Uneven after surgery :(

Right, so I am 31, 165cm, 54kg, 32A-B (empty), no...

Right, so I am 31, 165cm, 54kg, 32A-B (empty), no kids (not planning on having any). I grew up in London, in the UK, but have lived in Adelaide, Australia for four years. I live with my Australian partner.

So, from my teens I decided I was going to have a BA, due to never growing boobs. My family assured me they would grow one day, but it never happened. As the years went on, I became more accepting of my body, and did not really think about having a BA, but always wishing they were bigger naturally.

I trained to be a registered nurse, and worked on a plastic and reconstructive ward for a time, and having this experience lead me to do some agency work for a couple of different cosmetic surgery clinics. One - Transform - were so unethical and slap-dash about their surgery and the pressure they gave patients made me quite anti-plastic surgery, and become quite an advocate for women accepting their bodies, and being proud to be flat-chested, droppy-boobed, cellulite-baring natural women.

For some reason my mind has changed over the last few years. I still think there is absolutely nothing wrong with being natural, having small boobs, a bit of extra flesh, whatever, but I guess I've seen some really tastefully done surgery (rather than the shoddy work done by Transform), and also met several 'normal' women who have had surgery for themselves (not to show off or try to bag a man, but because it made THEM happy).

I also earn much more as a nurse here, and this is the first time I've had disposable income, so it has never been an option.

I also started weight training heavily last year (have had to give it up a couple of months ago due to injury, just getting back into it), and noticed that as my body got leaner, my already small breasts lost what little was there.

So, I've been seriously researching the procedure for over a year, had a few consultations, ummed and ahhed and finally booked to go ahead with it. I am definately an over thinker, and am nervous of regretting it, but for over a year now, I have not been able to convince myself I don't want to do it, and think unless I go ahead with it, I will always want to have them done and be fixated on boobs!

The things that do play on my mind are:

- Not accepting them as part of me, and wanting to explant
- Not liking how they look on me
- Worrying they will end up uneven
- Feeling guilty about spending money on myself (this is a big thing for me - I feel so vein for wanting to do so)
- Feeling guilty about putting myself through unnecessary surgery (another biggie, as feel bad that people need surgery for serious things and I am doing it for vanity reasons)
- Capsular Contracture

It has taken so long to finally take the plunge and decide to do it, and now I have to wait 2.5 months due to not being able to get time off work until late April, which is not good, as it gives me too much time to question myself, and overthink things!

Anyway, enough of my waffling, guess I needed to get a few things of my chest (groan!)

I've been reading on here for a while now, and have found people's stories so helpful, so just wanted to thank you all!

Ali xx

Well I realised I haven't updated this. It has...

Well I realised I haven't updated this. It has been a difficult few months due to personal stuff with my partner and his family. I even offered to cancel the surgery. But here I am, 9 hours before I need to be at the hospital!

I'm having 385cc high profile textured silicone Allergan Natrelle implants.

Will update from the other side :)

So my boobs were pretty symmetrical prior to...

So my boobs were pretty symmetrical prior to surgery, but post op the they look totally different, and worry that they have been misplaced.

My right breast is flat and low, and my left is high and full. I knew a bit of asymmetry is common, but you can see this through a baggy jumper.

I'm really nervous that he's put two different sized implants in by mistake, or placed them in different spots, as they look like they've been put in totally different positions.

I researched my surgeon thoroughly. He has an excellent reputation, he has many years of experience, and I've known people who have had stuff done by him who he has done a great job on.

Did anyone else have this?

Four weeks after second revision of left breast

Hey guys, hope everyone is well!

So it has been a long and frustrating breast journey and I wonder if they will ever be right :(

So after my initial worries about how asymmetrical during healing my implants were, my doctor thought it was capsular contracture, and I had a revision on October 1st 2013. This left the breast looking worse! The muscle was visible over the implant, the implant looked misshapen, and the lower inner part of the implant had loose skin around it.

I questioned whether it was the muscle causing the problem, and felt the pocket had been over-dissected. My surgeon felt this was not the case, but sent me to another surgeon for a second opinion.

The other surgeon felt that the muscle was the problem. He felt the more the original pocket was revised, the worse it was going to get, and recommended anatomical implants be placed over the muscle.

When I went back to my surgeon, he stated he was surprised by the other doctors suggestions, and did not agree with them. He felt it was best to attempt to revise the left implant again, which my partner, who was at the consultation, also felt was best. I expressed my concerns of doing another revision, only for the same thing to happen, but my doctor said he was confident he could fix it this time, and felt starting from scratch with new implants over the muscle had the potential to cause more problems. I reluctantly agreed to go ahead with this, thinking if it could be fixed with a minor revision, then this was preferable to having both implants removed and placing them in new pockets.

I'm now four weeks post revision, and the left breast (right in the photos) still doesn't look right. I also have a lot of pain in the muscle. I saw my surgeon two weeks, who said it is still healing, and he will see me again in two months.

I'm at the end of my tether with this, as I feel that this is now the third failed operation, and I can't keep going in for more surgery, as I lose work and don't get paid, and the effects of the anaesthetic aren't good for your body. Plus, I don't want to keep having operations that don't even fix the problem.

My doctor is one of the top doctors here in Adelaide, and everyone else who has used him has had great results. He hasn't charged me for my revisions. But I'm at the point where I feel after three operations and he still can't get it right, I should use a different surgeon, but I will have to pay the full fee again.

If anyone has any advice, I would love to hear from you!

Thanks in advance, and hope everyone is well!

Ali xx

Pics

Added pics, they are the wrong way round, so looks left is right in the photos!

5.5 weeks post second revision of left breast

Double bubble/ bottoming out appearing.
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How did it all turn out, I'm about to have a BA with James..friends have been happy just wanted to know if you were happy now. Thanks Simone
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I also think they are very attractive. I am so sorry for everything you've gone through. What a nightmare! And glad you have a supportive partner
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I'm so sorry to read about the hard time you're having! I would talk to more doctors if it was me. Sounds like your current dr has lost your confidence which isn't a good thing! I can see you difference in shape but I think they are still beautiful. How do they look clothed? Also, how do you feel clothed?! Keep your chin up!
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Hey vanislandgirl, thanks for your kind words. They are ok clothed, but I can't wear a bikini or low cut top as you can see the funny shape. I used to wear both of them before my BA so now I feel worse! I think I may rebook to see the doctor I had the second opinion with. Thanks hun! Xx
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Hi Ali Can you please update with the final result were you happy?? I am looking at either doc trot or doc Higgs What's your feedback on doc trot are you happy with your BA?
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Hey Ori, Sorry for the delay, am working in PNG at the mo! I had a revision to the left breast in October and it has made it worse. Dr Trott was perplexed by my case and sent me to Dr Cooter for a second opinion. Dr Cooter feels my muscle is the problem as it does not like having the implant under it and is holding the implant in a funny position. He felt the second operation caused over dissection of the pocket, and recommends I have them removed and a new pocket created over the muscle and teardrop implants used. Dr Trott has been very professional and I feel that I am just unlucky to have had a rare issue. I am seeing him in a fortnight when I get back to see how we will proceed. I know of quite a few people that have had breast work done by him and all are very happy. I have seen good and bad work from Dr Highs. I can't say I'm looking forward to op number three as I'm scared that will go wrong too, but I want them fixed so its a risk I have to take. Good luck with your choice!
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Thank you for your reply, it's reassuring for my decision! Although I guess I don't.p no if I also will be one of the unlucky ones? Can they tell this before the procedure.? May I ask if you have to pay for the operations to fix the implants? I have a consultation in March with doctor Higgs so I will see how I feel after that! Thank you and best of luck x
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Hey hun, I have not had to pay for my revisions fortunately. However, it still does not look right after the third op so I am a little peed off! Just updated and added a pic. How did your consultation go? Xx
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They are going to go through changes as they drop and settle in. You are only a week in - try not to over-analyze things right now. Take a photo every week standing in the same place in your house, with the same lighting etc etc..... i bet that after a couple three weeks you will start to really see how they will look. I had two different sized implants put in to correct some asymmetry and for the first week at least I was convinced that my PS had mixed them up and put them in the wrong sides! hang in there, baby-girl! You are going to look fantastic!
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Also - I constantly reminded myself that this is the only boob job I have experienced. My PS has now done more than 6000+ breast augmentations. I just gotta trust his judgement and the process. Easier said than done in the first week or two...... (!) Were your implants placed under the muscle as well? That will also affect the time you need for them to relax and settle in......
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Can wait to see pics of your new girls
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Good luck!!! I just had mine on the 23rd and it's been the best thing aside from having my son! You will love them! Keep us posted
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Hello. There are risks in almost all things we do, but we just have to decide if it is right for us. I am now at 2 weeks 2 days and am slowly getting used to them. I think that it probably takes everyone a different amount of time depending on how big they decide to go. How big are you wanting? For me, I wanted a natural look, so my ps recommended 300 cc high profile. Of course I started off with even less than you...So have you talked to a ps yet?
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I see him again on March 13th for sizing and just an overall second consultation. I think I am one of life's natural worriers, so I will always concentrate on what could go wrong! However, I see so many woman who don't regret it, so I am going to go ahead, as I do really want to do it. Like you I am wanting a moderate enhancement, so am thinking around the 350 size? It's hard though, as size looks so different on each woman.
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Yea I agree. Different amounts of cc's look different on each woman. My ps asked me what I wanted to achieve and I just went with his suggestion for my frame combined with what I wanted to achieve. I don't actually know my size yet but I will know soon. I can't wait to go bra/bikini shopping. I know that I already feel more confident and I'm just in a sport bra. It's normal to worry. I did too and even still there is worry. But is the worry worth it. I think so. I'm only 2 1/2 weeks out. But so far it's all been worth it for the feeling it does give me. Keep us posted and ill be happy to answer any questions I can.
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I've never been under confident because of my breast size, but I do get annoyed about not filling out tops and bikinis and always having to wear a padded bra with everything! But now I've made my mind up, I can't help putting on clothes and thinking 'that's going to look so much better with boobs' and I do think I will feel sexier I hope! Thank you for sharing your story. Look forward to seeing how your ladies settle :)
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I'm so glad you started your story with us! I say, since you don't have children to support, don't feel guilty at all! (Even if you did, you shouldn't feel guilty). Some women do decide implants are not for them, but that is something they could have only known from having gone through with it.

Hopefully you will really like your new additions and enjoy them for years to come! Please keep us posted!

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Thank you Angie! I know this forum is American, but I've found reading other people's stories on here so helpful. I think it was reading the explant forum that started me off worrying about it, but it's best to hear experiences from all sides.
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