Explant and lift..17 months (and a baby) later

Ok, just looking at the last photos I posted at 5 months post op. I remember taking those and thinking actually my boobs don't look half bad from a distance.lol. I was actually pregnant in that photo but had not yet tested yet to confirm, but I kind of had a feeling that I was. Pregnancy was a wonderful distraction from my boobs as I had my tummy to obsess about instead. I put on a lot of weight during pregnancy and I think I have gained a bit of tissue from the weight gain, not much but they definitely feel a bit more meaty. Hope it stays.
As you can see, I have some issues with pigment along my vertical scar line on my right boob which is a bummer and sometimes I can let it bother me. I got some pigment cream off the docs but to be honest its so messy on my bra and clothes I don't bother applying it a lot of the time. Its also not an overnight job and I like quick fixes. I think possibly the pregnancy may have caused the pigment issue as i'm one to get the pregnancy line up my tummy too.
I sometimes worry a bit about the double scars. As in I have my anchor but I also have the original BA scars and that's where my crease naturally is. I so wish that she had used my original scar for the anchor. Although you cant see that I have two unless I pull the boobs up which I am doing in the photo. Sometimes I think I may go back in for scar revision and ask if they can cut out the in between bit and make it all one anchor scar (and at the same time cut out the pigment). But I would really not want my nipples to be cut round again. The thought of necrosis the first time scared the life out of me. Then others days I just think I am done with surgery on my boobs (the poor things). On the whole though when I look at those monstrosities that were my implanted boobs I think she has done a pretty damn good job. Id definitely do it again (go to Prague that is) and id probably choose the same surgeon (although I just wished id have demanded she go through my original scar).
So, my little girl was born on 11th of March via c section. I was determined I was going to give BF a good go as I had not been successful with my son. I went through 12 days of complete agony emotionally and physically. Physically my milk 'came in' as it were, my boobs went through all the changes, grew to double in size, were agony to touch. Seemingly my boobs could produce milk and I went about persevering to feed my daughter. I fed round the clock all night every night. No complaints. It was lovely to feed my daughter without huge implants in and I felt completely different about 'getting my boobs out' as it were. Unfortunately at her first weight check she had lost over the recommended 10% and had jaundice and an infected umbilical cord. We were admitted to hospital and she was put on a drip. Again I persevered. We were discharged a day later on antibiotics. I kept on with the feeding and the midwifes kept coming. My baby was weighed daily and her weight kept dropping. In the end I gave her formula. It was awful as it was with my son, that you feel like your putting toxic waste into your baby's mouth and you feel horrendously judged (even if possibly most of that is your own perception possibly?). Its such an emotive thing breast feeding, I wish id got to experience it without breasts that had ever been operated on. However, I look back at some pictures of my daughter as a new born and where I thought she looked gorgeous (as I saw her every day) she looked absolutely starving and very frail bless her heart, so I have no doubt now that I needed to feed her with something other than my boobs. She is thriving now and I absolutely adore the bones of her.
So, I hope this has been helpful to someone, it might not be the case that everyone who has a lift struggles with BF, it might just be my boobs? who knows.
I'm very happy I had the surgery. I just wished id never had bloody implants in the first place and then I could have just had a lift with what I had before.
Now im obsessing about a tummy tuck. Im 40 next june and I am feeling pretty damn old. My tummy as it stands looks pretty gross from pregnancy and weight gain etc. Ill try weight loss and exercise before I make any more decisions about surgery but...
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Ill try and update properly later. Ive been meaning to post for a while.

Not much to report..im ok with my boobies most of the time now. Ive stopped giving them half as much attention and i love how they look in a bra....i love love love not having implants.[RS bleep]