Finally Getting breast lift and breast implants!!!!!!

Hi My boob girls!!!!!! Ive wanted breast implants and lift foreeeeeever and finally Thursday is the day! only took me a week to get the appointment!
Im a dancer and I worked my ass of so I can finally get what Ive been so depressed about all these years..I have a 4 year old boy and since I had him my boobs went from ok to baad. seriously. My boobs are hanging. I never go swimming because Im so embarrassed by them. I rarely have sex and if I do I have to be drunk and it has to be in the dark (which is why my job isnt so bad you cant see them that well), otherwise if im really desperate to have sex ill just wear my bra. But I dont remember the last time Ive been happy with my breasts. Even when I was 16 I was like 95 pounds with DD breasts, they were perkier but a couple of years later they were not as perky and when I got pregnant they were enormous (Js) and I loved them but then as soon as I stopped breastfeeding they became smaller and gross. Like empty hanging sacks. In clothes I look great but when I look at myself naked in the mirror everyday I feel like crap. Like a cow. I love being curvacious and all
my stats are:
140lbs height 5-7 and 34DD (in a push up) without push up I can wear like a 38C.
what I want to look like:
I want to have full boobs like Kim Kardashian. I have lots of skin so I figure it should look more natural. I dont want to go too big but not too small either so Im thinking like 275 ccs in one and like 225 in the other (since their different sizes) but I will see what T-pane has to say!;)
Buuut. I hate being floppy. Im only 23 for gods sake. Its not like im 80. But I feel like it.
Im crazy in a way. I mean im moving to a new city and starting a new school in September but with this new beginning I want to feel like myself again. i want to be able to go swimming everyday with my son. I want to be able to not have to wear a bra. I want to be able to look at myself in the mirror and see a reflection I like.
I live in Montreal Quebec and I previously had an appointment for surgery with dr papanastasiou here but i saw a girl at my work who had the worst implants you will ever see (nipples pointing in different directions, too high etc..) and she told me a day before my surgery. I immediately cancelled and didnt get my deposit back but I didnt care. I want nice breast implants. So my friend told me that her sister in miami just got hers done at strax with dr t-pane (lol i find it hilarious that his name sounds like the rapper t pain) but anyway..and she loved the results. I also saw great reviews about dr pane on here so I decided to take the chance and to stop being a scared cat and just do my implants. They are very friendly on the phone. I talked to Debrah and payed a deposit, booked my flight and of i go to Florida tomorrow night!!! They are going to do the bloodwork and then I will have my surgery first thing Thursday morning!
My son is out of town at his grandmas so i figured now is the time...
my ex for some reason said he would help me pay for it..i feel kind of weird coming from him..so I offered to pay half and he can pay half. He knows how important it has been for me but Im an independent woman. dammit. lol. but he is my best friend.
you can check my questions on my profile for before pictures of my boobs cuz i deleted them from my computer since. Im so scared. I hope I wake up. I hope I will be okay..I called again to tell them I want general anesthesia cuz theres no way I wanna be awake...thats just freaky to me. I hope I will be fine in two weeks just like all the girls i saw online that had theres done. But I guess you never know...but I can take pain. I gave birth to my son without anything. I dont see how anything can be worse than that. I just have nightmares of someone cutting me open and putting like the wrong thing in my boobs and cutting me in the wrong place and then ill look like a freak. Thats just how I am. I love to exaggerate things. anyway bye my sistas I am just a lil nervous so sorry for my ranting. lol

Sooo I arrived in Florida last night and I was soo tired. Its really not that close to Montreal.lol. I had to stop in New York and that made it that much longer! Theres palm tress everywhere so pretty. My hotel is not bad for 40 bux a day. Its very executive style.
My hotel is literally down the street from the clinic. I still dont know what I want. Do I want implants or lift or both? I have no idea. Im surely gonna miss the feeling of real boobs. Just looking at myself I realize its not really the biggest deal. Theyre not that bad. I dont know how I got so obsessed with them. I made it seem like its the end of the world or something. No ones ever complained about them except for me. But I guess Im the one that has to live with them so I better be happy with them. Thank god for plastic surgery.
I want to do my butt and my nose too. Eventually. But my boobs are most important. I already have a fine butt and a nose. lol.
Im still nervous. It definitely feels more real now that Im here and all. Anyway I just had my wake up call and now Im gonna go get dressed and have breakfast and finally I get to go to the clinic and do my blood work and see Dr. Pane. Then I will check out the city a little bit. After all it is a holiday.;)

today is the day;)
I finally got to meet dr.pane yesterday and he took all his time explaining every last detail to me. I really felt like I could trust him as he didnt seem rushed. Every question I had I got answered and more. He thinks 300 CCs will be best for me since I have sagging and anything smaller wont really show since I already have the breast tissue. So I will be one size larger. I hope I will like the results. I cant wait for the day I can wear a bikini without feeling self conscious.I am sure I will be a fixture at the pool. I hope the weather in montreal will stay nice so I can show them off..but I guess I will have to wait atleast 3 weeks to go swimming which means I can be in the pool middle of august!
There were several other women in the clinic aswell so Im actually not the only crazy one..the girl in the waiting room next to me came straight from the airport from new york but shes getting a lot of different procedures. The nurses there are absolutely wonderful..I passed out when they took blood since I forgot to eat yesterday morning and she brought me a snack and a coke. She was so nice I feel bad for forgetting her name..I saw Dr. Pane again walking by me in the clinic and he asked me if I was feeling okay about everything and I said yes. What a nice guy he is;)
I really got to see Miami last night..I ran into a guy at the airport in montreal literally 5 times, wherever he was I was..so we exchanged numbers lol he is also from montreal..and also lives in miami. yesterday we went all about town in his lambourgini..it was great fun! I got to see all the hot spots like south beach and we went to several restaurants. The places here are beautiful everything seems unreal. We went to a restaurant where you sit in the pool literally and there were white beds everywhere with pillows and beautiful people. Everyone has breast implants here and I saw a few butt implants lol. Im not sure if the hugeness of it all is attractive to me. I find natural looking is always better. I mean who wants to look like a comic book character if you are trying to be taken seriously in life?My dates condo was a penthouse right on south beach. You actually felt like you were in heaven. Who knew I would find romance and breast implants in miami? lol;) Im so glad I came if it wasnt for the breast implants it was definitely for the good time!
Anyway the nurse yesterday told me they wouldnt let me have surgery unless I got myself a private nurse for atleast 24 hours immediately after the surgery. So I did that. Its $200 for 24 hours. So I upgraded my hotel room because I figured she would need a bed and I called this 24 hour hotline for caretakers. They are so lovely. I called her again this morning and she said she thought about me and is praying that everything goes well for me..what a sweetheart.. that really made my day;)
I am starving and thirsty..I had to swallow my pills on a dry throat. gross. But I really stuffed myself on purpose yesterday, I had steak and like 5 different appetizers since I figured I would need iron. I noticed that the service in miami is beyond excellent. Everyone brings you things before you even ask and they all outreach themselves for your satisfaction (or maybe so you dont sue lol) . I had to sign a ton of paperwork yesterday so after I briefly passed out I signed what seemed like hundreds of pages. These people are really covering their asses. In Canada I only signed one piece of paper when I was going to have surgery there. I thought it was funny that it said that you are signing for your body parts to possibly be taken away lol. I know they meant the extra breast tissue but I thought that was funny. Then you have to also sign a form that it is possible to die from the anesthesia. wonderful. I hope I dont die from breast implants. that would suck. lol.
Anyway I have to have a shower now and get ready for my new boobies;) yeay!!!
I see how you can get addicted to plastic surgery. I mean before you would complain about something and you wouldnt be able to change it. now you can pick at your body and get rid of whatever you dont like and add what you like. creepy in a way. Im already planning my next surgery. lol.
It is 9 am. My surgery is at 11. wow. Im less nervous and more excited for some reason. Im just ready to get it over and done with and live my life with my new boobs! I just took some pics as my boobs will never look the same (which im happy about). Im glad I got up at 7 because it makes me relax and think clearly. I dont want to rush.
So wish me luck my girlies;) off I go to surgery..........;;)