post an update later. He is away right now.
The doctor plans to do an aerolar incision. One of my aerolas is bigger than the other. He said he could correct this but there would be a scar all the way around. I'm not sure yet if its worth it to have them perfectly even but scarred more. I feel like it is only notable that the aerolas are uneven because the breast size difference enhances it.
I am a perfectionist and a worrier by nature so of course I am certain to have lots of questions for my doc. But I'm also very excited. You don't know until you've lived with asymmetry how frustrating and humiliating it can be. No amount of people telling me guys don't care, or it's not noticeable, or I'm being silly and it's no big deal has ever made me feel better! I want normal, mostly symmetrical boobs and I want to fit into a bra like a normal woman! I like my boobs individually, but together they just do not match.
So, here begins my journey. I am planning to get surgery in December when I am home for the holidays from university. If I could I would do it now! So anxious to get it over with....less time for me to over-analyze and worry! :)
I spoke to my surgeon, and asked some more...
- 2 Oct 2012
- 2 months pre
He told me to avoid dental work post-op for 6 months and a few other interesting things. He said he does not insist on post-op massage but will teach massage techniques for those that want to do it. He doesn't think it's 100% necessary. He told me I am good to travel a week post-op as long as I have someone to carry my suitcases!! He said his rule for bras post-op is no underwire for 6 weeks. He said he needs to examine me in person but I may need 2 different implant profiles (i.e. one high profile one moderate plus or something like that). I asked him if I might have a big gap between my breasts and he said I did not naturally have a very large gap so I should be okay. He said to push gently on my breasts and see where they begin to see how big the gap will be.
Also, I asked about the rounded fake look some women end up with. He said this was due to using too large of an implant. He doesn't like to do that and agreed with me that it was an unflattering look.
I am officially scheduling surgery tomorrow, for mid or late December. Fun Christmas I'll have...lol.
My surgery is scheduled for Dec. 27th at 7:30 am....
- 17 Oct 2012
- 2 months pre
I wanted to take some better quality photos with...
- 30 Nov 2012
- 27 days pre
I think the difference between them is around 100 cc, maybe slightly more.
A few questions to anyone who has an...
- 2 Dec 2012
- 25 days pre
-Honestly, are my breasts far apart? Still wondering about potentially having a big gap...
-Do you think I'll have a hard time going back to classes after 2 weeks?
-Is it true you can't lift over 5 lbs the first 6 weeks??
Trying to decide if an areola reduction to the...
- 7 Dec 2012
- 20 days pre
I'm home from my pre-op! Doctor said he wants to...
- 21 Dec 2012
- 6 days pre
Doctor said he wants to do moderate plus and high profile, 250 and 325 cc (maybe up to 275 cc and 350 cc but I told him to err on the small side). He didn't want to go much smaller because the implant would be too narrow. My BWD is 11.6 in both breasts. I am a little worried about high profile but he does natural looking work so I trust him and it is not a large implant. I emphasized that I want to look very natural and have a nice slope. He said I shouldn't do an areola reduction on the larger areola because the negatives outweigh the positives. (Negatives=greater risk of sensation loss/breastfeeding issues, visible scar)
He also pointed out I have some chest wall asymmetry! I never realized. And that one of my inframammary folds is slightly lower. He won't change that because it is subtle.
We reviewed my goal photos and then he told me I could do either the crease or areola incision. I previously thought he only did areola. He said either incision would work well for me because my skin scars very well. I am leaning toward the crease incision only because I may want to breastfeed eventually and I don't want the slightly increased risk of losing that ability.
I later gave a urine sample and had some blood drawn (3 vials). I was given prescriptions for Valium, Keflex, anti-Nausea meds, and Vicodin.
And I paid in full!! I'm poor now.
I loooved the doctor and his staff. They were so comforting, nice and didn't rush me. I feel really confident in their abilities. Payment process was a breeze as well.
I had a great time. So excited for this coming Thursday. My mom drove me to the appointment and has been surprisingly supportive (she wasn't sure I was making a good decision when I first decided to get the surgery). And now my grandma even knows about it--she's great, she was a nurse and was just interested in anesthesia etc.
So I am happy and confident in my decision today. I am going to do a little more research on incisions; doc said I can make the decision anytime before surgery morning.
Just a quick update...surgery was today. PS said...
- 27 Dec 2012
- Day of treatment
I have full sensation on my nipples as far as I can tell and on the rest of my breasts; just not on the middle cleavage area. Hopefully that'll return. Not too concerned.
Pain is pretty severe when the meds wear off. I feel sooo tight when I stand or sit up. With meds it is bearable but uncomfortable. I feel a bit tired but pretty alert and cheerful otherwise. Have been eating hot soup, crackers, water and jello.
I hope the pain subsides tomorrow, but I am prepared to feel just as badly.
And these boobs look EVEN. Just looking at them, all high and hard and painful, makes me smile. My boobs are pretty symmetrical! Here's hoping with the bra off they still look pretty even. I know one is higher and they have different profiles and cc amounts so they may take a while to look as symmetrical as I hope they will be.
Anesthesia was great, it was twilight but I slept thru the whole thing. Don't remember much until I ended up in the car on the way home. THAT was painful. I wasn't given meds before embarking because you need to take them on a full stomach. Man oh man was I happy when the pain settled down a bit.
I was given Ambien to help me sleep. I hope I can. I am the WORST sleeper in the best of situations, and sleeping propped up seems pretty uncomfortable.
More updates tomorrow, til then, wish me luck.
Today, I woke up, having slept decently, wakening...
- 28 Dec 2012
- 1 day post
I felt a lot less pain so I refrained from taking pain pills. Went to my post-op.
I HATE MY BOOBS.
Yes, they're even---but they're SO BIG. I am gutted. I emphasized that I wanted modest. I found in today that he put in 300 and 400 cc Mod plus. That is not modest on a small frame like mine!! I am so sad. I didn't want anyone to notice, I just wanted to be even. I feel so embarrassed. I have been crying all day. I know they are swollen but I also know that when they drop they appear fuller. So upset. I don't know what to do. I am stuck with these stupid things. I feel like I am going to be "boob job girl" back at school. Even my sisters admitted they look huge. Way bigger than my sister's perky 34DDs. God knows what size they are.
I am just so distressed. I feel like I will end up revising within a few years to go smaller. I wanted in the 200-325 range, max! I am including some photos. I feel sick to look at them. I feel like a spoiled brat crying over something like this. I should be grateful they are even and that I am feeling well.
I would welcome some support. I pray they will end up looking somewhat natural. I know the size is not natural. No 5'6 120 lb girl has boobs like that from nature. :( This is literally my worst nightmare, and all my PS said was "they won't be too big, don't even worry about it, they're swollen.." etc.
God help me.
I feel they shrunk a little, or I just got used to...
- 29 Dec 2012
- 2 days post
I just want to thank every single woman who commented on my post. You are all so caring and kind, and your words of encouragement really improved my spirits and made me feel more confident. You're the best!
I added a photo of me in a cardigan/a couple others.
My boobs already move a bit when I walk and the bigger boob pre-op is getting squishy. They even jiggle a bit when I put on lotion. I've been putting cocoa butter on them a few times a day to try and avoid stretch marks and irritation. I had some old stretch marks on one boob and you can barely see them now, which is nice.
Feeling better about them. I feel no pain, just...
- 30 Dec 2012
- 3 days post
Feeling ambivalent towards them; one second I say...
- 31 Dec 2012
- 4 days post
Thanks again for all of the support, I can't tell you how comforting it is to me. You all are awesome women.
I just had someone send me an unsolicited video of...
- 31 Dec 2012
- 4 days post
Yesterday night I ended up in tears again. I think...
- 1 Jan 2013
- 5 days post
My mother took it upon herself to tell my 88 year old grandmother and aunt visiting Florida from Canada. I don't see either one very often so I'm not extremely close to them; our relationship is kind of formal. Her telling them about my surgery upset me. This is a very personal surgery, and the reason I did it has mainly been for corrective purposes because I had asymmetry pre-op.
I didn't say anything to her about how this upset me, because trust me, she wouldn't have felt she overstepped any boundaries.
Last night, my grandmother, aunt and my aunt's Welsh BOYFRIEND came over for New Years. Right in front of him my mom said,
"[SIT's sister] is sick with a cold and Sleepless in Turquoise is still sick with boobs." They all had a good laugh about that. I was in the other room but it really annoyed me.
I didn't say anything. I was wearing a new peplum top that I had purchased, size small, so it was a little loose (I am usually an XS) even with my boobs, and I swear you could not tell I had anything done unless you were looking for it.
I came out and said hi to my grandmother and she only said, "Well, I don't know which eyes to look at!" This again in front of this STRANGER (aunt's bf) who now looks very uncomfortable--I don't blame him. But it made me feel so self-conscious and re-awakened my worries about size.
I cannot tell you how uncomfortable this made me feel. I am just SO shy and modest, and my boobs were never a topic of conversation before, I don't see why they are now. I also don't think my mom told them this was mainly corrective, so they just think I randomly got big breast implants to enhance normal sized boobs (my big boob was a small C cup already, and I padded one side so in clothes you would have thought they were even despite the small one being a barely-B).
The rest of the night was ruined for me. I felt like everyone was staring at my chest (honestly, wasn't much to see in a loose top!), and I felt nauseous I was so self-conscious. I have problems with anxiety but since going to university have really overcome these issues and I am proud of that. At times like these, though, my symptoms are really exacerbated and I lose control.
I am just so eager to get home to Canada and hide these stupid things in coats and sweaters until I have accepted them. I am lucky to have really, really supportive friends who don't judge me and who encourage me. I need that kind of environment right now. My mom keeps making fun of me for getting "double-D implants" even though I've already told her no, they come in CC amounts and I did not request this." To be fair, she did say they don't look disproportionate on my frame.
I am hoping as they drop they won't stick straight out and will have a bit of hang. That looks more natural to me. They just look like huge torpedoes from the side. I am really trying to accept them but I am very bitter that my PS ignored my directive to "err on the small side, please." That is literally the last thing I said before I was unconscious, and I said it 2 or three times at my pre-op.
I know in the implant world they aren't huge, but in the real world I feel that very few women with my height and weight have boobs this big :( If they do, they don't stick straight out and have a pretty hang to them. Perky boobs are normal at my pre-op size but not at my post-op size. I guess I need to be patient for drop and fluff and hope they sit a bit better later on.
My incision is sooo itchy and sore. I actually got up in the night and took pics under my boob to see if there was a rash or anything. It's so weird not being able to move my boob up and look at the crease like when they were smaller. My right boob is very very squishy for this early and it moves around but the left one is pretty rigid and much firmer. I get that this is because they were asymmetrical pre-op and they have 100 ccs of difference, but I do hope they feel pretty similar when they are fully healed, because it would be weird if one boob was super jiggly and one wasn't. (That's how they were before, but they were a full cup size different so it makes sense that a medium boob would bounce more than a small one).
Sorry for all of these complaints. :( I really am trying to be positive, I just have to vent somewhere, and you are the lucky outlet for my frustrations ;) The creepy video yesterday made me frustrated and emotional to being with, so all of this other drama made things worse, and I am tired of not sleeping well because of my itchy boobs.
Happy New Year everybody, and thanks again for reading and commenting, it really makes my day. I must check this site 10 times a day because the comments are all so helpful and just what I need when I start feeling glum. :)
Just took my new measurements: Bust: 34 in (in...
- 1 Jan 2013
- 5 days post
Bust: 34 in (in surgical bra)
Waist: 24.5 in
Ribcage: 26 in
Hips: 35.5 in
So not too disproportionate I suppose. I suspect the bust measurement will get bigger when some of the fullness leaves the upper pole, but hopefully not by more than an inch or two.
Bust used to be around 32.5 or 33 in so I can tell there's a lot of compression going on.
Added photos of me in the peplum top; you can see...
- 2 Jan 2013
- 6 days post
My bigger boob w/ the smaller implant is dropping really well, still jiggly and squishy (although only to a point, it's definitely firm in the center). Smaller boob doesn't seem to have budged much. I was expecting that, it seems logical. I had two different boobs pre-op, so it's like two operations. I'm sure they'll catch up to one another in a few weeks.
Okay, I am still trying to be positive. If my...
- 3 Jan 2013
- 7 days post
I woke up with morning boob but it went away really quickly! I feel great now. I have a lot of my strength back; can pull open sliding doors, put things in the microwave, etc etc without gasping or feeling really uncomfortable. An interesting thing: I did have a muscle spasm near my collar bone. Really creepy. I could see the pectoral muscle twitching under the skin. I researched it and this is normal. Kind of made me feel badly that I was making my poor muscle stretch so much, but it will adapt.
Also, sorry if TMI: I believe I have a yeast infection from the antibiotics. I've never had one but my middle sister gets them once a year or so (she has Cystic Fibrosis, a genetic illness, and often needs antibiotics to prevent lung infections), and she confirmed my symptoms. Bleh. So icky, but c'est la vie. I will have to get some over the counter meds.
Sent a photo to my ultra-conservative sis who lives in NYC of me clothed, she said they don't look too big. Glad to hear everyone confirm this.
Also, I notice my boobs already move to the side a little when I lie down, like natural boobs! I love that. I was hoping they would. The squishy factor seems about the same. They're still not very soft, kind of remind me of dodge balls. haha. But I don't expect them to feel "real" this early. Still have my bit of jiggle.
Next post-op appt. on Tuesday, then off to Montreal on Thursday to brave the cold. I am excited to leave Florida and get back to my routine. I happen to be a nerd so I'm looking forward to getting back to school--taking some really great classes this semester ;)
Brief update. Morning boob, went away with in 15...
- 4 Jan 2013
- 8 days post
Anyway, so not fun. But otherwise I am good. Yesterday I went to the mall, out for lunch/dinner (really living the high life with my Christmas money. haha). Had lots of stamina, though my boobs did get sore by the end of the day.
On a sad note I wore my fitted white crochet dress to dinner and I think my boobs looked huge. I felt like everyone knew they were fake. :( I try to remind myself that my old boobs looked bigger in that dress too because of the knit. Still can't entirely shake the feeling I'm going to need to revise for smaller down the line...I'll post a pic of the dress so you can see what I mean.
Just added a photo to show how squishy they are...
- 4 Jan 2013
- 8 days post
Still sleeping propped up a bit because I find it...
- 5 Jan 2013
- 9 days post
Still morning boob but they feel fine this morning now that I'm up. Really not very tight anymore but I can't say they feel like "me" yet. I can still feel something sitting on my chest and stretching.
Last night I had a really sharp pain on the side of my left boob. I figured out that it was the nerve from my nipple to the side of my chest. It must be regenerating. Controlled pain with extra strength Tylenol. I've been taking Tylenol frequently, it keeps aches and soreness at bay.
I'm not noticing my boobs dropping a lot...hmmm...though if you compare "squishy" photos they seem softer.
5 days until I go home (to Montreal)....getting excited. I miss the snow and my apartment. I keep dreaming of falling alseep in my own, comfortable bed, not the guest room bed at my parents' house. haha.
That's all for now!
Yesterday was a great day! Started out gross but...
- 6 Jan 2013
- 10 days post
As I was saying to Cinnamon Girl, it's like a light switch went on yesterday. My boobs seemed to drop all of the sudden. I did feel great yesterday, pretty much like I never had surgery, but my cramps were so bad I didn't think about boobs. When I finally did look in the mirror my jaw dropped. It's like they dropped overnight. They are still high up, so I am starting to getting excited about how they're going to look in a month, 2 months, a year...I know implants are like a fine wine in the beginning stages, as time passes they get better-looking. (Unless you encounter a complication, so I'm not out of the woods yet).
I have been sleeping propped up because every time I lay flat I felt like my boobs were a person sitting on my chest and I got sore. Last night I was feeling so great I decided to sleep flat. Slept like a baby! No discomfort. I woke up once because I was about to turn on my side. Stopped that, lay flat and fell back asleep. Yay!
Also, tried on my 32 DDD bra that I bought...on day 5, it felt tight, but now it's roomy so it will definitely fit after drop and fluff in my estimation. That made me happy too! Tried on my best friend's 30 FF Freya bra and it was too big! She'll be happy to know she's still the bustiest roommate ;) I know we're not supposed to base our happiness on cup sizes but I know a lot about bra sizing and was hoping I wouldn't size out of a 28 FF/G. 32 DDD is the cup volume equivalent to a 28 FF/G.
Speaking of bras, please measure yourself properly! Google "A Sophisticated Pair's" bra calculator. The add 4/5 inches to your ribcage measurement is outdated and was created by manufacturers to shoehorn us all into a few sizes. My ribcage is 26 inches, so even a 32 band is 6 inches too big! (Just bought it to have a loose bra for the first few months). Pre-op, I was a 28 DD or 28 E, so don't let the sizes fool you. In proper sizing, a D is quite small. It represents only 4 inches over the ribcage measurement. (I.e. if you're 30 inches below, 34 inches over fullest part of bust, you're a 30 D).
As for my boobs being bigger than I wanted, every time I get that thought I interrupt myself and think about something else. Positive thinking! I've never been good at that but I'm getting better!
Anyway, end of rant. Best to everyone, thank you for your unwavering support--I think you're all awesome. Still don't know what I would do all of you and without RealSelf.
I feel great! Almost like I never had surgery. No...
- 7 Jan 2013
- 11 days post
I do notice my surgical bra feels tight and when I take it off it has left marks on my breasts, so I'm trying to avoid wearing it. In my post-op instructions it says to wear another wireless bra if the surgical bra feels too tight. I've been wearing my bralettes instead. Think I will pop over to somewhere cheap like Kohls and get a loose sports bra. I had bought one in a 32 DD for post-op but it's too tight on my incisions. Will probably be able to wear it eventually, just not now.
Oh, and one thing I'm noticing post-op that kind of funny: under boob sweat!! haha. This won't be an issue back in Montreal for several months. But here in Florida it makes me laugh. My old boobs were really small/perky and barely had a crease. I never had "under boob" anything, let alone sweat. Pretty funny. I feel like I need to subscribe to a "big boob problems" newsletter now.
Best to everyone! Seeing my PS tomorrow...
I wore a new, fitted dress out to dinner last...
- 8 Jan 2013
- 12 days post
I had a weird allergic reaction last night, I couldn't breathe and needed to take a lot of Benadryl etc. It is not implant related, I think I'm allergic to black pepper. Ugh.
Seeing my PS today for the last time before heading back to Montreal!
I'm going to mention that my boobs seem a bit big but I'm feeling a lot better so I won't make a huge deal out of it. Just curious to see what he says and I want to put it out there so that if I'm still unhappy later on he can't say I never said anything.
Saw my PS yesterday afternoon. He and the nurse...
- 9 Jan 2013
- 13 days post
The nurse picked off a little bit of the tape from my incisions. There are scabs on the incisions. I forgot to ask my PS if/when I should start a scar treatment. I always get nervous for some reason and all of my questions desert me.
My PS also pulled out an after photo to show me something and I was a little spellbound upon seeing my old boobs. I'm already forgetting them. My first thought was how uneven they were! It was pretty obvious even at first glance. And also what a nice shape they were! I hope they become that shape again as they drop and fluff.
Still experiencing morning boob, though it fades quickly. FINALLY heading to Kohls today for some wireless/sports bras. And tomorrow, Montreal at last! I'm a bit worried about my suitcase but I'm hoping kind strangers can assist me. I'm checking my bag so not too much help needed. And I'll be taking a cab to my apartment so the driver can lift my suitcase in and out of the car.
I was also thinking that for the first time in my life, I'm not ashamed of my boobs! I actually LIKE looking at them when I go to take a shower. And I wouldn't be ashamed for someone else to see them either, once they heal a bit. I know my pre-boobs weren't disgusting or horribly disfigured, but they sure bothered me. Sometimes it just gets old to worry about hiding your unevenness all the time. Or to worry about whether the person you're dating will notice/care that your boobs are wonky.
I had so many people tell me "Oh, plastic surgery is bad. Love yourself the way you are. You'll end up wanting to 'fix' everything once you start."
That's just stupid to me. If I have a defect and I want to fix it, there's no good reason I should suffer and not change it! Then I will be able to move on and not worry about this slight genetic abnormality that I was "blessed" with. And I think that's just what I'll do when these are healed. I am very happy with the rest of me, and always have been. Boobs can't fix your problems, but if your problem was your boobs, then maybe they can ;)
Took the advice of Scrappy and AesSedai and went...
- 9 Jan 2013
- 13 days post
Finally back in Montreal. What a terrible ordeal!...
- 11 Jan 2013
- 15 days post
My boobs feel really squishy! Not "real" or anything, but kind of like stress balls. When there was turbulence in the plane my boobs were bouncing a bit. They're squishy but firm. They're improving. I hope they feel more realistic in the end. I know it's early. When I lie flat they feel very hard. When I bend over they're the softest. I haven't seen any progress with dropping etc since my last photo. I think I am going to ignore my boobs for a while and focus on my classes. I am still a bit worried about the size. My roommate has always been the "busty" friend and my boobs are larger now, significantly so. Although she is a few inches shorter and a bit thinner. Also, while I have hips, I don't have much of a butt at all, so that's a bit off. At least when my boobs were small my butt didn't look so flat.
I also got a nasty breakout all over the top of my boobs from the cocoa butter clogging my pores. I'm going to let the break-out clear up and then use Cetaphil lotion instead, as it's non-comedogenic. It's annoying though, I can't wear anything below the collar bones or it looks like I just casually have terrible acne on my chest. Yuck.
Anyway, I feel fine now, the boobs aren't that sore considering what I subjected them to, and I am very very happy to back home. My roommate is having a party tonight. I hope I'm allowed to drink? I think it should be fine, I'm not planning on dancing on tables haha.
That's all for now!
OMG, when I woke up this morning, I actually said...
- 12 Jan 2013
- 16 days post
I did drink last night, but not much. I had two small drinks and felt very tipsy--guess my alcohol tolerance is very very low now. I'm not a big drinker in the best of times anyway. But aside from low tolerance, I was fine.
I slept without a bra, as my post-op booklet says it's okay now 2 weeks out. Maybe that contributed to the softness this morning.
I found I tired pretty easily yesterday. I went grocery shopping, made lunch etc, very low-key, but was a bit sore. Probably my body is still exhausted from travel and recovery.
No one seemed to notice that I had my boobs done! I had 10 of my good friends over and not one said a thing. I was wearing the green peplum shirt. The funny thing is that all of my friends, except for a couple, are very busty. I'm easily in their league now but they were talking about bra sizes and still no one bat an eye. I also wore a scoop neck, looser sleeveless lace top earlier in the day and still, I swear no one blinked. Yay! I'm sure that in a bra and topless there would be absolutely no way not to notice, but my friends know I sometimes wore the add 2 cup sizes bra, so they probably figure that's what I'm wearing, if they notice at all. I look pretty similar to how I did in that bra, maybe slightly bigger.
Now just wanting my boobs to drop, drop, drop. I know they're not super high but to me they look a bit like round globes on my chest. But it's only 16 days out, I have a bit of time ;)
Woke up this morning, looked in the mirror when I...
- 13 Jan 2013
- 17 days post
Adding new photos! Take a look. I think they'll always seem a bit big to me, but as they settle the size isn't such an issue because they still look pretty natural. Someday I will probably downsize, like if I need to do a revision for CC/rupture or other complication.
I'm changing my status to "worth it" because for the first time ever, I looked at my boobs in the mirror and said "wow!" instead of "eek!" haha.
Best to everyone. Classes tomorrow.
I keep thinking I should stop updating daily and...
- 14 Jan 2013
- 18 days post
Went for dinner with an old (male) friend. He was like, "Wow, you look good," and then stared right at my chest! ahaha. I know him really really well, and we're not linked romantically at all, so I was waiting for him to say "Did you boobs get bigger?" but he just complimented my sweater. So I don't think he fully realized why I looked so "good." I was all prepared to tell him I was wearing a new padded bra. Just thought that was funny. It was a pretty loose sweater, too, but I guess he's known me for a while so he would notice any change, even if he can't pinpoint it.
Anyway, I feel great. I can't even feel my implants inside of me anymore. They spread to the side like real boobs when I lay down, they jiggle a bit, etc. I forget I even have them sometimes!
I have noticed my bigger boob pre-op's beginning to look quite different from my smaller boob. I'm hoping it is just dropping faster because it has a smaller implant and more tissue. It has more side boob, looks smaller somehow, and has more of a slope. We'll see. Either way they're still 50X more even than they were before. I actually looked at all old pictures of my boobs last night and almost cried. They were so lopsided! In pictures, they don't look as bad as they were in real life. I just wonder how I ended up with this genetic abnormality? No one else in my family has it. Oh well, so happy it is an easy fix, and I already feel so confident in my decision to change them. It definitely took all of my courage to do this. If you met me in real life, you'd see I'm not very "gutsy" or adventurous. I'm just very cautious, reserved and conservative. I still am kind of shocked I went through with the whole thing, but again, so glad I did.
I can hold a pencil under my right boob! haha....
- 15 Jan 2013
- 19 days post
I still have a break out on top of my boobs from the cocoa butter I put on a week ago. I can't seem to shake it!!! :( So limiting. I can't wear anything remotely low cut. I'm talking even a crew neck. Bleh. I am going to wash my chest with my Cetaphil and moisturize it with non-comedogenic moisturizer every day, hoping that'll help.
I noticed tiny burst blood vessels on top of my left boob...hoping this is not the beginning of stretch marks...fingers crossed.
That's about it for today. I have all of my energy back, get twinges now and then when pushing heavy doors open etc. I used a hole punch and what a weird feeling!! My boobs moved with the muscle and it just felt odd.
1 DAY past 3 WEEKS! Time keeps rushing by! Woke...
- 18 Jan 2013
- 22 days post
Woke up this morning and made myself late to class because I freaked out and thought I had begun to develop big red stretch marks on my breast. I slathered them with cocoa butter etc and ran to class. I just got home a few hours later and I'm so relieved. Upon closer inspection, my "stretch marks" were marks from my pajamas. I'm so paranoid. I know I'm prone to stretch marks so I'm just waiting to wake up with millions of them. Does anyone know when I'm in the danger-free zone, and they will not develop if they haven't already?
Also, when I lie flat, my boobs feel very hard compared to when I'm upright or even at a slight incline. Will this change or will they always feel firm when I'm lying down? I feel like it would be awkward if someone I'm dating tries to feel me up when I'm laying down and they get a handful of...rock hard implant. lol.
Meanwhile, my boobs are getting more and more squishy. My right boob pretty much feels like my old, tiny boobs! The left is coming alone but slightly firmer. I forced my poor roommate to squeeze righty and she remarked that that boob feels "almost real." Hopefully they keep getting squishier! It's so fun to wake up each morning and feel myself up for changes ahaha. I am too creepy.
Meanwhile, I loooove my classes so far this semester, and time is already flying. I am going out tonight to a bar for the first time since pre-op. I'll try and post a pic of what I end up wearing, I think I can show off these things a little bit by this point ;)
I was joking to my roommate that it's a good thing in all of my FB photos I am wearing the add 2 cup sizes bra, because I do not look any different now! (But the padding is internal).
Best to everyone, have a good weekend.
I did end up going out last night, but just...
- 19 Jan 2013
- 23 days post
I'm a bit annoyed because it still feels uncomfortable to sleep on my side. I keep trying and end up lying flat again. The boob I'm not lying on feels heavy and tugs, while the one I am lying on feels squished and weird. It's annoying because I don't sleep as restfully on my back. For example, I got in at 3 am and I woke up at 8:30 am...usually I'd sleep til noon. I'm so tired now! Definitely staying in tonight and watching a movie or doing some reading for class. I've been fighting a cold too.
That's all for now!
Feeling a little discouraged because I feel like...
- 22 Jan 2013
- 26 days post
Haven't updated in a while because I was boring...
- 26 Jan 2013
- 30 days post
Progress: left breast is still dropping and fluffing more slowly. Righty is really looking natural. She even "sits" a bit, i.e. not completely perky, looks very natural without being at all saggy.
Including some photos of me in 32 DDD bra, you can see they're looking more natural.
Here's a complaint:
I wore something more fitted to a party last night, and my friend said, "you have such nice boobs!" when she saw me..haha. I'm positive she still didn't figure it out. If she does ask I'll use the birth control excuse. But then later on my roommate told me the top made my boobs look "huge" and that it would be "slutty" to wear it to class (I didn't, but thought it was fine)...upset me because it's one of my favorite tops. It showed no cleavage, just was fitted and hit right above the hips so I looked curvy. My roommate's going through some sort of existential boob crisis because she's always been really busty for her petite size, but she's lost 15 pounds and now she's a small (proportional, I think) C cup instead of a full D. Her boobs are also different than mine in general: they "hang" more and are a lot more mushy than mine ever were, I have very dense and firm boobs naturally. So then she starts saying, "Well, at least my boobs are still fun to play with, it would be creepy if they were small AND firm." Of course I was kind of offended. My old boobs were the epitome of small and firm, haha. But they were also really really perky. I have never heard any guy say, "Her boobs are too perky and naturally firm, it's weird." haha. And I loved my old boobs, they were really pretty IMO, just very asymmetrical. I think my roommate just feels insecure now that she's no longer the big-boobed friend. She kept dropping hints about my boobs in front of our friends. She'd say, "Are you wearing a bra?!" (I wasn't, but you couldn't tell, had nipple covers on, my sports bra was too bulky under the top). That almost gave me away right there because I am known for wearing padded bras. If I had admitted to no bra, everyone would know right away that something was up, no one's boobs are that big and perky braless unless they are genetically gifted (which they know I'm not) or are wearing heavy padding or have IMPLANTS. Eek!
Anyway, I feel great, no pain in boobs. I am spitting a stitch on one incision, waiting for that to go away, and my scars are healing, they still have tiny scabs in places so I'm waiting for them to heal before putting scar treatment on them. My PS never told me to put anything on them, but I would like to for peace of mind. Anyone have recommendations?
My boobs feel softer everyday. When do they reach their final softness? Also, no one did tell me, do they ever stop feeling so firm when I am lying flat on my back?
Everyone have a great weekend! Yay for 1 month sans complications or other issues, praying I continue to heal well.
Haven't seen a whole lot more progress...I'm...
- 2 Feb 2013
- 2 months post
I just want to say one thing: I am happy! I like my body from head to toe!
Everyone always says, "Oh as soon as you 'fix' your boobs you'll move on to the next thing and you'll never be satisfied."
Not true. I knew that my boobs were abnormal. I knew they bothered me and always would bother me.
I feel so much more normal and pretty with even boobs. I can look in the mirror naked and say, "Wow, I look great!" instead of "I look really nice, too bad about my boobs though..."
So if you're on the fence, I'd say do it if you know your boobs are your major hang-up and that fixing them would make a big difference. I already have no regrets about my decision. Of course, that could change, but for now I feel like an emotional weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I will never be ashamed of my boobs again. I look in the mirror and think, "This is how I was supposed to look all along!"
In other news, sleeping well on my side and half on my stomach. No pain, no back aches, no foreign feeling. Still numbness underneath my breast which is a bummer but I have gained some sensitivity in my nipples. Still no one knows I got my boobs done unless I have told them.
All the best to everyone! Will update at the 6 week mark. PS says 6 weeks is when I should have a pretty good idea of my final results. Drastic changes will be over. Time is flying!
I am 6 weeks post-op today. I have been great but...
- 10 Feb 2013
- 2 months post
I have been great but having the occasional pain...not sure about why I'm feeling that way all of a sudden. The feeling is more of an ache, and I've been having some back pain..but my breasts do not feel heavy. I think the muscles are just continuing to loosen up and stretch.
Still wearing 34 DD/ 32 DDD.
Boobs are pretty squishy. I've found:
-they are squishiest when I'm bending down. They feel completely natural.
-they are firmest when I'm laying on my back. They feel unnatural.
-they are fairly squishy sitting up. They feel 7/10 towards being natural. The left breast is about a 6/10 and the right is an 8/10 on a scale of one to 10 10 being completely natural 0 being like a rock
Hoping they continue to soften.
Talked to my PS, he said:
-use scar treatment w/ Silicone in it.
-I can massage my left breast, who is firmer and a bit more stubborn
-my left breast, being much smaller pre-op and w/ a much bigger implant, will always be 6 WEEKS BEHIND my right breast. Was a relief to hear this because lefty is significantly firmer and less jiggly than righty and I was beginning to worry about CC.
I am noticing in photos that my left breast sits a little lower and looks a bit bigger than righty. In real life (the mirror, etc) it isn't noticeable. If you look at my pre-op photos, one boob did sit lower.
This doesn't bother me at all. A little asymmetry is normal and natural.
Oh! And I'm now allowed to wear underwire bras. Yippee, no more nipples showing through; I can wear fitted stuff more comfortably!
Including 2 photos:
-1 of me in a looser sweater/jeans to show how they are hidden
-1 of my naked boobs to show progress. I haven't noticed that they've changed much at all in the past couple of weeks.
No real changes since week 4, I'll put up another...
- 17 Feb 2013
- 2 months post
I felt good, have the odd pain here and there when I use my muscles a lot. Heading to the gym tomorrow, found a great sports bra from LuluLemon, the 32DD "Tata Tamer." Happily I don't look obscene or anything in work out attire.
My boobs feel pretty squishy and natural now. Still a bit firm when I lay on my back. I also dislike how when I raise my arms or spread my arms, they turn into two round balls on my chest, but what can you do : /
They are still jiggly and bouncy, but about as bouncy as my old small boobs.
I bought some silicone scar cream called Scar Zone from the pharmacy. Have been applying it twice a day for a week or so. I couldn't start earlier because I still had scabs and a spitting stitch, which fell out on its own. My scars are still pretty red. They're also longer than I expected. One is about 2 inches long! The other is 1.5 inches or so. I really hope my scars fade well. They're quite unsightly right now when I lay down. I want some silicone gel scar strips but can't find them anywhere. Have also been trying to massage my scars. The doctor said I have a good complexion for scarring, but I don't seem to be doing well with that so far. Posting a pic of my longer scar.
Hi everyone! Life has been crazy! I have literally...
- 24 Mar 2013
- 3 months post
My boobs are doing well. They are very squishy and natural. I have had several drunk friends squeeze them (the life of a college student...); no one has noticed that they are fake. They look really natural in daily life. They jiggle, even in a bra, and bounce when I go up and down stairs.
I have developed a lot of stretch marks on my smaller boob (pre-op, that is), which is discouraging. I know they fade, though. My other boob already had some faded stretch marks from puberty so I guess now my boobs are truly even! I guess I don't have great skin elasticity? Weird because my old boobs were extremely perky and self-supporting, but I guess that has more to do with the internal structure of the breast.
I have yet to show my boobs to a guy, and I'm okay with that. The scars are still really red and visible so I know that a guy would realize my boobs are "enhanced." And I just don't want to explain that right now. Sure, if I were really serious about someone I'd be okay with it, but for a casual fling, it isn't worth it. I don't want to be the center of gossip. I'm too busy for guys right now anyway! I do think that when I decide I'm comfortable revealing these things, I'll be very confident. I mean--they're even now! I feel normal!
I should note that my boobs seem to be more squishy now when I lay flat on my back; hoping this continues to improve.
They still look pretty funny when I raise my arms over my head: they turn into big round balls.
I am including some new photos. I was fooling around with photobooth and took some. I also am including a photo of me in a dress to show how absolutely natural and "normal" they look day-in-day-out, for those more conservative women like me.
As always, let me know if you have Qs!
Thinking of going bathing suit shopping tomorrow...wonder what size top I need as a 32 DDD?
Okay, so the more research I do, the more it seems...
- 30 Mar 2013
- 3 months post
Hi everyone, It's been about 4.5 months, so I...
- 12 May 2013
- 5 months post
It's been about 4.5 months, so I figured I'd do another review.
My breasts look pretty nice. Still very natural and clothes and pretty natural naked. Both breasts are very squishy and feel close to natural.
I will make a list of some pros and cons thus far:
-symmetrical breasts, my biggest goal, has been realized
-larger breasts to balance out my hips
-breasts look natural for the most part
-fairly easy to find bras that fit (easier than when I had lopsided boobs, for sure)
-look very nice in clothing
-scars are still very red at 4.5 months out (doctor informs me this is normal)
-breasts feel very unnatural when I lay supine
-breasts look unnatural when I raise my arms
-some clothing/bathing suits are very hard to fit with larger breasts
-bad stretch marks on left breast (it was smaller pre-op and has 100cc more)
Overall, I do not regret my implants at all and I would do it again. Unless you have uneven breasts, you don't know how nice it is to finally feel "normal" and symmetrical. I can grab any bra or top and not worry about looking lopsided or awkward. Bathing suits are no problem; no one-sided padding necessary to look normal.
I reiterate that if fat grafting becomes a more trusted, viable option, and if I had the money and health, I would remove my implants and do that. I am fine with my implants and I think they look nice, but of course I would love to be "natural." For now, I would recommend this surgery to any woman who is living in extreme discomfort or shame due to her breasts. However, to women who merely want a little boost, I would suggest push-up bras. This is not a surgery to be taken lightly :) Do your research, weigh your options, and make the decision that is right for you. I did, and I am very happy now.
Adding a photo taken today at 4.5 months post-op. Had a follow-up with my doc last week and he said everything looks fantastic--he said my scars are fine and should lighten, it just takes time.
As always, I am happy to answer any questions. That's why I made the review!
Love to everyone!
Please PM me for doctor's name. My doctor was highly rated on Real Self and on other online reviews. I liked how natural a lot of his before/afters looked. He did a fantastic job. My breasts are completely symmetrical, pain was minimal, my breasts look natural already, and the doctor was very kind and compassionate throughout the process, as was his staff. My one complaint is that he went a bit bigger than I asked, but I have become happier with the size as time goes by. I would recommend this doctor to any friend or family member.