Boob Job with Upper & Lower Bleph - Australia, AU

I've been stalking this site on and off for a couple of years now, wanting to do it and not wanting to do it all at the same time. The reviews have been so helpful so, fair is fair, and here is mine.

I am 37, 5ft 7 and somewhere between 125 and 130lb & a small C cup - but think they look more like a B (I have added photos with my sports bra and top on - will need to build up courage to post the girls nudey). I have never disliked my breasts. They are smallish but a nice shape and have historically been in proportion with the rest of my body. Then I had kids, my waist expanded and the boobs kind of deflated. I think I got off relatively lightly but I still find that I avoid going to the beach because I don't like wearing the bathers anymore. Age is also a factor. I used to be tiny - crazy small but, even if I could get back down to that, I don't think it would look or feel good at my age. The adjustment is hard to get used to though. Now, on a bad day, my stomach comes out to meet my boobs and I hate that!

I have long wanted to sort my eyes out and decided to address my post pregnancy body concerns at the same time. Initially I was hoping to do a mini tummy tuck but, with the kids still so small, I don't think now is the time what with the longer recovery. I have decided to start training hard again and address the rack instead!

I am booked in on 22 July for 310cc anatomical unders. I think I'm pretty happy with the size and shape. I want them to look really natural.

I do feel quite conflicted and worried about doing this and I would be so grateful if anyone could reassure me or pass on any tips.
- What if something goes very wrong?
- Am I sending the wrong messages to my kids - how do I even explain it?
- How will I keep my three year old boy (mummy/boob obsessed, speech delayed, climber) off them while I recover?
- Will he be scarred for life with the weird shape while they settle?

Thanks for listening :)

Well, my surgery is officially 3 weeks off. I'm first on the cancellation list too so I'm really hoping they call sooner. I've paid for the implants and will transfer the anaesthetists fees tomorrow. The credit card is all cleared and ready to pay the balance (for the frequent flyer points).

I've been working out a lot and been far more motivated than I have in years. The prospect of such a positive and drastic change to my figure is making me want to get the best result I can straight away.

Meanwhile, here is my wish photo - the one that made me decide to go for it. I also showed him a photo of Halle Berry. Not for the size, I just like how natural and squishy they look. I have a massive fear of the surgeon putting 18 year old boobs on my 37 year old frame but I think the guy I've chosen understands what I'm trying to achieve.

I paid everyone involved yesterday and will be in surgery in a little over a week. I'm now freaking out about size. My surgeon is certain that anatomical implants will get the look I want & I'm happy with that, but it makes it very difficult to get a good idea about size when comparing with all the pictures of round implants.

I mentioned my erring to the secretary when I paid and the surgeon is squeezing me in on Tuesday to go over it all, talk about size, etc. That's great because, when I'm talking to him, I feel like he knows what I'm after. It's just been a while since my pre-op.

Meanwhile I've put up some more 'wish' photos. Please, please help me decide which size is going to achieve the look.