***3 Month Update & Pics!*** Silicone, Mod+, 575cc, Smooth, Round, Under Muscle, Crease Incision, Natrelle Style 15
I am new to Real Self, and am so thankful to have...
I finally did it. After two weeks of hours upon hours of research, obsessing constantly about boobs, along with literally dreaming about them, I made the call. I am beyond excited to start this next step of my BA journey.
I am 5'10", 165lbs, 36 years old. I have two kids, ages 10 & 6, and have been married almost 15 years. I have an athletic build and enjoy working out 3-4x per week. I have been unhappy with the deflated-ness of my boobs since I stopped breastfeeding my second child. I never thought I would want plastic surgery. I wasn't against it for others, but just really never thought I would want it personally. Isn't it amazing how a few years can change things?? LOL. I am a 38B/C but my problem is BRAS DO NOT FIT ME. I wear either sports bras or shelf bras/camis. I have a long torso and low boobs to begin with, and now they look like ski slopes. They are wide on the bottom and deflated on top.
My hubby was not on board with a BA when I first brought it up two years ago. He is in the medical field and knows what all can go wrong. And he loves me how I am - which I am grateful for. However, the desire to enhance didn't go away. I brought up again a few weeks ago, how I sure would love to "upgrade" and he said, you know what, go for it. I am a SAHM and am always doing for him and the kids, this is for me. He didn't have to tell me twice. LOL. I started furiously researching and have lived, breathed, and slept boobs since. Thankfully I have a wonderful BFF that is all for this for me and super positive (whereas my hubby is still a touch ambivalent). Hubs is concerned about how this will "change my life forever". He thinks everyone will know - and that I will be viewed differently, that I won't be able to sleep on my stomach (I don't anyway) and that they will look and feel fake, etc, etc. I definitely want a natural, modest augmentation and with all my research can dispel his concerns. But not sure he will believe it until he sees it.
Anyway, I am so glad I found this site and will update after my consult next week!
Stats/BA Plans and an update
I don't even know yet what surgery dates my PS will have available, but I am hoping that #1 I love him, and #2 he can schedule me for week of Nov 4 or week of Dec 2. My hubby already has those two weeks off and if those don't work I will have to wait until January. He has to pick his vacations a week at a time and he picks them all mid-October for the following year. That date is quickly approaching for his group to pick vacation weeks, so I am extra glad my consult is next Wednesday in case those two weeks don't work out.
I have a great feeling with this practice - the only other one I wanted to go to was in Knoxville which is about a 4 hour drive from me. My hubby was willing to drive there, but with @6-8 visits in a year, that adds up quickly in cost with gas, hotel, food not to mention the logistical nightmare of his work schedule and our two little kids. We do not have family close and there is only my BFF that I trust to help with the kids. I was willing to work with the logistics, but my other major concern was if something goes haywire post-op I will be 4 hrs away from my PS.
My BFF is going with me to my consult next week, and I plan to take lots of pics of the sizers for myself as well as hubby and of course on here.
Oh, and I wanted to post my stats. Saw someone else do that (PinkLotus) and thought it was brilliant! Even though I mentioned it already, I thought it handy to have it all together.
Weight: 165 lbs
Age: 36 years old
Bra Size: 36/38B (or size med in shelf cami, and I barely fill the shelf)
Bra Cup Size: C/D
CC Amount: Not Sure
Implant Type: Silicone
Implant Profile: Mod/Mod Plus
Implant Placement: Sub-Glandular (over the muscle)
Incision: Infra-Mammary (in breast crease)
Comments, suggestions, favorite one for my body style? Thanks ladies!
Under vs Over Placement
Under the Muscle (sub-muscular) Placement
-the implant is less visible and looks more natural
-it's harder to feel the implant and therefore feels more natural
-there is less rippling if you decide on saline implants
-there is possible better breast imaging with mammography
-it is more uncomfortable and involves a longer recovery
-there is animation distortion when the chest muscles are flexed
-there is a possible increased risk of "bottoming out"
Their recommendation: Choose the sub-muscular (under the muscle) placement if you have saline implants, a small amount of natural breast tissue, or a strong family history of breast cancer.
Over the Muscle (sub-glandular) Placement
-there could be a more natural-looking shape of the breast, particularly with silicone
-the recovery is less painful with a shorter recovery time
-there is no distortion when the chest muscles are flexed
-there may be a more natural sensation for the patient
-the implants are more visible and palpable, especially with saline implants
-there is a greater chance of rippling when using saline implants
Their recommendation: Choose the sub-glandular (over the muscle) placement if you want silicone implants, have a large amount of natural tissue (especially with saline implants), or if you require a breast lift along with implants.
I can upload pics from my iPhone?! Yes, please.
Hopefully this works!
Leaning Towards Under
This may seem really peculiar to read, but I am feeling better about an under placement and will of course ask my PS what his recommendation would be with my body type, and the reasons behind it.
Also, I don't think I have read one review on Real Self that did an over placement. If you have had your implants placed over the muscle, or know someone who has and could share that experience, I would really appreciate it! Thanks!
More Before Pics (LOTS!!)
And I forgot to mention in previous post, also in my nightmare my mother was there in her shiny lavender bikini top she used to always wear around the house in the summertime. We lived in the Deep South and didn't have a/c. She would've been in her mid-40s. My boobs look almost exactly like hers (for real not in my dream) -- poor deflated balloons.
Consult Was Wonderful!
Correction on Sizers, and booked it!
Also it's officially on the books for Nov 1 and pre-op on Oct 22. Soooooo beyond excited!!
Sizer Difference, and Ordered Surgical/Post-Op Bra
I also ordered my surgical/post-op bras today. I am not excited about apparently having to wear those for 6 weeks. My BFF said suck it up, it'll be worth it. lol. that's what friends are for. Love her.
Couple Before Pics
So I'll be getting silicone (Allergan), mod plus, under the muscle, 575cc. Counting down the days!
The More I Look
Let The Emotional Roller Coaster Begin
(Side note: He doesn't seem do well with me changing anything about myself, really, because I remember this convo several years ago when I stopped wearing oversized baggy tshirts and started wearing cute fitted (not tight) tops. I don't know if it's an insecure thing or what. And there have been a few other instances similar.)
I had teasingly asked if he thought he'd like my new boobs - guess I shouldn't have asked 2 minutes before I needed to leave to pick kids up. Ugh. So he unloaded the same crap again plus added in that he's "not sure if he'll like the new ones." That he likes my mommy boobs just how they are.
Have I mentioned I'm not doing this for him?! It was just a real letdown after being so pumped after talking to my PS office for 15 min regarding scripts, paying, pre-op, and day of surgery stuff.
I'm soooo thankful to have the support on here and the positive attitude and support of my BFF. I guess I should focus on being thankful he loves me how I am. Because it'd feel awful if he was pushing me to do this or making me feel like I wasn't good enough the way I am. I just wish he would be excited and pumped up with me.
Hubby Coming Around
Got My Surgery Time!
On the countdown!!!! It's really happening! :)
A Week To Go, and Bra Trouble
I'm starting to get butterflies when I think about it now, it's so close. I'm refusing to second guess myself or let doubts creep in. When that tries to happen, I immediately say no to those thoughts and remind myself of the reasons WHY I am doing this and the confidence I have in my PS and his team.
Yesterday I spent some time here at home trying on multiple bras, and also more nightgowns. This is round 2 of this. My PS wants the post-op bra to be from marenagroup.com - the one with the support strap built in. That's a fantastic idea. However, even with the shoulder straps on the loosest setting, it was cutting into my shoulders and up into my armpits. Sooo, I ordered the next size up. It felt great on my shoulders, but had too much extra room in the bust and the band size was way too big, even on the tightest setting it was gapping badly. Hmm. This is part of the struggle I have always had with having a long torso and my boobs being made so low on my torso.
Then I had a (hopefully brilliant) idea. Bra strap extenders for the shoulders of the first one I tried!!! I have ordered them from amazon and they should be here by mid-week. I am praying that works, because if not I am not quite sure what I will do.
I did also order the Under Armour zip front (Protege) that a few ladies on here have gotten, but it isn't a stage 1 like my PS wants, it's more for when I need a break from post-op bra or when going out and don't want strap. I have it in both D and DD and am not cutting tags off until I know what will work, if either.
I also have a Fruit of the Loom one from Walmart that clasps in front, but again it isn't quite the same as this surgical post-op one, it fits great now with no extra fabric in front.
I tried the zip front ones from marenagroup.com and didn't really care for them at all.
I also have a few soft stretchy ones from Coobie that are awesome, but again not Stage 1.
I still have my order from Tonserio coming, a zip front and the bandeaux. Again, not Stage 1 but more for a week or so out.
And I did order a strap by itself so I would have one separate (not just built in) to use with other bras.
You see why I hate bra shopping??? LOL
I will post this and then post some pics later. I'm on my iPad and the pics are on my phone. Gotta get the children to school!
Less Than a Week + My List
~personalizing my medication chart and make copies for each day
~stock my post-op tote
~clean the house
~catch up on account work
~move recliner to bedroom and set up that area
~wash pillowcases, blankets
~stock up at grocery & Walmart
~put together treat bags for halloween parties
~nails filled and pedi
~wash post-op bra a second time
~pack bag for surgery day
That's all I can think of for now! Hope everyone has had a lovely day. :)
Halloween! And In 24 Hours...
Kids have been warned trick-or-treat may not happen tonight because of string storms headed our way. At least they have Halloween parties at school to look forward to, and my son has a party tomorrow night. Our church also is doing a trunk-or-treat this Sunday.
Today will truly be my "day of lasts"! Plan to make it count. :)
Made It Through!
Oh, and I was hallucinating earlier. Little freaky!!! lol
First Night Down
Day of Surgery Story
BFF and I take the elevator and nervously wait in the waiting room for the nurse to come get me. We didn't have to wait but a few minutes, and during that time I gave my phone and wallet and keys to BFF to hold. Nurse double checked that she had the right phone number to give updates. As my BFF received updates, she would then text hubby to keep him updated. Remember, he had to work that day and was hoping to be done with cases (he works in the OR at the hospital) by around lunchtime.
My nurse's name was Leah. She was super sweet and very competent and in control, which made me feel very comfortable. I gave my urine sample, which I was nervous about having enough pee for since I was NPO and had peed at home!! Thankfully no issues there and I had plenty for a sample. LOL. Then onto the pre-op room. Leah asked me some questions, took my BP, assured me I wasn't pregnant (haha not worried as hubby has had a vasectomy). I had changed into the gown and left my panties and socks on. She also put some compression thingies on my lower legs that pumped up and squeezed and released at set intervals, and put booties over my socks on my feet.
Dr Vennemeyer came in, I asked him if he was ready to work his magic and he said yep, he had a great night's sleep and a healthy breakfast and was ready to go. :) He marked me up, verified my implants (the boxes were in the room) and said he'd see me soon.
After this, the anesthetist, Chris, came into the pre-op room. He went through all of his questions for me, and started my IV. It barely hurt which I was so thankful for. It was finally time to walk through the connecting door to the surgical suite. I was very calm, not nervous at all, just ready to get things going and very excited!
Another nurse had been in the surgical suite prepping the room. She had the Bair Hugger on the bed so it was really nice and warm. I slipped onto the bed, they got me all cozy with blankets, and I told Chris to just put me out when we were chatting, that I didn't want to count down. And that's exactly what he did. We were talking about a winter trip to the beach somewhere to debut the new girls and then the next thing I knew, they were trying to wake me up in recovery.
I did not do well in recovery. :( I had a hard time waking up and following directions. Leah pulled my gown away at one point (before the bra) and said to look! I looked down and I remember saying how beautiful they looked and I was soooo happy.
However, as soon as they sat me up, I felt horribly dizzy and nauseated. I kept saying "I just want to lie down, why can't I just lie down?" I felt like I was going to throw up constantly, they had that little kidney shaped vomit pail for me and I just was so upset that I was feeling so ill, after all the precautions we had taken! I remember Leah saying time and time again, take slow deep breaths. They tried having me smell different scents to supposedly help with the nausea - no dice! They even tried an alcohol pad which I got really annoyed with and pushed away.
I remember Dr Vennemeyer and Leah putting me into my bra. I remember Leah putting my yoga pants on and putting on my long pj top that was button down I had brought. They eventually got me into a wheelchair and wheeled me to the bathroom which was crazy. I made it onto the toilet, then Leah left me to pee and I just leaned against the wall trying to not throw up and trying to push pee out. It felt like I was in there 10 minutes but it was probably 2. She came back and helped me into the wheelchair and wheeled me to my BFF. I kept trying to slide down in the wheelchair to be able to lean my head back, and they would have to stop and sit me back up.
We had to take an elevator ride that I don't remember. I remember going outside and it was SO BRIGHT and Leah was trying to cover my face for me. My BFF pulled my Expedition around, and it took them both to get me in. I was all reclined and my BFF was so awesome, she tucked pillows around me including one between me and the seatbelt. Leah squeezed my hand and I told her thank you for taking good care of me, at least I think I said that but I was still REALLY out of it.
We started the drive home, and I remember my BFF asking me was I OK, did I need my blanket (no), did I need to vomit (no), did I want another pillow (no), did I want the window down or the a/c on? I said I want fresh air and rolled the window down. It seemed as long as I was laying down like that and the air blowing on me I did not feel sick. She told me later that I was beet red when she saw me and she knew the recovery room I had been in was hot, and I do not do well with hot! She told me that when she went to get Expedition she cranked the a/c all the way so the car and leather seats would be cold for me. She is such a doll!!
I barely remember the drive home. At one point I remember waking up and saying something to her, she told me later I said something about my fake boobs looked so real or something like that. LOL. I remember waking up as she slowed to make a turn in our town, and seeing my hubby in his truck flash his lights at us - the turn is right by the hospital and would you believe he was leaving and happened upon us and followed us home the entire rest of the way (about 15 minutes). I remember stopping at our gate (our driveway is gated) and hubs being at the garage to help me inside.
OH MY GOODNESS I had typed out several more paragraphs and it just erased them before I even posted?! GRRR!!!!
I can't type that all out again. Ugh that is frustrating. Basically I am doing great today, more pain with incisions, have nipple sensation, and need to poop. LOL
And I typed how appreciative I was of all you wonderful ladies here on RealSelf. I know I wouldn't have been as prepared on all fronts if not for here. Much love! xoxo
Post Op Day 1 Pics
Cleavage Shot & Post-Op Day 2 Update
Post-Op Day 2 Pics
Post-Op Day 3
I also can't use my strap above my breasts, since it pushes my breasts down and irritates the incisions, especially the left.
I am ready for Wednesday, which is my first post-op appointment and I hope he removes the steri-strips and checks out my incisions. I figure more steri-strips will go on, but at least they'll be changed and make sure my incisions are healing ok.
Also today I am feeling some flicks and pains and bubbles in my left breast. It is so weird to feel an itch and go to scratch it, yet it is in the numb area so even rubbing it doesn't make it go away.
The only pain I have now is incision pain which started post-op day 2 and is like a burning feeling.
The swelling/tightness in my actual breasts was pretty intense the first night, as some of the numbing medicine wore off and Percocet wore off. When I woke up that first night it was very uncomfortable and painful, thankfully the Percocet kicked in quickly. Even today when my breasts swell and tighten it isn't painful to me, just uncomfortable and definitely is like engorged breasts while breastfeeding. That description is perfect.
I have been on Celebrex and Lyrica since day of surgery. My PS wants me on that a week, but at least 3 days for the Lyrica. I took my morning dose of Lyrica today, but I am not taking it tonight. It is for nerve pain. I am sure it has helped, but I don't like the side effects. I fee some slight numbing on different parts of my body. It's weird. I also think it might be affecting having a bowel movement. Thankfully I haven't dealt with dizziness from it which I was nervous about. I will stay on the Celebrex for at least a week if not two weeks.
I have been able to manage pain and discomfort with Tylenol since yesterday.
I have not had a BM since Thursday morning!!! I have taken miralax, still softener twice a day, and had the senna tea twice today. I am praying for a good BM by tomorrow or I am going to have to take more drastic measures (suppository, enema?). I do not want a bowel blockage!!
I am still sleeping in the recliner. Last night was the first night I wasn't as comfortable in it, probably because that was my first night without Percocet, lol! I tried to lay down flat today on my bed to stretch my back out. Immediately my boobs let me know they weren't ok with that!
I am doing my best to balance resting with walking around the house and doing some of my normal routine things. I am already tired of the couch. Maybe tomorrow I will get out and walk around outside on the farm, and maybe even go with hubs to pick up kids.
No photo shoot today, maybe tomorrow. I'm very very very happy with them, and have told hubs several times how much I love them and a big thank you to him. :)
Left Incision + Constipation
Hubs is stopping at Kroger to pick up a different type of laxative for me to try today. This is getting ridiculous. To those who haven't had surgery yet -- start taking a combo stool softener/stimulant (laxative) at 1 dpo. I feel really crappy today and no wonder, I am full of crap. Haha, bad joke. Ugh seriously.
On another note - my tape/steri-strips were so bothersome on that left incision I ended up peeling the rest of the way off (with hub supervising). It looks great so he says. We'll see what Dr V says tomorrow and if more tape/strips are put on.
Oh, and I'm back in the surg bra today, using a soft washcloth to cushion the front where the under bust band is cutting funny. Whether that's from my bloating or whatever. It feels much more constrictive than my Coobie but I'm sticking it out for at least half the day, as long as I'm not in actual pain from it. I'll see what PS says tomorrow about my bra issues.
So Much For That
Post-Op Couldn't Have Gone Better!
Hubs took me to lunch, my favorite (sushi) then back home. I'm exhausted. I'm supposed to be napping right now. (Shhhh!!!)
This was my first day out, and the girls felt strange all covered up in layers of clothes. I felt a bit self-conscious although no one knew me (PS is an hour out of town). I'll probably try small group tonight (like church home groups) and I know I'll feel weird, lol. Not sure what I'll wear.
My belly has been good today, had a normal BM this morning yay, so hopefully on the upside although I am still just so tired. My get up and go got up and went as my hubs says.
Thank you so much for all the love, support & encouragement from you wonderful ladies here. It means SO MUCH. xoxo
Not All Roses
Physically: Still dealing with "nerve" pain beneath each breast, about an inch below incision and the width of each breast, along my ribs. I have thought this was incision pain, and then rib bruising, but apparently it is nerve pain. It is a burning pain that can be as high as 8/10 pain scale and is present 90% of the day. If it weren't for this pain I'd be over the moon. Tylenol or Percocet maybe take the edge off. Maybe I should've stayed on the Lyrica instead of stopping it at day 3. This is what my post-op bra band was bothering. The Coobie Support Bra is the least irritating against it.
Today is my first day off Celebrex. I can tell a difference. :( I have had some intense pulling pain under my breasts near incision with turning a certain way or picking something up. It is searing. Especially the left side. My PS said that's from the internal stitches to my chest wall when I mentioned it at my post-op, but of course on Wednesday it wasn't that painful just noticed it. I didn't want to refill the Celebrex because #1 I'm ready to be off meds and #2 my insurance didn't cover it. We'll see how the next couple of days go.
I also still have that cramp feeling deep in my left breast against my ribcage. I dealt with this before my BA, whether it's pleurisy or my chiropractor says a rib being touch out of place and needing adjusting. Of course an adjustment is out of the question right now.
I'm tired of sleeping in my recliner although it's actually pretty comfy. I tried sleeping in bed Friday night and my back started hurting. I have a bulging disc in low back and believe it or not sleeping in the recliner with a pillow against my low back and pillows on each side I have had zero back pain in the morning, where usually every morning my low back is weak and sore feeling. I think I'm just tired of my routine being off, and I've got to just get over that! Oh and I can't sleep on my side yet because of incision pain when I try.
My boobs feel like water balloons. They are still incredibly firm and are strange under clothes. I've tried to keep a low profile which has been challenging when going out because I've not made my BA public. Part of me envies those of you ladies who are out there with your BA and confident in it! My BFF is like that, but she understands that I am not that way and prefer to keep it on the down low. But I'm about to the point of saying Screw It! and be out there in my new BA glory! LOL
Emotionally: I'm very down emotionally. My hubby has been an ass since Friday night when he wanted sex and I didn't feel like it. Not only was I exhausted and uncomfortable from BA, but I'm in my PMDD mode which I struggle with on a monthly basis. We've had sex twice since my BA, the first time I was actually interested and into it (was still on all meds haha) that was Monday; Tuesday came and with it was the belly issues and exhaustion which has continued the rest of week. Second time was a quickie for him. So it's not like he hasn't had sex, but it was all about how I wasn't "willing to be intimate" and on and on - issues we deal with on a regular basis because he totally doesn't get how women have CYCLES and he is the type of person who thinks people can control their moods, etc. He can be very selfish, childish and insecure. We've been married almost 15 years and for the past 2-3 years this has been a major issue in our marriage. He isn't willing to go to counseling (thinks they're all quacks) and I've practically begged him to read marriage books.
Anyway I digress. Sorry for going all off tangent but I guess my point is that having surgery and dealing with recovery is stressful (obviously) and despite my best hopes it brought out and intensified our other struggles. Y'all may remember my BFF having the dream that my hubby was being an ass and she kicked him out and moved in to take care of me?? Yeah, that. Part of me wishes I had checked into a hotel and had her and a paid nurse take care of me and let my hubby deal with the home stuff without me here. By Tuesday he was chomping at the bit to be doing something while I was crashed on the couch feeling like crap. He bitched about having to go back and forth to get kids to and from activities yet when I said well I take them to dinner or library etc he didn't want to do that either. He also has said multiple times how I should be doing fine by now (even at post op day 3) and shouldn't need meds or by a week out I should be totally normal. And yet had the balls to say "well I've done everything for you this past week and you just give me leftovers". Yeah.
He's just completely insensitive and as I've mentioned before doesn't do well when I'm not operating at 100%. Thank God he goes back to work tomorrow. I can't say I'm surprised as I worried about him handling everything and me being out of it.
I am just incredibly sad and worn down mentally today, I've cried off and on all morning and even typing this am tearing up. Those of you who have wonderfully supportive, sensitive and emotionally understanding significant others --- please give them some extra love and hugs today and appreciate them and know how blessed you are!!! There are times I think mine is coming around and I know he loves me and wants to give me the world - but there are definite issues we struggle mightily with that keeps me on my knees praying!!!!
My goodness this has been long-winded and if you made it through thanks for reading and "listening" to me. I know things will look up I'm just having a hard time right now. I am so grateful I've had such great results and know things in my life could be horribly worse. And I'm so thankful to have this community of wonderful women from all walks of life and from all over the world. xoxo
Better Today & THANK YOU
Hubs is Trying, Nerve Pain, and Shivering
I slept well but this morning the nerve pain across my "band" area in front under my breasts (good grief I really need a short acronym or something for that!!) is back with a vengeance this morning. I didn't massage that area yesterday and I wonder if that is contributing to it. I am hoping to "desensitize" that area. I will work on that some today, as much as I can stand it.
I am attempting to go to walmart for a few things after I drop the kiddos off at school. We had a light dusting of snow last night, so it will be slow going and I will make sure to bundle up because as others have said, shivering with the new boobies IS NO FUN!!! Especially with sore incision sites! Ouch!
Hope you lovely ladies have a wonderful day. xoxo
Pics (11 dpo) & Update
Also, the straight on pic shows the subtle differences that are normal between breasts. Breasts are not identical (therefore I refuse to refer to my new additions as "twins", lol). My crease is a touch higher on one, nipple placement touch different, that's how my body was made! I think it is important to recognize those slight assymetrical differences, and know that they will still be there after a BA.
My boobs are also starting to get a little squishy!! Yay! I noticed it after I got out of the shower last night and they jiggled a little when I was toweling off slightly tilted forward (I still can't bend 90 degrees straight forward).
Oh, and I noticed yesterday that I have full range of motion standing, yet when I lay down flat I absolutely can not put my arms over my head without a pulling PAIN - I can barely stretch them out to the sides even. Weird how I can standing but not laying. I also am not 100% comfy laying completely flat or even with just one pillow. Gravity pulls my breasts toward my neck and that pulls on the incision sites and is very uncomfortable and will quickly turn to pain. However I can lay very reclined, say with a regular pillow then one longways on top of it, down my back and supporting my neck and head. I'm still sleeping in recliner but may be ready to try bed with all my pillows. Did sleep on my right side for a little while in recliner last night w/out incident. In my recliner I am sleeping with a pillow behind low back, and a pillow longways on each side.
I bought some Bio-Oil at WalMart yesterday and oh my I love it! I'm using it and Eucerin original lotion to massage breasts and under breasts (for that darn nerve pain) and will use that on my incision scars starting Friday. PS did give sample and coupon for Kelocite lotion for scars, however he said any moisturizing unscientific lotion is just fine. I got the feeling he carries the samples because patients want something, but he definitely didn't push for that scar cream. He does not recommend silicone scar sheets, and my hubs doesn't want me covering the incision sites at all. Let it breathe is his mantra. I didn't want to use the sheets anyway, the steri-strips got on my nerves by day 4.
Oh, I am totally feeling more like myself mentally this week. Yay for that!! However, I normally have a pretty high energy level and go-go-go all day whether shuttling kids, running errands, doing housework, working outside on farm, etc. I like to stay moving. So it has been a challenge to accept my decreased energy level + needing to rest my boobs when mentally I feel good. For example, I shopped and put away groceries yesterday morning, but then I was worn completely out just showering and had to rest for a few hours. Today, I cleaned (slowly and carefully) two bathrooms and did a little laundry, and my boobs - which I had massaged beforehand and were all soft and happy - became very aggravated at me and I had to park it on the couch and have been here for almost 2 hours.
That's all for now, I'll attach pics, hope they load, then I will caption them. :)
Also, I did not scrub showers or bathtubs, hubs did that yesterday for me, he always does, I hate to clean them. I just wiped down counters, mirrors, cleaned toilets.
Well Lookie What I Found
Dang Boobie Blues!!!!
Note to those on the pre-BA side: LET YOURSELF FEEL YOUR EMOTIONS. Don't try to talk yourself out of them. It's OK to be a little irrational!!
So what is my problem today? I feel like a terrible mother! My 10 year old son is very understanding and is quick to jump in to help if he sees me reaching for something, carrying anything, or if he hears me gasp. LOL. Although he hasn't been that great with listening and doing his regular chores without giving me attitude. Thankfully hubby has intervened on this and helped with an attitude adjustment.
However, my 6 year old daughter is struggling. It is hard for her to not have me be 100%. Over the weekend she actually asked me when my recovery would be over (as I was yet again sitting on my duff doing nothing)!!! It doesn't help that Christmas decorations were dragged upstairs by hubby last week (and we seriously decorate the entire house, all out), and yet only about 10% has been decorated. She is chomping to have the decorations up and done and every day this week as she comes in the house after school and sees the totes still out and nothing up, she is like, Come on, Mommy, let's get decorating! As I collapse on the couch.
Yes I am glad to have hubs back at work, as he loves his job and NEEDS that structure, but his schedule is quite demanding taking call two nights a week and one weekend a month. Thank God he got to come home yesterday for a couple of hours to do the outside chores, and when he was done with that he handled homework with both children (see next paragraph as to why I really needed him to do that!!!). Especially since he got called back in to work @9p and didn't get to come back home.
So after school yesterday, I am cooking for small group and trying to help my daughter with homework. That was an epic fail as I had at least four things going on at one time PLUS hurting with my cord and I could NOT multi-task like I usually can. I ended up sending her to go play and she asked could she watch TV, yet she was back upstairs within 5 minutes (very strange as she doesn't get very much TV time, she basically needed attention from me). She then made me a drawing (see attached picture) which made me feel terrible because I was being an ogre and she just needed love. I did give her a big hug and told her I was sorry for being short with her and that I am still recovering and it will take a few weeks but eventually I WILL be myself again!!!!
It has just been a stressful week with getting back into the swing of things on my own, yet being limited, and dealing with the aches and pains still.
Oh! Update on the Mondor's cord situation. I texted my PS yesterday evening, and he texted back confirming Mondor's cord, suggested warm compresses and ibuprofen/Tylenol, and reassured me it will go away. I also sent him a pic of the flat edge on my cleavage, and he was not concerned anything bad was happening as I am still settling and changing, BUT he offered me to come in to be seen today or Friday if I wanted. Which I really appreciate because today and tomorrow are his surgery days and I don't know if he typically even sees patients those days. I texted back that unless he thought he needed to see me, I didn't feel like I had to rush in to be seen, and I asked if Aleve was OK to take instead of ibuprofen (yes). He also checked in this morning to see how I am feeling.
Part of my meltdown this morning was I didn't take any Tylenol or Aleve first thing like I usually do, because I wanted to wait until I ate (which I usually do before taking kids to school but didn't today), so by the time I took Aleve it was at least 9a and it's now an hour later and I am finally feeling relief. Whew!
Hope everyone has a good day!! xoxo
Doing Really Well
I have definitely noticed my breasts settling as of yesterday morning. I will have hubs help me with a photo shoot tomorrow or weekend!!
Mondor's cords suck but as long as I don't press on them hard or over stretch I'm ok. Taking aleve 2x a day. I developed three cords under right breast but still just one under left. Will show with updated pics.
Hubby has been very wonderful since his meltdown and is making sure I take it easy and also reminding me that the healing will take time whenever I have a moment of frustration (which is about once a day, ha). He's made a complete turnaround thankfully. He still loves the new girls and so do I!!!
I'm also feeling more and more like they're a part of me - I didn't wear padded bras before so this is a big change.
No more boobie blues lately. Seems like Monday was the turnaround for me, what was that post op day 17 I think.
I'll post again soon with pics! xoxo
Pop! Goes the.....
24 dpo pics
Heard Back From Doc
And a B&A to Show My Natural Asymmetry
4 Weeks Post-Op
~still sleeping in recliner
~can lay on right side for 1-2 hours
~very squishy & soft
~laying on front feels really weird as I can feel the implants
~still have pulling pain on underneath left side when overstretch, turn strange or push hard. I think this is from the mondor's cord on that side
~speaking of mondor's cords, there are several under right breast but they are not large or painful
~still have burning nerve pain under breasts, goes down a few inches all across band, feels like a cheese grater attacked me :/
~numbness still there on both breasts from nipple down to crease and also it goes around under armpit area, but there has been improvement
~displacement exercises done 1x day, push in 10 sec and then up 10 sec (not down, not out)
~massage each breast & nipple 3-5 minutes or more daily, in small circular motions increasing pressure as can tolerate; I have to do this myself on numb places to complete the loop to my brain for nerve regeneration
That's all I can think of right now! xoxo
Pics at 32 dpo
I am doing really well. Seems like my pain turned the corner over the weekend and then Monday/Tuesday it took a few steps back. However today it is back to being better. It is the nerve pain I deal with under boobs. It was shooting pain and quite frustrating. I know it must do this to heal, and thankful it only lasted two days. Now it is back to still being tender and cheese-grater-ish but with slight improvement.
I am still sleeping in recliner, although I can lay on my side - even my left side - for short amounts of time. I joke that it is my cocoon-nest. I never imagined I would still be in it this far out, but I sleep well and my back doesn't hurt like it does in the bed.
I still take an Aleve in the morning almost every day, but haven't had to take one at night for about a week or so. I have felt increased soreness/pressure under my breasts, like they are settling down in there - an achy feeling. Seemed like this is if I go braless for a few hours or sleep without one (I slept without a bra for a few nights while dealing with that rash in cleavage) and the next morning they were SORE. Still get "morning boob" but it is way less and goes away quickly.
The straight edge is still there on my inner right breast, but it isn't as noticeable and is changing as my breasts soften. I will be asking my PS about it and specifically WHAT IS CAUSING IT.
I am feeling more and more confident in my clothing and not being as self-conscious of them, I am getting used to them, I didn't wear padded bras before so this is a big change for me! I haven't had boobs this big since nursing my daughter 6 years ago, haha.
The Mondor's cords are improving SLOWLY. The biggest and most painful one under my left breast has gone down 25-50% of what it was - yay - and I am able to massage it and around it with increased pressure WITHOUT it causing pain - this is a HUGE improvement. It is weird to feel it "rolling" when I push hard across it.
Hubby continues to be very supportive, both emotionally and physically. I couldn't stand my house any longer being so filthy so yesterday I cleaned like I normally would, EXCEPT I didn't sweep/vacuum/mop - he did all that for me and insisted on doing so. I didn't wake up any more sore today than normal so I guess I did alright with things!
I have not started back working out. My PS cleared me for cardio (but not jumping) at 4 weeks post-op. I will probably wait until after the new year and then start back in my normal routine (albeit slowly as that will have been a 2 month break).
5 Weeks Post-Op Update
Oh, also after I showered yesterday morning, I was drying off and was slightly bent forward at the waist and as I dried my left boob I heard a loud pop sound. Didn't feel anything, everything looked normal, not sure what that was - maybe stitches, but I haven't had any popping stitches in awhile and this was really loud. Very weird. Coupled with the jarring my left boob is extremely tender on the outer part of incision site. Also I have a second large and hard mondor's cord toward the outer part of that incision. Have I mentioned I am ready to see my PS!? lol
Otherwise I'm doing well. I thought about starting back on treadmill or elliptical tomorrow, but now with this issue not sure I want to push it.
I will upload some pics. Hope everyone has a great Sunday! I'm ready for some good football!!! xoxo
Second Follow-Up Tomorrow (12/11)
Had a FABULOUS 6 Week Follow-Up!!!!
My appointment yesterday was wonderful! You all know I was really ready to see my PS. Well, I swear my PS's jaw dropped when I opened that paper gown and he got a look at his handiwork!! The first words out of his mouth was, "Wow, you look AMAZING!" I started laughing and told him that was exactly the reaction I had hoped for. He said again how awesome they looked, I wish I had a picture of his face. I shed the cumbersome gown thing and he started checking out the scars and said how great they looked, and that they will continue to look even better. I told him I would text him the scar progression collage I had so he could see how far they have come really in just the past couple of weeks.
I then showed him the Mondor's cords, which thankfully I can push on and massage around with minimal discomfort, and he really scrutinized them. He said they will get better and he was just really glad they weren't bothering me anymore (pain-wise). You can't see them unless I pull hard up on the breast, so even if it takes awhile longer for them to go away I am ok mentally with them (not that I have a choice, LOL). I told him how my cheese-grater-nerve-pain is 80% gone and he was relieved for me on that front, too. I mentioned how I get sharp nerve shock flicking pain in the exact same spot on my right boob (in the 6 o'clock position under my nipple) whenever I bend over and move my arm in a certain way (like rubbing lotion on my legs). It really feels like little shocks but I know it is nerve regeneration which he agreed with although he said it sounded really annoying - yep definitely. I showed him where I still have numb patches (under both nipples toward crease and under armpit area on left side) but that there is steady improvement. He reassured me that the aches and pains and twinges should be gone by the 3-4 month mark.
I then went into the jarred boob incident and the ensuing pain and achy-ness, but that it seemed to turn a corner Mon/Tue. It still feels bruised when pushed on the outer part of the breast, against the ribs. He really felt around that area and said everything felt fine, which reassured me - and that the popping sound could have been a small pocket of fluid around the incision (scar tissue) but that he wasn't concerned because everything looked and felt great.
He noticed how they have really softened and gotten squishy, and that he doesn't anticipate any more dropping, but my breast tissue between nipple and crease may stretch out over time. He reiterated and showed me how he stitched extra thick internal stitches through my fascia under the breast against the chest wall to really reinforce the best he could for support. I asked how long those stitches take to dissolve in there and he said a few months, so by the time they do the muscle/tissue should be healed well and hold -- I hope it holds that way for a long time, but if/when things get too settled or droopy then we deal with it. We had a whole discussion about the wearing of a bra 24/7 vs no bra sleeping etc. As with everything, what he said was right on the same wavelength as me. Which is, yes wear a bra but also take a break from a bra when you want - if you want to sleep in one fine, if not fine - it's about balance. He said basically live your life and enjoy your breasts, that's why you got them! Amen!
I asked him if I could wear underwire, exercise, etc and he released me for anything and everything. He literally said, "Do whatever the heck you want! You are ready!" I just love him!!!
I showed him the straight edge, which honestly as I was pushing it in to show him I could barely even tell where it was. He pushed around it and the sternum area and said that is how my muscle is attached to the chest wall, which is what I suspected - that's how I am made and really now that I have thought about it I wouldn't really want it messed with as the LAST thing I would want would be messing with that area and ending up with a uniboob - eeeeek!!! I'm just so glad it has softened up and I have hope for my buddy PinkLotus hers will do the same!!!
My PS said he would like to go ahead and take some after photos, which really surprised me as he normally doesn't take after photos until around 6 months.
We then talked about Botox since Allergan gives free Botox with implants. My BFF is getting a free session, too. We are going back next Wednesday, December 18 for that! I am excited. I will start a separate review for that along with before & after pics.
Overall it was an absolutely fabulous appointment, and I left there feeling on Cloud 9! My hubby has been telling me all along that everything was normal and fine, but it makes a difference hearing your PS say the same things, hahaha. I feel more confidence and even more happy - if that's even possible - with my choice to have a BA. And I KNOW my entire experience wouldn't have been nearly as wonderful without all of the strong, supportive, giving, amazing women here on Real Self!!!!
I have been working on some more photo collages and will post updated pics separately in case of technical difficulties. Much love ladies!!! xoxo
And Now For 6 Week and B&A Pics!
Oh, on pics.....
Progression Pic in Tonserio Bra
Itchy!!!!!!! And Excited For Botox!
Tomorrow is my free Botox appointment! Of course my bestie is going with me, and also getting a free appointment, and then afterwards, finally, drum roll please.....real bra shopping! I hope it goes well and doesn't end in utter frustration as it has in the past. I also plan to pick out a special nightie as my 15th anniversary is Saturday!
Hope you all are doing well! Much love! xoxo
7 Weeks Post, Bra Shopping, and Botox
I can stretch and put weight on my arms without pain.
I can sleep on my left side, there is slight discomfort and soreness on that outer edge still but not pain.
The electric nerve pain in my right breast is still there depending on what movement I do, but I noticed the other day that it is better. It's started doing the nerve pain when I do my displacement exercises on that right side.
I still get morning boob SOMETIMES but not every day. Not sure if it is position, if I have a bra on or not, or what. It seems random.
I have been mostly sleeping in the bed, but a night or two a week I still sleep in my recliner, not because of boob pain but because of low back pain (I have a bad low back, bulging disc). We need a firmer mattress and sleeping in the recliner with the pillow at my low back is actually more comfortable than my bed at this point.
I had my first Botox treatment this past Wednesday! I was more nervous than before my BA. I didn't do a lot of research beforehand because there seems to be much more horror stories out there. I had to remind myself that Dr V is an experienced, artistic plastic surgeon that I trust explicitly.
When Dr V came in, he spent at least 20 minutes talking with me and my BFF all about Botox and how he approaches treatment, discussing concerns, etc. I told him I wanted to do my forehead and crow's feet as well as in between brows, so I ended up paying for the extra units, and we talked in detail about maintaining a natural, not frozen, appearance. As always, Dr V was right on the same wavelength as me. I have started a separate review for the Botox, which will hopefully publish by tomorrow. I will go ahead and attach the progression collages I made this morning.
After Botox, my BFF and I had lunch then went BRA SHOPPING!!! I was excited until I walked into the lingerie department at Dillard's. I was immediately overwhelmed. My bestie was amazing as always, and we jumped right in and started pulling different styles and band sizes 36 and 38 and cup sizes C, D, DD, and a couple of DDD. My BFF has huge boobs, so she is a pro at bra shopping.
So I thought I might be a D, so started there with trying on. Nope, all the D bras I busted out of! So here started the DD's. 38DD ended up being the best size for me in several different styles and brands. I actually needed a DDD in two different styles, but the band size was 36 so I am sure it is considered the "sister size" to a 38DD. I wanted this cranberry and black satiny bra but they only carried it up to DD in 36 and a D in 38! I was disappointed and my BFF joked, welcome to my world. She is a 44DDD. I spent an hour and a half trying on bras.
I ended up buying a black demi cup, a nude cotton t-shirt bra, and two front closures - one black, one nude. However, once I got home and tried them on for hubby, the t-shirt bra felt horribly constricting so it is going back (it was the first one I tried in the store and I didn't try it back on after the others). It fits perfectly well, I think it is because the cotton doesn't stretch. I do like how the underwire is further back on the sides. I also think I am taking back the black front closure. I can always buy more later, and I am not convinced I am done softening. I would hate to spend that much money on bras that may not fit in a few months (the front closures were $78 apiece). I also want to try other stores, I have heard such great things about the Bali bras and I know there are more options than what Dillard's carries.
The time spent was productive though; I figured out what cup styles and straps I like and don't like, and that I really need the 38 band because the straps seem a touch longer and with my low-set boobs I need that extra length so the straps don't dig in my shoulders. Once we were all done trying on, it felt comforting to put my Tonserio back on. I think I will still spend most of my time in my Coobie and Tonserio, but I know I need other styles for different tops. I just tend to spend a lot of my time in black yoga pants and workout style tops, haha.
While there I also bought a sexy, clingy, with a bit of lace black nightie and a pair of lace thong panties (I don't wear thongs normally) for my hubby to admire for our anniversary this weekend.
I will attach some pics, we didn't take a photo of the front closure I got and I am not feeling like playing dress-up right now. I have a sick little one AGAIN. My BFF took these pics in the dressing room.
2 Months Post-Op Update
The numb areas I talked about last time are still there. Maybe slight improvement. Sometimes I get really annoyed with them, for example it is getting old rubbing lotion on and hitting those "dead" patches as it just feels soooo weird.
I have noticed under my left breast a bit under incision to the outer area some discomfort here and there. I think it is nerve pain and the weight of my boob when not in a bra presses on something, or it is related to the mondor's cords that are still there, although when I push on them there is no pain. It isn't anything major, and I know from all the internal stitching to my chest wall that it could be 3-4 months before things are fully healed, so I am not worried.
I also had a moment about a week ago that I was slightly freaking out because my right boob just seems SO MUCH BIGGER when I look at them straight on, and in pics. I will post the comparison pic collages I made and you will see what I mean. I was starting to hyperventilate - haha - when I calmed myself down by reminding myself that BOOBS ARE NOT PERFECTLY SYMMETRICAL. There weren't before, they won't be now, or EVER. I know I have preached this before, but I gotta say it again. For myself and for anyone struggling with this.
I looked back on my pre-BA photos as well as my progression pics after surgery and my right breast has consistently looked this way. It was (and still is): rounder on the outer part, the nipple in a significant different position than the left, and the crease is lower.
I have also noticed visually that they are softer looking. Their squishiness feels great, and when I do my displacement exercises each day (I am to only push in for 10 seconds, then up for 10 seconds) that I can really squish it over far. The straight edge I have on the inner part of my right breast is still there when I push my breast over with the exercises. This does not bother me at all and whenever I have hubby do a proper photo shoot I will get a picture of this and show the progression of it.
The pictures I am attaching I took myself last week, right at the 8 week mark. Yesterday (Wednesday) was the official 2 month mark. And tomorrow (Friday) will be 9 weeks. We have just been so busy with the holidays, illness, and hubby's crazy work schedule. Not to mention it is just plain FRIGID here and the thought of stripping down for a photo shoot is not appealing, haha.
We went shopping on New Year's Eve and the hubby was wonderful to keep the kids occupied while I went in Victoria's Secret. I had about an hour before they closed. I was aggravated because I grabbed probably 20 bras all in 38 band size which I know I am, and they were all way too huge. So I go and swap out for 36 band size in several, and that still seemed too big. Talk about vanity sizing as I had to go to a 34 band size in a DDD. It fit properly, but I just wasn't crazy about the feel of the underwire (demi cup) and I ran out of time. My hubby couldn't believe it when I met up with him and the kids with NO SHOPPING BAGS. Haha. It was a bit frustrating but I do at least have the one good underwire bra, for nicer tops. I would still like a nice t-shirt bra for fitted tops, I have placed an order with Zappos and will be trying some more Natori and Le Mysetere bras. From there I will try Nordstrom's and specifically want to try Chantelle bras. At this point I am totally fine in my Coobie Comfort Bras and my front closure Tonserio bra (which I LOVE now!). However as warmer weather arrives I will need more options!!
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and Happy New Year!! xoxo
1st Workout @9.5 Weeks
Anyway, I wasn't sure what sports bra I would wear. So at 6a, all bleary eyed, I tried on the Under Armour Protégée that I had bought right before surgery and that I have only worn a few times because of the cheese-grater-nerve-pain I had under my left boob. It is a 38DD. Well the 38 band is now too loose. So I put on my old faithful Nike Pro Dri-Fit, my absolute favorite pre-BA sports bra, and went with it. I did throw a Coobie Comfort Bra into my bag for after my workout to run errands if the Nike wasn't feeling comfortable. And I'm glad I did! The Nike didn't ride up, but my cleavage was very sweaty, the non-adhesive nippies kept shifting, and even though I didn't feel like I bounced too much (this was a low-impact toning class, with very little cardio) I didn't feel confident and comfortable.
I couldn't wait to peel out of that thing and slip my Comfort Bra on. I think I literally breathed a sigh of relief. Which made me a bit sad because I used to wear that Nike all day and be totally comfortable. But then I look at my boobs and know it is worth it, just have to adjust.
My actual workout was just ok. I did have a bit of achy soreness in that trouble spot under left breast, outer part. I don't do push-ups bc of bad wrists, and there wasn't any weight lifting. I did feel a little weird on the mat though when we went to the floor for abs, we were putting an exercise ball between ankles and lifting up and taking the ball with outstretched arms, then putting legs partway down while arms holding ball went over head. The V movement while holding ball laying down felt funny but not painful, but I still didn't like it.
Typical crunches and side crunches felt fine, except for the fact that I am incredibly weak from not working out for 2.5 months. I swear I couldn't even feel my abs tightening under my layer of "fluff". lol
It was also strange to see myself in the mirror in my normal workout clothes, but with boobs. I didn't feel like anybody was staring, but it was just awkward for me! I know I'll get used to it.
Tomorrow is a yoga/Pilates class I am debating. I wasn't planning to workout tomorrow bc my house is dirty dirty after the holiday break and I planned to clean while hubby is at work and kids are at school.
Friday is a high impact RIPPED class that I have always loved but am nervous about. I don't know what to do about the bra situation. I may try doubling up, maybe two Nikes or a Coobie and a Nike. I'm a little frustrated but I know I'll find a new normal with it.
I still haven't tried on the box of underwire bras from Zappos. Looks like I may be ordering some sport bras to try. Ha. My BFF recommended an underwire or cupped sport bra. Now I wish I had kept the UA Protégée in the 36 band size, but who knew?
On a good news front, I tanned today (ahhhhh) and could lift my arms over my head (to tan my armpits, lol) without any pain or discomfort!! I haven't tanned in a month, and I like to have my arms up for half the time. So yay for that milestone. It was strange how I could lay on a soft surface and put my arms over my head, but not a hard, flat surface.
Hope everyone is staying warm if you live where it's extremely frigid. I was thankful for right at freezing temps today. Much better than negative numbers!! xoxo
And a Little Update
I did Pilates/yoga last Thursday and it was wonderful. I did RIPPED Friday and it was tough bc of not working out for so long, and bc I doubled up bras and the top bra was too big on band and it kept riding up. And I was a bit sore underneath my breasts later that day.
Saturday I went shopping and bought two Under Armour bras. Another Protégée in a 36DD (the 38DD I have is too big) and another one that has a back closure also in 36DD.
Oh, I also tried on the 6 bras from zappos and none worked. However I reordered some in 38D as the 36 was too tight and the 38DD too big in cups. I also ordered some sports bras from zappos. Those all came in tonight but I haven't tried on yet.
Today I did Piloxing only 30 minutes. Lots of high impact and punching (combo Pilates and kickboxing). I had a little discomfort under breasts again and sore tonight. I had great support with my new bra so don't think it's the bouncing. I think it's the punching and overhead and basically all arm moves. lol. I noticed a bit discomfort with abs last Friday too. I have to admit I am frustrated that I am not able to just get right back into things. I have texted my PS to let him know what's going on and see his thoughts, if the soreness and discomfort are normal or if I need to take it easy. Remember I had the extra internal permanent sutures. I'm waiting to hear back.
Also I'm on my period and very bloated and blah feeling. And, I started having a tickly throat and bit of cough last night. I have had a headache ALL DAY TODAY even with Tylenol.
I've attached a couple pics from trying on bras from zappos the other night. The tan is a Le Mystere. White is Natori. I think.
I'm behind on replying to comments! I will get to them I promise! Thank you ladies for keeping up with me and your supportive and encouraging words!!! xoxo
Official Pre- and Post-Op Pics
Also, he texted me back that soreness is normal BUT to listen to my body and be easy, but not to worry I'll damage anything.
And Scar Pics @10 Weeks
3 Month Update & Pics
I am still having a hard time finding comfortable bras. Any underwire I try bothers that left breast. I have also lost a total of 16 lbs since the end of August. I have lost inches under my bust, even within the last month I have lost another .25" so that throws off the band size. The beautiful black bra I bought a couple months ago is too big now, I literally never wore it. That is frustrating and has made me leery of spending big money on bras now when I am still hoping to lose a bit more. I am in my Coobie bras every day, and sleep braless. My favorite Coobie is the Floral Comfort in size L and recently tried the Lace Comfort in L and love it too. I have thought about altering some of the regular Comfort bras by tightening up the band and stitching it closed. They are size L as well, but the band feels looser.
As far as sports bras go, I have tried on close to twenty different styles. !!! The only one to work has been the Under Armour, Armour bra. My only complaint is that it isn't a cross-back, which is what I prefer, so that is a different feel to get used to working out. I am currently in the 36DD, but it is on the tightest hook, so I have bought a 34DD.
Speaking of working out, it has been very hit and miss lately because of the bad weather and all of the snow days we have had! My kids are home again today, which makes it snow day 13. It's crazy!! Anyway, I have done Zumba, Zumba Toning, Piloxing, Yoga, Pilates and RIPPED. The only issue I have had, weirdly, is crunches. I can feel a pulling almost burning underneath both breasts and I do NOT like it. I can usually do some crunches before this starts in, and if I modify and do side crunches with opposite knee crossed it isn't bad. I can also still feel my pecs flexing around the implants when I crunch, and it doesn't hurt but it feels weird!! I hope I just get used to this the more I work out.
I am ready for warm weather and swimsuits!! I have ordered and tried on multiple bikini tops. The style I love and am used to, the cross-back tie, is proving more difficult to fit into. It is fine for tanning, but not sure it will be useful for much else. I did order and keep a sporty type top from Athleta that has an underwire built in, and is pretty supportive. I didn't take a pic though when I tried it on. I tried the Agent Provocateur Blaize bikini and I wanted it to work sooooo bad. However I busted out of the top and the bottoms were a bit tight. I could have went up a size in the bottoms, but I was at the biggest size for top so there wasn't any point in that. I had to return it. But I did take a pic to show you guys and will post that.
Let's see, what else? I still have numbness under my arms on the sides, and in the 6 o'clock position under my nipples, but all is improving. It's funny, every few days or so a spot will itch like crazy. It will drive me nuts, but I remind myself that is a good thing, that the nerves are regenerating so I see it as progress instead of just an annoyance. Haha.
When I do my implant displacement exercises, I still have that same zinger on the right breast when I push my breast inward. It's the same zinger I was feeling when I bent over and put lotion on my legs, or moved my arm in that bent position. I am used to it and it is not painful, just kinda funny.
I am still putting on Bio-Oil twice a day on the scars. I am just now toward the end of my first bottle. I love the smell and feel of it, and plan to continue to use it indefinitely.
I am slowly branching out with my tops in public, although I still wear the "minimizing" Coobie and layers since it is cold. But I have gone from wearing all black to wearing my normal colors. I haven't noticed anyone checking out my boobs, and no one has made any comments. My hope is by summer time people will be used to my curves covered and it won't be as obvious not so covered. Haha. We will see.
My BFF and I ran away a couple of weekends ago to the lakehouse, and I saw my MIL and BIL for the first time since the surgery. I only saw my MIL for about an hour, late, the night I got there, and then she was gone the rest of the time. My BIL asked me if I was wearing a minimizing bra, to which I replied YES, I guess they didn't look all that different covered up, haha. They will be surprised to see me in a swimsuit this summer I am guessing.
Well, gonna attach some pics I have taken over the past couple of weeks. Eventually I will have hubby do a photo shoot! It has just been too cold to fool with!
Hope you all are doing well! xoxo
Couldn't ask for a better experience. Dr V and staff are all truly wonderful people. Dr V is a brilliant PS with excellent skills and a great personality. I've already referred three people to him!