Almost 6 weeks!

I am 32 years young, I had my first three kids by the time I was 21 and my fourth when I was 29. My tummy had been destroyed since my first baby at 17. I lost all the weight, which I owe to the young age and resilient skin, and though I got very few stretch marks, I got one at the top of my belly button and my belly button became a very sad face, literally! I've never really had a flat tummy, but I've never really been over weight till probably recently. I am 5' 8". I don't know what I weigh because I threw my scale away forever ago. I feel they are such a demonic device lurking behind us taunting us to feel bad for our selves. I go by how I feel, how my jeans fit. I did crossfit and paleo for a whole and loved it but I'm so darn busy with these kids, their sports, my business the hubby and home life I have slacked off. I am terribly self conscious about my yucky tummy. My husband buys be two piece lingerie and I go return in for a one piece. I do burlesque and always wear a waist cincher on stage. I want the freedom to show my tummy and not embarrass my self!! I want a happy belly button! So I did a consult with Dr. Cruise in Newport beach and knew right away he was the one. His staff is amazing and Cristin has been so patient with me and all my questions. I live in Northern California and they are in so-cal it's a 12 hour drive down there but luckily I have family in the area to stay with. I am scheduled for the 26th of this month and I am really excited, but I still have the normal fears. I don't want to die!! Ha ha:) I've been reading this site for a while and found all your stories encouraging and inspirational. I can only hope I remember some of your words when I'm on the other side and feeling down. It shall pass!! I'll post some of my before pics.. GAH.. That's crazy I don't show my tummy to ANYONE and here I am about to show it to a room full of strangers;)