New Boobs. Waka waka! I believe the real healing has begun! - Ashburn, VA

Omgoodness. I just traumatized myself a little bit looking at those pictures of when everything was all open. Gosh. Terrible. I hope everyone is doing well and healed well.

I'm all closed up. I'm not having an stitches splitting. My only remaining troubles are the actual scar tissue hurts. If I wear an underwire bra too long or sleep on my stomach it hurts. Also if I sleep braless on my side when I wake up they hurt a little as well. Aside from that they feel okay.

They definitly feel like real boobs now. They were sitting really high and pretty before. They've fallen a bit. For a while there I actually thought that they had grown back. I mean I'm actually a DD now. I called my doctors office and had them send my before pictures. I can assure you that they have not grown back! My boobs were huge. One of these days I'll scan that picture in. They were pretty darn big before.

Okay so my other issues are the scars. A few months ago I tried to use the Palmers oil and I had issue with it burning so I just left that alone. I'm going to start back up soon because my scars are pretty large and dark.

Okay, question, have any of my other big girls out there had some little self esteem issues because of a large belly? I mean, I've had this spare tire for years, but I've never seen it like the way I do now!! Yikes. I've surely been hitting the gym.

So here's the full story, my boobs are smaller, my belly looks bigger, I prolly should lost more weight first, I hope my scars fade quicker, and I got so cute tshirt bras!!

So today is 3 months post op! I have some questions. Considering my stumble along the way I don't really know what my 3 months post op should be looking like. Anyway, let me start from what's been happening the last month or so.

So everything is pretty closed up. I will occasionally get an open spot with a little oozing. I actually had one spot open and some white chunky stuff came out and then it closed right up. That's all on the left side. That's the side that opened the most, is bigger than the other, and generally has given me the most trouble. Right now everything is closed and I've been working on finding something that doesn't burn when I put it on for scar treatment. Actually if I use shea butter it feels okay, but the Palmers vitamin E oil burns and itches. Has anyone else experienced that. I cant tell if it's the oil or if I'm just not ready to work on scar treatment on those lower incision areas.

I still have a little soreness. It's not too bad tho. It's mostly from sleeping. I've started flipping over and sleeping on my stomach again. Not good! The only other real issue is the thick scar that goes around the lower incisions are actually sore. Like the scar hurts. Strange. There's still a little bruising on the upper incisions.

For the most part I'm good. This surgery wasn't an instant cure for my back, but I'm still kinda glad that I did it. My only wish is that I'd waited for a better surgeon.

I hope everyone is well!!

Why hello all. After being contacted by one of our dear realself sisters about her sad experience with the same doctor I had I realized it's time for an update. Something to show there is hope after the pain and madness.

Over all I am a lot better. For about a week or two I had virtually no pain. At that point I started sleeping on my sides and my stomach some. Shortly after that when my stitches started coming out more and quite painfully I had to go back to sleeping on my back more. When the stitches started coming out near the break down I didn't feel them. When they started coming out under the armpit jowls they woke me up out of my sleep! So I've been having some soreness under the jowls with those stitches, but it's not too bad.

I also had this opening happen near the left side wound. It was way strange. I was scared I was getting another break down, but it opened and some white stuff came out and now it's healing back up. I hope that was a one time event. I have to stop living in fear that things will start breaking down again. I've noticed that when I'm feeling really good and start reaching and doing more I do get some pain. So I try not to limit myself too much, but I also realize I still have to take it easy some too.

I'm so glad things are finally closing up and I'm feeling a bit more human. Still not feeling the underwire bras yet, but that will come. I'm still a little swollen on the left side especially, but not nearly as bad as before. I'm starting to think maybe he just did that side bigger.

I think that's about it. Oh, one more thing. I'm so glad that at this time I'm unemployed. I don't know what I would have done if I would have had to go back to work. It's been a looong process.