Feeling and sleeping great again !!! Thanks God, Family and all you lovely ladies !!!

Hello girls, I ´ve been posting and encouraging...

Hello girls, I ´ve been posting and encouraging to write my own review, I am still here in Mexico (where I did my BA) but , next week I am going to CA where my mom and sister live, I am so excited to be with them again, I am a single mom of two adorable kids. I am 31. To be honest I don´t feel good with these plastic items inside me, especially my right breast feels, very uncomfortable, kind of sored, numbness, and also the feeling something is pulling right inside there, I am about to be 8 weeks post BA, I had 380 silicone over the muscle. You guys have no idea how I regret of this decision. Anyway, I am pretty sure I want to do a removal in SO CAL, my wonderful sister has scheduled some consultations in the area for me. I am wondering how much this will cost, I am short in money, but I don´t want to keep this anymore. I was wrong with implants would help me to look and feel better, it´s for sure I think different now about appearance, LOOKING IS NOT EVERYTHING !! we have to feel great!! so I am not feeling like that :((...... I totally have the support of my mom and sis. if you ladies have more info about doctors, procedures, costs, whatever will be very helpful, just as I received info and support through this site, YOU GUYS ROCK !! I really appreciate your time.


Thank you for starting your story on RealSelf! I'm so sorry this hasn't turned out the way you'd hoped. Some life lessons are more important than others and I hope you're able to sail smoothly through this. Please keep us posted!

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I knew the week after I got my implants that I did not like them. I saw my doctor one week after and asked him to remove them. I asked him one month after that and 6 years after that. You know how you feel in your heart. It took me years to put the doctors opinion aside and explant. I am so happy. My doctor was wrong all along......follow your heart.
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Hi Michelle, I know exactly what you saying, so I don´t want to have these bags to long. I feel like I was with my eyes closed, I did not research, I did not ask enough to my PS Unfortunately, after my BA, It seems like I opened my eyes and say, WHy I did this to my body?, How come I was negative and did not accept my self, I really miss my small breast, what a big mistake. I am sure I am going to follow my heart. So glad you are happy :)

I am scheduled for consultations

Hello Girls, I am scheduled with different PS´s William Aello, Marcel Daniels, Andrew Smith and Michelle Spring, Los Alamitos, Long Beach, Irvine and Marina del Rey, I would like to know if someone had a procedure with them, actually one is a referral, I appreciate your help. I can´t stand this, I can´t rest enough, I can´t sleep, :( ....... is this normal ?


Andrew Smith is a GREAT surgeon... He did my BA, though he might be a little expensive for a simple removal. Dr. Ali did my removal and he is a GREAT surgeon too, he is amazing!
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Good to know that !! I like referrals, you told me about Dr. Ali I have not scheduled with him, at least you paid less for the removal since you had salines, but mine are silicone. How much Dr. Ali is charging for the consultation ?
Thanks for your attention Angie ! I know, life taught us many lessons, I definetly learnt that, why we can´t just look others, and learn. For sure I will keep you posted.

I am really tired and depressed....

Hi girls, I don´t know how to manage this..... I am driving crazy I can´t sleep and I am depressed, I can´t stop telling myself how stupid I am, if there was someone to tell me to think twice before getting implants, I know there are worst things, but I just feel miserable, I didn´t and I couldn´t even imagine the way I will feel from having these things. My god, I can´t focus, I m just spending my time thinking on the WHY ? I am amazed I spent my money in order to get physicological and emotional issues. please ladies I need your support, I just can´t be like this way anymore, I cry, and my kids start crying too because they don´t understand what is wrong with me. I am really concerned, they need me physically and mentally healthy.


Oh my. You poor thing. And you haven't had them that long! It's so weird how we want to get them and then it turns into such a negative and emotional ride. You will love Dr. Lussier. But don't go to someone unless you are 100% positive they support you, you pay them for what you want; you aren't paying them to give you what THEY want. :)
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I know, but I am sure I don´t want them, my god I should research more and not trust to my original PS, I am having others consultations let see what happens. you are right about paying what I want.
Hey, I just popped over and read your review. I remember feeling all what you are going through as many others have too. We're all here to support you :o) (hugs) Try not to be too hard on yourself. You've been very brave to realise as soon as you have and you're taking steps towards explant already. Its all normal to be very emotional, anxious, angry at yourself for doing it and wishing you could turn back the clock. As much as its been an awful 6 years living with mine, I try not to regret, rather see it as my journey to where I am and who I am today. Deep down, I think it was something I had to do unfortunately. At the mo you may feel like you're in a whirlpool of emotions, but once you've seen a consultant and set a date, you'll feel much better. Let me know how you get on next week. Very best of luck x
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Here I am, awake ....

Hello ladies, it´s 6:39 am, and I woke up, I can´t sleep, I don´t know what´s wrong with my right breast it is a weird feeling, actually, I ever felt it since my BA , it´s kind of something pulling inside, it doesn´t hurt but, it´s not comfortable,. I think is due my implants are placed over the muscle, I am sad and worried because I can´t stop thinking after explanted, my breasts will look deformed because the sub glandular placement, does any one here has or had implants placed like this ? please any advice ? I really want to stay positive, I don´t know what´s wrong with me, I am always waiting for the worst, it seems like I don´t trust myself or the negative side is for me, because i don´t deserve anything else, I know is not the attitude, but I am really concerned of my thoughts. I see many of you with a good sense of humor and having a very positive attitude, how come I can´t be like that ?


Well I know I had to learn the hard way that acceptance of my negative feelings was essential, before they had a chance to change. I think it's like the grief process, there are many stages we go through before we reach acceptance and we bounce back and forth between denial, depression, anger, bargaining, for as long as it takes before we can get to acceptance and freedom. I had to realize I made a bad choice, live with all the anxieties, guilt, remorse, fears, anger, etc until I was miserable enough to make a plan to change it. You've decided to explant, that's a huge step forward to recovery, physically and emotionally. But then once we explant, and even anticipating explantation, we have to grieve the loss of the body we will never get back. I look pretty horrible right now, at 10 days post surgery, but this is the worst it will ever be, and I can look forward to gradual improvement every day, and it's all natural, all me. I'll never look like I did before implanting, but I will be genuine and rely more on the internal parts of me to be proud of and develop. In the end, that's all we have anyway. So, don't beat yourself up for beating yourself up!!! Love yourself like you love one of your children who made a mistake without all the information. xo
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I am in tears :((, I don´t have words.... sorry

The waiting is loooong

Hi all my lovely ladies !!, I m very anxious, I am mad, dissapointed, how come I did trust to my original PS, I am so worried, you all know I have 380 high profile over the muscle, which with all the information now I know, it wasn´t good idea to place this big like this, I am so worried my breast will cave in after explantation, I am really want to stay positive, sometimes I do sometimes. Sorry because you guys just hear complaints from my side. I did have a panic moment yesturday, I had to call my mom I was desperate, crying, nervous, this really sucks, I wouldn´t imagine my life change for the negative, I really messed up, I can´t forgive myself, I would like to know there is light at the end of tunnel. This is going to be a looong waiting I am flying to CA ´til the 10th and having my first consultation the 11th with Dr.Lussier in Valencia. The worst thing is that this is not helping my kids at all. Please I ask God to be strong, but I can´t this is the hell for me.

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One more..

Most of the girls here had placed her implants below the muscle which is better than overs, can I have a hope ??, God, I would like to not give much importance to this. :(

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I am excited .............

Hi all, trying to be positive !!! one more week and I will be flying to CA, so excited to be with my family again !!! they all give me their support !!


hey mozzaa...don't worry about having implants over the muscle! my left implant was over the muscle and my right was under the muscle and my left breast is the 'prettier' of the two. ;-) i had 350ccs for almost 13 years, you have only had your's for several weeks! it doesn't matter where they are placed, it's more about how long you have had them and what you have put your boobs through in that time. you will be just fine- two little scars to remind you, that's it!
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Yes I will update as soon as possible, unfortunatelly, I don´t have before pictures :(
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Do you have any "before" pictures to share? Like before implants?
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I am going to have my implants removed this monday !!! I know it´s crazy, because I am going to CA, but I talked to my surgeon yesterday, she agreed to remove them, she doesn´t understand at all, but she said it´s my body, and I am only decide in it. She explained to me the procedure and what she said it´s very similar with the surgeons here.say, besides, she is not charging. I know I said I didn´t trust her, but I feel relieved when she said she could do it for me, if I am sure of it. I am excited, but I have to admit I m horrified because after 2 months and 10 days I am going under the knife again, and about the outcome. I also know mom and sis are there in CA, but it´s not fair I have to spend again, I would really need them, but I will try to do my best, with the help of my aunt. please guys pray for me !!!!!

Wish me the best, and quick recovery, so I can go to CA again!!!



Yayyyy!!! So happy for you! You will be fine.! My implants were over the muscle and I love the way they look and feel without the implants! Recovery was less than a week and I ate dinner with my kids the night after the surgery! It's so much easier to take them out! You will see!
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Hi Please help !! glad to hear that !!! it´s all wonderful what you are saying, hopefully I would get the same luck, so I think I would eat dinner with my kids lol, yes that´s what the PS it´s much more easier to take them out !!! Hugs
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Just wondering ......

I´ve been reading that you guys wear sports bra and compression bra, what would you recommend the best ? and when you guys started the cocunut oil ?


Just checking in to see how you are. Would love to know you're doing ok when you're ready. Been thinking of you x
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You are in my thoughts and prayers. Hope all is going well for you, that you are healthy and recovering.
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Concerned here! Please let us know when you are up to it! xo
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I am explanted and with my lovely familiy back in California

My apologies beautiful ladies !!! I know long time no speaking at all. Let me tell you my dear friends that after my removal, went to my aunt´s house for caring and recovering purposes, she was so nice with me and my kids, I appreciate A LOT. So, I def was able to speak to you guys, but there was no internet !!, I spend almost a week with her, days were slow and bored, lol, since I didn´t have any communication with you guys.

I have to say my recovery is really easy and fast, no pain, no discomfort I pray to continue like this and not having future complications as liquid collections, you know.
I used bandages for 4 days and I am in sports bra now, PS told me to wear compressing sports bras, taking shower as I use to, no driving, no lifting, no raising my arms. I just took off the tapes as she told me and I can start scar treatment after 3 weeks, so I'm just putting some firming lotion prescribed by dermaologist, and looking for cocunut oil today at walgreens, any suggestion about good brands of it ?

Honestly, I been feeling depressed and guilty, so guilty, guys. I can't even understand why I put my self into all these. I am hoping time will be a healer and help toforgive myself.
I am trying to do my best, I am finding out all the positve of this, I am improving my diet, so I can help my skin elasticity, I am concerning of and apreciating much more my body, I am planning going to gym, as soon as possible and my body allows me.

Mom and sis tell me that I almost look the same as before the BA, I don´t have pre BA pictures, I feel my breasts very jelly and squishy, you know I had them over the muscle and def disort tissue and I didn´t have much tissue to begin with. But I am feeling improvements. PS assured me that I am going to be back to my breasts since I didn´t have them for very short time, she just told me to give it time :)

Well ladies, I am going to upload some pictures tonight, promise. Any suggestions, reccomendations, advices are welcome from you experienced guys, please they will help a lot.

I want to say I am so thankful I found this site and you support, I really appreciate it, you guys are the BEST AND YOU ROCK !!!! thanks again for everything !!! God Bless you all !!!!!

Love you all !!!

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Sorry, girls

I meant, PS told me since I didn´t have my implants for too long, skin and tissue should shrink back.


I can't wait to see your pictures!
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Glad to hear you Cross !!, I am charging the cam, lol
MOZZAA!! So good to hear from you, bonita! I am so glad you are doing better!! So happy for you! I cannot wait to see your pictures. I spoke with my surgeon yesterday and my implant removal date is set tentatively for the 9th of next month. I will know for sure next week when they call to confirm. I hate knowing I will have to spend three more weeks with these implants but hopefully that won't affect my outcome. Love you, chica! So happy for you!!!!!
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2 weeks post explant

Hi ladies !!! I can´t believe tomorrow will be 2 weeks after my surgery. I have to say that I´ve noticed improvements and I am very confident I will keep having more. They´re getting firmer, but I can still feel them mushy, I know they weren´t like that before BA. Overall, I am happy and feeling GREAT !!!


You look good Mozza , I hope your feeling well today.
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Hi Mozza, you really look great after your surgery and glad to hear that it went so well...blessings to you.
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My dear deborahvs, thank you !!! I am wondering how are you doing with your consultations, I want to hear more good news please !! blessings to you too !!!

3 weeks post op

Hello beautiful girls !! I am updating on my 3 weeks post, hoping I can help someone with explant decision. I am very small breasted as you can see in the pics, I am a little bit sad because my insicions, there is no place where I can hide them, I am in silicone scars strips 24/7 and massaging, hoping they will have a chance to fade with time, I have seen very good results in the other reviews with scars :)

I bought a bra which is supposed to bring support, lift the breast and tighten the skin, I found it in Perfect Bodies store, there are some nation wide locations, check out www.theperfectbodiestore.com. I feel everything well supported with it. ;)

I hope more improvements and get active very soon, can´t wait for it.

Thank you all, if there are some advices to help the skin and scars, they´re very welcomed.

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3 weeks post op

Sorry, I wanted to upload these with previous update


hey Mozza...this is behind you now and hopefully a good lesson for you. I think you look great. Stop beating yourself up for something that has already passed and is now corrected. Be happy you were able to go back to being you! They look beautiful the scars will fade..Be happy you have so much life and fun ahead of you !!! Huggzz xx
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My dear light, I don´t have regrets at all, and I don´t miss having implants at all. I hate how flabby they are and it´s all my fault, I´m the only one I put myself into this, mom and sister are worried, they said I need medical help, maybe some medication, in order to help with depression, I never been depressed like this. I am affraid of everything, I just don´t feel like myself. Today is my first month mark, I´m supposed to get better, I am so worried this could take worst. Thanks for your words sweetie, hugs back to you.
Hi Mozzaa, I just saw your comment on Little Bells page, Bless you. Your doing really well. Your not the only one that made the mistake others like myself did and had no idea that going through plastic surgery would be so horrendous and be such an emotioal journey, let alone doing it a second time so soon after the original surgery. Honestly it's not you, your working through your emotions its natural to queston 'why' etc. What your not giving yourself credit for is your braveness in explanting and realising how you felt/feel, so many woman ignore this. Well done you. Having gone through it myself, just so you know I I was in tears all the time soooo anxious. I kept thiking about how I looked before. All I can say is that it will pass, especially as you recover physically as well as emotioally. Youlll have your moments but it gets easier...youve done the hard bit, now just give yourself a break, your one brave lady, give it some time. You are looking great. xxxx
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Hate the way I feel

Hi all, probably I am not a good model of positivism, but I am having bad days :/ I am just focusing on blaming myself, not helpful at all, hate it !! I want to put all these behind me, and I´m just becoming more negative ugghhh. I still remember I read in my implants paperwork that it´s the PS responsability to warn you and explain all the possible risks, therefore give you 30 days approx to allow you to reflect and make sure on your decision about implanting. Who really does that ??? PS´s are dishonest, I think. Well, well I know I can´t only blame at them, because, we are the only ones to put ourselves into big and important decisions like having plastic surgery, and women should research more and really reflect on pros and cons.
I think I´m driving crazy, have a nice day everyone.


I wasn't given the time either. It's a business. It's a culture. It's a crime. I think of my most proud moments in life, and they are the ones where I stood by my truth and didn't follow the culture and crowd. Guess what? We are doing that again, right now, choosing health over our attractiveness to the popular masses. Who deems what's attractive anyway? In this world of bombardment of misused and twisted sexuality we are the strong and brave ones with a story to tell to all women. And we are telling the truth.
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Aww mozzaa! I am so sorry. But honestly you look great! And your incisions are already beginning to fade really nicely into your skin. Is this true about the 30 day thing? If so that is infuriating bc I had my surgery only ONE WEEK after my initial consultation. No time to think there!! Crazy. You're doing the best you can. Everyone makes mistakes. It'll be okay. You're not alone in feeling this way.
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Hey lovely, I've PM'd you. Hugs. Its going to take time hun. Understandably you wish you can put it all behind you and let-go, and you will do, but perhaps there are things you still need to deal with emotionally and mentally. It all needs to come out the system. This can happen with any major traumatic experience. Talking to somebody can really help you. It can help you deal with what has happened, how you feel about yourself, the present and the future. Don't bottle it up. Get it all out. Its a bumpy ride for you at the moment and you're feeling very low but you will come through it. And you may not see it now, but you'll be so glad in the future to look back and see you have come through it, with a bit of help, you'll be able to learn how to move on and look to the future. The positive thing is you've done the right thing for you physically already. You're stronger than you think lovely :o) But now, let's think about working on you emotionally and mentally. You've come along way already by acknowledging and expressing how low you feel. Honestly, that's so brave and strong of you. We're all here for you. Lots of love xx
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Hi my dear friends, I am so sad , I m not helpful right know, I´ve seen much reviews here, and no one has the mental and emotional issues I´m having now. This is the hell, for real. I am wondering how long this would last, I´m going to see the doctor tomorrow, my mom sometimes cries. it´s not fair for my kids, for my family.


How are you beautiful lady? It is totally normal to crash after plastic surgery. Sending good thoughts your way.
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Hi Mozza... Any new pics? You look amazing by the way!! Xxx
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Hey lovely, how are you doing? Been thinking of you and wishing you well x
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