One more week to my new tummy! :)

Hi I'm new to this site and I have been reading a lot of all your stories which are so amazing and interesting!! I feel that this is the place that I can express and share my journey as well and not feel alone..... I am 36 yrs old with 6 children ages 3,5,12,14,16 and my 4th child was a baby boy who passed away July 17,2004 he was 2 yrs old! My world felt like it had ended..... To loose your child.... Words can't express the pain I was in and still am but everyday is one day forward!

My weight when I had my first baby was 118 after having her 10 lbs!!!! Ouch I gained 50 then I lost about 25 and 3 yrs later another girl 7 ponds gained about 30 pounds gained lost about 15 and 2 yrs later a son 9 lbs! Gained about 45 on top of the other weight I had trouble loosing as I have a thyroid condition.... My 4th baby my guardian angel!!!! He was 9lbs 3 onz I gained the most for him went up to 200! Yikes but I worked very hard to loose all the baby weight throughout the yrs. my son Joshua we having sleeping issues we had found out when he was 8 months he had sleep apnea..... Then enlarged tonsils and adnoids!!! It was so upsetting for us and my poor little man was sick all the time ear infections, pneumonia, sleep apnea, and in may 2004 he was kept in over night to test his sleep apnea ( we needed them to help him so we brough him in to ER) test were done and confirmed he had it bad! But what comes along with being in hospital.... Yes he developed a stomach infection from patient in his rm which this child we found out later highly contagious! So we had to rush our baby back in to ER... He was admitted for 4 days. So all seems well he is thriving and I'm a very happy mommy! No week later he developed little red dots.... Oh yes chicken pox! Omg! Wt... How much can he handle... He was such a happy baby always smiles and so loving.

Time goes by his 2 bday may 31! He is better and happy 2 yr old!!! Doctor calls and says his surgery is July 15,2004... He has the surgery I go into recovery ... Felt very rush! He was brought up to room to be monitored for I don't know maybe hour! Which was to be 3! Nurses told us not to get to comfortable we will be gone soon.... She wasn't lying out the door within the hour my baby was still sleeping he didn't drink like they say you should and his vitals were not checked at all in recovery! I was very upset because the was my world my baby! That night he's seems to be good and the night went well the next day which is friday July 16.... He's ok watching tv and drinking bits at a time later that night he ate some baby food dessert!! Which he ate so fast we were thinking wow this is great he getting better..... I kept checking on him all night he slept with me of course.

The next morning ... July 17,2004! My world came down on me my baby boy was not breathing! You can not even remotely prepare yourself ever for this horrible tragedy that had just occurred! And I'm sorry for going into full detail of my life and this tragedy of mine but I will explain... I had my tubes tied when he was 4 months old! Are family was complete.... But after yrs of depression and medication and feeling alone and no one wants to hear you talk about the baby you lost... They seem not to realize he is my son and it don't matter how many yrs pass to me it's like yesturday! My fiancé and I finally got married 2005 kept the date we had planned for yrs after that I wanted another child... Please understand it was in no way to replace my little angel! As mothers we know each child is unique and special you just can't replace! So I'm sorry again I'm rambling... I had a reversal feb 2006... My special gift from our little angel blessed us with a little boy! And that wasn't enough blessed again with a baby girl 2008! Ok All done no more babies tubes tied again forever! But my weight went from 116 after losing my son to 2004. To 165 2008! And it was off and on loosing 5 gaining 7 so finally I've decided to research tummy tucks and found you lovely ladies!!! I'm so happy I can talk to someone and learn so much from each of you! So ok as of feb 2012 I joined wait watchers ya no not for me but it helped with eating right my weight was 156.7.... March 3 I started a workout INSANITY!!! Yup hard crazy! But ladies I did that religiously for 60 days... My weight today 116!!!!! But imagine 6 kids 9- 10 pounds each! Yikes ! Their is no hidding this tummy! Can't wait Til pre op oct 18!!!! Hope this gets posted! Lol first Time chatting. So maybe I said to much!!! Ttyl ladies!!!