Best Valentines Day Gift EVER! - California, CA

Ok- I am 8 days post op and so much has happened! First of all, I am an emotional mess. My husband was laid off 2 days ago, and his company filed BK so he will not get paid for the last 6 weeks of work. I now have a $600 cosmetic surgery payment coming up in 3 weeks and my resnt was due today with no money to pay it. I feel absolutely guilty, and selfish for putting our only money we had in savings for a down payment on my surgery. ($8400). I have been crying uncontrollably and I am so worried and dont know what to do. Also, my left arm at my elbow is so swollen from the lipo that it looks deformed. I still have all 3 drains in because I am putting out 120 ml+ a day from each. I called my dr this afternoon to tell them about my elbow swelling because I cannot extend my arm fully from it. When the dr called me back, he made me feel like a complete jerk for even calling. He made me cry... again. He acted like I should know that swelling is normal, and I do, but this is abdormal swelling. If I had known how his bedside manner was before surgery, I would have gone with a different dr. Anyway, swelling and drains and crying fits aside, I am feeling ok. Still very sore, and still cannot stand completely straight up but yesterday, I saw my tummy for the first time and I couldn't believe it was me. I look so different in a good way. I love the support I get from everyone here, and I need to make daily visits to the site and stay in touch with everyone so I don't feel so bad and guilty all the time. LOL

As I drove the looong 2 hour drive home from my pre op appt last night, I started thinking about the ginormous amount of money that I handed over to the office manager of my PS office. I started feeling a bit of buyers remourse. Only for a moment, but it bothered me that I had that feeling. Has anyone else felt like that after paying for their procedure? I am totally ok with it now, but for about an hour, I couldn't stop thinking about how people are suffering and struggling in this economy and I felt a bit selfish. I have never done anything like this for myself, and I know I deserve it, but I also don't want to feel guilty. I hate feeling guilty.

I had my pre op today, and it went really well. PS took my before pics and I was absolutely mortified tht I had to stand completely NAKED in front of him and his office manager. It was so embarassing. Picking up my prescriptions in the morning and hoping that Monday comes FAST. I want to be in recovery already! LOL