So a few years later I saw a website or something for a tummy tuck and I KNEW that was what I wanted to do- and one day I would. A few years later the idea of being a surrogate (gestational carrier-not my egg) came to my mind, so I thought OK I will carry A BABY for someone else, earn a little money and help a family. SO low and behold I became pregnant with twins(2004-2005)!
Being a single mom, I had a lot of debt so my idea was- I will pay of my debt and finance my TT surgery. WELL, I paid off my debts and my credit was still horrible and I couldn't get financing. I was devastated. I lost ALL the weight from the pregnancy and just focused on liking my body better in clothes when I am thinner, even if I look WORSE naked.
SO I felt the calling to carry again. There is something about surrogacy that is so incredible. You get "called" to it almost. SO this time there is NO WAY I could get pregnant with twins again- RIGHT?
WRONG I just delivered my second set of surro twins on March 17, 2011. Cute babies.
The irony of the story is, both sets of twins did NO further damage to my body then my daughter did in 1995, but the gain and loss of the weight ( I gained about 70-80 pound each time) I'm sure doesn't help.
SO now this is IT, December 15, 2011 I will be a NEW woman with a TT, BA and lift. Mommy make over here I come.
I have worked extremely hard to lose the weight from the last pregnancy. I would say I was over 200 at the end of the pregnancy*(I got on the scale backwards). My pre-pregnancy weight was 142, which I hit two weeks ago. However before I started the meds for IVF I was averaging about 135. I am 5-4'.
I don't want this story to take away from the incredible relationship I built with the families I carried twins for, they are and were wonderful experiences and I am still close to them now. I also did NOT just do surrogacy to finance my TT, in all honesty surrogacy, though the comp is nice it is NOT a reason to do surrogacy, the time, emotions and commitment are more then any amount of money could give you, it has to come from your heart.
I will post some pictures when I can.
Thanks for reading. Im glad I found this site, I was starting to panic and was seeking some support and I found it here, thank you.Updated on 12 Dec 2011:TT/BA and lift on THURSDAY! I have to report at 8:30AM and the nurse called today and said I am first, there are 2 patients that day. So she also gave me some information I didn't know, I am going to have a catheter in for 3 days and I have to take it out myself on Sunday before my shower! HELLO?? NEVER knew this information before, so I started to panic but held it together.
I have shared what I am doing with a lot of people and I think they are super excited for me. They are actually getting me to calm down because they are so confident in the surgery and my results its funny.
So lots of cleaning to do and I will be on my way in Thursday morning. Working on pictures!Updated on 13 Dec 2011:I'm freaking out- I didn't sleep last night for longer then 40 minutes. I'm really concerned about this urine catheter I will be taking home- it's scaring me!Updated on 14 Dec 2011:TOMORROW is the day! I am just finishing my plans, long list of to do's tonight, and then I am reporting at 8:30AM tomorrow. Talked with the nurse about the urine catheter last night and I feel better about it. I think it was a moment of panic over the unknown. HOWEVER had I not found out until after I would have prob lost it. Im not good coming out of anethesia so I am hoping for the best tomorrow. I hope I can sleep tonight!!!!! I will try to update on Friday when I get home.
My surgery is in a surgery center and you sleep over in a hotel with a one on one nurse. SO talk to you all soon!Updated on 15 Dec 2011:I'm recovering in the hotel! I feel pretty good- and my nurse is laughing at me because I'm not wearing any clothes- I keep getting to warm! Lol I hope the rest of my recovery is like this! My nurse is a doll!Updated on 16 Dec 2011:I'm home- feeling pretty good when I'm laying down crappy when I get up. PS cracked me up 240cc in one boob- 450 in the other!!! Told ya I was uneven! LolUpdated on 16 Dec 2011:Better when I get up now, no dizzy spells anymore. Eating well and this catheter I was so worried about is fantastic! I'm drinking a lot so that's good. Started stool softeners and sennakot- hoping for the best on that one. Drain got a clog but I worked it out- things Are ok. My boobs are the most sore with the pain pump I feel nothing from the TT.Updated on 17 Dec 2011:I would say last night was the most painful yet. I tried to go to Motrin at 5:30PM like a brave girl but it wasn't time yet, so by 10:30PM I was ready for the vicodin. After a potty trip this morn at 3 AM I was good for a 3 hour stretch- I'll take it! Anything over one hour is good to me, my boy friend is a champ. Most of the tightness is in my chest. My PS warned me to walk hunched over and Im glad he did my stomach has been so pain free with this pain pump- I wouldn't have known not too put too much pressure.Pain is way less then I anticipated after 3 c-sections. Can't wait till the first shower tomorrow when I can "see" some stuff. Drinking lots of fluid. Nauseua is pretty low. Getting up and down has become a lot easier. Stay strong fellow recovery buddies!Updated on 17 Dec 2011:EDITS TO ABOVE- i WAS TIRED/ON VALUIM- IVE ONLY HAD 2 C-SECTIONS AND STRETCHES OF SLEEP ARE WHAT I GET EXCITED ABOUT- LOLUpdated on 18 Dec 2011:slept better last night- my goodness you hear about the back pain and you think- oh no biggie- well gosh that is the BIGGEST pain I have is in my back. my orders were to walked hunched over-so I will- until I'm told different. STILL not wearing any clothes, its just easier for me I have a blanket! I am so looking forward to my shower today! Whoooo HOOO!Updated on 18 Dec 2011:FIRST SHOWER- Im 3 days post MM and today was shower day. First we thought we had a shower seat but we didn't so I sent my bf to the store- which I called first to make sure they had it and, he called from the store that ON to the shower I was so excited to get the catheter out, the pain pump out, the bandages off and see what the hell happen to me. AND I did it all, my BF is scared so he sat with the trash can and collected all of the trash, and there was a lot. Thanks to this site I think I was prepared for what I saw my one big implant has to drop slightly so the PS said not to get up set that they are not even/even, but they will be more even soon, and he was right. The insicion has the strip on it and I am VERY bruised from the lipo up the sides on my back, my BF says he wishes he was more prepared for that but otherwise I think I look ok for 3 days post op. I know not to get too emotional or too hung up on the look at this point so I will wait my full healing time to make judgements. So feeling good today, and had my first BMI. Though I was so worried about that urine catheter, I loved having it, and removing it was super easy. I still had to get up and walk and drain it, but it make me push my fluids more and made night time easier.Updated on 18 Dec 2011:I can't edit the previous post but the part about the shower seat got deleted, they said they had the one I wanted and they didn't. They never checked their stock even though I gave them the brand and description, but I had called to make sure so my bf wouldn't have any problems getting it- oh well, damn Walgreens and their managers! We got one without a back and it was fine.Updated on 20 Dec 2011:Had my first post op yesterday- Day 3 post TT and it went well. PS took some stitches out of my BB and told me I can walk upright- THANK GOODNESS! it was hurting more to walk huntched over. Ive been off vicodin since day 2 after, Motrin seems to be doing the trick. Took my first shower by myself today, but my third actual shower. I will have to write a detailed account of the first shower because it was a process. I am feeling way better then I expected. I told the PS they should give those pain pumps for c-sections because this was less painful then a c-section by far. SO doing well in DE, resting up. Biggest complaint is not sleeping at night, getting 3 hour stretches even with taking valuim. Any suggestions on that one? and TMI alert- Ive had 5 BM's in the last 24 hours, the first 3 were similar to bricks, I thought i was having a poop baby and if I did last night, it was triplets this time! LOL!Updated on 21 Dec 2011:As I got up from the chair last night I noticed I was wet on my right side. SO I checked it out, and turns out it was blood. So I look some more and about and I have bled through my tank top, binder, and onto my underwear from the right side of my TT incision. So I go in the bathroom and clean up- took the binder off, tank and then see whats going on. It looked messy but wasn't too bad and I wasn't in pain so I clean it all up got a maxi pad to put over and begin to redress, well the tank top had a large amount of blood on it and I guess I didn't notice when I took it off, so in the wash that went. SO new tank, pad in place and put the binder back on. The strip covering the area looked wet with blood but it was no longer bleeding, to me it seemed like a gush. SO I text the dr and he said it can happen and he was in the office tomorrow if I want/need to come in. I feel fine, I just felt like I sprung a leak and wanted to make sure it was normal. I checked it in the night and this morning and no more leaking, it was just scary there for a second. Im no stranger to blood either and can handle most things so I wasn't too scared by it but it shook me. I also got my period yesterday, Im wondering if I should start some vitamins and get a some extra iron in me.
Feeling pretty good though, sleeping still sucks! Who knows the secret? I've done the chair , the couch, the bed last night, I tried taking a valium at night to help sleep- nada, I tried tylenol PM last night- still no solid sleep. It seems like Im in more discomfort at night.Updated on 21 Dec 2011:SMALL UPDATE- small blip on the radar today because after the bleeding last night, today I noticed the right side of my incision was open about an inch. Text the dr and he called right away and asked for pictures, I sent him pictures and he said it looked ok, and if I am feeling ok and not worried to just keep him updated. Im going to see him on Friday anyway so I was kind of hoping he wasn't going to want me to come in, even though if it was an issue I would have gone. Reminds me of when my c-section wouldn't close in one spot. SO no alarm but something I am keeping an eye on, feeling good still, more tired today trying to rest as much as possible.