My Breast Implant Removal Journey - United Kingdom, GB

I have had implants 20 years ago and to be honest I have been very happy with the look that they gave me;feminine and womanly...
Recently I felt pain in my left breast like an aching and so having booked into the NHS local hospital, was told I had capsule contraction in the left boob. I was told that the leakage was retained in the capsule which made me feel a little better.
Anyway, I decided to have my breasts replaced asap and went for two consultations with private surgeons. During the first consultation, whilst being shown photos of his work, the surgeon accidentally brought a picture up on the screen of a women's breasts that had just had the implant removed without replacement and also with an uplift.
.. anyway this set me thinking and now logic has taken over and I just know the right thing is to have removal of my implants without replacement.
I am having my nose done (I broke it twice and now it's bent to the side) and my implants removed at the same time without an uplift. I just know it's the best thing to do.
However, lots of thoughts keep running through my head and I jump from, one minute knowing it will be fine, to the next minute panicking like mad...
I do worry that my female colleagues may notice as they never miss a trick (no one knows and I don't intend telling them,).
On the good side I am rather excited as I know I will be able to run around more, go to the gym, ride my bike and do my dancing again.
I am just still worried that I am having to wait a good month or two for the removal due to operating times and my schedule.
My boobs feel like they are in a vice and I keep getting shooting pains through them. Is this normal for CC or is this okay and usual for boobs that have CC. This is what worries me, I just don't know what the vice like pain is.
And I want to say a big thank you to all the ladies that go before me with their stories as they are so helping me.
Well this is my contribution. My story, my journey.
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Well I've had another consultation with the surgeon. I didn't really like the noses that I were shown to me and also didn't like the implants he had done (I'm still thinking of having NO replacement!)so just decided that although a nice doctor not for me as I wasn't keen on his work.
I have had a few more panic moments again.
One of my biggest scares is telling my children. I need to make a decision before I do this but it does worry me a little that they may think i've been very silly having them in in the first place. although I think their biggest concern will be my health. The thing is I'm a bit fragile and if my children were to say anything negative (my elder child can be a bit frank and opinionated even though my welfare is much at heart)I think I would break down and cry.
My biggest fear though is still my work colleagues who to be frank will eat me alive if they ever find out I had implants...my health would be the least of their concerns. They would make my lfe hellI used to be a fashion model (clothes on) and I have had nothing but nastiness since they found out. (I never told them as I didn't want any jealousy but they found out and I got it anyway even though I played it low key) . I also keep wondering how my clothes will look without boobs and thinking I should have perhaps have flashed my boobs about while they were okay, which I never did lol.
Still looking for a surgeon and have another consultation in a couple of weeks so hopefully he will be the one.
The shooting pains in my boobs are not as frequent and they have softened again.
Hopefully I will make a decision soon.
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Well today I have had another consultation. I have seen the nose surgeon and have to go back to see photos of his work and morphs of how my end result will hopefully look (why can't they do that with the breast surgery!! :-)
The breast consultation was strange to say the least. I liked the surgeon but.....
I just cannot believe the reaction from the nurse when I said I wasn't having implants back in. She asked if I was joking...then when I said not she pulled a strange face which said it all. (my froend said she had been introduced as a trainee nurse!) She said it wouldn't look good and made a screwed up yuk! face.It was so unexpected I didn't know whether to laugh or cry. She said that perhaps I would be happy with replacements and I said I was unsure of what to do at this moment in time but swaying towards removal without replacement. I was told by the surgeon I didn't have much breast tissue and should expect to look totally flat. I was shown various implants and was told a good result could be obtained from replacement (a bit of sales talk perhaps or just running through my options? mmm not sure which! ) The surgeon said he had taken lots out but in most cases had performed a replacement.
He kept stressing I would be completely flat chested and may be upset with having no breasts after having such full breasts for over 20 yrs. He said he had done a removal the other week where the lady had not had replacements. I asked what the result was like and he said it was as expected and the patient had realised the end result....i.e. dropping of boobs, and rather empty, flat boobs. The nurse at this point pulled another face and made a "huh" noise to indicate the end result was far from what she considered nice.
So...me being me....I asked her why she had made such faces and noises and she said it was because she had rarely seen anyone not have replacement and she just couldn't understand why I wouldn't want to replace as I still looked so young. I told her I wasn't that young and that my health was more important and living as long and healthy life as possible to see my children and grandchildren grow up was the most important thing for me. I told the surgeon I was a single mum and had to be around for my children and that boobs were not that important any more at this point I was weepy..(which seems to be the order of the day for me lately:-( ). I told him I would sooner have a nice face (my nose is bending to one side), and that hopefully when my nose is done I will look softer in the face and the boobs will not be the first thing people see...instead it will be my soft, kind face. (I hope :-)
At this point the surgeon said he thought the best route for me was removal (with full capsule removal to make sure the whole of any leakage was taken out) and see how I felt after a few months or so in relation to having any more work i.e. uplift etc. He said it would be better to do it this way and give me several months rest so that the pockets could settle and fuse together and then if I wanted an uplift or smaller implants at a later date (I did say during consultation that I had considered smaller implants but not the same or bigger size).he could do that for me at a reduced cost. The cost for removal is £2400. The nose price is yet to be confirmed. I feel happy with the surgeon. Unsure about whether the full capsule removal is the best thing as I was hoping that if it is left in it will add a bit more volume to my bust. Any help, advice and comments on this would be very much appreciated.
Anyway, I am running out of energy and am tired of shopping around for a surgeon. They all seem to tell you what they think you want to hear anyway I think. I am just going round and round in circles so I have decided to go ahead with this surgeon as there seeems no way to distinguish between a good or bad surgeon. He is a breast surgeon as apposed to a plastic surgeon and also works for the NHS. He is BAPs approved/registered so I feel happy with that. I am going for a second consultation with the surgeons and then I am hoping to book in...Jump in at the deep end so to speak. Take the plunge. Anyway. That is all for now. Any comments especially regarding the full capsule removal or not as the case may be, would be very much appreciated as this is now my latest headache giving problem/decision playing in my head like ground hog day, over and over again. Anyway all, buy for now, hope to check in again soon.xxxx