Ready to Feel/look Like a Woman - Atlanta, GA
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I'm not really sure how to blog, but here goes...
- 15 Feb 2012
- 7 days pre
I'm not really sure how to blog, but here goes nothing!! I am 31 and a mother of 5. I birthed 4 of them and 2 being twins. My body has been put thru the ringer to say the least! I had my 3 big kids by the time I was 20. I have wanted to get implants since 2001. I had a great body (and boobs) before children. Now in my eyes I think I look awful in a mirror. I am covered in stretch marks and tiny boobs. My husband ( LOVE HIM BUNCHES) thinks I am amazing just how I am. This surgery will be for me and how I feel about myself.
I am sure I am not the only one to feel this way, but when the time is right with your husband, boyfriend, spouse...etc... I myself did not like him to touch my boobs. I guess because I know how small they are and how uncomfortable I am with them. I guess I felt like he would feel like I am less of a woman because of it. It takes so much courage just to be naked in the light in front of him. I have to say my husband has done an amazing job of making me feel as comfortable as I can be in front of someone else naked. I am still very unhappy and uncomfortable looking in the mirror without clothes. I really just want to feel like a woman. I want to be comfortable in my own skin. I think having this done will help me a lot. I am 5'0-5'1 and 125-130lbs.
The Dr says I am a Neg B. I am planning on getting 400cc. I am going under the muscle with Mentor memory gel. I go in this Friday Feb 17 for my pre-op. My surgery is going to be on Feb 23. I will NOT be getting a pain pump. It was offered and I decided not to get it. I hope that was the right decision..... I have been feeling lots of anxiety. Throwing up when I think about it and walking circles around my house. What eased me was reading post on here and watching videos on youtube. I am much better today than I was yesterday. I found zip up sports bras at Wal-Mart and I plan on getting those. I am also gonna get button up PJ'S. I WANT TO THANK ALL OF YOU!!! All of the post. This site at helped me more than I can say!!! Thank you all so much for all of your post and comments!!
Today was my pre-op. It went well. I decided for...
- 17 Feb 2012
- 6 days pre
I then went to the hospital to do my pre-op with them. Everyone seemed really nice and understanding. I am still nervous though. I am a little bit more excited than I was yesterday or the day before that. It's just a waiting game now. I have to be at the hospital at 6am and surgery at 8am (est).
I guess it's time to start getting everything I need!!!
So it's 4 days till my surgery. I am having a...
- 19 Feb 2012
- 4 days pre
I really did not expect getting implants would be...
- 20 Feb 2012
- 3 days pre
I do have my list ready to go. I just need to grab a few last things and get to packing my bag.... Nervous but excited!!! WOW... I can't believe I am gonna have boobs this week. I am really gonna look/feel like a girl!!!
I spoke with my PS today and talked about the size...
- 20 Feb 2012
- 3 days pre
So its the night before the surgery. I made it to...
- 22 Feb 2012
- 1 day pre
Today is the big day!!! Wish me luck. We are...
- 23 Feb 2012
- Day of treatment
Everything went great!! I have been in bed...
- 23 Feb 2012
- Day of treatment
It's the day after. I'm in a good amount of pain....
- 24 Feb 2012
- 1 day post
Well it has been 2 days since my BA. I have to say...
- 25 Feb 2012
- 2 days post
So I had my post-op yesterday. Yesterday was a...
- 28 Feb 2012
- 5 days post
I went to my car and sat there about 10-15 min and just cried. I questioned myself A LOT yesterday. I was wondering why I did this. I was thinking it's not worth all of this stuff I am having to go thru. When I got home I told my husband if I would have known it was going to be like this I WOULD NOT have went thru with the surgery. I am not happy with the way it has made me feel or look. I did not even want my husband to look at me. He walked in the bathroom after I got out of the shower and I covered up. I know they are swollen and they look weird right now. Everyone says it will go away and I will love my new girls in a few weeks. I sure hope so cause yesterday I was thinking of when the soonest is I can get them taken out.
Today is a little better. I am alone once again so I have lots of time to think and look at myself in the mirror..... Lets hope this is just a crazy depressed spell I am having.
Thank you Makenzie and Twins4Me!!! Thank you for...
- 29 Feb 2012
- 6 days post
Yesterday was the twins 11th birthday and I stayed in my room with the door closed all day. I came out long enough to watch them eat a cup cake. I felt so mean. I could not help it though. I did not want to even be around my own kids yesterday. I had a few friends stop by and bring dinner, cup cakes and flowers... I did not even want to see them.
My husband came into the room last night and talked to me. I tried on a few of my shirts and it made my husband ...um "Happy" to say the least. Just seeing his reaction to my new look made the world of difference. Today I love them a little more. I have not cried today and have not thought about when I can get them taken out. So I guess that means it was a good day. I am trying to keep my eye on the prize... My new look. I think now I am just read for the big lump on each side under my chin to go down...lol. Plus I think they are to far apart. I know they will fall into place I guess I am just really bad at the waiting game.
Thank you again for the kind up lifting words... They helped me out tons!!! I will keep you guys posted and I will get some post op pic on here. I will try to get them on tonight.
So I went to see my PS on Monday. He took my...
- 8 Mar 2012
- 14 days post
I can say now that I LOVE MY NEW GIRLS!!!!!!! They are AMAZING!!! I am now wearing a regular bra (without a wire). I got to see a few friends the past few days for the first time since before surgery. They all are in wow over my new look. Some have told me... "I am sorry but I can't help but to just look at your boobs. They look great." Also I went to lunch with my sister on Monday. The cook even came out of the kitchen and had to comment on how I had great boobs!!! Then I walked by a dirty old man... He stood up looked at me and said Hubba Hubba... Really? OMG!!!
I am gearing up today for a nice vacation. I am jumping on the Harley with my husband tomorrow and we are going to Bike Week in Daytona, Fl for the next 5 days. I'm so excited... I get to show off the new girls. I will not be driving myself crazy thinking my husband is looking at all the hot girls with big boobs down there cause I will be one of those girls for the first time in my life!!! Getting boobs has helped my self esteem out so much. I feel like a real woman now. I look like a real woman now. I don't have to shop in the little girls dept for padded bras anymore. It's such a great thing!!! My size at the moment is 36C. We will see if it changes once they drop more and get snuggled into their new resting place.
I am gonna try to post some pic today when my husband gets home.
So tomorrow I will be 1 month post op. Things are...
- 21 Mar 2012
- 26 days post
I went to see my PS on Monday. I am having an issue with my left one. It hurts and it does not have any feeling from the nipple down. I guess he also got a little air in that one during surgery. I have an air bubble and it feels really weird. It has been there about 2 weeks now. He said it will take a few months for it to go away and for me to get feeling in my left breast. I told him that the left one is the red headed step child..lol. The right one is perfect. 100% feeling all over.. No air bubbles and no pain at all. I would think it would have been the other way around since my right one was a little smaller. I guess not.
I go back in 2 weeks for my final check up!! I will get all my before and after pics. He told me that they look and feel great so I am sure my last check up will go great.
I went for my 6 week check up on Monday. My PS...
- 5 Apr 2012
- 2 months post
The funny thing is.... I don't have lots of time to rub the girls. I will do it between 2-4 times a day. Sometimes I only do it once a day. I guess it's working for me though. I just have to work on getting them to sit closer together. They have moved in closer since my BA. I ran thru the house yesterday and they bounced!!! Now THAT IS EXCITING!!!! They are starting to get pretty soft too. I know they still have quite a ways to go until they are as soft as they are gonna get.
I am so happy I had this done. Yes it was hard right after, but 110% worth it!!! I would do it all over again. I just had to get thru the hard part. I feel like a new woman. I love the way I look!!! Now if we could just work on a tummy tuck to get rid of the battle scars the twins left on me I would be great!!