Ready for the Burden to Be Lifted.

Hello Everyone, after reading several reviews I've decided to write my own. I also think this would be a good way to get rid of some of my anxiety about the surgery.

Well I've had large breasts since i hit puberty and they have just gotten bigger ever since. I am currently 21 years old. I don't know my exact size but i know my minimum is a 36 DDD. so I wanna say an H? I am 5 ft and around 130pds.

I just had my pre op today and i came out with my stomach in knots. My surgery is on the 3rd. and i can believe it is so close already! Even though i am extremely excited to get rid of all the back pains and the self esteem issues, I'm also terrified i will hate myself even more. Please tell me I haven't been the only one thinking this before have I?

Don't get me wrong,not all of my thoughts have been negative. Ive been super excited to to be able to wear regular clothes! and not look at something and say nope, my boobs will look weird in that. oh and I'm so ready for the staring and comments to stop. you all know what i mean. But the negative part about it has been about my weight, i know to some people I'm not over weight but I've always been a little chunky. with being so tiny, 130 is not the exact weight i should be. I'm just so nervous, i will look even more abnormal than i do now. Ive been kinda of freaking myself out, but i reassure myself that i will not regret this. I've read stories where women back out at the last minute and and regret it. so that is definitely not an option. Its weird cause in not really about the anesthesia , because I've had to be put under before.

One big thing thing I've decided to do during this whole process is to document it. I am studying photography so i decided to turn it into a personal project. Im really excited about how it will turn out. but emotionally its a lot harder to go through. I've already caught myself tearing up. ha

anyways sorry for ranting, I'm kind of using this to vent as well.

If anyone could please reassure me, that would be great. lol

and ill take any advice you have to offer thanks and ill update after i have the surgery!

oh and ill try to add photos next time!