I Have the Worst Legs on the Planet. I'm 31. This Should Not Be Happening. New York, NY
bruise update
Velashape update
Shani, the clinic director was the clinician who did the procedure again. Last time she was able to upgrade me to the venus freeze but this time around, I did the velashape. She spent an hour on me like she did before, 30 minutes in front and 30 in back. I could feel the suction of the machine and it felt like a massage and started out warm. The skin would get hotter and hotter from each pass until I told her it was too hot to handle and I would just say "hot" and she would move onto the next spot. Super easy. I think she would depend on me to tell her this. I think, however that I have a very high tolerance for pain because all of a sudden that damn thing would get very very hot and I didn't realize it. When she was doing the back of my thighs, I was pretty close to falling asleep. In places where the skin was more sensitive like my inner thigh, although I just felt it more on my right thigh, it hurt more. I could feel the nerves hurting because I could feel it in other parts of my body. But I just dealt with the pain.
So far, I don't know if I am just throwing money away. I am really sad about the way I look. For two weeks I have been on a strict no carbohydrate diet in hopes that I could lose the weight that I put on.
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So sometimes I think that maybe its not that bad...
Anyway, this is about my horrible, disgusting legs. I seriously thing this is like my penance or something. I must have been the vainest person in my last life to get legs like mine. I have hardly any butt unless I constantly do squats and my thighs are out of proportion and filled with fat and varicose veins. I'm 5'10"
and let myself go to about 210lbs. I can only assume that is how much I weigh right now. I'm scared to get on the scale. When I was 165-170 I felt better but mostly because I was a dancer/model and no one could tell me anything because my body was close to perfect. Not that I knew this of course, at the time I was humble about it and still too fat in my eyes even though all my ribs and hip bones showed.
In the past two weeks I've hit an alarming wall. My boyfriend says I have to lose weight because even from when we met a year ago, I've put on 30 lbs and hes not happy about it. I still have been teaching dance classes however. Since my boyfriend is encouraging me to go back to dance class, I've gone back to taking classes in NYC and here in Jersey. I've gotten a reign on my eating habits.
I'll tell you what. I've fought and fought with this body to the point that I've thought about suicide. I guess that is how the moments come and go. I've started Velashape in the city yesterday. I purchased 3-30 minute treatments for $100 in NYC on lifebooker.com. I've found sessions for as low as $18 at other spas. I'm not so sure if these are going to work because I obviously have the the best looking cellulite on the face of the planet and dont forget about the spider veins too! Lest we forget...How the hell did this happen to me? . Lets see how this develops. Please pray for me. I'm at my wits end and I look at myself naked and I just want to cry. I dont feel good enough unless I'm in dance class. But my body is covered by tights and leotards. Class is the only time I feel like I am worth a damn.
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Welcome to the community :)
Hello, I so empathize with you. DO NOT commit suicide! I do understand not liking your body or some part of yourself. I know that your legs and bootie are definitely important to you as any woman. Please keep in mind that although you leg problems may be more extreme than other women, they are still the same problems that all women endure, just on a different level. FACT: When we gain weight our fat cells expand. Toxins just loooove to latch onto fact. When we eat bad foods, smoke, drink, you know the list, and sit on our buts alot, the muscles atrophy, the toxins build up and the cellulite becomes a fixture on your body. I think that it would be best for you to: 1.) Drink 1/2 your body weight in ounces of fresh water (Kangen Water if you can). I am a Kangen Water Specialist if you want to know more about it - email me at ***@msn.com). 2.) Eat a salad of dark greens and other veggies with atleast two meals). 3) Eat 3 meals and 2-3 snacks per day - Your body burns more cals this way and speeds up your metabolism. 4) Cut out all soda and sugary drinks, candy etc.. Sugar kills collagen and cells. 5.) Do cardio 5 days a week and strength training as well. Don't do only cardio, you may end up like a trash bag because your body won't have enough muscle to support it and the skin will sag. If you lift weights, the muscle will give the body support and help to keep the skin firm/firm it up. Don't ever give up hope, BUT you need to give yourself a fighting chance! It seems as if you are looking for a quick fix and there are none. Quick fixes are only band-aids. While trying out this velashape think of the things that you already know. You have to burn off fat with cardio, build muscle with weight whether you r body weights of other kinds. Don't over look the fact that visible veins indicates bad circulation. If you're constantly sitting, get up and walk around every 5 -10 mins. Buy a small trampoline and use it everyday. It exercises your lymphatic system (immune) and increases circulation. It's great. Great investments would be weights, the mini trampoline and Kangen Water. I wish you so much luck on your journey and please, never give up. Please feel free to email me if ever you want to chat about things. I will answer. And remember, there are always many of people out there that have it much worse than you. Think about it. There's a young legless girl out there that would kill for your legs. You can walk! Now use those legs and start the good work today!!!!! Blessings, Stephanie
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