3 month mark - doing great!

So I am downright absolutely petrified. What fear is worse than petrified? That's how I'm feeling right now. OMG. Wow. I can't believe I'm going through with this, but so badly want some curves.

I am so worried about going out of my mind post-op, with not being able to exercise for 10 days. Holy wow how will I ever make it? Seriously, running and my fitness "me" time is like a way for my brain to relax. I need that. I know I'll be okay and just have to take this time to recover as needed, safely, and not push myself too fast.

Still petrified. LOL. I'm guessing this is normal.

Lordy, I'm getting very nervous now. VERY NERVOUS...and I thought I couldn't sleep Friday night. I'm so thankful for melatonin!

Having twins on Wednesday!

Can't wait, but still scared!

I received a call yesterday that my surgery is scheduled for 1:15, to be there at noon for prep. It's all real now. I slept okay last night thanks to melatonin. No coffee for me this morning though and that really stinks, but I'll have some soon enough. I'm just anxious to get it over with! The surgery should be a 45 minute procedure and since it's an hour away, it'll likely be some time tomorrow before I check in here. Thank you everyone for your support!

Hi Everyone!

I tried logging on yesterday when I got home but the site was down but glad it's back up. This may get wordy but I relied heavily on other reviews to know what I'd be dealing with, that I want to give back and give the details!

I arrived at the center, yesterday, for my surgery at 11:30 (had to be there at noon and surgery set for 1:15). I had the hubby pick up a sandwich so he ate it in the car while I nervously bided my time, not going in! I was like a little kid with not being ready to go in just yet....LOL. If I only would've known everyone was ready for me earlier, I would've gone in sooner to get it over with! The one thing I love about this office is that it is THE most punctual of any medical facility/doctor's office that I have ever dealt with.

Once in, I was greeted and brought to the room to change into my lovely surgical gown/robe/socks/cap. At this point, I was simply ready to get it done. The nurse came in and took a pregnancy test again, although I had one with my labwork already. Hubby has had a vasectomy so we all got a chuckle over it - and yes, it was negative. LOL. She took before photos and got my IV started while the anesthesia doc asked some questions. I made sure the docs all knew that my resting heart rate is 39 and is normal for me since I'm a runner. It's very low and even sitting there when my blood pressure was taken, it was 43.

The doc came in and reviewed a few notes and we talked about size again. He said he'd reviewed the pictures I gave him and that 375cc wouldn't cut it. (We'd originally talked about 375-400 at pre-op and I went with 400.) He asked me what size I wanted to come away from it with and I told him a full C. To me, that's a hard question because it's not like I've really had a full C or small D, or anyting else to judge it by! I could read his mind - the pictures I showed him were a bit bigger than a C and I know he wanted to clarify what exactly I wanted. The hubby and I had agreed on the pictures - totally fun process for hubs and we had fun picking out pictures. So I told the doc that although some of them were a little larger than I desired, I did want the shape/positioning/fullness of the photos. I went in with trusting his discretion and in my mind, I wouldn't mind being a small D.

I said bye to the hubs and walked into the OR with my sweet nurse, Marla (who was fantastic). I had to giggle to myself because if anyone ever watched the tv show, Nip Tuck, it reminded me of that with music cranking. OMG, too funny, but I was cool with that. It took my mind off of everything for about 10 seconds atleast. I laid on the table and that's when it got real. Whatever word can be worse to describe petrified, that was me. Dr. Knoll, the anesthesiologist, was awesome too. He gave me something to take the edge off. I greatly needed it because my legs were shaking so badly I was popping up off the table ~ at least I felt that way. He then put a mask over my nose and mouth to which I tried to shake off and say I couldn't breath with it on (I know, that's the point), and I was out.

I woke up at some point, I believe at the start of recovery, with nurses telling me to put my knees down. I was lying there but kept bending them up. That's about all I remember until waking up later looking at the clock, very thirsty with a scratchy throat. I was forwarned about the throat by Dr. Knoll and the nurse gave me water to drink which was nice. I'm used to drinking about a gallon a day and was very parched.

I laid there in recovery for a bit, dozing on and off, and then a nurse helped me move to the chair where she removed my IV and helped me get dressed. She was great too, but I failed to get her name. I was reunited with my sweet, amazing husband and given post-op instructions and arm exercises to do. They gave me nausea medication in my IV earlier but some pills just incase I got queasy on the ride home. I didn't get sick though and had a few crackers in the car that I ate, along with 24 oz of water. No problems on the drive home at all. (I'd read reviews where people didn't remember any recovery or the drive home -- I wasn't like that at all, although I dozed off here and there on the way home.)

I think they started surgery a little early. It was scheduled for 1:15pm. They're an hour from my house and when all was said and done, I was in back home and in bed at 4:30pm! It went SO well. Oh, and the doctor said I must've done something right because there was very little bleeding at all. Well of course I followed all of the pre-op instructions to a T! I wouldn't risk not doing that! Maybe it's because of my running and that I have such a low resting heart rate that it barely pumps! :) He said everything went perfectly and he used 425cc (moderate profile silicone) to fill me out better.

Got home and took 1 percocet and a Motrin. They sent me home with Keflex (antibiotic) as well. I won't lie, I felt SO MUCH better than I expected!!! Dr. Sorokin called me around 7:30pm and to check on me; he didn't have a nurse call, he called himself which is so nice. I told him I felt great but wasn't sure how often to ice (20mins on / 20 mins off) and he clarified until I go to bed and even some today if I feel like I need it. (They sent me home with this amazing ice pack that you can refill.) I also had to ask about how often to do the arm exercises. He said every 2 hours to do about 5 (raise arms to a T and lift them up, to where they point at the sky and back down). He said even if I have to have the hubby help push them, to do them because it's important to keep the pocket moving. I had no problems at all and could lift them just fine. I'd already done 3 sets of 10 by the time he'd called (1 set per hour), so I'll slow it down and do as he stated.

I had a little dinner and spent the rest of the evening in bed. I did try and get up and walk around a little though because I just think it's good to keep moving some, but nothing strenous of course. I dozed on and off and finally went to sleep around 11. I drank a ton of water after surgery and was up 5-6 times during the night. I slept with lots of pillows behind me and got pretty comfortable but still woke up a good bit. Each time I got up to go to the bathroom I did my arm exercises. I noticed it was harder this morning but I think that's because I was just stiff from the night. Did them again a little bit ago and it was easier again.

My pain is very minimal. Feels like a hard chest workout soreness. I was expecting MUCH worse! I went ahead and took 1 percocet and my motrin but doubt I'll take any more percocet because I don't think I need it. The worst part was my scratchy throat, which kept making me feel like I have to clear my throat; but even that is getting better.

I'm having a glorious cup of coffee. If you're a morning coffee drinker, you know what I mean! I couldn't have any yesterday so it made this morning's cup that much more delightful.

I've taken a peek at the girls and they look awesome already - just as I was told - more box-like and will take their form better once they drop. I'll post pictures a bit later but am supposed to leave the bra on for 48 hours and don't even want to take it off for a photo. I can't believe how easy this was. I wish I would've done this sooner. I wish I would've not been so petrified! I am so thankful for Dr. Sorokin and his wonderful team. They are truly top notch and make you feel like they really care about you. I can't rave enough about Dr. Sorokin. Every question I ever had, between pre-op and surgery, that I asked via e-mail, he answered me back within 2 hours. Attention to detail - I like that!

Looking forward to how the next days will go. I'm thrilled so far. Oh, the only thing I can suggest that I didn't read elsewhere, is to have throat lozenges or some sort of hard candy for your throat. Mine was so scratchy and I found sucking on some honey cough drops really helped my throat.

Thank you again to all of the ladies who helped me psych myself up for this. I was one of those that always dreamed of having boobies but was too scared to go through with it and never thought I'd ever have the courage to do so. I must say that right afterwards I was like, "what have I done?!" but when I look at my chest and see how nice it already looks and then look at my before picture, where I had nothing, I'm so glad I did it.

Just received chocolate covered strawberries from my doctor and his staff. I wasn't expecting that! What a nice surprise!

I slept pretty well last night and woke up stiff a few times. I guess it's because I've been trying to sleep propped up on pillows. Doc didn't say to do so, just did it from what I've heard other people do. I'm going to try normal sleeping tonight. I do sleep on my back anyway. Hardly any pain whatsoever and I'm continuing with my gentle arm exercises. The girls are starting to look nice already and I'm very excited to 'meet' them today without the bra. I've been scared to take it off completely just yet but can finally take a shower later today....very ready for that!

Slept even better last night even though I think I've caught a flu bug (blah). I read where many girls sleep in recliners but my PS never recommended it. Is it just a personal comfort choice? I normally sleep on my back and side and have been sleeping propped up on pillows. Last night I tried to sleep normal and got much better rest until I turned on my side which ended up not being comfortable. Is it necessary to sleep propped up, or on your back?? (I think my PS would've said something about it if so....but curious as to what you ladies think.)

The girls are looking prettier every time I peek at them. Now don't laugh, I'm being honest here -- but hubby, who is very funny and who wasn't a "boob guy" (his words), said, well, although I'm "not a boob guy, when you show me yours I get a little tingle in my balls". LOL! They're looking even prettier.....hoping everything continues down this good path!

Day 3 Post Op - felt great other than a little cold bug I'm fighting.

Day 4 Post Op - slept great last night and feel good. I only woke up a few times and guess now I know what a zinger is! How many days/nights should I expect to feel zingers?

I still don't have any bruising. I was taking Montana Arnica prior to surgery and after because I heard that helps. It's day 4 and still no bruising but I'm guessing it'll come in time. Maybe it won't be as bad.

Girls are looking great and I love them! I'll give it another week or so before I post more pictures so that you can see an actual difference in how they're changing.

My only concern is reading some horror stories from some women..... I know, that's what NOT to do. That's why I chose the surgeon that I did and probably paid a bit more for his services. That's why I did my homework. So that's not to say nothing will happen, but I'm hoping things will simply continue along the good path of recovery. Fingers crossed because I'm very happy with my results thus far.

Just finished my post-op and PS said everything is looking great! Yay! My right side is riding a little higher, but that's normal and she'll come down just fine, along with lefty, in time. Steri-strips were changed and should remain on for another week. The great news is that I can RUN on Saturday!!!!!!! As long as I wear a good supportive sports bra, I can run and do other cardio. No bench pressing or anything crazy like that, but at least I can finally burn some calories. I'm so OCD with exercise you would think I've been off a month or two....but call a spade a spade....I'm going crazy!

PS had me hold a mirror and manipulated the girls a little to give me an idea of what they'll look like when they "drop and fluff". Oh my, I'm a happy girl! I'm happy already but ecstatic if things keep going so well and that they'll end up looking like what he said. Hooray....couldn't be more happier!

Cleared to run on Saturday and CANNOT WAIT! I did walking lunges, squats and some other lower body stuff, as well as 35 minutes on the elliptical (without pulling/pushing w/my arms). Something was better than nothing! Honestly, I felt like I'd never worked out before in my life. Amazing how much taking time off will throw you for a loop, but I know I'll be back to my normal self real soon. I am absolutely loving my results thus far. LOVING. I posted a few new pics - sorry but they're a little grainy.

Today is day 10 and I was cleared to run as long as the girls didn't bounce. It was a short run because I wanted to err on the side of caution to see how I'd feel afterwards, plus I was so desperate to do something, that I killed myself with walking lunges the past few days (ouch). I ended up doing a short run and walking the rest at a high incline. I almost ALWAYS run outdoors, but the weather isn't great and didn't want people wondering what was wrong with me if I stopped, ran slow, whatever, so I took to the treadmill. The girls were plastered to my chest. I've read where some ladies use 2 bras. It proved a bit difficult but I tried. I used a high impact bra and another sports bra --- the girls were NOT moving (which was good). I almost wondered if they were squishing them too much?

I still don't have any bruising and they're looking better every day. Lefty is Lucy and Righty is still Tighty...... I still have the steristrips on and have to leave them on thru Monday. PS gave me extras incase they come off early but I don't think they're budging and I'll simply leave them until they fall off. Next post-op is 12/17.

Working out is getting back to normal, but no chest exercises yet. That's okay - I can run and do the elliptical so I'm happy for now. I'm wondering, for those of you who are runners and who are further along, how tight do you plaster down the girls for a run? I'm thinking I might've had them too secure and don't want to cause any damage.

Secondly, the numbness on the bottom half of my breasts, near the incisions and sorta on the sides, is going away. Tingly/stinging feelings -- when will that disappear completely?

I'm sleeping much better. Loving the girls and how they're shaping up! Steri-Strips can fall off any time but had to stay on through today. They're starting to get itchy though. Next post-op is 1 week from today and massages will start then.

I had my 2nd post-op today. It's been about 2.5 weeks since surgery. I explained I was now having a dull/achey feeling in leftie on occasion, like when I bend over/reach to grab something and other weird movements. PS ensured me it was normal that pains, gurgles, squishies all come and go during recovery. He was not worried at all and gave me the go ahead to do whatever I wanted exercise-wise, even encouraging me to work chest muscles because he feels it helps recovery (in the muscles squeeze down on the implants forcing them to settle faster). YAY!!! No more steri-strips and in 3 days I start massaging Vitamin E Oil into the incisions each morning and using scar-sheets at night. I am so very pleased. I've run 6 miles yesterday and today and it feels awesome to be getting back into the groove. Insanity later tonight so that one is going to be rough for sure as it's the first Insanity DVD since surgery for me and Shaun T always kicks my tail! ***On a side note**** Let me add that I can't be more pleased with Dr. Sorokin and his staff. They are the most punctual doctor's office I've ever been in. They've always taken time to explain things in detail, never rushed.....just wonderful overall.

Today was the first long run since my surgery. The girls haven't been in the way for running and don't feel any different. I'm struggling with pushups but am back to 100% with everything else. The girls are softening more everyday and I LOVE them! BTW, I had some pain in one of my breasts and PS said he thought it'd be gone by the end if the week.....he was right! Just a little sore muscle. Will post updated pics at the 1 month mark! Merry Christmas, all!

Just realized I REALLY need to update with new photos. Will try that right after Christmas -- too much company right now. They're changed a lot since that last one and look so much better. ;)

All's well and feeling great ~ just being patient for the girls to drop. I'm massaging 3 times a day (just squishing up and releasing - not painful). Back for my 3rd post-op around mid-January. Still in bras without underwire - keeping them on all the time except for showering -- told to do so for 6 weeks so hopefully I'll get to wear normal bras soon. I haven't been to Victoria's Secret to be sized because I think it's too early to tell, but I think I'll have a full C by the time they've dropped and fluffed. Merry Christmas ladies!

Adding a 30 day picture; not much to report. PS gave me Vitamin E oil to put on after I shower, so I massage that into the incision area and later in the day I add the scar guard strips. Other than that, pretty much back to normal and 95% with my activity level. I have no problem running and with Insanity, the jumping jacks still don't feel right. As well, I'm not back to doing good push-ups just yet but it may be just because I'm a bit scare to do them. Happy 2013 everyone!

Today was about 6.5 week check-up. The PS said everything looks great. I feel great too. The incisions are healing nicely but aren't completely dissolved (you can still feel them a little bit if you rub your finger hard along the incision site - but why do that?). PS said they'll dissolve soon. I was cleared to wear any sort of bra I like but should still wear one most of the time to give that tissue the extra support. I was told you don't have to wear one 24/7, but it's not a bad idea type of thing - no need to sway me any further. I'll protect my investment!

I was also told not to rush out and buy lots of expensive bras at this point because, "what fits great today, may not fit you so well in another 6 weeks". Me: "Does that mean they'll be smaller or larger?" (At this point a little boob greed has settled in and I sort of, for a half second, wish I'd gone bigger but definitely don't want them to shrivel up!) PS: They'll likely be a bit larger and more forward as they continue to drop and fluff. Phew!

Sounds great to me! I think they're perfect right now and the pink/black bra is a 36C; however, 36D in a Victoria's Secret bra. So I'll wait to spend the children's ineritance on new bras for now -- joke. :) My girls don't get in the way of any cardio or strength training exercises so I think I did good w/size. I did have to be careful on upright rows though since I actually have a chest now! He said push-up strength would continue to get better in a matter of time. All in all, I'm still thrilled!

I'm about 2.5 months now and doing great. I massage my girls once a day with just a gentle pinch like motion from the bottom. I had some peeling of the skin on the underneath sides of both breasts and my PS gave me some Vitamin E cream to smother them in and it's helped. He said it's nothing to worry about and that it'd go away. I think they're looking gorgeous and will update with new pics at the 3 month mark. Love them!

Ok, it's suggested to wear a sports bra by most PS after surgery for a while and also during sleep. I work out and frankly even the comfiest sports bras got on my nerves after a while. I found the COOBIE bra! OMG! L-O-V-E! So comfy and soft....and INEXPENSIVE! Cute polka dots, believe it or not, one size fits all! Search for it and buy you some....thank me later! :)

Things are much more normal and my girls feel like a part of me. Still massaging once a day (always will). I feel awesome and they seem to have settled at a 36D. Honestly, if I had to do it all over again, I probably would've gone with the 375s or 400s. I love them, don't get me wrong, but they seem a bit large some days....other days not though. ;)