27 Yrs of Wanting Change - Boca Raton, FL

So I feel like I know more about this process from this site rather than my Dr. This is okay, I'm from Florida so I'm used to healthcare here being unconcerned with wellbeing & I haven't pressed to inquire any further with questioning considering I'm trying to "go with the flow" & I feel as prepared as I need to be, any more info would just scare me. But I had my scheduled pre-op so I take another chunk of time out of my work schedule to travel down south which I try to usually avoid. I deliberately kept the idea of the blood draw out of my head so I didn't get anxious. I arrive on time 3:30p, & just like last time was seemingly reluctantly greeted by the receptionist. I'm handed a packet & told to go across the building for my blood draw & that I could read the packet while I wait: so thinking "that was vague" I travel over & wait. I get called back & the nurse hardly acknowledges me or explains everything, she's just talking to herself & others but again I'm used to this so I just try to keep calm. So without warning she starts the draw & I look away & tell about nothing to distract myself. As soon as she finishes, my ears start ringing & I start breaking into an ins tense cold sweat so I calmly ask for some water. My stomach starts to turn, the ringing increases, my vision starts blurring, & I try to remain calm still, trying to drink the water. I try asking for crackers but j can't hear myself at this point or see, so she puts it in my hand & I try to grab it but my hands are completely numb & I can't feel it. My feet have also gone numb & fall from the chair just dangling uncomfortably. I take deep breaths but at this point I'm really concerned, drenched in sweat, & feeling like my body is revolting against me. I sit for 20min like a rag doll until I come too. I ask the nurse what happened & she said I must've been nervous. When I leave, I look at the Drs office & think "I really feel like they should've explained more to me, given me prescriptions, something! But I felt so traumatized & they didn't tell me to return so I leave. I'm driving home & I get a call asking why I left & didn't come back to see the dr. I say no one told me & get told that's not the case. I offer to turn around & get told 'we close soon' so no. So they ask if I can come back this week & I explain that i can't keep takin. So much time off of work & it's a lot of travel, so she reluctantly tells me to try to drive back. I start crying hysterically because I'm so livid at the lack of communication & I know they're not going to wait for me. So I call back to reschedule & they try to again point out that the miscommunication was on my part & that the process is always to see he dr after (as though I get this done all the time) so I mention that I had a horrible blood draw experience & since I wasn't asked to return, I left. So she asks what happened & I think 'wow she's concerned' & explain briefly what happened. She proceeds to tell me my being sick is why I got confused. I'm so upset at this point, even if I were the one who didn't understand, you're not supposed to place the blame on me & use my sickness against me! I'm about to undergo a huge procedure & spend a lot of money, you should be comforting me! Between my first less-than-comforting experience in addition to this (& everyone spelling my name wrong, getting my birthdate wrong, & saying the wrong procedure date!) I'm really questioning this. I'm going to sleep on it & see if I should proceed or consider this a warning sign & let them keep my deposit & decide later if j should bother with this. I definitely don't want to have to get my blood drawn over again but I don't want to risk my health & sanity more so in the wrong hands... :(

I've been going and back forth between whether or not I should undergo this big thing. But when I look at my pictures I took for this, it reminds me how much I want it. I'm used to not really liking my appearance so I refrain from mirrors too much, but when I do look in them I see what I want to improve. I don't find myself unattractive, I just think my nose holds me back from liking what I see. My pre-op is getting closer so it's starting to set in that this is happening. I'm trying not to dwell on it because I don't want scare myself, I know I should be prepared and concerned but I don't want to think of anything negative. I've saved some new glasses, sunglasses, & hats to purchase once it's complete. I avoided them because of my nose my whole life so I'm excited to be confident in my own skin soon. Here are some pics from a recent wedding that I felt cute but still aware of my noses' presence per say..

I decided in the past year or two that I definitely wanted to get this procedure. I'm not actually for cosmetic surgery but out of the things about myself that could change to better improve my quality of life, this is something I can't do on my own but would drastically improve my way of life. I found this site and after reading many reviews in favor, found a (semi) local surgeon that was highly rated on the site and had my first (free) consultation with proposed images. Though I want it as soon as possible and have my Care Credit ready with the right credit limit, I booked it for the week before thanksgiving to give myself the most time off to recoup. My preop is 2 weeks prior and since the dr wants me to teturn the next morning & its 1.5 hrs away, I booked a hotel locally for the night just to not add any discomfort to my first 24hrs. Also, I LOVED how the dr didn't ask for sample pics of others, just focused on what would like best on me, which is what j was hoping he'd say. We were in the same page and I really didn't have many questions, just eager to look different and anxious for the pain.