I am having a closed rhinoplasty performed on the...
Getting more excited/nervous every day
My boyfriend is super supportive of, well, everything. He had the perfect reaction of, "you're beautiful the way you are, but if it makes you happy, I'll support you." But when I look like a horse kicked me in the face in a week and a couple days, I wonder if he'll have the same response. This is by and away the most selfish thing I've ever done. And the most money I have ever spent at one time.
That said, I am oddly looking forward to relaxing for a week and, of course, having this burden lifted off of me. It's something I never thought I would actually be able to afford or go through with. It will be such an adjustment to (hopefully) not look at pictures and just see that dang nose and be embarrassed.
Can we please just rewind to next Friday already? (;
1 week away
Today also marks the day when I have to start pretending I like protein shakes and kale. And to start praying fervently that Dr. Shah knows what he's doing. Eeeekkkk
My unrealistic dream?
Harassing my doctor
Doc and I are on the same page
Anyways, I can't believe in two days I will be waking up with less of a nose. I need to start focusing on being excited rather than nervous!! Send me good thoughts! xx
I'll try to write tomorrow post-surgery! Thanks for your support guys, it means a ton.
Can finally write
As promised by my anesthesiologist in cowboy boots, I don't remember anything of the surgery. Just waking up and wondering where I was and why someone interrupted my dream. Post-surgery sucked. I was nauseous, burning up, in pain, dripping weird stuff out of my nose like crazy, tired of the IV (they freak me out), and the nurse brought in the anesthesiologist because she thought was he my boyfriend for some reason. After finding my actual boyfriend, he helped me force myself to have some crackers and water, and I took some Percocet and anti-nausea medicine which I desperately needed. The nurse put an nice pack on my eyes which were already turning black and blue. I'm very happy it was a decent experience overall, and I reallllyyy want it to be a week from now so I can see it. But I am disappointed at my huge black and blue eyes- Dr. Shah assured me that with his "rapid recovery protocol" which essentially includes 30 g of protein a day, Vitamin C and Bromelain, and lots of food high in vitamin K (as well as no smoking/drinking/all the regular warnings), he hardly ever sees black eyes. I did everything right, am 26 years old and super healthy, non-smoker and very light social drinker, but still have some horrible shiners. I am worried about going back to work in 9-10 days and still having them. I don't want people to think my boyfriend beat me or anything! Ugh so I'm annoyed at that and doing the arnica/icing deal. I read online that the bruises usually last 7-10 days but I've seen people on here with bruises for way longer.
Sleeping and breathing SUCKS day 1! I am still super tired and might try to take a nap. Fortunately a lot of the gross dripping subsided today- it was really driving me crazy. My favorite thing for my eyes so far as been Swiss Therapy Eye Mask Compresses... they feel sooo amazing and relaxing. Of course, you can't watch tv or anything with them on so I just sat for a few hours yesterday listening to comedy podcasts and chilling out with those on my eyes.
Here's some pics of the final before/waiting to go into surgery and my shiners after the surgery. I'm glad to be alive and can't wait to see my new nose! Will share more when hopefully my face looks less terrifying to children.
Well hello post-op blues...
First post-op appt and more recovery
Well, makeup kind of works...
Since I bled and bruised so much during surgery, my doc thinks I should be tested for a bleeding disorder. Kind of worried about that. But look at my NOSE!!! Dr. Shah is the man!
Apologies for dropping off the face of the earth. Had some drama with the boyfriend. As an update, I like the way my nose looks with tape rather than without!! Be prepared for breakout central on your nose and for swelling to unfortunately increase after the cast is taken off. I'm hoping what I saw right after it was taken off is what the final product will look like (remotely).
My bruises are *almost* gone and can be covered with makeup, which is awesome, because I can finally go out in public without worrying people will pass me domestic violence flyers. I went back to work today and I'm probably too highly distracted to be back. Hence this long update...
Some things I learned through nose surgery:
1. So far, it's totally worth it. Just having my nose be smaller makes me feel so much more confident and like a burden has been lifted. It's like I photoshopped my face in real life! It's never going to be a tiny Scarlett Johnansen (sp?) nose but that would look weird on me anyways.
2. I know everyone says this on here, and for a good reason: You HAVE to be able to trust your surgeon. I am so glad that I went in the week of the surgery to go over what he was going to do again so I felt comfortable with him operating on my face. It is a big deal and you should make sure you are both exactly on the same page. Trust me, you won't want to do this again.
3. Get a massage the night before. Seriously. This was the best thing I've done for myself. I was so nervous and stressed that my muscles were spazzing out. And/or take a bath, or do something that's relaxing and just about you and what makes you feel at ease.
4. Nobody notices. Or at least nobody has said anything to me yet. It's VERY weird to think that since I can see such a huge difference but it's true. Unless you are doing something super super major, nobody is going to notice, or care. You see your "flaws" or things you don't like about yourself a thousand times magnified, while everyone else just sees you for you.
5. Significant others might not understand. Especially guys. That's okay. Just make sure they don't rain on your parade and that they take care of you when you're recovering.
6. Here's the exhaustive list of things I actually used when I was recovering:
-Invest in an awesome travel pillow thing. It's impossible to sleep sitting up without one unless you're some kind of freak of nature. I got a wedge pillow too which helped me get comfortable from sitting/laying down all dang day.
-Swiss therapy Eye Masks feel soooooo nice after surgery. Kind of pricey but worth it for me.
-Have lots of small-ish sized bags of frozen veggies. I used mine a ton and never had chipmunk cheeks or swelling on my face aside from my eyes.
-Straws. It's hard to drink out of anything, especially the first day when your mouth is all numb, without spilling ALL OVER yourself.
-Jugs of water next to the bed. Your mouth gets unbelievably dry from breathing through it. Water helps wash out all the crap when you're healing, too.
-Jug of vaseline for the same purpose. I am an obsessive chap stick user and having my lips dry was torture, so I just had this by my bed.
-I think I lived off of pasta and veggie/fruit shakes. It was pretty great. Crunchy stuff did not appeal to me at all.
-I got hydrogen peroxide and Neosporin to clean my nose. Just don't get hydrogen peroxide on any open wounds unless you're a tough guy.
-Humidifier. I live in Colorado which is super dry, so this was even more essential for me.
-I washed my hair every other day in the bathtub and very carefully. Every other day I used dry shampoo instead. Be prepared to feel kind of gross. I also cleaned up and made the bed every day which helped feel less gross. But still... there's nothing really pretty about you post-facial surgery. It will pass.
-Have lots of q-tips to clean your face and apply Arnica gel.
-Have makeup for bruises in case you bruise. Wish I had gotten mine before since they messed up my order and I'm not getting it until today, but Dermablend is supposed to work very well for covering up bruising.
-Invest in a pill box!! Don't rely on someone else to keep track of your pills since they might forget also. This especially helped with the antibiotics I had to take 4 times a day. You kind of lose your mind a little doing nothing all day and it's hard to keep track of. I set out all my pills beforehand and was super glad that I did.
-If you want to get supplies you'll need post-cast, I picked up saline nasal spray and Sudafed afterwards. I also picked up oil blotting sheets because your nose is super shiny which makes your inevitable blemishes stand out way more.
7. And here's the list of things I took to help heal (thanks to Dr. Shah). I had extensive bruising but that is not common, especially if you take these things: Vitamin C, Zinc, Protein shakes of 30 mg a day, lots of vitamin K rich foods (I am so tired of kale) and vitamin K tablets, Arnica Montana gel and pill, Bromelain and/or pineapple juice, stool softeners (no joke), pain medicine, Ambien/miraclesleepinducer, and antibiotics.
8. All in all, your experience will be different than anyone else's and you're going to be just fine. It's a deeply personal experience about more than just your nose. Make sure your mental and physical health are up for it.
Ookkkaaayyy, so if you have any questions on that feel free to shoot them my way. Here is my swollen nose 10(ish?) days post-op. I'm hoping the swelling will decrease, especially in the tip, but this whole thing is going to have to teach me PATIENCE!
Hope everyone is doing well. xo
Doctor's simulations vs. actuals
Patience & Recovery
Here is a good angle I took earlier. It's weird to not want to immediately photoshop the hump off or change the lighting so I don't look like I'm setting the Guinness World Record for Biggest Nose. It's going to take some time to actually be okay with pictures. By the way, this record does exist and I looked it up and now you guys have nothing to complain about (; Just kidding.
One more thing, and this is gross, but wouldn't be the first gross thing I posted: I think when everything is healing it kind of smells bad. I keep wondering what is stinky then it hit me that it's likely me. And it's likely just inside my nose and nobody else can tell. I asked my boyfriend if I smelled bad (he would tell me! And he would make fun of me!) and he said no. But just as a forewarning... recovery is gross. In many ways. Thank goodness it's temporary.
Hope everyone that had surgery is healing quickly and those that are about to are feeling safe and comfortable!
I am still taping my nose at night, and did so especially after hanging out with kids. I don't know how you ladies have done it with kids around! They just love to hit your nose accidentally! I probably should be eating better and the swelling would go down more. It's just nice to not obsess over this anymore. Well, I still obsess a little... (: My mom comes into town next month and I'm curious if she'll notice a difference. She probably will. Oh well - it's not like I can take it back!! I wouldn't want to anyways.
Almost three weeks!!! Crazy!
I also have noticed more bags under my eyes and wrinkles. I don't know if that's because my eyes swelled/bruised so much or because of where he broke my nose. He did warn me about that. He said he can put fillers to make it less visible but jeesh I've spent enough money!! And having bruises from anything again and doing even more does not appeal to me. Neither does looking tired all the time. Either way, I'm still happy I did it. I am no longer scared of pictures or side angles which is a super strange feeling and a huge relief.
Also, I don't really care about the way my nostrils look (should I? oh well.) but I have a significant scar on my left side still. Putting scar cream on it. I didn't expect perfection, anyhow.
A little less than two months!
My boyfriend took pictures of me with our friend's dog and our dog and wow- my profile is fantastic!! It's so weird to get used to being okay with pictures. Overall I'm very happy with my results and am glad I did it. Dr. Shah is very skilled and I'm glad I went to him. Pictures to follow!! Xo
So far, I am impressed with Dr. Shah's bedside manner - he is very good at making you feel comfortable and at ease with his skills. He seems more excited about this than I am (at least outwardly) and says that he loves to do rhinoplasties. I guess I don't care if he loves it, as long as he does it well! (: Him and his assistant were very good about talking to me during my pre-op and answering the multitude of questions that I had. --Update post-surgery: Dr. Shah did a great job with my nose. I was so happy I could barely keep myself from smiling after they removed the cast. For some reason, it was really hard to get a hold of anyone at the office to PAY them for the deposit and to confirm appointment times which was kind of annoying. Sometimes he is super friendly and sometimes he seemed a little busy or preoccupied. I'm still not sure why he prescribed a medication that I'm allergic to, but we figured that out as well. He is a great surgeon and he worked wonders on my previously ginormous nose, and was realistic and available when I needed to get on the same page with him before surgery. He called me personally a couple days after the surgery to make sure I was okay. I am eternally grateful I went to him for my surgery. Additionally, I paid less for a great result than I've seen on here for other rhinoplasties. Icing on the good-lookin' cake: they gave me free TNS recovery cream and scar healing cream after the cast was removed, which was a nice surprise.