My Dream....A Hot Soccer Mom - Charlotte, NC- 16 days post op

Once my husband and I got married, I joked that I wanted to be that hot Soccer Mom after we had kids. Well, my husband passed away 4/18/11 and my daugher is 21 months. It is time to make that dream come true. My husband would smile and encourage me. He always tried to make me happy.

Ok, my first appointment was January 3rd. I have decided on full TT, Lift and a little lipo on the sides. I have gained and lost so much weight the past few years. I look forward to a new and improved self. I will get photos soon of the before. I have to get my Mom to take them (how embarrasing). My PreOp is Jan 25th. I'm so excited! I just am such a woose when it comes to pain. I plan to ask for as much pain meds as they will prescribe and anti-nausea. I will have to start being back a Mom within 2 weeks, so I need all the rest I can get.

I had a day that I realized I had to depend on a lot of people to accomplish this goal. I love my family and they love me but living together for 2 or 3 weeks will be interesting. My daughter is 21 months old and energetic to say the least. I really want to be with her but I need my parents to do all the lifting. I know I can't pick her up to change her, put her to bed or eat in her highchair for awhile. I hope my daughter will understand :)
I have had second thoughts because of this. I really know that this IS the time to do this. After this time in life I will not have the time or money. I don't look forward to the pain but really want the great outcome that is promised.
So, I'm obviously not having the best day :( I know I'm going to go thru with it but I feel so much guilt and fear of the pain.
My mom has had these surgeries and is very encouraging BUT has not had them all at the same time.
Oh by the way, I noticed I didnt say.....5'6" around 152. I will post pics soon, I promise.

BTW, please ignore my run-on sentences....