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I posted this under a comment, but wanted to...

I posted this under a comment, but wanted to create my own experience,too, so that maybe others going through a similar experience can reply. Thank you for listening.:). I had my first botox injections Nov 11 for crows feet ,brow and forehead, and undereyes. Surprisingly, although my injections were under my eyes and were injected extremely deep into the muscle, I responded fairly well and I guess I can say"liked the results". They seemed to wear off fairly quick, and I thought I would do it again to remain wrinkle free(forgot to mention that I barely had wrinkles in the first place.just a few smile lines on side of crows when I smiled). Feb 23rd, I went to my local medi spa at a nearby mall for more botox. The girls there told me about dysport and it worked just as good as botox, but lasted longer and told me it was cheaper than botox after the $50 rebate.

So, stupid me, sat in the chair and got 50 units into my forehead,crows and to top me off :( she gave me one injection under the middle of my left eye, after i told her not to. And that is where my nightmare began. I had the typical reaction that I have heard from so many women on this forum, the droopy face, bags under both eyes, creepy skin near my mouth. It has been hell. I had been going to the gym daily and running for 5 miles to get the toxin out of my body. I was seeing improvement under my eyes, but the loose ,saggy skin under my eyes was just horrible. I was started to panic because in a couple weeks actually have to go away to accompany my husband on a trip. July 9th I went to a very well known plastic surgeon to discuss w/ him my under eye situation . I went in knowing that I would get botox again to my forehead to tighten it up a bit and get rid of those half moons above my eyebrows which are now back after 4 1/2 mos. post dysport. Thought that might boost my spirits?!. The day I was to meet w/ the PS, I had a breakdown and cried. The skin under my eyes was so loose and baggy, not tight and firm like it used to be. My crows feet were back and when I smiled they would crinkle up and bunch up. I pulled myself together and went to the Dr., depressed about my appearance. I told him my story and he really didn't believe it was the dysport which pulled the skin under my eyes down. I told him it was and went onto to tell him that I didn't look like this in Feb. I showed him pics as proof. He said that he has heard that alot from women who claim that they don;t think they could've aged in a few months!?!? I went crazy and told him that I didn't look like this Feb 23rd. He offered botox for my forehead and said that botox on the side of my eyes(crows) would make the bunchy creases there when I smile look better. He did say that it wouldn't firm up the saggy undereyes.

Before I agreed to all, I (emotionally,w/ tears in my eyes )just asked him if I would look better, and he said yes. So, I did it. 34 units to forehead, brow and crows. I came home and immed. saw the difference and felt my face get tighter. I was thinking..hmm...maybe that was all I needed was just more botox? Not so sure. the next morning I woke up w/ huge hammock sized bags under both eyes , and crinkly eyes when I smile. Yep, chipmunk,swollen face,too. My skin is still saggy on my face. I am so upset. I am an avid gym goer, was running 5 miles a day, weightlifter. My diet is impeccable, no sugar,carbs,salt. I don;t drink or smoke. Fitness and competing is my life. Needless to say, I have been home in hiding since Monday when I got home.. I hope I didn't set my healing process back now that I had more botox done after being "clean" from dysport for 4 1/2 mos. I think my skin was probably just going to beging the tightening up phase? I am heartbroken. I feel for my poor husband who has to live w/ a depressed wife who used to be so happy,fun and care free. If anyone out there has encouraging words/advice/opinions...anything at all, I welcome all of it. Tomm I have an appt to go talk to another dr. for advice and one again on Mon. I think a lower bleph might be ordered to pull up my saggy eye/cheek skin that seems to have dropped in mos.. It feels good to finally post my story and share with you all. Thank you for being there.xo

I am wondering if anyone can recommend a good skin...

I am wondering if anyone can recommend a good skin tightening serum /lotion to use to try and keep the skin tight while going through this horrible process? I am also wondering of anyone has any thought about running? I had been running 5 miles a day. It was exhausting-haha-, but afterwards I felt like it tightened up my skin and made me look and feel better. 4 1/2 mos after my 2nd dysport treatment and once it stared to wear off and my saggy face that was once tone was coming back, I started second guessing the running and wondering if it may have made things worse ? Once the toxin starts to wear off and the muscles are trying to regain strength do you think it's a good idea? I could sometimes feel my cheeks bounce...Now that I just botox again 5 days ago like a complete moron, I don't want to create anymore damage until I am back to normal...which can't come soon enough. If anyone can shed some light on running post botox, I would love it. Thank you so much.xo

Almost 6 weeks post last botox treatment and...

almost 6 weeks post last botox treatment and almost 6 mos post dysport nightmare. I wake up and still have huge slanty eye bags under my eyes. Under eye area still hollowed out and fat pads have dropped ,as well as cheek drop. I started doing Eva Frazier facial exercises the past few days and feel that my face feels tighter. I am being careful,though, to make sure I don;t get any new rinkles from these exercises, especially when squinting..the bridge of the nose bunches up and lines form, so I try to lift that area up while doing the exerercises. What else....I am looking into caci facials.have a call in to a woman in my area who offers them(hard to find ). Besides that, I am drinking a gallon of water a day, taking suppl's, following a clean diet and doing an hr of cardio a day, which really makes me look better afterwards. I have seen a couple of PS to feel them out regarding my situation. Of course , they suggest lower blephs and cheek lifts. I was honestly considering having these procedures done, but came to my senses the other night after reading older posts from Melty and a few other women, who have and are still seeing improvements even after 2 years! I am going to try and ride it out. I am deathly afraid of having a surgery debacle , so I plug on.....I will get back to "normal" and prove these dr's wrong who tell me that I can't! Hope everyone is healing nicely . xo

Almost 11 weeks post Botox treatment and I am...

Almost 11 weeks post Botox treatment and I am looking like myself again...crows feet are back...forehead has dropped down to it's normal position again . I can never predict if I will have sm bags below my eyes upon waking in the morning..it is a guessing game.all in all,though, the hammock sized slangy under eye bags have dissipated remarkably .they now are smaller in size when I do have them.cardio seems to alleviate them even more . My crows feet are back ,as well as more under eye wrinkles,especially under my left eye which I never had before.my tiny crows feet were localized to the side of my eyes,which were much easier to hide w my hair! When I smile the crows feet aren't flat to my face .they have puffy appearance to them. I can' t wait until this resolves itself. So, I am now waiting it out...deciding if I want to do just my forehead again in a month or so..for me, I think these crows feet I have still look better than when I Botox my crows feet area. What happens after that,to me, looks a lot worse than a more natural look. I am considering an under eye lift ...giving it serious time to ponder because the thought of looking worse post op scares me to death.

Update-4 mos and one week post botox for crows...

Update-4 mos and one week post botox for crows feet, forhead and glabella. As botox has continued to wear off the past month or so, I now have more wrinkles directly below my eyes( I did not have undereye injections). Undereye area is puffy ...worse some days other than others even though my lifestyle is consistent 365 days out of the year. I see a slight droop in my forehead(left side) and a couple new lines on my forehead which were not there before. With the approaching holidyas coming up, I just want to look my best, as we all do, going to holiday parties,etc..I have thought about getting more botox to my forehead to give me a lift, but I am not. I see that since I began getting botox and dysport a year ago, it has aged my face and given me new lines that I never had before. I wish I would have left my face alone a year ago and never ventured down this road. I wasn't perfect, but I was "me". I was naturally pretty and felt it. Nowadays, I am so preccupied with how my eyes look when I am in public. I rarely feel pretty, only once in a blue moon I will have a good day. So, I am toughing it out now and praying that I will go back to normal and these puffy,saggy eyes will miraculously go away.Hopefully in a few months, my eyes will regain their strength and I will start to resemble my old self. Like my ttile to my review, I surley do miss my old self.

20 weeks post 3rd round of botox/dysport and botox...

20 weeks post 3rd round of botox/dysport and botox again 20 weeks ago today. Pretty depressed, but trying to be strong as I type this. My undereye area when I smile or show any expression at all still has horizontal folds under them. My under eye area is hollowed out. My forehead area is getting loose and I notice a few more lines on my left side which weren't there before. My eyes look tired and lifeless. I feel like I look sick. The skin on my face is loose, not tight to my bone structure like before I ventured down this horrible road last Nov ,2011. I am praying that I have reached the end of getting all of this out of my system. I can't bear the the thought if getting any worse before I start to get better. I really pray and hope that I get better and go back to how I looked a year ago. From what people have said, it can be 7-9 or more months to get back to baseling. I pray everyday that I will get better. I am a different person now. I don;t feel like doing anything besides going to the gym . This has always been my favorite time of year, I love the holidays. This year is different and I am so sad. I am praying for all of us to heal and get back to leading our lives again with smiles on our faces. xo

Update as of 23 weeks post botox.. I wanted to...

update as of 23 weeks post botox.. I wanted to update my review/experience for anyone who stumbles upon this and can relate. I had been dealing with a left eye issue as far as sagginess and bags goes until about a week ago when I noticed that above my brows(especially over my left one) I have arches(muscles) that are constantly elevated. throw that ontop of my baggy,crepey eye and bam..it is not pretty and I am pretty sad. I have been sick this past week and avoiding all medicine in fear that it will make me look worse. Tough week not being able to work out and look a little better after each workout/cardio session. I just got back from grocery shopping and like I always do, look at older women in their 50's and up who look better than me right now. Depressing. I guess this is all just part of . I have been thinking about going to my plastic surgeon for just a consult, but am holding off because I am scared I might collapse mentally and wind up getting more of this toxin like I did 23 weeks ago. God give me strength. I am trying to be more than just my looks and remind myself that there are so many out there who are so much worse off than I am. It will wear off ...It has to. I find myself sometimes feeling like my old self and pretty, but sadly am reminded of my reality like when I pass a mirror and . Sigh...

Almost 25 weeks now and it is still a roller...

Almost 25 weeks now and it is still a roller coaseter ride w/ good days followed by bad days. I still have cheek ptsosis and lack of muscle tone on my left side of my face, from under my eye to the bottom of my nose, with saggy , wrinkly skin that slopes downwards. Now my forehead is looking worse and I thought it was going to stay the way it was. The skin between my eyebrows is puffy and I can actually see the injection spots where I was given the botox in my glabella area. They are raised dots...crazy. My right upper brow is now falling inwards giving me almost an "11" look which I DID NOT have before. I push it up and it just falls towards the center above my nose. This is really depressing to me . I thought I was only dealing with my saggy,baggy eyes and cheek, but now this happens. My skin quality is horrible,too, even though I drink a gallon of water a day and eat clean all the time. I am thinking about starting Retin A to improve my skin quality/tone and thickness. I am also rubbing/ massaging my loose forehead skin . Saga continues. I looked back at my "before" pictures this morning and wanted to cry. Hope everyone is doing well. xo
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