Breast Implant Removal: Stories

Have implants 12yrs now, went from 32A to 32C. Was happy for about a yr then felt really ashamed of what I had done, afraid of peoples comments & feeling like a fake. Although I love them in the bedroom, I have been unhappy for some time. I have recently found out that one has ruptured and needs to be removed or replaced. I am nearly settled on removal for good.

I am scared to death that my partner will not find me attractive anymore as he didn't know me before them. I am scared to death that I will find me not attractive anymore. My self esteem has always been very low and boobs didn't sort it out either. It's something deep within me that needs to be looked at. I look at the pressure put on women to look a certain way and I feel angry.
I wish I never made the decision to do it in the first place.

Removal of implants booked for 16th Jan. Not feeling so bad about it. Pray everyday I will be happy with the end result.

Well it's 24hrs away and I'm feeling strangely calm.
I've been getting upset at the thoughts of my appearance after the surgery forgetting that I have chosen this option and my reasons for it. Had one of them not ruptured I would not have even considered having them removed. I believe everything happens for a reason. I believe tomorrow starts a new journey for me, one that involves me accepting my lovely self as I am.
I am a strong woman but strong as I am I will need time to adapt. Thankfully my partner is supportive but has said he likes big boobs and that makes me sad.
I pray that he still finds me attractive afterwards and that this won't strain our relationship. We are getting married in May this year. My hen's party will be my next night out without my big girls :-(
My flight to Birmingham is at 630 tomorrow morning. I will be collected from the airport by The Hospital Group driver then admitted. I don't have an exact time that I'll be operated on, I just hope I'm not waiting half the day. I want it over and on my road to recovery as quick as possible.

Had early flight to hospital this morning. Am now waiting to be seen by
anesthesia person and surgeon. they expect mine will be done this afternoon.
Have been fasting so am not happy with the wait, no water either.
thankfully this is only 1 day of my life.
Im feeling calm now but have had my tears today already. I shared a car with a girl having them in and remembered how excited i was getting them in. I almost wish I was here under different circumstances. Tomorrow will see the start of me facing my demons of insecurity & low self esteem. On a positive note by choosing explant is 1 to self esteem and nil to demon!

Its 5.07 and i haven't been down to theatre yet. Am famished and not happy. I expected to be well into recovery by now!

The bags are out! Im feeling good so far but still a little sleepy.
I got the implants so i could give them a funeral of some sort. Thanks so much to all the brave ladies that told their story which gave me the courage to do it myself.
Im not concerned with how they look now, as i know time is a wonderful healer!

looking in the mirror this looks like the real me and it feels good :-) still in a bit of pain as i had cc removed from 1. i know ill find it difficult to take it easy, Im not 1 te sit around doing nothing.

7 days post op- It's starting to hit home that I'm natural again. Had a bit of a barney with hubby to be because he wouldn't give me a straight answer if he liked them or not. He had wanted me to re-implant but supported my decision not to. My insecurity got the better of me last night. I've still some work to do on building my self worth and I need to chop the belief that I need to be attractive to men. Truth is ~ I just need to be attracted to myself and the rest will look after itself!
I still don't regret my decision though just need to be kind to my beautiful natural self. I would encourage anyone who has been feeling not happy with their implants to take them out, feel the fear & do it anyway. Give two fingers to society/ media and their unfair, unrealistic ideas of how women should look!
I read an article recently on how much young girls are under pressure these days to look a certain way and how it is causing all sorts of emotional and mental problems for them. We girls are taking a stand and I feel proud of myself for doing so :-)

Haven't needed to take pain medication in 2 days. My Boobs actually move now :-) They are still a little sore to touch and 1 side a little swollen but all is well. Treated myself to a wash & blow dry today and have vowed to love myself a lot more from now on :-)

Went out shopping for bridesmaid dress yesterday, my first outing since explant. Found myself going back to old ways of comparing myself to others and being unhappy with myself. I AM my own worst enemy! Just need keep my thoughts in check and remember Im beautiful as I Am. Suppose Im still adapting :-\

Over 2 weeks post explant now, still some minor discomfort. I took the bandages off yesterday & was pleasantly surprised when they didn't droop any further, they're still looking good & seem to be getting better & better all the time. I think its hitting home now as I've been feeling quite emotional the past few days, its not regret though its just grieving the end of a chapter in my life.

My breasts are changing everyday. I love the nice natural feel. My partner loves them now :-)
My first night out with them will be tomorrow, I'm hoping I will be oozing confidence without them.

I had a check up with my surgeon today and he is very happy with the results after 5 wks. Im very happy myself, couldn't have had a better outcome. For any girls feeling unhappy with their implants, just do what you feel is best for you! Don't worry about it cos the human body has amazing healing ability:-)

I can't thank my lucky stars enough that I found Mr Hassan Sulamain, every other surgeon I visited told me I would look dreadful after explant. He told me to follow my heart, that in 3 months the skin would shrink back. I would highly recommend him to any Irish or UK girls looking to explant!

6.5 weeks post explant and I went back running for the first time since. I wore 2 bras to be sure they didn't move too much and just did gentle 30mins. There is some mild uncomfortable feelings in my breasts but feeling good overall!

Well it's been 8weeks since removal. The swelling has gone down completely leaving my boobies a bit smaller with stretch marks more noticeable.
I went underwear shopping today.... I thought I would be a 32A but my breast's are still as wide as the implants and I had a good bit of loose skin under my arm. I wasn't happy in the shop but bought some anyway and decided I would try them on again at home. After trying them on at home I felt much better, the lighting in the shop did me no favours! Having said all this, I still would not change the explant. I'm overall very happy, I love being me :-)

I got properly fitted for a bra today, Im 32c I was that with the implants in! Im not quite filling it but OMG what a difference it makes to my profile :-)

coming up on 11wks post and I've never felt more sexy and beautiful. Had photoshoot for work and was thinkin to myself how great I look and feel now.
hubby has noticed they are bigger now too :-)

Well it's been nearly 15 wks since I took the leap to implant free and I have to say I have never been happier. My breasts have really settled now and apart from the scars you could never tell the horrors my poor boobs have been through. I will post new pics soon.
I am due to get married this Friday 3rd May and it will be a happy, enjoyable & natural day.
I still had the implants when I picked my dress, then when I tried it on without them I was so disappointed at the gaping part where there used to be implants but now my dress fits perfectly and I look amazing in it.
I thank God that I found this site when I did, it really helped me make my decision with all the stories of brave women who just did it.
So to all of you who encouraged & comforted me during my journey to natural - A BIG HUGE Thank you x x