The reality of my MM Journey - Almost 8 Months
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Im 27 and a mother of one 8 year old daughter. I...
- 1 Nov 2012
- 1 month pre
Im 27 and a mother of one 8 year old daughter. I had her very young, with that little knowledge of proper pre and post natal care. I weighed 125 and gained 65 lbs during my pregnancy which left my stomach with lots of stretch marks and extra skin. I didnt start to lose weight until 2 years after my daughter was born, but no matter how much i worked out i always had extra skin on my stomach which made me look bigger than i should be. Throughout these 6 years ive yo-yo dieted which put alot of stress on my body and my breast and trust me it showed, my body aged faster than my actual years. Until this year ive started to make a life style change , eating good 90% of the time and lifting weights has transformed my body the best it could by itself , but i know that this is not enough by itself. I feel great but the inside doesnt reflect how i feel on the outside. I hate feeling self concience of my body, not being able to wear a bikini , or have my boyfriend look at me, i feel like i am a prisoner inside my skin and ive decided that i will give myself the gift of plastic surgery to "reconstruct" myself. So this december im going in for a full adominalplasty and a bilateral breastlift with responsive gels, with micro- fat injections to my buttocks and Bodytite in my inner thighs. I figured i should do this all in one shot , one pain. Now my only problem is that i havent decided how big i should go on my breast. I'm 5.3 , 125 lbs and one doctor told me i should go with 275 to look natural, but i was told that would be to small so im thinking between 350-400 cc. But i dont want them to look to huge on my small frame aswell. I have my last consultation on november 6th and ill need to decide by than! . Any suggestions?
So i just had my last consultation and ive decided...
- 8 Nov 2012
- 27 days pre
Im so anxious and cant wait! ill post before and after pictures once i am able too!
Been watching a lot youtube videos about tummy...
- 19 Nov 2012
- 16 days pre
I really recommend watching "April29oregan" on youtube. She says everything how it is,
and you can see her whole journey with her mommy makeover and she gives alot of tips for pre and post surgery.
ahh. so anxious! cant wait until december 5th! pretty sure i wont be feeling the same after surgery dealing with the excrutiating pain i will endure :S
Flat tummy and perky boobs ! it will be worth it!
Beauty is pain!
Hellos everyone so I went in for my surgery today...
- 5 Dec 2012
- Day of treatment
So remember how i tol you guys i chose 350cc well apparently gel implants didnt come in thats size or something like that so they gave me 370s I was a little worried because I didn't want big boobs but the doctor calmed me down and said that they'll look fine , so I went for them :)
so he proceeds and does all my markings and starts marking my tummy, boob and my bum and asked me how big i wanted it and in like as big as u can get it! lol I Had an amazing anesthesiologist and surgical team and they made me feel super calm. Anyways I went out at 830 and didn't wake up until 530.
So something that I forgot to mention to you guys is that my doctor is the only doctor in western Canada that uses a pain pump. And because of that I'm able to walk and pee already without pain , I inject 5ml every 3-4 hours - god is good ! Or better said my doctor!
He even made my areoles smaller :) im gonna post a pic
I'm not gonna show my belly yet because of my mothers advice. My mom believes in "old wives tales" and she says that If I open it up I'm going to get "air" in my belly lol! So the garment stays on for now . Plus I'm so high on oxys right that nothing matters haha .
Keep you lovely ladies posted :)
Day 3 - never knew it would feel worse before it...
- 7 Dec 2012
- 2 days post
I'm wearing a full body garment with another underneath for my tummy.
And it feels tight probably because of bruising and swelling now
It's hard to breathe and my chest feels heavy and sore and my back is on fire. I still haven't had any bowel movements but have been taking stool softener for when i do.
I've never felt this useless before
Can't wait to feel better . No pain pump is saving me now from how sore my whole body feels.
I have a post op appointment today, that's going to be a mission, I might ask him to take pain pump out just so I can try and heal faster .
Hate the idea of having tubes stuck inside me, and it's starting to burn each time I give myself a dose
Fml right now. But I know it will worth it soon! Just hope my body is strong !
Day 5 post op. Got my pain pump removed. Didnt...
- 10 Dec 2012
- 5 days post
boy was i wrong, once the last dose wore off, i had the worst burning sensation on my tummy insition. Ive popped pain meds and im much better. Boobs are healing really nicely though
I found out how much body fat was removed from my stomach:1400 grams which is about 3 lbs mind you i started out with only 22% body fat before surgery so i wasnt very big to begin with. They put 375 grams of fat in each butt cheek and they have been very sore since operation and sitting on them all day doesnt help either. They also feel very hard where they injected the fat.
i really hope that this will not affect the final shape of it. I havent had a chance to look at it because of the girdle and my bad posture wouldnt help anyways. So im just going to be patient.
Doctor says i must wear girdle for atleast 6 weeks -___- i hate this thing. But if it means that my body will benefit long term from only 6 weeks, than ill guess ill have to suck it up
Day 7 post op - Made my sister buy me some new...
- 12 Dec 2012
- 7 days post
She also bought me a bra in a D thinking it would fit.
I then remembered i had a couple C 38's from when i was a bit bigger, and guess what? THEY FIT and this time no empty space on top , but they were filled out perfectly and than some, and also keep in mind im still swollen.
So this means im a C38 from my 370cc cohesive gel round high profile implant , in case you were wondering .
Sports bras fit very nicely too.
Pain is about 5 today, just sore back and burning insition from time to time, and im still numb from lipo and fat transfer areas.
other than that... counting the days until i can be normal again.
Day 8 post op: Took my first full body shower...
- 14 Dec 2012
- 9 days post
Took my first full body shower today. Having the garment removed was like pealing another layer of my skin off .. it was so hard to breath, my muscles felt so tight, i felt so vulnerable. My body swelled up so quickly afterwards. I see why the doctors want us to wear it now.
Getting up by myself now is easy when im sitting up right. I tried getting up laying down today, and i did it, but boy do i regret it !
I felt like i used way to much abdominal force and now my top muscles are sore... I really hope I didnt do any damage to my muscle repair! i would hate knowing that i pulled a suture . Ive been so careful . Has anyone else had this happen to them?
Stuffed my face with chocolates for the first time since before surgery- about 400 cal -_- i couldnt help itttt ! (im a chocoholic btw)
I have this huge appetite since after surgery! i read about it online and apparently its normal. Its because of the healing process, our bodies need extra calories and nutrients for us to heal faster. But this fast metabolism will only last until we are fully healed. So we need to make sure we have lots of protiens and vitamin rich foods. (not including chocolate lol )
ugh my muscles hurt. :(
Day 16 pre op : Hi everyone ! doing much better...
- 22 Dec 2012
- 17 days post
Hi everyone ! doing much better now. Still cannot walk straight but im walking much faster. Started doing some mild cleaning, and im bending , getting up from bed much faster. Im slowly doing my normal things by mysef now, but I need to stretch BADLY... but i cant. I feel like im going crooked and its Frusterating.
However My Stitches are healing fine. Belly button still hasnt scabbed up an im Massaging boobs daily. Im still sore in some areas of lipo, but thats normal.
I went out to Walmart today with my sister, doing some last minute shopping. I used the shopping cart as support and it helped alot. Wasnt to bad, but i got tired very easily .
This recovery has been much more difficult than i thought it would be. Not pain wise, but just the fact that i cant stand up straight which prevents me to go out and look normal and not like a sexy hunch back lol Im missing so many xmas parties!!
my PS said that i should say that i had a snowboarding accident and said that i could drink a little wine
I have this big party on the 29th I pray to god i can walk up straight and that my swelling goes down. Ive had the worst swell hell ever! but than again i havent been eating to good these couple days maybe that has alot to do with it?
.. i tend to over eat when im bored.
Ill update again once i cant walk better.
Ill post new pics once i see a difference in healing .
Wishing everyone a Merry Xmas and a happy new year !!!
Hello beautiful ladies ! so im about 4 weeks out...
- 30 Dec 2012
- 25 days post
Im 60% normal !
No pain whatsoever, just tightness in muscle area and i still cannot walk up straight.. but definetly more straighter than before.
I think the reason for this is because my doctor also sewed up my obliques - hes known for doing major tightning which is a good thing ! I predict myself walking upright at about 6 weeks give or take ;)
I still have some bruising from lipo and my swelling has gone down ALOT!! started cleaning up my eating and drinking lots of water and boy did that make a difference!! I can finally see myself shrinking and its great! Ive always been sensitive to the foods i ate, i should know better, i guess all the hormonal changes and boredom made me forget for a while.
Scar and belly button are drying out nicely, Im still numb and a little hard on lower belly by scar, but thats normal.
I also cant wait to take my compression garment off, im wearing a full body suit so it sucks, 2 more weeks and its off. Ill probably still be wearing a half binder here and there after.
I also didnt get to make it to my party. But its okay, My daughter and i had a party at home watching movies and snuggling which is so much better :)
This whole experience has been emotionally draining because of me feeling useless, but it was expected.
But other than that im so happy i did it, And i know that things will only get better from here.
Wishing everyone a happy new year :)
5 weeks - Had my follow up appointment today and...
- 9 Jan 2013
- 1 month post
He said that starting next week i can start weaning myself of my compression garment, but if i find that i swell alot with out it , to keep it on longer.
I went to the mall today and id thought id try on a bikini just for the heck of it since i dont own any ... my boobs looked fantastic of course, but than when i looked at my stomach, all i could see is stretch marks !! but no flab or muffin top, which is still worth the trade i suppose.
My friends all want to go to mexico for FEB 1st and i really hope that ive made some progress by than. Still not sure if i could pull off a bikini without feeling self concience.. but we will see!
I still have a long way to go for healing , i consider myself a very inpatient person lol so this has been very difficult for me!
btw im still not standing straight at 5 weeks, im about 90% I really need to stretch bad! and im so embarassed being seen with posture.. im known for good posture! lol but other than that.. im pretty much bending, and shaving and doing all my normal activities with ease.
8.5 weeks post op - So it took me exactly 7...
- 2 Feb 2013
- 2 months post
So it took me exactly 7 weeks for me to walk straight and feel normal again , i though that day would never come!!!
Doctor said im allowed to work out which i did for a couple days but it made my swelling worse so i stopped for now.
My boobs have dropped and fluffed out alot but they still are perky and high, they just feel more natural now. I started sleeping on my stomach, as well. But its not the same because i feel like im squishing my implants.
Doctor also said i could start weaning myself off compression garment, but i think im going to wear it a bit longer just because it feels better.. i also wear it full time at work and to bed, definetly helps with swelling.
scar is also really dark, and red but thats normal, especially with someone of my colour. Eventually it will fade, so in the meantime i wear my silicone strips and massage with bio oil.
Finally seeing significant improvement... cant wait to see what my outcome will look like :)
The reality of my recovery - 8 months post op.
- 16 Jun 2013
- 6 months post
I know its been a while since I last posted but honestly I didn't feel that I had anything of value that I wanted to share with you guys since than.
I'm not going to lie and say that it has been smooth sailing because it hasn't.
As you know I was a little disappointed that the doctor wasn't able to pull anymore skin down to remove my stretch marks (so he says) . So not only was
I still looking at my ugly stretch marks again, but now i had to look at a vertical scar, and long ugly incision as well, and at that point having to wait 1 year before I could tattoo it, felt like an eternity. This made me very depressed, and when I'm depressed I usually eat...A LOT.
I've suffered from a eating disorder since i was a teenager.
I found that it hit me worse when i was depressed or stressed. I have no self-control around food and i eat until i painfully full, because i feel that its my only comfort when im going through these issues.
I had finally thought I had overcome the worst of this disorder before I went into surgery. I started to educate myself on how to take care of my body and it worked out well for me because eating healthy and exercising really is the only permanent solution for weight loss.
I finally looked and felt good for once in my life. Surgery for me was just the icing to the cake and I honestly thought that all my body issues would be over.
3 months after my surgery I became very depressed because my results weren't looking like i thought they would, and didn't feel like myself . I picked up a lot of bad eating habits -
and when i say bad, i mean BAD - like eating a whole jar of Ben and Jerrys ice-cream to myself bad, a whole plate of nachos , fried food was on the menu pretty much every day. I was Binge eating.
I pretty much turned a blind eye to everything i knew about living a healthy lifestyle and just didn't care anymore . I just wanted eat all the food in the world.
I also liked the fact that no matter how much I ate my tummy wouldn't be as bloated as it did before. I also suffered from a lot swell hell during these first months, ( i still get now if i eat junk) which back than didn't click that probably 90% of it was contributed by my bad eating habits.
I willfully turned a blind eye to everything. I honestly thought that i was invincible. I thought I wouldn't gain anymore weight and that my swelling would go down at 6 months like they say it will..
well... 6 months passed you know they say that after a tummy tuck you don't gain weight on your tummy? Well , you don't , but you do gain a lot of weight all over the place which makes you and your tummy look huge anyways especially to someone who is only 5.3.
I ended up gaining 12 lbs of pure fat from 123 post op to 135- on my small frame that is a lot.
I started to see cellulite on my butt and thighs ,the area around my inner thighs started to expand. I grew a double chin, huge arms, and my back fat came back which was making me look wider. What really shocked me the most was that I was starting to see the beginning of a new roll growing.
Yes the top part of my tummy was flat, but everything else didn't look proportioned.
Not only did I feel un fit, flabby and heavy, I became very depressed because I spent all this money on a surgery that was supposed to change my life and I was watching myself throw it all down the drain, and that was a real eye opener for me .
This recovery has taught me a lot about myself. I am not genetically blessed or have a fast metabolism
Yes my tummy is flat, but If I consume more calories than I burn, I will gain weight.
This Mommy over surgery did not make me invincible.
Surgery was not the answer to all my problems, yes the nip and tuck helped a bit, but the rest was totally up to me. And my results from here on are going to depend on how I decide to take care of myself.
My goal weight is 120 and I now weigh 128 and I feel better than ever. I slowly weaned myself back to eating clean 80-90% of the time, which not only works out well for me - but my swelling is pretty much gone now.
I also finally started to get my exercise routine back which is slowly toning everything up again. Now, because my tummy is flat it gives me more motivation to work out because I'm seeing faster results. One day at time.
I have a couple concerns about my results though. As you can see in the pictures since my swelling has gone down, I have noticed that I have a lump of fat or skin on my left side - i don't know if I caused this myself by gaining weight or if it was left by the doctor after surgery. Any how, last week i talked to my surgeon about it and he was willing to suck out 3 ccs or so of fat at the end of this month for free which i'm really happy about.
I still feel like i have extra skin. He says that because of my stretch marks, my skin will always look like that.
I have also recently noticed that my breasts have dropped way to much for my liking... I really miss them being high. Maybe its just me and my OCD, but my left boob looks like it has dropped way more than the right and to me it looks crooked which is also bothering me. I will mention that to my surgeon next time i see him.
I will update in a couple months after i get my revision done.
Thank you for reading this ridiculously long review, It feels really good to let all this out of my system .Happy healing everyone . xo