Breast Implants: Stories

Hi My boob girls!!!!!! Ive wanted breast implants and lift foreeeeeever and finally Thursday is the day! only took me a week to get the appointment!

Im a dancer and I worked my ass of so I can finally get what Ive been so depressed about all these years..I have a 4 year old boy and since I had him my boobs went from ok to baad. seriously. My boobs are hanging. I never go swimming because Im so embarrassed by them. I rarely have sex and if I do I have to be drunk and it has to be in the dark (which is why my job isnt so bad you cant see them that well), otherwise if im really desperate to have sex ill just wear my bra. But I dont remember the last time Ive been happy with my breasts. Even when I was 16 I was like 95 pounds with DD breasts, they were perkier but a couple of years later they were not as perky and when I got pregnant they were enormous (Js) and I loved them but then as soon as I stopped breastfeeding they became smaller and gross. Like empty hanging sacks. In clothes I look great but when I look at myself naked in the mirror everyday I feel like crap. Like a cow. I love being curvacious and all
my stats are:

140lbs height 5-7 and 34DD (in a push up) without push up I can wear like a 38C.
what I want to look like:

I want to have full boobs like Kim Kardashian. I have lots of skin so I figure it should look more natural. I dont want to go too big but not too small either so Im thinking like 275 ccs in one and like 225 in the other (since their different sizes) but I will see what T-pane has to say!;)
Buuut. I hate being floppy. Im only 23 for gods sake. Its not like im 80. But I feel like it.

Im crazy in a way. I mean im moving to a new city and starting a new school in September but with this new beginning I want to feel like myself again. i want to be able to go swimming everyday with my son. I want to be able to not have to wear a bra. I want to be able to look at myself in the mirror and see a reflection I like.
I live in Montreal Quebec and I previously had an appointment for surgery with dr papanastasiou here but i saw a girl at my work who had the worst implants you will ever see (nipples pointing in different directions, too high etc..) and she told me a day before my surgery. I immediately cancelled and didnt get my deposit back but I didnt care. I want nice breast implants. So my friend told me that her sister in miami just got hers done at strax with dr t-pane (lol i find it hilarious that his name sounds like the rapper t pain) but anyway..and she loved the results. I also saw great reviews about dr pane on here so I decided to take the chance and to stop being a scared cat and just do my implants. They are very friendly on the phone. I talked to Debrah and payed a deposit, booked my flight and of i go to Florida tomorrow night!!! They are going to do the bloodwork and then I will have my surgery first thing Thursday morning!

My son is out of town at his grandmas so i figured now is the time...
my ex for some reason said he would help me pay for it..i feel kind of weird coming from him..so I offered to pay half and he can pay half. He knows how important it has been for me but Im an independent woman. dammit. lol. but he is my best friend.
you can check my questions on my profile for before pictures of my boobs cuz i deleted them from my computer since. Im so scared. I hope I wake up. I hope I will be okay..I called again to tell them I want general anesthesia cuz theres no way I wanna be awake...thats just freaky to me. I hope I will be fine in two weeks just like all the girls i saw online that had theres done. But I guess you never know...but I can take pain. I gave birth to my son without anything. I dont see how anything can be worse than that. I just have nightmares of someone cutting me open and putting like the wrong thing in my boobs and cutting me in the wrong place and then ill look like a freak. Thats just how I am. I love to exaggerate things. anyway bye my sistas I am just a lil nervous so sorry for my ranting. lol

Sooo I arrived in Florida last night and I was soo tired. Its really not that close to Montreal.lol. I had to stop in New York and that made it that much longer! Theres palm tress everywhere so pretty. My hotel is not bad for 40 bux a day. Its very executive style.
My hotel is literally down the street from the clinic. I still dont know what I want. Do I want implants or lift or both? I have no idea. Im surely gonna miss the feeling of real boobs. Just looking at myself I realize its not really the biggest deal. Theyre not that bad. I dont know how I got so obsessed with them. I made it seem like its the end of the world or something. No ones ever complained about them except for me. But I guess Im the one that has to live with them so I better be happy with them. Thank god for plastic surgery.
I want to do my butt and my nose too. Eventually. But my boobs are most important. I already have a fine butt and a nose. lol.
Im still nervous. It definitely feels more real now that Im here and all. Anyway I just had my wake up call and now Im gonna go get dressed and have breakfast and finally I get to go to the clinic and do my blood work and see Dr. Pane. Then I will check out the city a little bit. After all it is a holiday.;)

today is the day;)
I finally got to meet dr.pane yesterday and he took all his time explaining every last detail to me. I really felt like I could trust him as he didnt seem rushed. Every question I had I got answered and more. He thinks 300 CCs will be best for me since I have sagging and anything smaller wont really show since I already have the breast tissue. So I will be one size larger. I hope I will like the results. I cant wait for the day I can wear a bikini without feeling self conscious.I am sure I will be a fixture at the pool. I hope the weather in montreal will stay nice so I can show them off..but I guess I will have to wait atleast 3 weeks to go swimming which means I can be in the pool middle of august!
There were several other women in the clinic aswell so Im actually not the only crazy one..the girl in the waiting room next to me came straight from the airport from new york but shes getting a lot of different procedures. The nurses there are absolutely wonderful..I passed out when they took blood since I forgot to eat yesterday morning and she brought me a snack and a coke. She was so nice I feel bad for forgetting her name..I saw Dr. Pane again walking by me in the clinic and he asked me if I was feeling okay about everything and I said yes. What a nice guy he is;)
I really got to see Miami last night..I ran into a guy at the airport in montreal literally 5 times, wherever he was I was..so we exchanged numbers lol he is also from montreal..and also lives in miami. yesterday we went all about town in his lambourgini..it was great fun! I got to see all the hot spots like south beach and we went to several restaurants. The places here are beautiful everything seems unreal. We went to a restaurant where you sit in the pool literally and there were white beds everywhere with pillows and beautiful people. Everyone has breast implants here and I saw a few butt implants lol. Im not sure if the hugeness of it all is attractive to me. I find natural looking is always better. I mean who wants to look like a comic book character if you are trying to be taken seriously in life?My dates condo was a penthouse right on south beach. You actually felt like you were in heaven. Who knew I would find romance and breast implants in miami? lol;) Im so glad I came if it wasnt for the breast implants it was definitely for the good time!
Anyway the nurse yesterday told me they wouldnt let me have surgery unless I got myself a private nurse for atleast 24 hours immediately after the surgery. So I did that. Its $200 for 24 hours. So I upgraded my hotel room because I figured she would need a bed and I called this 24 hour hotline for caretakers. They are so lovely. I called her again this morning and she said she thought about me and is praying that everything goes well for me..what a sweetheart.. that really made my day;)
I am starving and thirsty..I had to swallow my pills on a dry throat. gross. But I really stuffed myself on purpose yesterday, I had steak and like 5 different appetizers since I figured I would need iron. I noticed that the service in miami is beyond excellent. Everyone brings you things before you even ask and they all outreach themselves for your satisfaction (or maybe so you dont sue lol) . I had to sign a ton of paperwork yesterday so after I briefly passed out I signed what seemed like hundreds of pages. These people are really covering their asses. In Canada I only signed one piece of paper when I was going to have surgery there. I thought it was funny that it said that you are signing for your body parts to possibly be taken away lol. I know they meant the extra breast tissue but I thought that was funny. Then you have to also sign a form that it is possible to die from the anesthesia. wonderful. I hope I dont die from breast implants. that would suck. lol.
Anyway I have to have a shower now and get ready for my new boobies;) yeay!!!
I see how you can get addicted to plastic surgery. I mean before you would complain about something and you wouldnt be able to change it. now you can pick at your body and get rid of whatever you dont like and add what you like. creepy in a way. Im already planning my next surgery. lol.
It is 9 am. My surgery is at 11. wow. Im less nervous and more excited for some reason. Im just ready to get it over and done with and live my life with my new boobs! I just took some pics as my boobs will never look the same (which im happy about). Im glad I got up at 7 because it makes me relax and think clearly. I dont want to rush.
So wish me luck my girlies;) off I go to surgery..........;;)

Thank you for the good wishes everyone!

so here are my new boobs!!!
My surgery was supposed to have been at 11 am but I waited with an iv on until 2 pm. Apparently my doctor was stil in surgery with another patient and even when he was done we were waiting for the anestesiologist. I got impatient. Then finally I saw Dr.Pane at around 2 o clock and he measured me and drew on me. he asked me how I wanted my nipples to look and we discussed the size again because I still wasnt sure. I said I want my nipples to stay low because I find that it looks more natural and we decided on 300ccs which basically would fill up the lose skin i had. He will do a vertical breast lift on also an incision underneath the breast fold. I also reminded him to put silicone. Then of I went to the surgery room. The anastesiologist hooked me up and I woke up a brand new me 5 hours later. I got out at around 7 pm. I meet my wonderful nurse who helped me walk to the car as I was still on drugs in a lot of pain and I couldnt walk straight I walked as if I was drunk . I was starving so she bought me some groceries and feed me pasta like a baby lol. We watched tv she kept feeding me my pain killers and we both feel asleep. I had to get up 3 times to go pee and it wasnt joyful at all. When I got up I felt a lot of pain. I never knew how much you use your breast muscles just getting up I was in a lot of pain just moving one inch I was in a lot of pain. Even sitting down to pee hurt a lot. But my nurse helped me, she is so calm and nice. She put a lot of pillows to support my back and slides me on the bed with a towel. The nurse from strax called me right away to ask me if I was okay and she gave me dr panes cell phone number and said I should call him right away. So I did. He asked me how I was feeling and said that he had to give me a bit longer scar underneath my left breast because I had more fat there. I am fine with that I said as long as they sit up high I am happy. He said I should eat and get good sleep and to call him anytime if I have any worries. He is so caring. Im so happy I came to miami.
im so happy they look great! Yesterday I was in a lot of pain as if someone punched me in the chest very hard..like as if i was in a wrestling match and i lost or something.lol. Lying down Im not in much pain but when I stand up i have a lot of pain but less than yesterday already. Yesterday I couldnt even pee without the help of my nurse but today i am able to pee bymyself. Im on a lot of pain medication which helps since Im still in pain when I walk. But its not as bad as yesterday. Today I was able to eat bymyself and drink but I cant dress myself yet as I have a hard time lifting my arm to a certain point. The nurse gave me a sponge bath which really woke me up now I feel like 50% better. She offered to stay with me another night if I feel lonely as a friend. I think I made another friend in miami lol. she is my age so we get along great. She wants to show me around if I feel up for it in a few days. I posted a pic of my boobs in a tank top. They are so nice. They look very natural. They are up high and the sides sit nicely. I am glad I did get the implants as I needed them to fill that extra space I had in my boobs. Dr.Pane was right he said they wont look huge as I have extra skin. He convinced me to get 300 cc as he was going under the muscle and he said he was taking off some fat for the breast lift so if I had had only a breast lift I would have very small boobs. This size is perfect. I feel great just knowing I made my dreams come true. Ive wanted new boobs forever, it really affected me and my low boobs before made me have low self esteem I never felt beautiful. Now I can finally feel good about myself as a mother, friend and human being. I am so happy.

my nurse left and isnt coming back til tonight and im in soo much pain i cant get up bymyself..the pain medicine is not doing anything..but i guess i dont have a choice but to take that painful walk to the bathroom..

after I walked to the bathroom I passed out til my nurse came. We were going to go outside but I felt too dizzy to walk more than a few steps. Plus I didnt feel like eating.These drugs are really strong! So she went out by herself to buy lots of fruits and chicken I requested. But as soon as I smelled the chicken I felt sick. I forced myself to eat two but thats it. I ate a bit of yoghurt, we chatted for a while and I had an apple and then passed out. This morning I feel a lot better. I am able to get of the bed bymyself with not that much pain and i feel maybe I can take a walk outside today. Maybe. I think I will just ask her to stay one more night and then I feel okay to take care of myself. Just having her company though was something I really needed. I am constipated and have to take medicine for that. Apperently the pain killers can do that.

I will update with new pictures tonight as I have to take off some bandages today.

im eating breakfast and im able to walk around very well. My boobs are already healing as they are itchy. Im feeling great today. less dizzy and more able to do things. Cant wait for the nurse to come back so we can take of the bandages and i can see my boobies;)

today my nurse made me get up and start walking around. I suddenly have so much energy im in hardly any pain. I still feel like im walking like a robot but i definitely feel like 70% better. my nurse washed me head to toe. I got to finally take some brand new pics of my boobs. wow. they look mutilated. lol. But in a good way. They sit nice and high. My nipples are very hard, they are usually not hard like that ever lol. When Dr.Pane and I discussed my nipples I told him I didnt want him to change the size (i love my big nipples) and I didnt want to change the nipple location either. I like my nipples low. I have seen all sorts of fake boobs and the nicest ones are the ones where the nipple sits lower as they look more natural that way. So I am very happy Dr.Pane actually listened to me.
We went out to eat. I just wanted to eat ice cream and we had a great time.

I feel like I have so much energy. Ladies when you get your implants make sure you move because you can get really lazy. I was pretty much just lying down and only getting up to go pee until today. Right now its been about 50 hours. so now I guess I am over the worst part (they say after 2 days you are supposed to be okay). And its weird but like magic suddenly I have a lot more energy. I have stayed positive throughout everything and I really dont know what I wouldve done if it wasnt for the nurse being by my side since my operation on Thursday. She really did everything for me. I wouldnt even want a friend by my side as she is a professional and medically knows how to help. She was there for me psychologically, physically and just as a friend. I think I will be ready to go back to Canada on Tuesday. As I feel like I am ready today. lol. I cant wait to find a new apartment, move to a new city and see my baby again. I miss him so.

yes. i finally had a shower today and washed my hair. i feel like me again. My boobs look like two watermelons i hope once they settle they wont be as high! I have no more pain. Im able to lift my arms and pretty much do everything except for open the heavy door or lift anything heavy. I am still not 100% as i cannot sit up without support for long periods of time yet. But i feel better everyday.

btw my nurse is also a hairdresser so she is doing my hair and nails. I feel so pampered. she is truly a gift from heaven. i swear i was meant to meet her.

so ive been back in canada since yesterday! i feel great except for i still dont feel strong enough to carry anything more than a glass of water and i have a lot of pain first thing in the morning and just before I go to bed. so im still taking painkillers but i stopped antibiotics yesterday. i will stop the painkillers as soon as i have no pain. Otherwise I am so impatient waiting for the final results and not having to wear these sports bras! I bought a 38 sports bra in every color since that is my fashion statement for the next month and i bought lots of tanktops aswell as it is hot these days and it keeps my breasts nice and in tact. I still havnt removed the bandages as my nipples are still looking like in the pictures so im scared theyll stick to my bra. The tape i have to keep on for three weeks. they said I could change it after a week or two as it peels off over time. Im not touching nothing unless it goes of byitself, only then ill replace it. its too scary for me. I can start massages in two weeks (meaning next thursday) which im excited about since i can start playing with my new boobies then. I cant tell if my boobs are the same size yet as they are swollen but i hope so. I discussed with dr pane before that one of my boobs is smaller and he said he wouldnt recommend putting different size implants, rather he would just do the breast lift first and make sure they are the same size and then put 300 cc implants inside. so i hope it turned out as planned. i dont wanna have revision. it really is something. it feels like nothing but i am not the same. I am still not 100% me yet. I havnt seen all my friends yet but the ones that i expected to be there were not there for me. Im starting to feel like since I quit dancing for good a month ago that some friends were probably just work friends that i just got used to and may just be jealous since I was very good at what I did and was able to save a lot and do my boobs and pay for my education. I dont know. Anyway that was kind of a dissapointment. I guess family is what matters and I did have a couple of good friends come over to see me and the nurse from miami called me a few times,i definitely see her as one of my friends now. At the end of the day its for me anyway. No one really cares. I just wanted to feel better about myself and im not feeling it 100 percent yet but I will definitely feel great when I can finally wear a beautiful strapless top or dress without worrying about my boobs dropping to the ground and Im going to see my baby in two days! Its definitely an emotional journey and ive often wondered if i even wanted the fake look. But what matters is my happiness and my body is my temple so i want to feel good in it and i think i will very soon..;)

things are going well. I actually went out last night! hardly anymore pain. Just the rubbing of the sportsbra on my incisions underneath my breasts are annoying and the thought of having been cut open voluntarily makes me kind of sick to my stomach. I stopped taking my last painkillers yesterday. I just went to the toilet today for the first time in 1 week! yes. the medicine makes you constipated. no wonder i havnt been hungry. I took of the padding they gave me for the bra. What annoys me is that the doctor didnt bother to erase the pen that he drew on me with, so i still have lines everywhere around my nipple, down and underneath and the tape remains intact. goodnite my dolls;)

hi boob sisters just checking in;) lol
I finally got to see my son so I feel great again. But i noticed i have large stretch marks on my boobs. Ive always had stretch marks there but now that they are inflated you can see them more (look at the last pic)which makes it look like implant ripples although its not. I wonder if there is anything i could do about that. I think its too late for creams since i should have thought about that before i got pregnant and they became so huge..i went from a DD to a J in a matter of 9 months! really i dont know what the hell is wrong with my boobs they are seriously weird...like i didnt even gain much weight when i was pregnant it just went to my boobs and then they deflated and i hated them since then. I never felt good in a bathing suit because no bathing suit would hold them high enough so they would look like old lady boobs. Honestly I think anyone is better off having natural small boobs, that way when you get implants you wont have the anchor lift scar, just implants. But it might just be my genes because ive seen some girls with beautiful high big boobs but those are the ones with thick skin. My breast skin is just really thin. The good thing with having had breasts before is that the implants dont really need to drop much. A little yes. But they are sitting nicely inside my breasts already and its not a new thing for me to have breasts. I must say that I feel a lot more confident about myself. I cant wait til im fully healed and i can wear nothing. yes! nothing just to be proud of who i am. I cant just put on any shirt and feel great without having to adjust the straps and make sure i wear pads so i dont look strange. Its funny how you think its not psychological but to me it is. When I feel beautiful and look beautiful, I am more happier and people tend to gravitate towards me when Im happy. No one wants a grumpy bird after all. lol Just sometimes I think it can also be dangerous because where is the end of perfection? Me i love the attention but then i get home and im alone with myself and i think what have i achieved other than being beautiful. isnt there something else to life? Like havnt women gone farther than just being seen as beautiful creatures? Sometimes i dont know. The world judges us harshly and if your a single mother even more so so really im using it for my advantage because the world is a tough place and i better use it now before im old and grey and being beautiful is no longer an option. Thats why I find education is important. But I dont even know if I have the patience or the drive. It is definitely a sacrifice. Just like your body is a sacrifice when you have kids. A lot of men dont understand that. Everyone that I told I was getting breast implants too where like why? you dont need it. hello? did i ask you? like do i need to get permission from a man to feel better about myself? No. Thats why I got the breast implants. Because I wanna feel good about myself. The outside part is done. Now comes the clean up of the inside of all the years of feeling down about myself and my choices. I will achieve something that i can be proud of other than this lil journey. its only the beginning..

also i must say it was definitely a fast recovery for me..having read other peoples experiences. I was good after about 2 days;)

I also forgot to mention that since 2 days ago I have zero pain:)

i know this might sound insane lol but my stretch marks are hardly visible anymore. I havnt looked at my boobs for a week and they have definitely dropped and are less protruding. I love them. I guess ill just have to worry about taking care of the scars once i get to see them in a couple of weeks. i posted a new pic today;)

Today it's 2 weeks!!! Which means I get to massage my boobs everyday from now on! It does feel weird they are definitely not as soft as before but I think that's the point of the massages to loosen them up a bit and soften them but anyway anastetically they look great I feel like back in junior high when they sat so high and were so juicy. I just love them:) two more weeks and I can go bra shopping!!!

Ive gotten a lot of messages regarding breast implants, the what how and why.


1. do it for you NOT your boyfriend.
2. Take time off work as much as you can, you really need to rest.
3. Go one size bigger at the most (unless you have extra skin that needs to be filled up) You dont want to look like a porno star or like thats all you have to offer!
4. What size nipples do you want? and what location? be specific. Ive seen some horrible nipples on girls i know, some too high, some too low, some stretched too big, make sure your doctor actually listens to you and doesnt just do whatever he feels like. You want to feel like you not a version of every girl that the doctor has worked on.
5. Have someone be there for you after the surgery for atleast a week. Yes i didnt know this and ended up having to hire a nurse. You cant even wipe your butt the first 2 days.
6. buy lots of front clipped sports bras from walmart or zellers or wherever they sell those in atleast 3 different colors or more since this is what you will wear for atleast 1 month.
7. Have food prepared for a week unless you wanna eat lots of takeout.
8. Buy extra tape and tampon pads to cushion your breasts for the first week, my doctor supplied this but its best you are prepared with a couple more cuz you will want to change them.
9. Have sex before you get your breast implants lol since you cant for a month and it will just be awkward ;)
10. If you have kids make sure they are somewhere for the first week or two theres no way I woulda had the energy to look after my son, he stayed at his grandmas.
11. Buy lots of cotton tanktops and a couple of tops with zippers or button in different colors (I wore these a lot for the first 2 weeks cuz not only can you see your breasts and feel good about them but its easy to take off and on. The first day I wore my button up dress then I changed into a tanktop which I thought was most comfortable.
12. Do your research. See if you can live with the scars associated or if you would rather not do it.
13. Stop freaking out over scaring. There will be scars you cant avoid that. Especially if you get breast implants and breast lift. Every breast is different just because your best friend just got implants with a benelli lift doesnt mean you need the same unless your breasts are identical. Its either you live with it or you use push up bras for the rest of your life. Look at lots of examples of breast that look like yours online then you will also understand size. Every size looks different on every woman.yes its strange. Ask your doctor.

thats what first popped in my mind.

Now my opinion on scars and why I chose the vertical lift:

Remember scars are scars and after a year they will be pretty much gone and I am fine with that since it is lifetime change. I must say after a lot of research I realized the only way to really get a good lift for saggy breasts is with the vertical scar, there really is no way around it. Yes there are alternatives but a lot of them depend on how much breast tissue you have. I had a lot and theres no way that the areola lift alone would have done the job, having worked in a stripclub I must say Ive seen all sorts of boobs. The girls that got the areola lift have gigantic nipples since they stretch and its not attractive if they had lots of breast tissue. Ive seen girls with only implants and their boobs reach to the ground. You have to know what look your going for. If you have large breasts to begin with like me then its either you live with them being saggy or you get a vertical lift. Yes there will be scars and you have to ask yourself if you are ready for the trade-off. I am. I dont care scars heal. I want to have good long term results.

If you have little sagging and not much breast tissue you could go for a different lift, but in my case I saw thousands of pictures with my kind of breasts and the most beautiful long term results (about one year sometimes 3 months- depending on how you heal) have been the ones that had the vertical lift, no change of nipple location and small implants. Whatever you decide listen to your doctor and keep it natural looking and be specific. Make sure you share the view that your doctor does and he doesnt just do whatever he wants, he should listen to what you want and design accordingly. As for the internal bra or laser bra technique, only few doctors have done it and im sure there are some great results but it hasnt been researched enough and if you google it there have been some awful results that I would just not want to risk. Everyone is different but I prefer the tried and true. Im not taking risks with my body that is not practiced by the majority of plastic surgeons. There is no such thing as scarless breast lift, its not like its magical or something, the implant has to be placed somewhere and the lift has to be done somehow. Some people just need less scars or more depending on your breasts. So if you want beautiful results you have to take risks, its surgery after all!

SOME HELPFUL WEBSITES WHEN DECIDING ON SIZE:

There is a great website: http://www.aboutplasticsurgery.com/breast-enhancement/before-after-photos/A-to-D

here you can see actual results of patients from a cup to DD cup before and after, try to find breasts that look like yours so you know what you will look like.
this website is the same thing and helped me a lot too:

http://www.breastimplantsusa.com/before-after-photos/breast-augmentation/size/A-to-D.htm

another great website for VERTICAL SCAR HEALING:

http://www.plasticsurgery4u.com/procedure_folder/breast_lift_mastopexy/breast_lift_scar_photos.htm

my boobs are sooo itchy....i am still wearing my tape on it..because first of all im scared of seeing my scars and secondly i dont want to prevent my scars from healing nicely..but i think its time to take it off soon..im gonna put silicone tape on it instead..i hear that stuff is good..i guess im gonna call my doc tomorrow and ask..i forgot when they told me to take it off..

so i called the nurse at my docs office today and she said that I should keep the bandages on until they fall off for 3 to 4 weeks. So if I wanted to I could take them off now otherwise I could wait another week. They are itchin like crazy though..i think it means they are healing..

sensation in my right nipple is back..my left not yet..other than that im sooo itchy...i dont wanna wear my sports bra anymore its not comfortable i feel more comfortable wearing no bra (well only around the house since my nipples are still hard at all times lol) or when im doing laundry lol..anyway im so happy how high they sitting and how natural they look they are beautiful! Now if they would stop itching i will be even more happier!!

its gonna be 4 weeks on thursday! but ofcourse im really impatient and i took off my bandages last week. I took new pics today! as you can see the right breast is healed and the left breast is not completely healed yet because silly me pulled at the one stitch that was left in the breast and made it bleed, then I called my doc and he said to cut off the piece i pulled and put anti biotic cream on it then bandage and dont touch again. I put some polysporin on it until it heals. Also my breasts have shrank..true story! They are a lot smaller than when i first got them..now i want them bigger! lol. But im glad they are sitting naturally which is the look i was going for but they are not as close together as i have wished. But i hear that theres not much you can do about that because your breasts sit the way they sit unless you have to do like some muscle operation thats very complicated or simply go bigger in implants. So whatever im just happy i can wear shirts with no bra now! My nipples have shrank in too- so they are close to being normal again- except for the left nipple doesnt have complete sensation yet. I must say the itching is just unrelentless- you can feel yourself healing up I cant help but itch myself here and there. I think I should be perfectly fine in another months time!

the last three pics are just reminders of what i used to look like....see how its worth the pain and money? lol

So basically I'm Back to being handicapped for the past week I've been in so much pain the right breast is not so bad but the left is so painful and bleeding and yellow stuff is coming out I've been back to taking advil which isn't really enough.. I went to the hospital to check it out and they said I've been irritating my skin with the tapes so they gave me soft bandages which don't cause irritation. My scar opened up because of taking the tapes off and on, the glue is really bad for healing. Anyway it's not easy being so far away from the doc..so I'm kind of clueless. The doctor here said its not infected and to just put the soft bandage with the tape on the outside. Oh god..I'm not good after all.. I think I should have rested more instead of hiking everyday like I never had surgery. But whatever hopefully I will get better soon. I was perfectly fine til I pulled the stitch out.

hi everyone, okay so my right breast is okay but my left breast is not doing well at all. it has opened up and theres yellow stuff around it and its leaking liquid. i dont know what the hell is wrong with it but its not normal. i cant even wear a shirt without it being soaked. Anyway i sent my doc an email with pictures and hopefully he will get back to me soon. I will also see someone in person here. As i previously mentioned I went to a doc here and she said its normal and that its fine. I dont know but it doesnt seem normal to me. Atleast it doesnt hurt anymore but it doesnt look right to me. its almost 6 weeks post op and thats strange. Anyway pray that it gets better my girls;)

so this is what dr. pane said i should do. He called me and sent me an email with instructions. He was very helpful. I started taking antibiotics three days ago and its already less yellow, it seems like the saline sucks out that stuff. I have to change it three times a day though so im constantly changing the gauze pads and taping myself lol but i have faith that I will be fine;) thank you for your kind words everyone, its been really hard especially having no friends around since i just moved to a brand new city..its kinda like real self is my friends community. thanx to all my girls it means a lot to me;)


-get sterile gauze and saline at drug store

-moisten gauze with saline and squeeze out so gauze is damp, not soaking wet.

-apply to the raw areas

-cover with dry gauze

-secure without tape if possible or as little tape as needed

-change two or three times a day

-it will take a few weeks to close completely perhaps 3 to 6 but will get steadily smaller
-ok to shower and run soapy water over area then put on a new dressing after shower



For antibiotics, I recommend Keflex 500 mg 3 times a day for a week.

good thing is since i started taking antibiotics the yellow stuff dissapeared and now its only red and smaller. It seems to want to close up..the doc said it can take up to 6 weeks to properly heal..i can already see it getting better after just a week..will update with pics soon;)

sooo..im healed! everything dried up! Butttt..i dont like them 100%. I think they are too far apart and need to be higher. I will definitely get them done again. Also I want them to be bigger but most importantly higher! They are definitely better than before atleast now they sit right but they are not perky enough for me. I wonder how you can get your boobs closer together..cuz mine are naturally far apart..and higher? well..im gonna research..Ill have to save again so probably ill do them again next year! All the scars are healed but you can still see them their pink and where the scar opened its like a brown scar...but its been improving over the weeks..ohh wel..a lil dissapointed..but looking at my old pictures I did have a major change..other plastic surgeons did recommend i do the procedure in two stages...since I had very high ptosis..

hey girls just posted new pics! if i could have it my way i would have gone bigger..and i will..once i win the lottery lol for now it will have to be push up bras- overall i am happy since now i atleast feel human again..not like a cow...lol anyway I researched a bit about bringing them closer together and its not something that is really done...I think it is better idea for me to have another lift and bigger breast implants..so once they drop atleast they are huge and juicy..I also realized that my rib cage is low its just the way it is..so even if i were to go bigger they will probably end up in the same place..sometimes its better having smaller boobs with this procedure since then atleast your skin is tighter. Many docs recommend getting a breast reduction to tighten the skin (if you have big saggy boobs and want breast implants) and then putting in implants. Now i get why it makes it more of a higher perky look. I guess theres no such thing as perfection. I would probably complain if they were too high aswell. lol. anyway now im just waiting for them to heal so i can get back to work..i really miss performing..and the $..as I am broke now..(but thats cuz of other circumstances not the breast implants)...then back to following my education..
if you look at pic 17,18,19 you can see that there was a significant change in my breasts..they really were low...