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Ok, trying to collect all my thoughts. HUMMMMMMM! Ok ladies. Sorry I have been gone so long. I am part owner in a buisness and I left to surgery at the beggining of our buisy season. Anyways. where did I leave off.....well over the past weeks alot has happen. I didn't sit till my 5th week and it did hurt. I only sat at work but the min I got home I was on my stomach again. I was so worried about losing volume that I refuse to sit. I did all of my massages and let me tell you it's like heaven everytime you go. Now at 10 weeks My stomach STILL hurts. I'm still healing. At night when I am sleeping and I go to turn around to change position My stomach Burns and hurts like hell. My stomach I so tiny!!!!! OMG never in my life have I been so small.Now I do have to workout my arms so that everything matches witht the rest of my body. LOL. After I had surgery I was so scared of the rapid changed that i didnt even know what to do. I wanted it to go down and when It did I was a t a satisfied point then to realize I was still going down. Ladies you have to be strong for this because this seriously takes a toll on you. I am going so crazii I had so uch to say and I can't even think....please feel free to ask away. anything IDC

Ok so ladies... I fell INLOVE WITH MY SWOLLEN ASS! And that is why i feel unhappy. You see your self so curvy and then when it goes down it such a huge drop. Well i knew this going in. I think if i had go e into surgery and came out how i look now i would be happy. The down part is seeing yourself so big and then missing out on what you hace actually improved. I REPEAT IT IS NOT THE DOCTOR!!! I was already skinny and he was working with what i have. Trut me i know its because i saw myself swollen and wanted to stay that way. I am just being a greedy lil girl and want More. Damn brb again!!!!

Well ladies i'm On my damn phone till my ol ass computer decides to go up. Its really old anywayz. Right about now i am exactly 10 weeks out of surgery. I have lost a huge amount of weight and I am so unhappy with the size of my bum. I will deff have to go for a round two. Now ladies i am not sure if i have fluffed, Ruben daid possibly not. I will try to gain a lil weight because during the period of this week that pass my ass i feel have dissappeared. No ass. I feel like b4. I will give it its time because Ruben and Fabnewme said im still healing which i am. I have a sick ass waist, stomach. It is beautiful. I have to admit i look way better than b4, but what i love about myself i could have done at the gym. It is not Salamas fault AT ALL i just want a bigger ass. I feel like i just filled out what i already had. I want to exceed that. [RS bleep] gimme a sec brb