Loving my new boobs :)

Where do I begin......

I have been wanting to do this procedure for as long as I could remember. The only reason that I couldn't do it before was that I couldn't afford it. Now that I can, I went ahead with it. When I was younger I did all the research I thought possible where I would find different ways of enhancing my boobs, being it tablets, creams and exercises. But obviously after showing my GP he would always send me away disappointed as they never worked. I finally booked my first consultation a few months ago and the Dr had pin pointed out 2 problems which I never really took that much notice of. First of all my boobs are far apart and secondly the one is a bit higher than the other. Which after my procedure one side will be more painful than the other. After careful consideration I finally picked the range I would like to be in and on the day of the procedure I will make my Dr decide the final size. I have a petite bone structure, with my height being 1,63 m and weight of 50kg. The range I am considering is 325 or 350cc. I am currently a 32 A, wanting to be a C cup. I would prefer a natural look but if it end up looking a bit fake, I really don't mind. I have been wearing double padded bra's which annoy me as they are always sticking out and are so hard. Costumes are another story as they are never padded enough for me. Find clothes is another problem as they never look like nice on me as I'm flat chested. I just know it will make me happy in the end. When I booked my first consultation my parents didn't really think much of it as they thought I wouldn't go any further. After I called and booked my op that's when freak out mode came about as all they were worried about is if something goes wrong. They are being supportive now and helping me out with some odds and ends and Im am grateful for that.

Today is a week from my op. My emotions and thoughts are all over the place. I have my moments where I'm excited and then it flips to fear and I'm in freak out mode. I have been very excited for this up to now. I am afraid now that i have realised that it is a week away. The thought of being put to sleep involuntarily freaks me out the most, then comes the pain. I hope that it doesn't take too long to heal. I am trying to stay focused on the positive but my fears always seem to get the best of me. I hope it gets better from here... I really want to do this for me!!