41/42 Years Old. Saline Implants for Two Decades. Hoping to Feel Healthy and Natural. - Boca Raton, FL

I am 41 and will be 42 this year. I had small...

I am 41 and will be 42 this year. I had small breast that did not even fit an A-cup. At 21 I had saline implants put in under the muscle. I was so happy to be voluptuous and to look so good in and out of clothes... I have always loved full, shapely breasts since I was a little girl and was disheartened to find that mine never grew past the prepubescent stage. After I had a child at age 24 and breast fed successfully, I developed the double bubble, because my implants were too large for my body, that the bottom crease was lowered.... during and after breast feeding, my natural breast became bigger, so the natural crease was evident, causing the double bubble effect. On a positive note, the extra breast tissue caused a more natural feel to my breasts but only on the portion of my breast that was actually real. Beneath and surrounding my real breasts, was the evident hard distorted muscle and the hard saline implants. My breasts were "half hard, half soft" as my last girlfriend put it. In certain positions, my breast really looked deformed and weird, like bending over, because the real breast would dangle around while my chest muscles and implants remained hard. So it very weird, and I had always been careful from then on what positions I found myself in in any situation. But with clothes on, or a bikini, I still looked beautifully full-figured.
About ten years ago, I was ready for a breast implant removal and a lift, knowing that I would be very small-breasted, but wanting my health back. I was already feeling the effects of having toxic stuff inside of me. As well, I had had (around age 25) a dental implant that contained titanium, which also contained some nickel, which I found out I was allergic too. Just last year, I had that thing removed finally when I met a wonderful dentist who showed me that my mouth was infected by it (previously, dentist after dentist told me it was fine, even thought my head wanted to explode). The dentist who told me the truth is a dentist who specializes in non-toxic dentistry, and I am grateful for him for having saved my life and for his honesty. I still have a cap that contains nickel and I look forward to getting that out as soon as possible, when I can gather the money. So, on with the story.....
around age 25, when I was ready to try to feel healthy because I knew the implants were toxic, I didn't have enough money for the procedure, so here I am years later, looking toward student loans to be my help and healer. I have just my implants drained on 4/21 of this year. I went to Doctor Pozner in Boca Raton, who has a vibrant, positive energy and seems to usually be in a happy mood. And I like people like this. Now, don't expect him to understand that breast implants are toxic, because he is either in denial or who knows what.
I knew that the best thing for my health would be to remove the implants enbloc, that is, to have the implants removed with the capsules entirely as one item per breast, because this minimizes exposure to further toxicity. However, I opted for the drainage first because I knew that this would allow my skin and tissue to do some healing before deciding on what to do next, for aesthetic purposes. I am paying the price health-wise for this decision, as I know I have been exposed furthermore and more directly by the drainage procedure to 20 year old toxic saline. Lately, since the drainage, I feel sicker than ever. But I try to be a pretty positive person, and I know that the toxicity will eventually be healed when I have had a chance to have all toxic stuff (including toxic dental material) out of my body, and my body will have a chance to detox. So, after wearing a big B-cup (although I looked like a C-cup), I am back to not even fitting an A cup. I like it when I touch my breasts and I feel soft breast tissue (although very little of it) instead of all that hardness. I will wait out the time to see how my breast skin and tissue heal and look to see if how much fat transfer I can do and how much of a lift I might need. My hope is to take out enough student loans and to find a doctor who will do the breast implant removal, fat transfer, and lift if need be, hopefully for a very good price. I would like to talk to some doctors about an internal lift, as pictures on the internet of this procedure look wonderful with minimal scarring, as opposed to traditional breast lift procedures.
The drainage at the office of Dr. Pozner cost $500.00.
If you all have any questions or advice, feel free to hit me up, because that is why we are all here.
I love you all and all your breasts, small, medium and large.
Thank you for your support in being here and sharing this site, and blessings to you ALL!

Two months after drainage, implants still in, studying options, having faith in miracles

I am posting 11 photos today, that I took earlier today, so that is exactly two months since drainage (note, implants are still in, they were drained of the saline two months ago)....
I have retracted very well, but am still droopy...
The doc who did the drainage has quoted me with some options:
A. implant removal alone..........................................$1,700
B. implant removal and lift.......................................$6,200
C. implant removal and fat transfer to breast.........$5,310

a fourth options, which would be implant removal, fat transfer to breast, and a lift (which would be optimum aesthetically, would be about $9,200 ... and that is out of the question.
My parents and student loans are helping me out with this, not some rich philanthropist.

The 11 pictures I am posting include some of me holding up my drooping skin, imitating what I would look like with a lift (without any fat transfer to the breast).
You may notice that I have gained much weight, and this is because I was hoping that the new curves would go to my breasts.... but, if it did, only a little bit did.
I would like to gain some more weight and do the fat grafting option... I know my breasts will still be droopy, but why do I need to have perky breasts anyways??? I am 42 and have breastfed a child...
So, droopy but fuller seems like the happier option for me.

What do you guys think?????? :D
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Hi. I wish you the best of luck with your decision. Just my 2 sense. ..I think you should opt for lift only. I think you will be very disappointed with the fat transfer. I had it done and it took for the first couple of days, then it all was absorbed in my body. I just dont want you to A-through your money away and B-go home happy with the size then have it all disappear on you. Just my thoughts but the very best of luck to you. Oh, one more thing lol. You made the statement at the end of your story "why do I need perky boobs as a 42 yo mother" why? Cause you will feel good. That's why. Cause you deserve to feel sexy at any age!
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thank you for your comments and support, derasha :))))) I'm actually doing all the procedures... explant, lift, and fat transfer, because the doctor did not want to do an explant and fat transfer without a lift... he feels i would not be happy with the results without a lift. So, he is giving me a really great deal, knowing how much i want the fat transfer... so if not much of the fat remains in time, it will not be a big loss financially. I've seen some big (as opposed to small) droopy breasts that are super sexy... i think big and droopy is sexier than small and perky. but everyone has their own opinions on what is sexy, which is a very good thing, I think. If everyone thought the same on what sexy is, then many people would be left out with no one to be attracted to them. anyways, I'm really lucky to be a lesbian, so if my breasts don't keep any fullness, I may find a woman with awesome full breasts. :)))
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Hey , congratulations on upcoming surgery, are you still ditching for a ps ? I am too, I have upcoming consults. Taking my time and being thorough b4 I pick. Btw your page is really nice and encouraging, the home reckers have put an attack out on Miagirls page, But we can see it for what it really is ! We support Miagirl and all the others who had courage to post their experience without discrediting someone else's experience just because it was different from theirs !
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I mean searching for a ps
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I'm not sure.which way to go check out lots.of doctor's first
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thank you, Mia :)
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:) fid u check out my page
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Yes, and I know to not go to D. K. thank you for sharing your experience.
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Hi Im sorry you have been so ill. I hope your health improves and you will make a full recovery. I think you look good now and the implants are still in you. Maybe your boobs will fluff up some more once the implants are removed and you may not need a lift or fat transfer. I think it looks like you have ample breast. Do you have a date for removal?
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Date is coming up sooooooon .... excited and nervous at the same time... my doctor, whom I saw just two days ago, doesnt want to do a removal and fat transfer with no lift, because he says I will be unhappy with the results.... and frankly, I think he wants his patients to look great... so he has helped me out with the price on all three procedures... the removal, the fat transfer, and the lift... and i think I will look great :) meantime, I am trying to gain weight eating lots of ice cream... since I've been gluten free, it's hard to keep weight on... I hope there will be plenty of fat when the time comes.. it will be in august, when my summer classes are over.... so, really soon. Thank you for the compliments, lilmissgb.
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I think you answered your own question which is whatever is the happier option for you is the right answer :)
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ahhhhhhhh, you are so right :))))))))))))) thank you. 2happyboobs :)
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Ah thank you for your kind words...it seems at the moment i have more breast tissue than before implants but time will tell....just so glad I am natural again xxxx take care Hun
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:D
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So glad you are here! Please keep us updated as you progress with this journey. It will feel so good to eventually be all natural again. :)
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Hello, Angiemcc.... Thank you. I will keep the community here posted as things progress. :)
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Hello, Angiemcc... I just got a look at your review, and i think your nose looks great! It is beautiful and it fits your beautiful face, so keep on smiling. And thank you for being the manager here... what a wonderful forum for us to share with and support each other.
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Thank you for sharing. It does sound like you have been through so much. I hope that you continue to heal and feel better. What you are doing is what I want to do, to include waiting to see how the tissue adjusts after the implant removal. After I wait, I will determine what I want to do- re-implant, lift, both or nothing. I plan to give it a year. Did you have this done under local or full anesthesia? Also, I know you say you had some hardening but was the capsule removed along with the implants? Take care, Gwyneth
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Hello, Gwyenth. I did not have the implants removed yet. They were drained, and it was done under local anesthesia and took hardly any time at all. I did this so that in the removal process, there would be less scarring. It was not the healthiest choice as there is no way to assure that all the saline is drained out. The folks at the doctor's office said that any saline not drained and leaking through would be absorbed by my body. Hence, why this was not the healthiest choice. However, it does make it so that the removal of the implants will not require such grand scars from being cut open. So, I still have the implants and capsules. The hard feel of my breasts after the implants and prior to draining them (which was a period of 20 years) was due to the implants being placed under the muscle. With very little natural breast tissue to begin with, there was not much softness, and so, that is why my breasts felt so hard, because it was basically outstretched muscle pretending to be breasts. Now, with the implants drained, and still under the muscle, all I feel is the nice soft natural tissue of my natural breasts. Yes, I do wish I had more of it, but I am interested in fat grafting, as this would provide a fuller looking breast but without the hard feel of muscle tissue rather than actual fat. Breasts that have been augmented with fat are more natural looking and natural feeling because that is what breast tissue is mainly made up of... fat! I don't know if I will be able to afford this, and if I can eventually, I will have to gain some weight, so that there will actually be some fat to take out of my body to insert in my breasts. And if I can afford it, I am so willing to gain the weight. Thank you for your kind words, and I hope you will make whatever decisions make you happiest and healthiest.
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Sounds like you have been through a lot you poor thing...sending you hugs and healing prayers and hope you find a good doctor to take your implants out for you xxx all the best
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thank you, Slbaxter :D
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Hello, Slbaxter in the United Kingdom. I have read parts of your review, and I'm so happy for you that you are feeling better and even driving again! Yay! You look great by the way. You are so lucky to have plenty of your own natural breast tissue.... never needed those implants to begin with. Thanks for being part of this community and for keeping us posted.
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