I am 25 years old and I weigh 222 lbs. I am 5'6in ...
I am 25 years old and I weigh 222 lbs. I am 5'6in . I am currently in a 38 H. For once I want to have a conversation with someone without them looking at my chest instead of looking me in my face. I am happily married so I don't really need to be on the search for dating. my husband loves me the way I am but he understands that I am in pain. I have a twin sister. In my eyes she is very beautiful she has the perfect body that I wish I could have even her boobs are not as big as mine. for once I just wanted to look like I'm her twin again. all I ever wanted was to be normal like most girls beable to go into a store and try on a bra on it fits or try on a shirt and it looks beautiful on them. It hurts my feelings to see girls coming to my job and they have the most beautiful clothes on and I wish I could wear that. I used to work at footlocker every customer that I talk to you always say the same thing does that hurt your back? you got some big boobs. even my friend family. not realizing that it really hurt my feelings to hear that I couldn't stand standing in front of mirror looking at myself because all I can see is my boobs in my head I would think that I was really really ugly when deep down inside I'm probably beautiful but I can't get past the fact that my boobs are large like I'm a old lady it hurt my feelings the other day when me and my sister were in the laundry mat and I was calling her name and the guy thought that she was my daughter and then just last week we were at some place and a lady thought my brother was my son. me and my twin are the same age.but a lot of people think this is my daughter and it hurts my feelings when we were in high school you look like twins so the time people couldn't even tell which one we were now everybody can tell which one we are I'm always known as the big ones which really hurts my feelings my husband and my sister my brother but when I look at myself instead of feeling like God my boots with big also like wow look at my sexy self in this dress and I'm working ;) I want to be able to take a picture and not just take a picture of my face I want to be able to take a picture of my whole body. I've tried everything diet pills exercising yoga it got to the point I was dying so well that I ended up getting pregnant but I ended up having a miscarriage so now that I'm not pregnant anymore I wanted to actually get the breast reduction done. So I'll give for 2014 I actually got me my surgeon I'm trying to get insurance pay for the breast reduction so I'm waiting for them to approve me.
waiting game!!!! :(
just playing the waiting game.......I'm waiting for the surgeon to send the pictures to my insurance company so that they can approve the breast reduction surgery. I'm not sure if they sent them yet when I called it was Thursday they said that they hadn't sent them. so I'm pretty sure they sent them now but I'm waiting for the insurance to approve it. I am being very impatient not going to lie because I've been waiting for this for so long. like I can't wait to get it over with so I'm just sitting here most of the time. I try to sleep the days away hoping that it make it go a lot faster
apologize for my reviews
I'm sorry if you're reading my reviews and they don't make no sense because im being really lazy and don't feel like typing all of this in so I'm using my mic on my phone but that's probably why some of the sentences don't make sense.
what I plan on doing
I plan on calling Monday to find out if they sent the pictures to the insurance yet. On lately I've been just googling a lot of information about the breast reduction surgery it's so if anybody has any questions or any advice on breast reduction surgery feel free to leave a message I will come back. Also pretty soon I'll have to stop taking my provera because I read online that you can't take it before surgery or something like that I'm not sure I'm going to do some more research on it but I'm gonna in the meantime I'll keep taking it until they let me know when I'm going to actually have my surgery and then I'll stop taking it and if you're wondering why I take Provera I have really bad irregular bleeding I'm also slightly anemic so I had just went to the OBGYN and they're putting me on provera to help me with my periods. So I'll be taking those for 10 days I'm hoping that it'll help fix my period.
I really dislike when ppl tell me my breast are big like I dnt know that already. Ugh
im still waiting
Im still waiting its make me sad because im having bad back problems. I called uva to see if they send my paper work yet. All I got was the voicemail so I just left my name and number. But im try calling tomorrow to see if they send it. Im praying they send it this week last week ugh im not trying to be impatience but its getting hard when u have large breast for so long. But I be glad when they call me. Yesterday i was looking at an old pic of me and how I wish I was that size all over again because I hate this so much. One of my coworker asked me what size I was. And asked was I scare to get a br I told him a little but I lnow in the long run it will be worth it.
:( so sad :(
Today I called the ps office and asked if they send the paper work. She said she still waiting for the pictures. How long is it suppose to take for them to send info to ur insurance? Im so sad because ppl understand how it feels to carry so much weight on ur chest and for so many years. U think they would understand u have already been waiting before u decided to get help. Then when I call my insurance she told me that if they mail it thats another week n then when they get it could take a week or two or even a whole month before they approve it. Ugh!!!!!!! Im trying to be patient but its hard. I wouldnt be all rushing if my back didnt hurt. So after each call I just cried. Im crying right now as I type. Im ready to get it done now not wait. All everyone keeps saying is he has other patients. I know but come on this waiting for everything sucks. But like my siater say if it comes in ur life fast it will leave out ur life faster. :( maybe ill just pray that god make me strong and not feel like im have a nervous break down or worst depression.
in so much pain
Today the pain is terrible my back n neck is hurting. I feel like I just got hit by a car. So I called my ps and all I keep getting is voicemails. Im so disappointed with how things r being handle but I figure if i get illbelligerent they wont want to help me anymore. But im gwtting very depress and emotional. I wish doctor's and their staff can understand how ppl feel. How it feels to wait when ur in alot of pain. And they ever want to do is transfer u or have u leave voicemail. What happen in the old day when the only way to communicate was to talk. Ugh I dnt know what to do. Because I dnt have the money to go to another ps and uva is suppose to be more affordable.
So it took my husband to call to get a responce. So they claim that they sent my pic and my insurance sould be getting it at the end of the week. But even if my insurance approve ill have to wait to get the surgery done around November because he has 8 breast cancer patients. Im so sad because I have been dealing with this pain fot ever. Im not trying to be self fish. I pray god help those women heal and have fast recovery so they are not in pain anymore. Talking to husband helped a little. It just hurts to have to wait that long. I guess I can look on the bright side it will make nice little brithday present. :(
trying not to think about it
trying to not worry so much. But my back pain is really getting bad and my skin under my breast r so irritated. I think im getting a skin rash. But idk what to do
still have not send pics
Called n they still havent send them. Im starting to get a skin rash under my breast and more back pain
Called again after the first one to talk to someone higher then the Secretary and the doctor to find out whats going on. She said she going to email the dr and find out whats going on with sending my pics. She said she was going call me yesterday or today. Im hoping she does call me today because im getting kinda mad that his receptionist told my husband that they was gonna send the pics by the end of last week and I called yesterday to find out that they havent. I told the supervisor that I understand that he has other patients but I feelb like they put me on the back burner. And everytime I call it seems like everyone has attitude. She was honestly the first staff in weeks that didnt make me feel like my problems and pain didnt matter. I kinda want to ask if it another doctor I can go to. To get this done. But im scared that ill retake pics all over. honestly im kinda nervous that after the supervisor talks to him that he will get mad and purposely mess my breast up. (I have read post on another site that something like that happen). Idk my sister keep telling me to pray. And I have I even started writing in a notebook like I use to do when I was 12.
So yesterday i talked to the supervisor and she told me that the ps was out of town til thursday and thats when my pics will be sending them on this thursday. But I should call friday to see if they have been sent. And I ask if I can see another ps because I reallydnt want to deal with this pain until November. She said she would look into it for me. She said understand how frustrating it is to have large breast. But I am gonna be really mad if I call and they still havent send them. Because then I have been lyed to from three ppl. And thats unprofessional
Today I had to call out because im having really bad cramping. Ugh it hurt so much right now. So my post wont be long cause im gonna get some rest.
So I called today and she they sent it by mail on the 22nd. Im praying that my insurance don't take forever to approve it. Keeping my fingers crossed. I think I might be ok with it being in November maybe it will give me time to adjust to the fact that im going to have surgery. Because im not gonna lye im really scared. But at least now the ball is rolling
I called my insurance company yesterday to see if they received my pictures. The lady said yes they got it on the 27th. I asked how long does it take them to approve my case. She said it might take up 15 business days and that they will send me a letter in the mail if I will be approve or not. Im praying that they approve me asap. But im very happy that the ball is finally moving along.
Im just wondering if after my insurance approve it will they tell ps when my breast reduction will be done. Im hoping that I dnt have to wait to get it done November I hope next month the latest is October. I just tired of being in pain so much. Im just ready to get it done.
So I called today to be told I got denied. I just broke down and cried. Im tired of waiting. My faith in other ppl hands and no one care. But im so hurt I have been in pain. Im so sad right now.
figured out why I was denied
yesterday I called and they couldn't understand what the doctor for the insurance meant about the 700 grams. So I call today to find out why they denied it and the lady I spoke to on the phone told me that the plastic surgeon put less than 700 grams. In the insurance policy it is saying because of my height n my weight that for me to feel some comfort they have to remove more than 700 grams. I have contacted my plastic surgeon and let them know exactly what the insurance told me and how to approve it. The insurance said that if they can send a document stating that they can remove more than 700 grams then they will approve. because that's the only reason why I got denied. yesterday when I call the plastic surgeon's office they said that they were going to set up a peer to peer and that it would take about two weeks to schedule it so I should call back on the 19th of this month to find out but I don't think they need to do a peer-to-peer now after I explain to them what they need. So I am hoping that they can get this all worked out so that I can get the breast reduction surgery done. Lately I've been in a lot of back pain and my skin is very irritated from having these large breasts. I would love to get this done so I can feel comfortable again because being in a lot of pain it sucks and it sucks more when people don't understand why you're in a lot of pain because they've never had to go through any of that. When I got on this site it made me so happy to see and read other people's comments because I'm not alone going through this I actually found people on here that are going through the same exact problems I am. I have not given up I will be praying for everyone on here and myself that we all can get what we want that we can stop going through this pain. Anyone out there that feels like they are alone don't feel alone because there are people on this website that are going through the exact same thing that you are. I'm thinking about writing a book about people with large breasts so the world you know how we feel so it's not like were just making up about how to pain feels. thank you for your time and your patience with my poses some of them are not are not spelled correctly because I've been doing the microphone on my phone so I don't have to type all this then so I apologize if any words are misspelled or doesn't sound like I'm making any sense at all I apologize for that I'm trying to make sure that I reread my post before I send it thank you for your time and thank you again ladies for all the comments in appreciation because it makes me feel so much better to know that I am NOT alone
So if they denied me because the ps put that he was only gonna take 600 grams and that was only reason I got denied does that mean if my insurance and ps come up with solution does that mean I am approve?? I hope so because my pain is really starting to effect my life for real. I had to take medical leave because of the pain. Ugh I just wish they hurry up and decide what grams they want to take out because its really getting out of control. Because if u think about it they aren't saying no that I dnt need it they are saying that the ps is trying to little out and they want him to take more in order for it be medical necessity. The 19th can't come fast enough because I really can't take it no more.
insurance and ps
So yesterday I called bcbs and asked if my ps faxed that he Will take the 700g then will they approve me. She said yes it would have to have the letter head. And would be review. When I heard that after I hung up and called the ps office. His secretary said she would make sure it was ok for the 700g and then fax the paper over. I'm praying they do because I'm tired of being in pain.
I called the ps to find out if they had sent the paperwork. They confirm that faxed it over. Im gonna call my insurance to see if they got it. I was told that they faxed it yesterday at around 1:45 and she got confirmation. But my insurance said when I called yesterday they didnt receive anything so im call later to see. They did tell me it will be review and it take 7 to 10 days to have their decision. Its suck I have to wait. But as long they get the ball rolling. Going to keep praying
I swear this skin rash under my breast is getting worst
sent the fax
I called my insurance to see if they received the fax. She said they did and it take 15 days to be reviewed. Ugh more waiting for all this I better be approve.
best great news ever
I called my insurance. ......n I got approve. They said sent both me and the doctor a letter. Im so happy. I hugged my husband and my cat lol. Yes I want to talk you ladies for telling me not to give up
I called the doctor office and set the date January 20. The day after my husband birthday. I think it to long but she did tell it could be push for sooner
can't stop thinking......
I am so happy that I can't stop thinking about it. I can not wait to have this done. I also wanted ti thank god because the other day I pray for him to help me get approved. And what do u know he came threw like always. Never fails me. But now im wondering what size will I be. I read other post that have had 700 grams remove that are the same size as me. Their look great so im hoping my look as good as theirs. My husband is said he is excited and both scared. Im not gonna lie me too. But I know im ready for it. Im glad that its 115 days away because it gives me time to adjust to the fact im finally getting this done. I already told my job the surgery date. I know im need some more movies lol. No cable sucks but I do love sitting with husband watching movies. I have been google pictures to get a good idea of what Im hoping for. I am very glad that this site exist because everyone is very helpful and encouraging. Thank you ladies for all ur comments they really do keep me going.
So wheb I get off if work im thinking about working out. Im gonna focus on my stomach so when my surgery comes my stomach wont be as big as it is now. Im super excited.
Yesterday was me n my husband two years being married. And I had to work. We are preparing for the surgery. Any tips what I need before surgery
101days til surgery
I have 101 days til my surgery day. Im preparing myself to make sure im going to have everything ready. But im still not sure what I will have to pay after insurance covers part I did find out that I will outpatient and that 60% that my insurance will cover im guessing but im going to uva so I called the billing department to find out just waiting for them to return my cal hopefully monday they will call. Im super excited to do this. I have been working out a little and take walks around when im off of work
96 or 97
I downloaded this app to keep count of how many days I have left till my surgery. One app says 96 and the other one says 97. Either way its coming.
I wish it would hurry up because im tired of being in pain. Ugh
I got two months left
I have two months left before my surgery. Im so excited these months are flying by. This month is me and my twin birthday. And then one more month to go. ????
So they called today not the call I was thinking to get. So my surgery is not the 20 it is the 23 ugh. They were looking at this year calendar not next year. Not sure how u make a mistake like that but ok.
As of today 11/12/14 my surgery date has bee changed to 12/26/14 im so happy yea. I need advices ladies on what I should get or do before the day. I have already prayed and will continue. So happy right now im pacing the floor
dec 26, 2014
Im looking up surgery items I might need.
Im so excited it is now December. I have 24 days til my surgery. I m looking forward to these days to pass really quickly for me. It might not. But hey we are getting closer. My husband said he us a little scared. I have to fill papers out for my leave from work soon. But I will be more happier once im done with it. Then I will know it is really. Right now it just feels like talk. But im trying to keep my mind off it. But I will be looking alot information up to help with my surgery. And I also want to record videos. Maybe little youtube videos. And talk about recovery, products to use i dk just a thought
20 days left
Im so happy I have 20 days left til my surgery. I can not wait. Im so looking forward to having this done. I really can't wait to be all healed up so that I can start working out and doing some of the stuff I couldn't do with having larger breast. FINALLY!!!!!
I have a question...Where can I find surgical bras that are not expensive?
What scar cream is good and that works?
Ppl reading my post. If done have something nice to say plz dont comment in my inbox. I am very aware that I have large breast but inboxing me to tell me isn't nice. I have live with contest joke about how large my breast are. So I do take it personal when asked. Its a daily pain to have ppl stead at me or ask me. My post are to help woman just like me feel like they are not alone. And honestly I feel like those that inbox and u have no pics I feel like ur a man being a perv just getting excitement off of how large my breast are. Well I dont and I would like whoever is looking at my post to be mindful of what u say because u may not think ur hurting my feelings but u r. Be respectful of others.
is it ok
Is it ok to feel nerves? The closer I get the more nerves im getting. Im gonna try to calm down. I just really want this done and done right. I have never been threw thus before. I had surgery once when I was 11 or 12. I really didnt remember how it felt except that it itch but pain wise I dont remember. I guess thats what im worried about. Is the pain. And maybe some of the risks. But like me and my husband were talking about it last night. Like he said there is no turning back now. I came all this way. So im not giving up. I just keep telling myself it will be worth it. I am planning on writing a little diary of my recovery when im up to it because I did hear u get tired more after the surgery. But who know I will take step by step. Im just really excited because next week on Friday after Christmas I will no longer have large stripper breast (as I call them ugh I dislike having large breast)
I am really excited right now I can not control myself. I was looking at myself saying to myself ur almost there. I picture how my clothes and jackets will fit alot better. I so happy im finally almost there. I will feel better once it is done.