8 months post-op and new pic - 265cc's

I am a 31 one year old woman who has wanted...

I am a 31 one year old woman who has wanted breasts even before puberty hit. Maybe I played with too many Barbies as a child, but ever since I can remember I always looked forward to having breasts. When puberty hit and I remained a scrawny stick figure who people mistook for a 12 year old (when I was in fact 17) I felt like my body betrayed me in some way. Where were my boobs? I felt embarrassed about my body. It was even worse when many different people in my life would point out the fact that I was missing boobs. "Grow some boobs" or "your flat!" were common things I heard.

I eventually learned to accept that I was flat-chested, and glad that I had a small frame to at least go with it. Then I gave birth to my first child. For the first time in my life, BAM, I had boobs. I have never felt so feminine or sexy before. I was a small C cup while I breastfed my son. I weaned him at 10 months and all of a sudden the rug was yanked out from me. Not only was my chest smaller than it had been before I was pregnant, but my nipples were stretched out and droopy, too. Great! I made the decision that after I was done having children that I should get a BA.

I gave birth to my daughter in October 2009 and went through the same cycle with breastfeeding her. I had these beautiful breasts and then when I weaned her they were once again gone and my nipples were left even more droopy. Awesome.

I have been saving up money and going through all of the freak-out moments many of you have described. I had my first consult about a year after my daughter was born and then another one this fall where I scheduled my surgery date and paid my down payment. My biggest freak-out moment was a couple weeks ago where I almost threw in the towel. I go back and forth all the time, but ultimately I want this so badly. I need to do this for myself.
I have a great husband who loves me no matter what I look like. He is probably very annoyed with all of my "Oh my god!" moments leading up to the surgery. I have been obsessing about this for years.

I will take some pics and upload them as soon as I can.
I am 5'1 and 108 lbs. I am a runner with an athletic frame. I am getting Allergan Silicone unders at a small 265 CC. I am terrified of going too big and want a natural look for my small frame.
I am a little over a month out from my surgery so I will try to post as often as I can to reflect my thoughts leading up to the surgery.

Hi marie~ I think 265 cc's will be perfect for you. I went with 304 cc's and have very natural results. In fact, no one knows I had anything done unless I wear tight clothing or a bikini.....lol You're going to look great!

So, I am honestly afraid of going too large with...

So, I am honestly afraid of going too large with my implants, because I don't want to be "all boobs" but in the same sense I know that 265 cc's are pretty small. My PS told me that if I want to come back in at any time to see bigger implants and bring someone with I can do that. I think I am going to bring my husband in just to make sure I'm happy with the 265's. I wouldn't go much bigger if I went any bigger at all, but gosh... why is it so hard to find the exact right size? My PS recommended 265, but he said I could go a little bigger if I wanted to. I think I've had too much time to think about this before my surgery date, lol!
Trust yourself, and go with what you want! Did u actually get to try on the 265s ? Ask yourself if youd rather be bigger than smaller :) trickiest part is picking the size! Good luck!
thank you! i tried on the 265cc but not the next size up which i think was just under 300cc. i think i will go back with my hubby and try on both sizes just to be certain 265 is the size for me.
I think 265cc will look lovely! Do you know what profile you'd be getting? You're so petite that that size implant would compliment your delicate frame and look very natural.

I will be going in next Wednesday to try on the...

I will be going in next Wednesday to try on the sizers one last time to determine that 265cc is the size for me! I am bringing my husband this time. I also received my prescriptions in the mail today along with some paperwork. I am feeling more confident as the date approaches and getting really excited!
Go bigger. If your too small your going to hate them for waiting the money, If you go larger and they are a bit to large guess what You paid for them and you will get use to them. but don't pay for something that in the end your going to think you wasted all that money on small boobies. Geez go big! I was the same as you to start I went 550cc I'm so happy and they are not huge now that they have settled. I do not look at all like a D. Be happy and beautiful that is your goal.
Thank you! I am going to try on the sizers again on Wednesday with my hubby and make a definitive decision on the size. I appreciate your insight!
Mariebee, What ever size you want to be, go buy a bra without an underwire, bring it to the PS Office but the implant in the bra but a bra without padding.....And that will help you. Also bring a tight fitting tank top but not navy, black or Green, bring something that is white, yellow, pink. Bring a swimsuit top and try on the sizers. Target Stores have a ton of swimwear, I was just at a Target today, it was like it was Summer. hahaha bring the clothing and go from there. I had 3 tank tops, two sweaters nice fitting, a dress and a swimsuit with me along with a size D no padded bra. I rocked it out with 550cc and I loved them then and now they are perfect. You'll be fine, but go bigger you will loose 50cc going under, ask your doctor. And if he says no then go to someone else. I went to 4 Ps and they all said the same thing., So double check. And ask him about bruising? you should never bruise. Ask about the 50cc going under that you will loose. Ask ask ask. And if this PS is not American board Certified, you should seek others. Not just Certified. Check out his pictures and do a check on this ps. You will be safe if you know all about the Ps of your choice. Good luck, I know you will rock it out.. : ) happy holidays.

Yesterday I went back into my PS's office to try...

Yesterday I went back into my PS's office to try on the sizers once again. I brought my hubby with me this time. I thought he would be helpful, but he seemed a little clueless about what to say... I think he was afraid that I'd feel pressure from him or something, but I don't so it was almost more frustrating to have him there in a way. I tried on the 265's I originally picked out, 286 and 304. My hubby said he couldn't see a difference between all 3 implant sizes, but I could. I decided to pick the one in the middle, the 286cc. I liked the 265 and I am still scared of going too big, but I do not want to look back and think, "Oh man, I should have just gone a tad bigger" and I know the 304's were just way too big for my frame. The bummer part is that they made me pay a $40 restocking fee, because they said they already had ordered my 265 implants even though my surgery is still 3 weeks away. I was kind of annoyed by that, but I know $40 is a small price to pay for peace of mind. The brand and style of the implant is Natrelle silicon style 15.
I am with you on not going too big. They recommded 350 cc for me but I am now thinking this is too big based on what other people with similar goals are writing. I would be very unhappy if I wound up with some huge gazungas and don't think I'd ever get used to them. (This was scary to read but if you can brave it, read about breast implant removal. Being too big and uncomfortable was a common reason for removal.) I have an athletic build, 5'5, 126 lbs so am bigger than you. My husband is home this week. I think I better drag him over to the surgeons if I can get an appointment. When is your surgery? I am scheduled for 11th Jan...
My surgery is January 2nd - 2 weeks from today - eek! I looked at your profile and although you are taller and weigh a tad bit more than me you are very close to my size proportionally. Does your PS know you are afraid of going too big? I would stress that to him and see if he still thinks 350cc is the size for you. It's such a tough call on what size to get... you don't want to go too big and have porn star boobs but then there's the boobie remorse by not going big enough. When I went in this last time to try on sizers the nurse told me, "No matter what you decide you will be bigger than you are now" and that is good advice, too.
Thank you, I love the nurses comment which made me smile, "No matter what we decide, we'll be bigger than we are now." So true. I've just called my surgeon's office and the surgical coordinator said all final sizes are decided at the pre-op which for me, will be the day after your surgery. (they get them overnighted.) She said to make sure to bring pics and to express any and all thoughts/concerns and then I just basically have to trust the skill of the surgeon. She said he is not known for creating a false, porn star look and prefers to give natural looking results, unless he is specifally asked. I hope that I don't have boobie remorse but if I do, I will remember your nurse's quote. Thank you for sharing that. :-)

I've been nicely distracted with the holidays and...

I've been nicely distracted with the holidays and all of the hustle and bustle that goes along with it, so although I've been obsessed about boobs and the surgery, it hasn't really hit me yet that in one week I'll be going under the knife. I am a very nervous person by nature so I know I am going to be a wreck next week. Honestly, I just want to get the surgery part over with so I can just focus on healing and recovering from it.

Major concerns about surgery:

My surgery is on a Wednesday and the following Monday I am going back to work. I've heard driving for some is very difficult this soon after surgery. Thoughts?

I will need to bring my 3 year old daughter to daycare that morning and drop off my 6 year old son at school. My son is very self sufficient, but my daughter is very stubborn and a lot of times won't get in her car seat unless I pick her up and put her in there. I know I won't be able to do this, she will have to get into it herself no matter how stubborn she is, but even buckling her car seat buckles (a five point harness) takes a lot of muscling around to get it snapped into place. Thoughts? Is this going to be too much for me?

I also have to carry my laptop bag with my laptop obviously inside of it into work. Then, I will be thrown back into my busy desk job where stress is high right now about a lot of projects going on. I am afraid of how much I will be feeling by day 6. I don't manage pain well and I need to mask it in front of my coworkers.

Last but not least, the pain pill I received a prescription for is vicodin. The only other time I've been put under for surgery is when I had my wisdom teeth remove. Whatever pain pill they gave me (I can't remember what it was since it was years ago) it made me so sick and I was throwing up. Does anyone know if vicodin can give you an icky tummy? I get sick really easily and I am thinking I might want a pain pill that is easier on the stomach if vicodin is known to upset people's stomachs.

Happy belated Christmas everyone!!
Its hard to say what you will be like after because we are all so different but I am pretty sure you can't lift your little girl. Maybe you can start "training" her to get in and out of the seat on her own so you're just dealing with the clips? Bribery? Little chocolates? :-) Also, my older son helps a lot with my younger one and is proud of himself for doing so. (He has been doing it for years and now its second nature, they usually get into the car before me.) I am not sure what affect the Vicodin will have but you can always ask for an alternative if you have a problem. I had surgery years ago (I had a cyst and its root removed from my tailbone - highly unpleasant, painful, and humiliating, esp when the surgeon decided that he would show off his handiwork to a resident while I was on all fours with my butt in the air) and the first painkiller he prescribed made me sick. I called up and he quickly prescribed another painkiller which I was fine with. Good Luck with everything! I'm right behind you with my procedure.
Thanks, Kitten! I think I might tell them on surgery day that there is a pain pill that has made me sick in the past so they know ahead of time so when if I get sick they will know ahead of time what I told them. I really hope I don't get sick. I am counting on it though, just based on my past experience with surgery. Hopefully, it won't be the case though! :)
Good luck surgery buddy! Can't believe it's only a week away now. When I first scheduled my surgery it was 2 and a half months away. I am also a nervous person so I'm guessing I won't sleep much before surgery. Hope we can both keep our nerves in check!

I just paid my balance in full... definitely a...

I just paid my balance in full... definitely a little surreal. It's a done deal, and now there is no backing out. In one week I'll be 1 day post-op. So excited... okay, and scared sh*tless! ;)
I just read through your posts, I am a teacher and I have a wonderful wheely box/suitcase type thing I use to haul my stuff around in. You should definitely look into one of those! The only problem is getting it in and out of your vehicle. If you could have someone at work help you do that it would be good.

For those of you who have picked up the Arnica...

For those of you who have picked up the Arnica Montana, do you know if I can get it from a drug store like Walgreens? I am planning on filling my prescriptions this afternoon and thought I would look to see if they had it, but I've been seeing a lot of you have ordered it off of Amazon. I have also read that bromelain is useful... anyone use that before surgery? Last but not least, for the scars how soon after your BA did you start applying a topical agent?
I found arnica at gnc but found it cheaper online so I went with that. The surgical nurse said not to use arnica or the bromelian but I may do so if I see any bruising after my 1st post op shower. I'm being very patient as to not remove my surgical bra until its shower time. I don't want to jinx anything. Good luck finding everything you need, and with the surgery!!
Thank you!!! I think the waiting is the hardest part.
I ordered my Arnica Montana on-line, as well as the bromelain. I can tell you I wasn't terribly swollen and didn't have a single bruise..... PS suggested 3 weeks post op to apply vitamin e oil in the morning (after showering) and then scar strips at night, so that's what I've been doing. Good luck!

I filled my prescriptions yesterday. I had a...

I filled my prescriptions yesterday. I had a antibiotic to fill and Vicodin is the pain med that my PS prescribed for me. I am kind of setting myself up with the expectation that I will be nauseated and pukey after surgery. This simply comes from my only other experience of being knocked out for surgery (wisdom teeth) and how I reacted after that. I really wish I could remember what kind of narcotic pain med I was given for that surgery, because it made me really sick to my stomach so I went without a pain med and man... that was probably one of the most painful experiences of my life and this is coming from someone who has given birth twice.
I'm the kind of person who likes to prepare for the worst so that I'm taken by surprise if things end up better than expected.. I think I might even bring a puke bucket with me for the car ride afterward.
In some ways I feel a little alone about this entire journey so I'm glad I have this site. I haven't told my parents or siblings about my surgery and I have only told two girlfriends about it, and of course my husband knows. My husband has been supportive in the sense that he's fully prepared to be cooking dinner every night, taking care of the kids, etc... while I rest. But, he's not the kind of guy to tell me to take it easy. So, once I go back to work I have a feeling he's going to expect me to be fully back into the swing of things. This will only put me at 6 days post-op and I am concerned about being projected back into work, the kids swimming lessons, dance schedules, grocery shopping, and house work. Plus, we are having a belated christmas party with our friends 10 days after my surgery and I just feel like there's going to be a lot of pressure on me to have the house clean, food prepped, and I don't think I can do it all on my own. It's not that my husband absolutely won't help if I don't ask, but if I need something to be done and if he doesn't feel like it's important then he just won't do it even if it's important to me. That upsets me. I don't know why I'm going off on a tangent about this right now, but I guess I have no else to vent to since so few people know about my surgery. Maybe I'm having pre-surgery blues?
You are definitely not overreacting! My fiancé would do things around the house...but only on his time and when he wanted to do them. Oh men. They just don't think like women! The meds made me irritable and I wanted everything clean and taken care of. I would definitely let your expectations known before the surgery and if he can't accommodate call on your family and friends. If you don't want to tell your family and friends why you can't clean etc., you could always tell them you pulled a muscle in your back or chest...and that's not lying! Your back will probably be sore from sleeping and sitting a lot :)
You are being realistic. If you feel like there is pressure for the party - outsource the work hun! Call subway or a more upscale place to handle the food. Find a cleaning service to take care of the chores. Reach out to family and friends to pick up the kids from swimming lessons. Maybe another mom who takes there kid will pick up yours for a few weeks.. and in return you do the same later for her kid. You will find a way to make it work. Take care and now that you thought about some of the negatives.. think of the positives! ;)

My PS's office just called and confirmed I need to...

My PS's office just called and confirmed I need to be at the surgical center at 6:30 in the morning. I need to shower that morning, no make-up, no acrylic nails, etc... I asked if I could wear deodorant though and they said yes thank goodness, lol. They said the surgery will start around 8:00 - 8:15.
Here's the kicker... my husband has to bring the kids to daycare/school that day but my son's school doesn't even start until 7:55 so we're going to have to drive seperately. I'm going to have to leave my vehicle there until I am able to drive again. I'm kind of nervous about sitting there alone waiting for surgery to start. I feel so alone in this journey sometimes... I know it's my fault for not telling anyone about the procedure, but I just don't want a lot of people to know at this point in my life. I will tell my parents and siblings this summer when it will be evident. My parents own a lake cabin and we spend every weekend in the summertime at the lake in our swimsuits so it will be VERY obvious especially since I've been the butt of all bad jokes my whole life about being flat-chested in my family. Everyone else has had boobs but me. So, it will be like, "HELLO!"
Getting nervous, but excited... and I'm way more calm than I thought I would be.
I cleaned the 2nd floor of our home today... I'm talking deep cleaning. My house is shining. Tomorrow I will focus on the 1st story and finish up laundry, etc...
I'm mostly just excited to get the surgery over with so all of the anticipation can be over with.
You will be just fine! All of your boobie buddies will be thinking about you and we'll be there in spirit. Once they put that IV in its smooth sailing :)
Good luck tomorrow!! I'll be thinking about you. I'm getting mine done on the 3rd so we'll be recovery buddies.
Ha ha, I know, I am not even sure what I'm going to tell my kids at this point, but I did think a "sore back" story would be good, or a sore neck since I do tend to throw my neck out frequently.

Well, tomorrow is the big day and I got lucky...

Well, tomorrow is the big day and I got lucky (sarcasm) by getting my period today. I knew it was coming so it's not a surprise, but now I have these irrational worries about how that's going to affect me during surgery, mostly... do you get to wear underwear during surgery? If so, can you wear your own or do they give you underwear? I keep worrying (this is probably TMI, sorry) that my tampon will leak on the table or something gross like that. Sorry for the details, but this supposed to be a "real" blog so there you go. Anyone else have their period during surgery? Can you wear undies?
I am so excited to see your results! Good luck and hope you are happ. Looking forward to your posts today or tomorrow.
Best of luck with surgery and recovery! I've been really thinking about your comments on my post and you and redwal1 were right that if I want this I should go for it. I'm headed for 2 more consultations and looking at a March date. Unfortunately, it is after we get home from vacation, but at least I will be ready for summer. Can't wait to see your results!
I was not allowed to keep my underwear on during surgery, I had strip down to just my socks. But every doctor is different, maybe yours will let you keeps your undies on or give you the disposable ones to wear. If I were you, I would just change your tampon right before you go into surgery and wear a super absorbency tampon to avoid leakage. I have super heavy periods so I understand the fear of leaking, happens to me all the time...yuck! Well good luck and I wish you a speedy recovery!! (-:

Well ladies, I am on the other side of boobyville...

Well ladies, I am on the other side of boobyville and I am... well, in a lot of pain. I have a very low threshold for pain though so please keep that in mind.
I got up at 5:30 yesterday morning, and showered, took off all my jewelry and put on my comfy clothes and left. I was very nervous and scared. Luckily an old friend of mine works at my PS's office in the billing department so she sat with me as I filled out my paperwork. After I filled that out they brought me back to a room and went over all of the paperwork in greater detail. Then the anesthesiologist came in and spoke to me about the type of anesthesia she would be administering and what to expect in the operating room until she would put me under. The staff was incredible. She put my IV in and this is when my hubby arrived. She gave me my antibiotic via IV and I suddenly got very light-headed to the point I thought I was going to pass out and there was a loud ringing in my ears. At this point I got emotional and started to cry. My husband and the anesthesiologist were very good with me and helped talk me down. I started to feel better. They let me wear my own underwear as a side note before I forget to mention that.
I went to the bathroom one last time and then I walked into the OR. I had forgotten about a piercing high up in my cartilage on my ear that I've had for about 12 years and haven't once changed the earring. It was a steel ball type earring and I had no idea how to get it out so a nurse got a little plier thing and got it out for me.
They got me comfortable on the table and gave me oxygen and told me to breathe deeply. Then they said they were giving me something to help put me under and I felt my body getting more and more relaxed and I even said, "here I go!" and then I was out.
I woke up in recovery and I felt immediate pain my breasts. I had the sweetest nurse who was so attentive to me. I remember her giving me my pain med and my antibiotic. I was in an out of consciousness because at one point when my husband was there I said I had just gotten into recovery when I had been there for over an hour. I started to get really nauseated. 2 different times I dry heaved really badly for an extended period of time but I had nothing in my stomach to throw up. I kept drinking water, because I had the worst cotton mouth of my life. I also had a horrible sore throat from the breathing tube. I finally drank enough water so that the next time I got nauseated I had something to throw up which I was grateful for because after that I didn't get nauseated again.
Before I knew it the nurse was helping me get dressed and then we were out the door and on our way home. We only lasted a couple blocks before I made my husband stop at a gas station to get me a bottle of water because my cotton mouth was very severe. I tried chewing a piece of gum but it turned into paste in my mouth because I had no saliva to wet it down.
I got home and we had set up my guest bedroom so I was at a 45 degree incline. I pretty much slept all afternoon. I tried eating some toast but again it turned into paste because of my cotton mouth. I felt a significant amount of pain the whole time.
I finally got out of bed around 6:00 last night and walked around a bit and watched some tv. I kept coughing and breathing deeply as I was instructed to prevent pneumonia from settling into my lungs.
It was around this time I looked at my paperwork and I discovered something... my PS put in 265 CC implants when I had ordered 286 and even payed a restocking fee for them. I am a little miffed about this... he had even confirmed with me that morning that it was 286CC that I was getting. So either they screwed up and never switched my implants that were in stock and gave me a smaller implant or I'm trying to give my PS the benefit of the doubt that maybe there was a reason he went with 265... but no one told me this yesterday after surgery. I have my post-op this afternoon so I am going to ask at that time. I will be pissed if it was an error on there part... does anyone know if I have any rights here and what I could do?
I slept okay last night. My back is hurting from the 45 degree angle, and I am feeling less "twilght-zoneish". The pain really comes and goes... mostly it is just so tight and uncomfortable. How soon until some of you felt at least a little bit of relief with the extreme tightness and discomfort?
My hubby is at work so my girlfriend is picking me up and bringing me in to my post-op. I'll update after that appointment. I am so thankful for the support of this site. Yesterday as I waiting for surgery I kept reading through all of your kind comments... it means so much to me!
Oh, and I will post pictures tonight. I get my bandages off today so I will snap some photos once my hubby gets home.

Well, I had my post-op today and I brought up...

Well, I had my post-op today and I brought up using the 265 instead of the 286 implant. They argued with me that I said I wanted the 265 prior to surgery. I was horrified. I told them I would have never said that... why would I have paid a restocking fee and everything? I felt like they were ganging up on me. I told them I am okay with the smaller one being used, but I just want my restocking fee back. I do like how they look and they fit my frame perfectly, I don't want any negative energy surrounding my BA experience so I'm letting this go and not going to worry about it. It is what it is and I think they look awesome. I can't wait for them to drop and fluff. I'll post pics as soon as I can!
Wow! Thank goodness it all worked out in the end. I'm glad you're happy. They should definitely admit their mistake, refund you the re-stocking fee and count their blessings. For what it's worth, I agree about not allowing negativity to cloud your experience. Yay for new boobies!!!
Wow! Sorry that happened to you, but congrats on your surgery. I'm so glad you like the final result. Please post pics as soon as you can. I bet you look great!
That is very disappointing! I am so sorry that happened to you. Well I'm sure you look amazing either way.

Yesterday was a rough day emotionally and...

Yesterday was a rough day emotionally and physically. I was still in so much pain. My PS told me I could stop taking the hydrocodone if I wanted to since it causes constipation so I started taking tylenol instead. Big mistake. I was in so much pain. I broke down crying in front of my kids and husband and then went into a tangent of, "why did I do this to myself, I'm in so much pain, this sucks!" and my husband convinced me to take the hydrocodone again. It didn't take long for that to kick in and it took the pain away, but my muscles were completely achey and sore. I kept up with the hydrocodone all night and slept great which shocks me considering I am typically not a good sleeper if I'm not laying flat and I was sitting up all night. I think the hydrocodone knocks me out and makes me loopy. I'm a little worried how I'll sleep once I stop taking that. I think I might try to skip a dose of it again today and supplement with tylenol but if the pain starts to kick in I know I'll take it again. I only had surgery 2 days ago so I'm not going to beat myself up about it.
I have the clear to shower today so once my husband comes home and I can have help taking off my bra and getting into the shower I'll take some pictures. Yesterday when they took off the bandaging at my post-op my boobs are very flat on the bottom below my nipples. I think I'll be a large b or small c cup. I'm a little worried that once the swelling goes down that I will think they are too small... this is why I originally wanted the 286.... grrr... again, I'm not trying to let the negativity get me down. I still have WAY more than I ever did before.
Stay strong and rest whenever possible. Hope you are satisfied with the end results after the swelling goes down. They look great!! :)
Oh man I can totally relate! I had a terrible reaction to either my pain meds or the anestesia and was covered in hives for over a week. So I was in pain from the surgery, and itching my skin like crazy!!! It was even over my incisions. So I was crying and asking myself why I had done this to myself, and was it worth it, and what was I thinking etc. etc. 4 weeks post op, its all behind me, I survived with the help of my hubby and ladies on Realself and now super happy with my decision. Emotional rollercoaster for sure. My preop nurse said not to be superwoman and take my meds without fail. Even set an alarmclock. She explained that once the meds wear off, it is harder for the next dose to catch up to relieve the pain. Thats what I did until my hives broke out. Then I was taking Extra Stength Tylenol and would overlap with Advil about 3 hours later. That took care of the pain. The doc said to do this, especially since he knew I had low pain tolerance. Both told me not to grin and bare it! But to kill the pain, so the body can rest up and heal. I did this for about 7 or 8 days. It worked really well and ultimately I was very happy not to be on any narcotics. Therefore no constipation :-) Well I did take a little brick of chocolate chews Exlax every morning while taking the percecet. That worked great. Wishing the best! And hope you enjoy your boobies soon!! Rest, rest, rest and be pampered if you can!!! (another suggestion from my PS)
Thank you, it's good to know there's hope! Today has been a lot better, but then again I have done NOTHING today. I can't imagine what it will be like when I am back at work in 3 days and needing to drive and carry around my laptop. I haven't gone to the bathroom yet so I have been taking stool softener... I hope I go soon!

I am uploading pics that I took last night before...

I am uploading pics that I took last night before my first shower. I was afraid to look at them. I was terrified I'd be disappointed or scared. The way they look from the front scares me... I know they look in the realm of "normal" but it still freaks me out to see them like this. When I took my bra off I felt like they were going to fall out... anyone else have this sensation? When I put my bra back on my incision on my right breast burned horribly. I had not taken hydrocodone all day, just tylenol, so I finally caved and took some and even then my incision burned. My husband helped reposition my bra strap and the gauze and it immediately felt better... I wonder if I was rubbing the incision wrong? I go back to work in 2 days and I want to sob... I don't feel ready. I know I have all day ahead of me to see how I feel so I'll take it one day at a time. I took my last hydrocodone at 3:00 a.m. and it's 9:43. I took a tylenol this morning and I'm hoping I can take just that all day. I have not gone to the bathroom since the day of my operation on Wednesday. I have been taking stool softener. I look severly bloated and pregnant in my opinion. I am hoping I can go soon, but I know I have a few days to go before I am in panic mode about not going especially since my appetite has been terrible the last few days and I haven't really eaten much of anything. Anyone else have a decreased appetite? I feel like such a wuss... I can't wait to start feeling normal again.
Looking really good! My incision is/was burning too. I think it's the nerves regenerating, it passes. Mine don't hurt anymore and I'm only 9 days out. It does suck though, it woke me up a couple of times. I also felt like my implants were going to "fall out"! They felt soo heavy that when I took a shower I was holding onto them for dear life, haha. That feeling has also faded significantly. So don't worry, everything you're feeling is normal and will pass! I am currently feeling like I never had anything done! Tip top shape! You'll be good as new in no time, especially with smaller implants. :)
You look great in your new photos, I think they definitely look in the realm of normal - way more normal than mine right now! They look a perfect size for you and maybe if they had been bigger the extra stretch the skin would have had may have caused problems down the road. They look awesome, you gotta love those puppies :) I get that heavy feeling too when taking the bra off, and it feels like they instantly harden up too. Now the odd tingling sensation starting at random times but that is just the nerves growing back and everything reconnecting inside again. I don't know what day it was before I finally had a bowel movement but it was more than 4 days after and I had been taking colase every night starting first day after surgery, it just wasn't working. Painkillers are bad for causing constipation. Antibiotics usually cause diarrhea you'd think it would balance out, lol. What fixed it for me was eating half a big bag of black licorice. I love black licorice anyway so it was a good fix. Hang in there, you'll be amazed at what a difference 2 days can make just don't overdo it and take advantage of the days you have left before you have to go back - or call in sick for an extra day like cinnamon girl suggested!
Right after my BA, i felt like they would "fall out" too. Everytime i took my bra off to shower i thought they would, but i had to remind myself that without help, even if the incision was open they wouldn't fit through it. I also had a "burning" sensation, it was on my left incision, but it wasn't actually "on" the incision, it was a little further over, i finally just had to "deal" with it, because it wasn't helped by any meds, it did get less, and eventually it only bothered me with certain movements. Now, it doesn't bother me at all, but that same spot seems to feel the weirdest with muscle movement. Though, it improves every day. I am a little over 3 weeks, and just now they feel "normal" like they are a part of me. If you don't feel ready to go to work, i would just "call in sick". i mean, you are, after all. and as far as the BM, it took me almost a week to have on, and then for the next 2 weeks, my system was all messed up acting, just now i am begining to feel "normal". but on the bright side... you have boobies!!!! :)

I feel like today is a big turning point for me. ...

I feel like today is a big turning point for me. My pain has lessened considerably. I still feel incredibly tight and I'm still afraid of my breasts appearance. I know they are doing fine, but I am very squeamish about scars, blood, etc... so until they start to look more normal I will likely be content to keep them out of sight. Yesterday, with the help of my hubby, I made dinner and it felt good to do something I enjoy. Today we are picking up my car which is still at the surgical center. I am nervous to drive, but I feel much more prepared for it than I did 2 days ago. Tomorrow is the "scary" day when I have to get my kids ready in the morning, bring them to school, and then go to work for the full day. I am terrified of this, but prepared to leave work early if I feel like it's too much. The best part is that my pain is hardly there and manageable with tylenol. I still haven't gone to the bathroom... I will panic after it's been a week so I have a few days. I haven't stretched out my arms completely yet or lifted them over my head. I was instructed NOT to do this until I go back for my 1 week post-op. I am not supposed to start massages until my 1 month post-op as well. Anyway, just wanted to report that day 4 post-op was the miracle day when I started feeling relatively normal (I use that term loosely).
Hope your day went okay today.
Nice....welcome to the other side sweetie. Im glad that things are looking better to you. It takes time just make sure that you get plenty of rest. Im one month post op now and I still try to get a cat nap in or get to bed early just because I know my body is technically still healing. When you start feelign normal, then you try to do too much and then get tired and think OH I did too much. Yesterday was the first time I went grocery shopping since my BA and I called the kids and told them you have to help me get the bags out of the car when I get home cause I cant carry it all. Normally I would make like 2 trips from the car to the house with like 2 bags in each hand but not yesterday. Im divorced and my boyfriend was not over so the kids had to help. So enjoy the pampering, get your rest and enjoy your new babies. Will be following your progress. Happy Boob Year!!!
maribee, Lookin good. : ) How do you like them so far? Size? Enjoy......

Today I am 7 days post-op and each day is better...

Today I am 7 days post-op and each day is better and better. Yesterday my back hurt me all day which is probably my biggest complaint since being back at work. My chest still feels foreign and tight. I go between loving my boobs and feeling weird about them. I have such small implants, but considering I was so flat beforehand I feel like they are gigantic on my frame right now. It's just a matter of getting used to it, I know. I am no longer taking tylenol, but yesterday I overdid it and at one point when digging through my freezer I pulled my chest muscle really badly and I spent the rest of the night holding myself in pain. Last night was also the first night I lowered the elevation on my pillows so I wasn't sitting up anymore when I sleep, but laying at more of an angle. I slept like a baby. My hubby came down with a stomach bug so tonight I'm on my own with the kids unless he feels better. I'm exhausted, but one day at a time. I'll post more pics once I see a more dramatic difference. Right now they are still high and tight and feel foreign.
Good luck tomorrow going solo without the hubby, try not to get sick and stay healthy!! Looking forward to seeing your new pictures. I am going with 'smaller implants', 300/250.. but I have a small frame and I'm wanting to get even not larger.. It's hard to know what my result will be like when I try to imagine it. The majority of ladies do go much larger and look fantastic. Hope my new additions will look good. Ah only a couple more days till my surgery.
Oh my gosh maribee! I swear your life parallels mine! I got small implants too and had the same feelings all around that you are having. I am post op 5 weeks and I will tell you that I definately am experiencing boobie greed! I swore I wouldnt! Esp cuz what I started off with was nothing, so any addition would be a plus! Well, as they drop and fluff and the swelling goes down, they definately shrink a little. I probably notice it more because I'm always examining them! LOL. My hubby rolls his eyes when I say I wish I had gone bigger. He says NO WAY, I'd fall over forwards :-) So give it a few weeks, and you will be 100% more comfortable with them! I was afraid that they would never soften, you know, because I am small, and there was a lot of stretching of skin to get the implants in. But for SURE they have softened and its a lovely feeling! I also pulled a muscle (have no idea how I did it) and it kindof scared me! I must have overdone it somehow. That was week 2. It went away with no problems, whew! My hubby came down with the flu, as did my children during wk 2 post op. So I wasnt really resting anymore and was doing a lot more than I wished I had to. BUT, I did lay down and nap while the family was down, and really all I did was deliver meds and make chicken soup from the can. It wasnt bad, and we all survived. I slept propped up for 3 weeks I think. By week 3 I was going back and forth from the bed to the couch, flat, then propped, flat then propped. Now, sleeping is normal. I can roll, sleep on my side, back , whichever. I am not a stomach sleeper so I havent tried that. Also, sex is back to normal too, which is nice. Getting back to normal is nice. And it WILL happen for you!
Try and get your rest when you can. Your body is still healing. I find myself still going to bed early or cat napping just to give my body a chance to heal. I'm one month post op but know its important to get the rest in when I can. Your babies with thank you in the long run. I hope your hubby gets better so he can tend to the kids. It's a lot to juggle. I was happy my BA was pushed up 3 weeks because it gave me time to rest while the kids were on vacation. Take it easy and you will be just fine. Post pics when you can.

I had my 1 week post-op yesterday. They are...

I had my 1 week post-op yesterday. They are starting to round out on the bottom, and I am really starting to like what I see. I don't have full mobility in my arms, yet. They said not to push it. It still feels like foreign objects are on my chest, but not as dramatically as before. I have no pain, just tightness, and a few of the "zingers" started yesterday. I am feeling great! I'll try to take pics again sometime soon so you can see how they are rounding out some more. I love the size, I think they are perfect for me.
That's good, glad you are liking them. It nobly gets better from here. I had my 1 week post pp today and I'm all cleared to workout...except or chest and back. Take it easy and can't wait to see how you look.
I see today is your surgery, good luck!!! I will follow your progress. I love my smaller implant, and I couldn't imagine going any larger. With my sports bra on I look about the same size that I did clothed with a super padded bra on so it's not noticeable, but if I want to go out on the town with friends I could totally wear a push up bra and have crazy nice cleavage. You will love them. Just be prepared to feel a little wishy-washy the first week. I know I did at first, but now that they are starting to look a little more normal I'm loving them!
Isn't it crazy how such a small implant can make such a difference when you have no breast tissue to begin with? Sometimes I think they are gigantic on me, and other times I think they are small. In reality, I think they are small for most average-framed women, but since I"m so small they seem big. I am really happy with the size right now so I hope they don't shrink a lot. It was horrible when my hubby got sick... I started feeling sorry for myself and that I was overexerting myself when I should be resting, too. I got cranky about it, and feel badly about that now, but heck... I just had surgery last week and my body needs rest, too. My hubby and I "tried out" the new boobs yesterday and had sex for the first time since surgery. It was amazing... not sure if it was because I felt sexy and confident or what, but so far I'm loving it!

I feel almost completely normal. I have morning...

I feel almost completely normal. I have morning boob as everyone else describes first thing in the morning. They are still pretty firm, but are slowly rounding out on the bottom. I love the size. So far I feel like the 265's were a great size for my frame. I am about the same size I was pre-op with a mega-padded bra on. That was what I wanted post-op so hopefully they don't shrink anymore!
Looking good there girl. I'm glad they are turning out to be what you wanted. It's a pleasing thing when you look at them. And boy do we look at them. Have a boobiful day.
Girl, you are looking great!!!!
Looking good!

Tomorrow will mark 1 month since I had my surgery....

Tomorrow will mark 1 month since I had my surgery. It feels like I've had these boobs forever. First of all, I love them. They are the perfect size for my petite frame, and NO ONE can tell I've had a boob job which is exactly what I had hoped for. They are still really small boobs, and I love that as well. I can start running again on Monday which I'm really looking forward to. Sometimes I think they are a little too small, simply because I had wanted the 286's and my PS goofed up and put the smaller size in me. Whenever I think about that I try to let it go, because I still don't want to accept any negative energy around the surgery or my new boobs. They are beautiful, and I am happy with them so I don't want to change my attitude about that.
I had my 1 month post-op appointment yesterday. My incisions have been raised, and just about a week ago the scabs finally fell off. I had felt my boobs a bit, but stayed away from them for the most part to let them heal. At my appointment yesterday they told me they want me to start massages. What they showed me aren't really massages, but more so pressing really hard into the implant all around the nipple. They said I need to press as hard I can and should probably even press myself into a wall to get enough force. I was kind of surprised by this, and while practicing it was the first time I could actually feel the implant inside of my breast. I could feel where the breast tissue was and where the implant was. It felt so strange to me.
Also, they want me to press on my incisions with my middle and pointer fingers pretty hard. This is to help the sutures dissolve and they said the incisions won't be so raised up anymore. This hurt. Pressing on my breast didn't hurt, but pressing on the incisions did. Part of me doesn't understand this... it seems like by pushing on the incisions that I will have the risk of making the scars of the incisions bigger. Does anyone have any experience with this, or feel the same way? I don't even know if I remember reading on here that anyone else had been asked to press on thier incisions as part of their massage therapy? Any insight would be helpful. I will try to take some updated pictures soon so you guys can see how they are looking. To me they don't look a lot different than the last set of pictures I uploaded, but you never know.

This week I started running again. I know a lot...

This week I started running again. I know a lot of women are curious what the experience is like after a BA so I wanted to update. I actually did not buy any bigger sized sports bras, but bought some new ones without padding which was surreal for me to keep a womanly shape while wearing an unlined sports bra. I just wore one bra the first two days when I ran. They didn't feel like they were bouncing around at all, but I was a little sore toward the end of my run. My boobs just felt a tad bit achey. So yesterday and today I wore two sports bras and they were very secured in place. It took away that achey feeling. I took about 5 weeks off from running after my BA so getting started again has exhausted me. All week my leg muscles have felt stiff and sore, but it's that good soreness when you know you've had a good work-out.
I do find myself still thinking how small my breasts are. However, even though my breasts are still on the small side I don't think I'm disappointed by it. I think I am more curious about the "what if". I am so used to their size now that I feel that pull toward, "more" even though I know I never wanted large breasts... I just wanted breasts in general. I love the shape of my breasts and I love being able to fill out tops and clothing I never could before. I love that I can wear a t-shirt around the house at home and not feel like a teenage boy in front of my husband, but like a sex kitten wearing nothing but a t-shirt. It's just changed my attitude and perspective about my own sex appeal. It's empowered me.
I also know one day in the future I will upgrade, but hopefully I won't need another surgery for a really long time. At that point I will go bigger, but for now I know my risks are low for complications with such a small implant so I'm choosing to be content with my decision even if part of my brain "goes there" wondering "what if" I had gone bigger.
I do know this is the single best decision I have ever made for myself. I encourage anyone who is debating on getting a BA to just go ahead and do it for yourself. Women these days are so over-worked in all aspects of life while giving so much of themselves to others. It's time to give back to yourself. I know I don't regret it.
We have a LOT of similarities! I'm 5'2 110 lbs and just had my surgery yesterday. MY PS inserted 300cc on my right and 325cc on left. Though I can't fully seem them; from what I've seen, they are looking awesome! I know exactly how you feel after children. I too have 2 kids, both boys (ages 6 and 3). I rememebred how in love I was when my boobs grew during breastfeeding, but was quick to deflate when they were weaned off. I also love running (I love competing in half, full marathons and Tough Mudder) and though I felt great losing my baby weight..it was disheartening that the boobies went away too. Your pictures look great and please keep us posted! I agree with your last paragraph...this was a present I gave to myself and we do give so much to everyone else that there is no harm (I believe) in treating yourself. If it helps with confidence, why not, right? You're just like me! I felt uncomfortable too just wearing a t-shirt, and a lot of tops in general since I did look like I had a boys body (or sometimes I relate it having a body like a wooden plank!); no I'm excited to feel more feminie and to try clothes, and lingerie that I can feel like a "sex kitten" for the hubby, haha! Best of luck!
I love finding other people with my similar stats and experiences! I really need to post updated pictures. I'm hoping mine don't change that much more... I don't want them to drop anymore. I feel like they are perfectly in place and they are nice and soft to the touch. I have noticed some achiness when I run, but it's not every time I run. I am currently training for a half marathon right now. I wear two sports bras. I can say it does NOT impact my running ability at all... even though some bigger breasted women told me beforehand it would impact it. Congrats on your new boobies! You will LOVE them!
Thanks! Youre a great motivation for me to look forward to when I get the green light to start running again!!

I am a little over 3 months out, and I really need...

I am a little over 3 months out, and I really need to update with pictures. However, I finally went into Victoria's Secret today and got measured. I am a 32C. I tried on some beautiful lace demi bras and I wanted to cry tears of happiness at the way I looked. They weren't padded and they were beautiful and made my boobs look beautiful. I am so happy with my size for those of you out there who are considering a smaller implant. They look so realistic for my frame and no one would EVER guess I've had a boob job.

When did the rest of you ladies start wearing underwire?
Nice results!
Soooo freaky! Ok, this was weird. I was in Victoria's Secret today looking for wireless bras as I'm just 5 weeks PO. It was maybe around 11:30ish (I also was buying the pretty ones because I can't stand waiting. ha.) Anyways... the girl in the dressing room beside me was sized at 32C and something that was said made me pay attention because it sounded like it was a result of a breast aug. Anyways, if you were looking at bras in the front of the store by the demis, and some klutz was trying to put back a pink one and made the comment that they are hard to put back like how they were....that was me!!! If not, I'm super embarrassed ha!
I clicked on your profile and it said Minneapolis, but I live in Fargo. Were you in the Fargo store? I was there around 11:30 and I vaguely remember trying to put a bra back at the front of the store and making a comment to someone about it. This would be too ironic!

I think I am truly an example that you don't need...

I think I am truly an example that you don't need a huge implant to increase a couple cup sizes. I love the size of my breasts. They are realistic for my frame and I can be active without any interference. I am running a half marathon in 2 weeks and training has been no problem. This is the best thing I ever did for myself!

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I'd love to hear more, too! How are you doing now? How was the 1/2 marathon? Would be great to see updated pics. Hope all is well. :-)
Thank you for your story, it helps us girls thinking of a BA. I'm pretty much your twin, lol 31y, 106#, 34A barely, identical to your pre-pics (but no children) :( and have wanted this more than anything else in my life but i've been too scared :/ that it would turn out bad and there would be nothing i could do, or afford to do, about it. BUT after reading your story, I think I have to do this, I have to try....I want to wear that t-shirt with nothing underneath it for the first time in my life!! Couple Qs: Are your implants silicone? Round? And I had heard of massaging scars to break up tissue and make them less bumpy, just so you know. Oh and can't believe they switched the size on accident at the last minute!!! I think a higher power did that cause they look perfect on you and it happened for a reason!! Would love to chat with you. Thanks, IttyBitty1
more update pics pls.

8 Months Post-Op - 265cc

I am absolutely in love with my new self. Having this surgery was the best thing I have ever done. I have never felt sexier. I had a good friend of my husband's ask me if I've been working out more or something because, "I look great". I secretly knew it was because of my new additions, but it's not super noticeable when I'm clothed... just enough to make someone think I look better, but they can't quite place it. If you are on the fence about the surgery I would recommend biting the bullet and just doing it. You won't regret it!
I had my BA surgery last Friday, I started off being a 34A and got 265cc. Your 8 month post op pic really inspired me. Right now I'm feeling as though they are too small and I should have gotten bigger. I really do hope mine turn out like yours!
Congrats on your new girls! You know, it is a conflicting feeling, and I cannot honestly say that I have not wondered if I should have gone bigger as well. However, I just remind myself that I did not want BIG boobs, I just wanted to have boobs, and to have them not be noticeable. Honestly, I get compliments on my figure a lot, and no one has ever guessed I have fake boobs. That feels really good. Keep me posted on how your recovery goes! You will have ups and downs, but you've done something amazing that most women only dream about doing.
You really inspired me to!!!! I was torn on 286 cc moderate plus profile or 304 high profile. I got the 286cc Friday May 9th. Sometimes I wish I went with the high profile, but they still need to drop and heal. I'll keep you posted!! Than you ! You look amazing!!!!
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