5 Months post op. New pic

I am 32 years old; soon to be 33 in a couple weeks :(. I have 2 boys ages 14 and 4. I had my first at 18 years old and didn't know any better when I heard the expression "eating for 2" lol. I started off at 140 and by delivery I was 220 with crazy strech marks all over my belly. After having him, I yo-yo'd with my weight unitl I got it under control after find out I had hypothyroidism when he was 4 years old. I got back to 140 and maintained it. My second pregnancy I knew better and gained 27 pounds which I quickly lost afterwards and then some. I did not get any stretch marks this time but the damage was already done from my first. My boobs deflated big time after having my second though. I didn't even breast feed! Due to poor milk supply I was unable to. So this is my journey to a better me. I feel guilty as most moms do of spending so much money on myself. I feel I deserve it though and feel it will do wonders for my self esteem and self consiousness.

I am 5'4" and 135 pounds as of right now. I plan to be between 127-130 before the surgery date in August. Who knows though. My body seems to reject less than 132. I am very active at work as an EMT and work out at least 4x a week with lots of toning exercises at home in addition to. I started researching tummy tucks after a visit with my gynocologist for a regular exam. She was doing the normal pushing on my stomach that they do and said "you have rock hard abs. you must do a ton of sit ups" I replied with "yes but you could never tell". She said "and you won't be able to because that's mostly skin". I left the office feeling great! Almost singing on the way to my car "uh huh..I have rock hard abs" but on the way home, it quickly turned into...WTH...I will never see my efforts and I will have this mushy stomach that I am obsessed with covering up for life!! I never thought I would go under the knife. Until now. I'm anxious to get this over with! Tired of sitting on the couch with a pillow covering my belly!

I have a surgery date of August 13th. I will be getting saline implants under the muscle and a lift in addition to. Right now I am a sad, deflated barely C. I am going for a full C, small D. And of course, the tummy tuck where my PS stated that I will have a cute belly button (what's that? lol) I haven't had one of those since I was 17! He also said that most of my strech marks will be gone. Halleluyah!!! He also affirmed what my gynocologist said; that my belly is indeed mostly skin. :D

My husband is very supportive. He doesn't think I need anything done but he knows how down I am about my appearance. He will be taking the first week off of work to be at my beckon call and help out with our youngest. The week after, he will be in daycare. His last week until starting pre-k August 27th. I hope I am ok to drive then! I will be 2 weeks PO and will have to drop him off at 7:05am and pick him up at 10:30. I am nervous about that and about getting back to work. I have a physical job which is 12 hour shifts and I'm not sure when I will be able to go back. At least I have the freedom of scheduling how many days I want to work.

This site has been so very helpful! I will continue to update as the surgery gets closer and after the surgery as well. :)