Feeling and sleeping great again !!! Thanks God, Family and all you lovely ladies !!!

The re are mixed emotions, it's totally different when you buy something that you didn't like it, just lose your money or exchange it. But it's my body, and there's no money that could bring my boobs back and my peace. The positve aspect I m figuring is that, I m doing my best to be the more similar I used to be.

Hi sweety. Sometimes things happen in our lives that change who we are, and how we think and feel. Sometimes we can never go back to our old selves. Sometimes we must keep going with who we are and try to move on from there. I KNOW it's hard. After 17 years of a great marriage my husband was stalked by an old friend of his. He fell into a paranoid psychosis, was hospitalized, released, and completed suicide 8 months later, in 2005. The stalker continued to come after me and my 2 kids, and we were relocated in a new town. We lost everything....my husband, our house and business, our friends as I can't have any contact with them for safety. We were all devastated, terrorized, and traumatized. There is/ was no getting anything back from our old lives. We just had to move forward, and make a new normal. I have my kids, and that is all that matters...and as rough as it has been you have to look for what you have left, rather than what you have lost. A therapist can help you try to work through this. Without our crisis/trauma therapists me and my kids might not have made it. You can do this hon! Hang tight! And remember......this too, shall pass.... Xoxox

Littlehugger! I don't even know what to say other than how sorry I am that happened to you. I'm in shock! You are so strong to have made it through that. Sending lots of hugs and high fives your way! My removal is tomorrow morning. Ahhh.

Big hugs to you Littlehugger. I can't imagine how devastating that was, still is, for your family. I lost everything too, with my husbands decline into addiction and then his betrayal and death. But we weren't stalked, oh gosh. I do know loss though, and the spiritual transformation through loss that can occur and make us "better" people, people of compassion and bearers of grace.

Gosh littlehugger.... I don't know what to say except I'm soo sorry!! You must be one bass ass woman to be able to come through that. And here you have been so supportive to all of us. I hope your life continues to be peaceful, you are in my thoughts and prayers :)

My dear littlehugger, I don't know what to say, but I can imagine how devastated you and your family were, I am so sorry for that, I think you go beyond of a strong woman, I really admire how brave and strong you are, and still have time to Encourage to others as me, you really are making me to realize, how easy is to deal what I m going through and of course shall pass. God bless you and your family forever, you guys deserve it. Much love thanks for your support sweetie.

Hey Theoldme2, there isn't must to say really about the crap that went on in my life. It just sucks plain and simple. But thanks for the hugs!!! I'll be high fivin YOU right back when you get outta that surgery today! Your gonna do just fine. Be patient with your feelings and your body while it is healing. Its a lot to go through in a few short months. As for strength...we all have strength. You included. Look at you...you are filled with fear and regret, and your facing it head on, and doing what you need to do to make things right for yourself! That's strength! You be damn proud of who you are, what you have learned, and your gonna walk away from this stronger than ever!!! Will be watching for your update...xoxox

Huggin you right back Maui!! You are no stranger to pain, suffering and loss either. Your one tough cookie!! Some people just get dealt crappy cards in life, and its what you do from there that really matters. We can either crumble, turn bitter hearted, or become better, stronger, more compassionate, more loving because we see things completely differently. Some people don't wanna hear about someone's suffering because its a "downer"...others see someone suffering and can't help but reach out to the underdog, and try to understand and help pull them through. People struggle in this life, it isn't always peaches and cream, and I know all to well, how a little compassion and help can go a long long way to help someone through those rough patches! Please keep us posted on how your doing, I am very concerned for you, and am so happy you are with family now, and not by yourself dealing with all your health issues. xoxox

Hey Hhprnails! How are you doing sweet?? I AM pretty much a bad ass woman, lol. I am tough as nails when I have to be, but mostly I have this mushy cream filled center, lol. You look like your healing up really nicely, and I'm happy with my saggies too! :)) Take care you! And stay in touch, would ya, lol. xoxox

Dear sweet Mozza...I have seen you struggle with this, seen you feel so horrible about the effect this has had on you and your kids, and your Mom. I can FEEL your pain. I can RELATE to your pain. That's why I told you what I did about my life....to try to show you that no matter what life hands you, you can come back from it. It takes time, patience and work, but you can do it! You have great love in your life, and support. Lean on those people that love you. Look to your faith for strength. Never give up! Ever! You have said that you feel sad when you look at your children and they see you are sad and crying. You know that saying, "fake it till you make it"?? It works! I did it for a long time, and it was a major help. Play a game, watch funny movies with your kids, go for a walk to the park with them, and LAUGH as often as possible, put some really upbeat music on, you know... the ones that make you feel like dancing or singing. Even if you are forcing it, over time it will become easier. Talk about your feelings, let it out, and then let it go for a few hours, and inject some fun into your day. And, if you ever wanna PM me, please DO! Hang in there, you are stronger than you think! When I can't stop worrying, or am afraid, and at my wits end with trying to fix, cure, solve, improve things, etc, etc...I go light a candle and turn my problems over to God, so I can rest for awhile. Like He is going to carry this for me for awhile, so I can breathe in some life, love, and strength. It's a mental, emotional break from the struggles for awhile. Try that too. There is no miracle cure for emotional pain and suffering...it's a walk out of darkness...one step at a time. Remember that. Keep walking. One foot in front of the other. Slow and steady wins the race doll! And when your feeling weak, grab a hand that is reaching out to you, and hang on....they will help keep you on track! And know that you are NEVER alone, God is always walking right there with you!!! Sending you much love and strength! xoxox

Thanks so much. It's great that we are all here for each other!

Wow, I am in tears, beautiful words, you´re so right, I really need to do something about it, meds are making me sleepy all day long, I just keep in my bed. I can´t keep like this, meds are not going to do everything by themselves. I am amazed of your strenght. I am so thankful for your support. God bless you.

Reach out to me anytime Mozzaa. I can only get out about 5 or 10 minutes a day, I'm so ill. But that short little walk outside is so good for me. Sit in prayer and meditation if you are a believer, in anything, with a lighted candle. Just 5 minutes morning and night and repeat 'thank you' over and over again. Peace and light will return, I promise.

Hey honey, when do you see your doctor again? The docs normally see you in a week or two after starting you on a little medication. If your feeling really sedated, try taking you meds at night to help you sleep, and maybe that side effect with not be so draining for you during the day. You are doing the best you can hun, don't be hard on yourself. I wouldn't stop taking the meds without your doctors advice, and sometimes the early side effects of the meds wear off as you get used to them. Huge hugs to you girl! I just wan't you to know your gonna get through this....please stay in touch...xoxox

Promise I will Maui, that sounds beautiful, sorry for your illness, at the same time I will meditate, I will pray for your health improvement my dear. Thanks. Big Hugs

Upss I am visiting my doctor in one more month, because he is Tijuana, Mx (he is a friend of my family and is an excellent doctor, he spent 3 hours with me during the consultation) so I can´t be traveling there every week, he also wants me to see an excellent therapist right there. I also was wondering to take my meds at night, but he prescribed one pill early in the morning and another one in the afternoon, of course before going to bed I am taking them. Thanks Littlehugger !! you´re GREAT !! Huge hugs to you back !!

Thanks Hhprnails, but as you 've mentioned the se kind of changes are very tough. i hope I can change my mind and Get all this Behind me.

Thanks for your compliments, 1986 I didn't know that breast naturally gain some additional tissue, sounds good. It's excellent to know your scheduling explant, gosh, I couldn't stand them for 2 months, I can't imagine having those hard balls for too long time. I wish I couldn't compare this as a big event you described, this is totally different , I wish never happened, Well, Well les son learned.

Thanks sweetie, Your always supporting. God bless you.

Yes Theoldme it´s true, I read it in my implants paperwork, they have to do it, obviously they never will do that, otherwise, they won´t do BUSINESS, remember breast augmention is one of the most popular surgeries. I hate we have this feeling.

You´re so right Maui, you said it all.

I agree with you Maui it is a culture and business. The media brainwashes us to believe we need to look a certain way...and we all know that being 'attractive makes life easier in many ways...unfortunately this is how doctors, the fashion industry, big business etc. makes its money. I think when we become more real our perspectives change radically, and speaking for myself i can say that i would want a man who wants a natural woman with her natural body. I think implants are actually quite ugly, and nothing is more attractive than natural small breasts. I cannot say i will not have a little facial stuff done (i'd love my neck done) but not yet. It is difficult to age in a youth oriented society where aging is considered 'ugly' and being unattractive makes employment more difficult. Implants?? well i must admit ..i had fun with mine for a few years..i only decided to have them removed not because i had problems with them, also because my values changed. I have enough wisdom hopefully and self confidence to love myself. I remember once..i went with a guy i was really interested in and while we were in bed..i told him i had implants, he lost his ***** and told me i would have to have them removed and he couldn't be in a relationship with someone who had implants.. HMMmm made me think. Really most men actually like them i think..but mature decent men might find them a total turn off as this one did. Needless to say that relationship didn't last ..lol..Mozza you look just great, you were smart to wake up so quickly. I really admire you for that. Just LOVE yourself :) xx

I agree with you, natural is best. As someone who has also had "work done" on my face, etc. I have to say it's not worth it. Not worth the pain, the money, and the constant chase to look better. It just sets me up in that same mind set that I'm never going to look good enough and have to keep chasing youth, thereby missing out on today. And today is beautiful, just the way it is.

Beautifully said Maui...and i really hope your problems resolve soon. I think too that the surgery can 'disrupt' our system (temporarily) and trigger things that were latent. but i do believe they will go away in time. i too have had a health problem that seems worse since the surgery...i also know that as i heal the other will heal. I believe that for you also. My boobies are lovely in clothes but i have to have a revision in October because there is some hanging skin...also i managed to get hyperpigmentation around my nipple :( which could take a year or more to fade...still it doesn't bother me that much. Best wishes, xx

Thank you. I totally support you of course, in doing what you need to do to feel comfortable in your skin. Yes, the domino effect is what seems to have occurred for me since surgery. But you are right, it will heal. And I think the lesson I've learned about my health is very valuable and moving me to a better place, thank you god. :)

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Thanks light ! i agree implants look so fake and ridiculous, feel un natural ughh, weird about your relationship, lol, I assumed men loved big boobs no matter if they are fakes, so wrong. As you said at least I woke up quickly hugs my dear.

My rosey !!, thanks sweetie !!! I can´t wait to see your updates, I'm pretty sure you're looking GREAT in your beautiful shape. Ok let´s see how scars are doing then. So you can start treating them :)

Thanks my dear Light !!! this is an incredible feeling without them, and now I can appreciate how beautiful they are, sometimes I get sad and guilty because I didn´t notice before. Anyway no more sad toughts, I´m jealous, I really want to dance again. Wow, so happy you feel that different and looking great again, so others can notice too. Love xx

Thanks Littlehugger, you're so sweet !! you're so right, I must have patience, that´s the key !! I ´m using silicone strips. What´re you planning to put in yours?

Aw, thanks Mozza! When I take the tape off today I'm going to see what they look like. If they are closed up and clean I'm going to use the scar strips (they will add some padding under the bra line) for awhile till the tenderness subsides. After a course of strips, I'm going to use me mederma cream probably till the year mark is up. I have a feeling my scar will be pretty visible, on my ribs. I figure if we put up with the damn implants for so long, we can get through this explant recovery with relative ease. I'll take pics when I take the tape off, see what I have to start with. :) take care luv

Hugs to you too my dear maui !! thanks for your compliments, hope you are doing fine with your GI issues, are you traveling ?

Hi mozzaa, so glad you are feeling well! I'm not so well with GI issues. Supposed to fly tomorrow but I'm not sure if it's a good idea. Will talk to doc today, hopefully my biopsies have come in and we can come up with a solution! Hugs to you!

Thanks Iron !! you know what ?? I only had my implants for two months. My mom and sister say that I have what I started with, the are very soft, and there are bit of differences, but I am still sad for doing this to myself. I don´t know if I´m just having bad days :/. Hugs to you