Sunken Sides of the Nose After Rhinoplasty - Denmark, DK

I have gone into a very deep depression as a result of my rhinoplasty surgeries. I have chosen to write this review as I hope some of you have some experience which might help my situation, so here goes:

I have had a bump shaven down a year ago in local anesthesia, it took about 10 minutes, and I healed within a week - no swelling, no nothing because it was such a minor thing.

Unfortunately I developed a cartilage graft in the middle of my bridge and a bump in the same spot as before.

A year later I was sure it couldn't be worse, so I booked an appointment with a new doctor to fix my nose. This was a bigger procedure as he wanted to thin my nose-bridge and take a little of my tip.

The surgery went fine and so far it has been two weeks since surgery, and one week exactly since I had my cast removed. I am very scared as I have been told the nose looks 80 pct of what the final result will look like at this point, and I am horrified.

When the cast was removed I LOVED my nose, I even spoke to my boyfriend about writing my surgeon a "thank you for saving my self-esteem" card and buying him some fine wine.

But the day the cast was removed I awoke to a very crooked and blue nose. The skin on the right side of the nasal bridge had "sunken" in - which scare me as I haven't heard of this issue ANYWHERE. It makes my nose look beyond crooked and it has turned purple-ish at the spot.

I am horrified as I have heard the swelling only goes down further from now on, and now after a week has passed nothing has really changed. I have called the hospital and I am seeing my surgeon tomorrow, but I don't see how this can be fixed. I know about restylane and such, but I don't want to inject my face every 6 months for the rest of my life!

I look at it all day long and think the bone has actually been rasped down more in one side than the other (just a little) and this has left this huge hollow, sunken in side. So I am not sure injecting something would even fix the problem.

It is not possible just to rasp the other side to make them look the same, as the bridge of my nose already have been made super thin. I do like my new nose from the side, but from the front it just looks awful and I don't think I can go though another failure, but at the same time I cannot live like this.

I have isolated myself completely, and I only talk to my boyfriend. I get anxiety attacks whenever I go outside and feel like I am going to faint or throw up. I have considered going away to a place where no one knows me, because confronting people is like a stab in the chest. I am ashamed because I caused this myself - people only seem to feel compassion when someone have surgery because they have to - I feel they laugh at my vanity, that it is my own fault.

I am living in a nightmare and I cannot wake up, ever. I keep taking pictures of myself in hope it has magically changed in five minutes but it just makes me depressed, so depressed I have had thought about killing myself.

I am afraid I won't ever feel beautiful again..

Please if someone know something which can be done, let me know.

Today I met up with my doctor and told him about my worries. He told me the sunken side was there because my nose had tilted slightly to the left and thus left a gab in the opposite side.

Because it has only been two weeks since my operation he told me my nosebone hadn't healed yet, and suggested we did some local anesthesia and pushed the bone back in place. I am still in shock, the anesthesia hurt so bad because my nose hadn't fully healed yet and I felt the push all through my body - I have had my wisdom teeth removed and the pain was no where near this.

Well I took a cab home, and have slept for a few hours. I cannot see any difference in the sunken side, and I think it made the good side worse. But I will give it some time and evaluate. He told me he did want to do surgery on me again but each time there was a risk of skin not acting the way it was intended. :(

So now I don't know what to do now. Should I find a new surgeon? It is hard when I like and trust this guy, even though my nose haven't turned out the way I wanted it, I DO feel like he did his best, and that he want me to be happy. - and of cause because he does it for free. But I am not sure he is capable of fixing my problem.

Another dilemma is my location, Denmark has a pretty secure healthcare system and if something awful happens I am entitled to free help - Whereas if I find a doctor in another country I won't be covered and will be on my own. Still, Denmark have a really limited amount of capable doctors. Because of Denmark's small size they often aren't as experienced as rhinoplasty surgeons from other countries.

I think it is weird how I acts around my surgeon. I have spend all last week since my cast came off crying my eyes out - and I planned to break down in front of my surgeon today, to let him know how devastated I am about the result, but I just couldn't. I don't know if he actually know how sad it makes me, I tried telling him but it seemed like he just thought I acted a little silly. He kept telling me to relax and said we would look at things when we met again in 2 weeks.

So, nowhere near happy and mentally going crazy - another horrible experience richer, and now I need even more time to heal... and I don't see the problem going away!! I don't feel like I have gained anything today other than grief.