Documenting my Tattoo Removal Using the Alex Tri Vantage - Toronto, ON

I Feel it's important to share my experience with...

I Feel it's important to share my experience with tattoo laser removal to help others. My tattoo is 6x12 upper back. It is a cover up, however the tattoo before was very small light circles down my spine , the majority of the tattoo being removed is the cover up. I have had 1 treatment Sept 7 2012 and will be going for my 2nd treatment on Oct 27. I will add photos as often as I can so you can see progress. Oh, cost - 166 per treatment as I bought a package deal, I have a total of 15 sessions.

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Oh yeah, I can definitely see change between your before and after your first session. Thank you so much for posting photos so others can see what the progress and changes look like.

Next time you are at an appointment could you find out specifically what kind of laser they are using for you? There are many available, so it would be great to know which one is being used. :)

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Blackberry11 26 Oct 2012 My plan is - eat mostly...

blackberry11 26 Oct 2012
My plan is - eat mostly raw vegan food, as I am a vegan - so no preservatives, organic when I can - nuts and seeds, fruit. Lots of juicing to keep my immune system strong. Iam very active and workout and run and do yoga daily. I have however been pretty down about this tattoo and need to ramp up my workouts and fight it rather than let it get the best of me! I also try to get at least 8 hours of sleep and drink tons of water. I do not smoke or drink.I know my tattoo looks like one that will be hard to remove, but I am determined to get it off my back - what a huge mistake- what was I thinking! It looked so nice in the sketch, elegant, and it came out a nightmare, The artist who said he would sue me for slander if i used his name was a "world renown" artist...NOT - however he does have great work in his portfolio, so why did he screw up mine...oh well....

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My plan is - eat mostly raw vegan food, as I am a vegan - so no preservatives, organic when I can - nuts and seeds, fruit. Lots of juicing to keep my immune system strong. Iam very active and workout and run and do yogo daily. I have however been pretty down about this tattoo and need to ramp up my workouts and fight it rather than let it get the best of me! I also try to get at least 8 hours of sleep and drink tons of water. I do not smoke or drink.I know my tattoo looks like one that will be hard to remove, but I am determined to get it off my back - what a huge mistake- what was I thinking! It looked so nice in the sketch, elegant, and it came out a nightmare, The artist who said he would sue me for slander if i used his name was a "world renown" artist...NOT - however he does have great work in his portfolio, so why did he screw up mine...oh well....
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it is 1 year for go :) but you know... try to make sport because if u are going to joging and such... tattoo will vanish faster =) Im doing it, had my first session, its one week pass now, not much to see that it worked but i take it as positive experiance. Doing much sport, eating healthy and such =D I start my own blog after second threatment =) I will tell exactly what happened with me.
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1st Session Sept 7 3:30PM - details: Laser was...

1st Session Sept 7 3:30PM - details:
Laser was set at level 1 (Alex TriVantage)
I was given numbing cream 30 min before treatment
Very little pain during session - felt like grease splatter or someone hitting you with an elastic band over and over -or for any of you who have used the DR. HO massage therapy at home, kind of like that.
After treatment, severe sunburn or burn - tollerable
Blistered during procedure and pin point bleeding (they said that was normal)
NEXT DAY Not really sore, tattoo looked very dark and red, lots of blisters especially where color and they are getting bigger!
Still pin point bleeding
3rd day (2nd full day) Felt good, was able to ride bike 45 min at the gym. Still lots of blisters and pin pointbleeding with some yellow goo. Overall not much change since day 2.
4:15PM 3rd day - hurts a little more, feels really tight
8PM - still like a sunburn x10
not really lots of pain just very uncomfortable -sore and used ice pack
Rough sleep, horrible thoughts of regret (stupid tattoo)

DAY 4 - woke up not as sore, ran 25 min outside then 40 min on bike. Blisters seem bigger and still blood and yellow on pad.
Swelling has come down and not as red, but still looks dark

My husband says it does look better today, I am trying to remain optomistic!

I was worried about the blisters, and called the clinic, they said not to pick them and they will drain on their own, and it's normal for the tattoo to look darker.
I change the pad 2 times a day and apply polysporn

I wish the blisters would go away and take all the ink with it!

I know my back will never look the same, but I have to accept this is the best I can do and move forward.

Day 5 - Blisters have come down, still looks dark and still a little sore with pin point bleeding, but less.
The green ink looks black, and the whole tattoo still looks so dark - worried.

Day 6 - Bleeding on pad minimal - not sore
My husband is seeing some fading

Day 7 - still bleeding and oozing yellow -but not lots, it;s getting itchy, but tolerable, still very dark

Stopped day by day documenting, but in the end, the darkness went away, along with the red, the green turned green again with some fading, overall I do see results from session one. Keeping positive.

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Oct. 27 11:45am - Session 2 Machine was turned...

Oct. 27 11:45am - Session 2

Machine was turned up to level 1.8 - it hurt more but went faster.

Was able to go shopping all day after treatment, not much pain after, feels like a sun burn, just like before.

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Day 2 after 2nd session. Slept very well, no...

Day 2 after 2nd session.

Slept very well, no pain at all. Not sore at all this morning, way better than the first session. Less blisters so fa.

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Day 2 12:06 am, just got back from the gym, can't...

Day 2 12:06 am, just got back from the gym, can't believe there is no pain, I was able to run, ride the bike and do legs, chin ups and pull downs...felt great - gotta keep that blood moving!

I came home had a Hemp seed, kale, apple and parsley green juice made in my Vita Mix. I am going to rid this tattoo, and keep fighting it, I am going to stop letting it control my emotions, it got the best of me this summer, and it's time for me to fight back.

Stupid artist..I wish i could put his name and warn anyone in Ontario to stay away from him, he is such a fake and a jerk and ....i would say so much more but would get sued as they shop made me sign off after refunding my money.

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Look forward to seeing your blog - keep us posted and best of luck to you!
The Alextrivantage laser machine, it has 755nm, 1064nm, as well as 532nm wavelengths.

Day 3 - bit more sore especially on the flowers....

Day 3 - bit more sore especially on the flowers. Aggg, this is so frustrating, but I am trying to stay positive! It looks like it will never go away, but I can't think that way! My husband says the lines are breaking up a bit, but really it's so hard to tell on day 3......

If only a magic wand would work....please anyone who has not gotten a tattoo - think LONG and HARD before you get one, or a cover up....if you get a cover up - get them to draw it on your back first and go home, look at it a million times and be sure.....oh if only I could go back in time!

Keep you posted, and hope for more fading!

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End of day 3, still sore, hoping to wake up to...

End of day 3, still sore, hoping to wake up to less pain.

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Thank you!! Will be keeping my fingers crossed for great results for you, and looking forward to watching your progress.

TThank you Megan!

Morning 4 - 2nd Session no more bleeding,...

Morning 4 - 2nd Session

no more bleeding, still a bit sore, but I slept without the gauze to give it air, I actually think that helped.

I am taking tons of vitamins and juicing and water....must say healing after the 2nd treatment is much better.

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Ok, it seems itresting, i do my blog :)
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Thank you, it really helps people and there are other blogs you can check out to for inspiration - I will try and find the links and send them to you - but one really good one is called "something to get off my chest" Best of luck to you, and the more support we have to get through this together the better...so keep in touch and share your progress

Day 5 - 2nd Session - the itch has started,...

Day 5 - 2nd Session - the itch has started, although not that bad. The pain has subsided and still some swelling.

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Also wondering you have all ink colors treated in one session? I know some people will only have the black ink treated in a session, or just the colors.
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Thank you for documenting your journey! I too had a tattoo artist muck up my tattoos. The same artist did them originally and i loved them. Then I went in a year later for some touch ups, and he did a terrible job! Now they look so sloppy and amateurish. Every time I look at them I feel so sad. *sigh* :( But live and learn. If I could have looked into the future and known what they were going to look like I would never have gone back to that artist, but that sort of thought isn't helpful. I just need to move forward and take control of this situation. I plan to start removal treatments at the end of this month. Your story gives me (and I certainly lots of other people) inspiration to take charge of a crummy situation and change something that really makes me unhappy. Thanks again!!!
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Thanks for sharing your experience and your photos. I do see a change, it is slowly fading away. I am also starting the process of tattoo removal and like you had a tattoo and then a cover up. I live in Hawai'i and cultural hand tattoos are popular but alas not for me. I absolutely hate it, with a venegence now! I will start the process in January and for now wear cover make up and a wrist bandage. I'll just tell people I have arthritis/joint pain. Your written experience really helps me. I'm worried about the pain and the healing process not the actual process. I've had two consultations and know what I'm up against while in the clinic, but at home that's a new area of unknown for me. My hubby says "live and learn" and so yes I"ve lived and now I"m learning through you. Thanks again, I look forward to hearing about your next session.
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The itch is gone, it wasn't that bad, it took one...

The itch is gone, it wasn't that bad, it took one week to heal, blisters gone completely, no signs of scarring yet. I didn't seem to peel as much as last time, not sure if that is good or bad.

I see some more fading, but its only 11 days since my treatment, and it takes 4-6 weeks min to clear the ink.

I will take a photo soon and post.

The most impressive thing for me this time around was how fast it healed - that was great and not unexpected.

Next session is Dec. 8th......what did I get myself into!

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I wanted to say that I am glad that my review has...

I wanted to say that I am glad that my review has given some insight into tattoo removal. It's a shame that there are people that have to go through this whether is by choice due to lifestyle change, or because of a horrible tattoo job.

My son says to me all the time "YOLO" and it makes me laugh, but deep down I feel so embarrassed to have done this to myself, and I know my family does not judge me, but I was always the clean cut mother, who stays in great shape, cares for her body, mind and has a great spirit, and loves her family more than life itself, so how can this ink on my back take such a toll on my emotional well being. For those of you following this I hope I inspire you that you are to do your best to see the bright side, you will have sad moments, we all do, and we may HATE out body art so much that it makes us cry, but when it comes down to it, it's just ink on skin, and we are alive and sounds like we all have family support. You have my support, and we will work together to motivate each other when down....you can email me directly too, but i think its good for everyone to see how other feel going through this as it helps put their feelings into perspective, as they are not alone in this.
Sorry for the long post, but I really want to hit home that we must keep our chin up, don't be ashamed, and don't hide yourself, be proud of who you are regardless of what you have done. People make worse mistakes but they just don't wear it on their skin, and it can't usually be removed. In time, this will be a memory we can all look back at and laugh....even if some ink remains we will deal with it then. Take good care all :)

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OK Blackberry11! you have got to help me here now. I see that you are getting your tattoo removed. My problem is rather unique! I am a fair skinned asian with a considerably dark genital area. I was advised the q-switch laser two and now I have already taken two sessions. They are using 1064 nm wavelength. In two sessions I dont see any difference. Either there is none or its too subtle to notice. I was told that I will required at least 8 sessions! My worry is will my area be lightened? If yes by how much? I am really tense about this! Also the treatment is expensive so it better be worth the money I spend!
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Hi C_me, you mention your tattoo is on your genital area, and that you are using the Q-switch laser. You are asian with fair skin. Your concern is if your area where the tattoo is placed will ligthen. Hypopigmentation is a possibility, I would discuss that with your doctor. I also think if that does happen it can be reversed with other lasers. Is your tattoo all black, they are using the correct wavelength, it sounds like based in the area, it would be small. Sometimes people don't see resutls right off the bat, and sometimes you do, and then it slows down - some questions you want to ask you doctor is what setting is the laser on, my nurse started at the lowest and my next session was 1.8. and when I go to my next on on Dec. 8th, I am going to ensure it is turned up again. I am going to keep my sessions spaced apart no less than 6 weeks, but prob 8-10 weeks for max clearing - they say up to 3 months even. Also, in all reality, if where your tattoo is, I would not be too concerend about removal at all, its not something that will show every day, unless you do...LOL, or its a very embarrassing tattoo - IDK. Try not to worry, you will be ok.

Feels like my tattoo is completely healed, I see...

Feels like my tattoo is completely healed, I see some additioal fading, mostly in the black, but not as drastic as the 1st session.

I will post a new photo before my next treatment.

Some things to consider if you are going to have laser tattoo remvoal:

Smokers have a 70% less (aprox) chance of successful removal
Healthy diet, exersice, and rest aids in boosting your immune system which you want strong to aid in removal process
Keep your stress low, this is where I struggle, as I am very stressed about this tattoo, and a few other things in my life, so this is where I really need to focus. Yoga helps and running helps, and my family support - they are great!

Looking forward to next treatment..

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Thank you for sharing your story! I will stay tuned- for sure! :-) I've had my second laser removal session a week ago for a 2 year-old rose tattoo in my ankle and it's going pretty well. It's actually a cover up (for an old little black flower tattoo) and it turned our way bigger (size of my fist) than it was supposed to be! It's a lot of work to cover up with make up (for work etc. I don't want to wear long pants for the rest of my life at work ;-() so I just want to get it removed by laser. I love your positive attitude (!) and I realized I've been such a fool crying myself to sleep with having no support from my family or anyone, it's my own project now to get it removed. Now I will understand that I was young, fooled and I forgive myself. I always strive for perfection and I really try so hard to be a good person so I will allow to forgive myself that I did this to my body. I just wanted to let you know that your writing made my day! Let's stay strong! I also do yoga and pilates and I try to stay healthy with my nutrition and other ways as well..I didn't think about how much that actually affects the healing process until you were talking about it! Also I would like to share my suggestions for the healing process; I think after you get the laser, you should avoid covering (it with anything) and put some healing cream bought from the drug store and let it get some air! I promise you my tattoo healed so quickly! I still have some darkness to it but no more sore bits or blood. I also have been using a cream that makes the blood circulate faster, so this way it's healing my skin at the same time as it's helping the ink to go away faster. I'm also planning to try the R20 laser removal, have you heard about it? It's 4 laser session made 20 minutes apart and it makes the ink go away faster than normal laser removal. I have a normal laser removal in 3-4 weeks and on January I'm planning to do the R20 removal as well. I'm pretty sure I need 2 x R20 but I've saved up money so I can do it and maybe (!!) next summer I'll be ink free. :-) - Joli

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Thank you so much for sharing your story! I find myself in a very similar situation as you - I'm scheduled to undergo my first laser tattoo removal session next monday (in Toronto as well - at the Baywood clinic.. I have spent countless hours researching clinics and reading reviews, and I hope I've made the right choice! I considered FadingFast as well too but never got a consult) I have a 4x4" lotus flower on my inner bicep that I'm getting removed. The tattoo is meaningful to me and is quite tastefully done, but I realize after reflecting on it that I got it done for the wrong reasons, and in a period of stress and elevated emotions in my life....never a good time to make important decisions! My tattoo is all black with some shading, and it's fairly new - approaching 3months now. So encouraging to hear that you started treatment on a new tatt as well, since I was told this wasn't ideal, and that it would be best for me to wait years down the road to achieve better results. I'm just not willing to wait 10 years and live with something I'm not happy with. It's been so hard to explain - even though I've received many compliments on the tattoo, I just don't feel like ME anymore. I have been so preoccupied with it ever since I got it done, that it has held me back both physically and emotionally from being my true self. I have always prided myself on my health, caring for and respecting my body in its natural form - which has led me to endlessly question why I even went through with it. So like you, this has been an incredible lesson in non-attachment, letting go, personal reflection, and re-assessing my values. I have a very similar lifestyle as you - very active and follow a plant-based diet. So I'm hoping that will help in the way of healing, recovery time, and boosting our own immune processes. I guess I'm still on the fence about whether I should go ahead with treatment right now, or wait a bit to begin - I wish I could foresee into the future how the end results would differ if i started now vs after a year or two. Guess I just have to trust the process, and whatever happens happens. Do you have any thoughts on this? I'm wondering what you've come across in terms of new tattoo removals.. Anyway this was more of an outlet for me to share my thoughts, feelings, and apprehensions, since I haven't really had the opportunity to do so. Reading through your posts often felt like I was reading my own thoughts outloud - always reassuring to hear that we are never alone in this world! there is always someone that can relate and that you can share your experience with. so again thank you so much for your bravery, honesty, and openness. we're in this for the long haul!
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Hi Tash 21 :) Thank you for your comment, I agree it's nice to feel like you're not alone. I too was going through change and an emotional time when I had my tattoo done, and agreed, bad time in life to make such a decision! I hear you when you say you don't feel like yourself any more, it's so hard, but I have a family and my health is important, and also will aid in removal, so I have to push through this, even when it feels like I can't. I have such compasion for anyone going through this, it's not easy, especially because it was something so avoidable. I always replay the moment when I decided to get the tattoo(s)in my mind far to often, and ask myself why I got a cover up, why didn't I just remove the darn thing in the first place! In the end, all the could have, and should have's in the world can't change what is done. I have read mixed things on removing a new tattoo, I have read that a new tattoo can be easier as it has not settled into the skin yet, and I have read that it can be harder as it is very dense, lots of ink. As for my thoughts on treatment, I really think you should go with your gut feeling, and trust that as that. If you are unsure, post pone the treatment, and think about it more, as once you start, you can't go back. Now, my thoughts in your case, maybe you need more time to adjust to your tattoo, as you mentioned it is nice and done well. If I was so lucky to have a nice tattoo, I would probably not remove it, it's very expesive and kinda hurts. So that is just my thought. Plus, what if complete removal is not your end result, and you have to get a cover up or live with broken ink, really think about it, as I can't stress enough that if I had a nice tattoo, I would probably live with it, but totally understand not wanting it. In sayin that, being your tattoo is black with shading, I feel your results will be great, and I have spoken with the Bayview clinic, in fact the doctor emailed me directly, he was honest and straight forward, in fact he said I should do a fade and cover, as he feels my treatment will be long and doubts full removal. I have considered that, and know that I may need to get another cover up at some point (dear god) I think you make a good choice on the clinic, in fact I would have gone there had I already not committed to treatment elsewhere. My thoughts are truly with you, and I am so glad that my story helps you, and please stay in touch, and updated on your decision. If you do go through with the removal please consider sharing your results with the community as I really feel this helps people. Please know that I am open to private messages, as I know it helps to just get your feelings off your chest to someone going through the same thing, and you may not want a public post, even if confidential. Have a wonderful day, and keep your spirits up!

I was doing some research this morning on Tattoo...

I was doing some research this morning on Tattoo Removal and found some news articles published today in The Star paper -

http://www.thestar.com/living/article/1288928--tattoos-are-harder-to-remove-if-you-smoke
http://www.thestar.com/living/article/1287672--tattoo-removal-is-expensive-time-consuming-and-painful-it-s-also-a-booming-industry

Today I am feeling pretty down about my tattoo, I am not noticing as much fading as I would like to see since the 2nd treatment, but there is some.

I have to remember I am only on my 2nd treatment, and this is a very long road.....too long! I hope someone who is thinking about getting a tattoo, or cover up comes across my review, and others on here and that it helps them make an informed decision.

What I wish I knew before hand:

Think long and hard about placement of your tattoo, remember it's going to become a part of your body for life.
Size of tattoo and color - as if you change your mind, removal is so much harder with color
and of course the artist, research, research and research - and if you are gettting cover up, ask to see MULTIPLE pictures in his profile that are cover ups, get him/her to draw on your first, and go home and get used to it, and make sure it's what you want. I did that and still messed up, so who knows - just be sure!!!

For those of you in the same boat as me, we need to stay positive and move on with our life. I know that the regret is VERY hard to deal with, and you may feel withdrawn and very depressed. I find it very hard to keep the bounce in my step, in fact I am really not the same since this experience. The connections I have made through this review has helped, as you can share your feelings with others who are goin through the same thing. Again, I can't say it enough, get out and do something - run, yoga, get out in nature - it really helps lift your spirits. It will get harder with the cold weather, but dress warm and know when you return you will feel better - or just go to the gym!

Thanks to all of you for your support!

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Hi JoliJoli, thank you for your comment and support! I am sorry to hear you have to go through this, but I am glad you were able to find a form of support to help get your though. Your suggestion to keeping it uncovered might be a little harder for me due to the location, however I do work from home so I could wear something backless. I know I try to get the dressing off my back as fast as possible as the tape always leaves red marks and hurts by the end of the week! I did heal much faster after the 2nd treatment, so I am hoping this continues throughout my treatment. The R20, I found out about that after I pre paid all my sessions, however it is still something I can look into, I assume it costs alot more? Do you know where in Barrie or Toronto it is offered? I like the sound of being Ink Free - when that day comes, I will be so thrilled, but we have to remember to not wait for the day and be happy we are working towards a resolution to our problem. Today is my daughters 15th birthday, so I am doing my best to keep a smile on my face, and make her day special. I try to focus on other things, and fight the thoughts of regret that seep into my mind constantly!!! Keep us all up to date with your progress, I wish you the very best success with your removal!
hey ponyboy - do you know what brand or manufacturer of laser Shane uses? or could you ask when you go in tomorrow? good luck on your first session and let us know how it goes! x

Check out this review - great info about laser...

check out this review - great info about laser treatment on new tattoos by the doctors

http://www.realself.com/question/Lighten-new-tattoo

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Woke up today feeling horrible, but my family is frankly tired of me being so up and down all the time! My husband gave me a pretty intense "pep talk" today, and really made me realize that I am letting this tattoo impact my life way too much! I sulked around the house for a bit after, went back to bed, then woke up and something just clicked! I got dressed in my yoga gear, had some water, went down to the rec room and called the family together and said "that's IT! I am done with being so down about this tattoo, from this moment on I am back, there are other more important things to think about, and as a mother and a wife, I should be setting an example to stay strong no matter what, rather than sit and be depressed about something that can't get any worse" I went upstairs, did yoga and meditation, and then going to go for a family walk with the dog by the beach. Enough is enough!! I have to remember, and take my own advice - it's just ink on skin, IT DOES NOT define who I am, and I WON'T ALLOW it to turn me into someone I don't want to be!! I must thank Kahelelani for her wonderful emails that are full of inspiration, she is a wonderful person! Today is a new day, and it's time to move forward once and for-all! No looking back all, are you with me? Head up, smile on your face, and be PROUD of who you are, tattoo and all!
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Way to go girl!! I'm with you all the way. Ink can be lasered off, covered with makeup or clothing but love will echo through eternity.

Came across an article some of you might be...

Came across an article some of you might be interested in as it talks about regret immediately after getting the tattoo:

http://www.tattoomdla.com/how-soon-can-i-get-this-tattoo-removed/

"A new tattoo generally heals within 1-2 weeks. By the time the skin is no longer broken, it is ok to start laser tattoo removal. Although we have no scientific data on this, starting early is better than waiting a few months or more. Once you start treatment, you can continue getting more treatments as frequently as every 4-6 weeks."

also another post on here talks about new tattoo removal with 2 doctor responses, in case you missed it:

http://www.realself.com/question/fresh-tattoo-removal-laser

Take care!

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Hi there, I have searched the Internet over and over looking for up to date forums on tattoo laser removal and cannot begin to explain how good it feels to find someone with the same problem. I've recently had a cover up on my wrist of a peacock feather and it turned out to be the most hideous thing I've had done. Please please would it be possible to speak via email? If so please contact me- sarahhine321@hotmail.co.uk I really need to talk to someone. Hope to hear from you soon! Sarah x
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Hi Sarah, I can email you direclty, or you can send me a private message through here. Sorry to hear about your tattoo, it really is a horrible feeling when things go wrong. Talk to you soon, take care.

Well here you go, this is the results of my 2nd...

Well here you go, this is the results of my 2nd treatment after week 6, I go for treatment tomorrow.

I see some additional fading, I think it's going ok...

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How was your treatment today?
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I'm glad to have found this site! I also made a huge mistake getting a large tattoo on my upper back. :( I knew the second I took the bandage off after getting it done that I made a huge mistake. I do not feel like the artist did a good job at all and I couldn't believe I was stuck with this horrible thing on me. I was crying and sick to my stomach and so stressed out for months. I am trying to hard to hide it from everyone because I hate it so much. I have had it now for 14 months and I am still so upset over it. I started laser treatments about 3 months after I got it. I just had my 6th treatment a couple weeks ago. My tattoo is all black and shading. I would say about half the shading is gone but the outline is still the exact same and any spots that had darker shading have not changed much at all. At first I was going to Toronto Cosmetic Clinic (using medlite c6 laser) but I switched to Clarity Med Spa for my last treatment because they now have the TATTX technology there which is supposed to work much faster and provide a more full removal. I haven't noticed a change since my last session but they started me on such a low setting since I was a new client there and they weren't sure how my skin would react to the laser. I was told before I started removal that I would need 6 - 8 treatments but with how little progress I have seen with 6 sessions I am getting very worried that they wont be able to remove it. Has anyone had experience with either of these places or with the Tattx laser? It feels great to know I'm not the only one going through this!
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Thank you for your post, sorry to hear about your tattoo, however sounds like you are being treated by an amazing laser, I did some research and read: "TATTX is the next generation in laser tattoo removal and promises to revolutionize tattoo removal in North America. Until now, laser tattoo removal has been very painful and ineffective, often causing scarring, "ghost" tattoos, and other side effects while rarely removing all ink colors. Using newly FDA-approved German technology, Asclepion TattooStar Effect laser, TattX™ is the most effective tattoo removal process available today. It causes no blistering, bleeding or scarring and has been proven to remove all ink colors on any skin type, including large and complex tattoo designs." PR Newswire (http://s.tt/1keVs) How much do you pay for each session?

3rd session completed on Dec. 8th, the session was...

3rd session completed on Dec. 8th, the session was much more painful then my first 2, sorry to tell you all, but when they turn up the laser the pain really does get worse! They numb me for 30 min before the session, however next time I am going to use Mr. Numb before going, and then they can also apply their numbing cream and the nurse told me I can take 2 T3 before or after the appointment.

The throbbing lasted about 2 hours after the session was completed, and as the day came closer to an end it just felt more and like a sunburn. I only have 2 blisters and the swelling is about the same as the previous session.

I must say this session drained more than any before, I was very tired after and had a very good sleep.

2nd day session 3 - no more pain than the other sessions, just very red, and feels like a sunburn. I rode my bike for 35 min and did some light weights and abs - felt ok..

I am really trying to remain positive, and the nurse said she is seeing nice break up of the black ink and the color fading. She actually said the yellow is responding really well (that is usually a color they can't remove completely)

I will keep you posted!

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It was ok, thank you, there was more pain as she turned up the laser, but I survived. I was actually really tired for the rest of the day after, unlike other treatments. I slept well, and don't feel sore this morning. So far I have only 2 big blisters. Have a good day!
Thanks for the update, was just driving myself crazy in my own arm ugliness I wanted to hear of the removal... Hope you feel fast! And I can totally see the ink breaking up..

3rd Session day 2 Healing very well, and...

3rd Session day 2

Healing very well, and blisters are already reducing in size. It's still very dark and red and raised. I have been applying polysporin at night and keeping it covered, today I have left the bandage off, as there is no bleeding, and I have Aloe Vera on it, really soothing. I am also drinking Aloe Vera - to help healing on the inside.

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Hey Blackberry =) I got same results like yours... Next weekend to third one. They say that if u want to see some real results then u will see it after 5th threatment with professional tattoo...
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Yes, I agree, I have heard the same thing, can't wait! Good Luck on your 3rd treatment...does your tattoo have color in it? How large is it?

Session 3 - 3rd day - woke up really sore, tattoo...

Session 3 - 3rd day - woke up really sore, tattoo feels raw.....so I am a bit shocked as I expected it to just keep getting better. Going to rest today, no working out an keep it covered.

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Ahhhh....feeling better, and actually ended up...

Ahhhh....feeling better, and actually ended up riding my bike for 45 min. I am not as sore, and the redness is subsiding, still one big blister, but no bleeding or anything.

No itch yet....waiting for that to come on, however I never really itch too bad.

I had a really nice talk with a tattoo removal shop owner, he advised me that I should have great results, and that the Alex TriVantage is an excellent machine! So that was very good to hear!

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Wow I wish I had seen this 24 hours ago! I am 18 and got my first tattoo about 3 hours ago and i already know it was a mistake. I just feel so guilty because i did it to myself and basically let the tattooer talk me into things i didnt fully agree with. As soon as i showed my mom she said she hated it. I am afraid to tell the rest of my family because i know how negatively they will react. I have a 4-5 inch long crescent moon in black and grey with some shading a little above my shoulder blades in the middle of my back. I was wondering if after I let it heal for about 2 weeks if a should use fadeplex and fade it as much as i can and then do laser removal. Im not sure if fading it would help the laser process at all (maybe use not as many treatments) and wanted to see if you could give me some advice. I just want it gone and out of sight as soon as possible!
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Hi kat2012. I'm really glad that you found this site too. I know it's helped me a lot. I am sorry that you have to experience this. But, please don't panic too much. I am 26 and got a tattoo in April of this year (my first tattoo as well) and hated it only 2 weeks after. I experienced feelings of guilt and shame too, so I know exactly where you are coming from. You are not alone and there are some really good people here on Blackberry's blog to help you through it. My tattoo is big and on my back as well. Okay...Black ink is the easiest color to remove and your tattoo is in a good spot on your body where there is more blood circulation to help get rid of the ink (as opposed to say your ankle). An honest and good laser removal place will probably tell you that you may need up to ten treatments, but maybe more (depending on how dense your ink is). Another important thing is that a trusted place will have you wait 6 to 8 weeks between treatments. Any less is not enough time for your skin to heal. If you decide to go straight forward to laser removal then you should wait at least a month and a half for your tattoo to heal (since it is so new). I have a friend who over the course of a couple years tried to fade her tattoo on her own using various methods that weren't working that well. She finally decided to do laser removal during this last summer and I believe that by fading it on her own, it cut the removal process down by a few treatments. I know this is all a daunting new experience and there are many challenging emotions that come along with it. I know it's tough ( oh how I know!) but stay positive. Focus on not feeling guilty and forgiving yourself. This is a life lesson that will help teach you to be a stronger person. Please ask any questions and share any thoughts and feelings. It is therapy here. Take care.
I didn't think to drink aloe vera. That's an excellent idea! I have this wonderful pure aloe gel that soothes the tattoo nicely for the first week after the treatment. I also use a lot of Aquaphor to help it heal for the following weeks. It's so important to keep that thing moisturized. But thank you Blackberry, I'm going to follow you and drink aloe vera this time. I take some good supplements which I believe are keeping my immune system strong. But, I really do need to shift to a healthier plant-based diet. I need to do my body and mind the favor of regular exercise. To be honest I strangely could not get myself to exercise for months and months (and even sometimes now) because I was so depressed. My body felt so sad and heavy. Especially now that I am peaking through the sadness into a happier heather, it is time to workout regularly so that it does not ever have that strength over me again. Thanks for your encouragement friend. I'll be sure to update after my tx on Sunday.
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Session 3 - day 6 - the blisters were gone...

Session 3 - day 6 - the blisters were gone yesterday, skin is very dry and flacking, and the itch has begun, however it's not too bad.

Healing nicely, not much fading, but there is some breakup of the lines.

I think I am going to need 15-20 sessions forsure!

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I was in your situation for the better part of over a year. I had a botched tattoo on my forearm and thought my life/career was over. Being a drug and alcohol counselor it wasn't my career that I needed to worry about, deep down inside I was fearing being looked at negatively or being looked at as a less individual because I was tattooed. I started laser removal and after several painful sessions my tattoo was barely lightening. I became so depressed and never wore short sleeves. I then decided to lighten it up as much as I could and find the best damn artist I could to do a cover up. After all said and done I have a beautiful work of art on my arm that I am proud of. My thought is don't count out a cover up if the removal doesn't look like it is going to remove all the ink, it rarely does. Laser clinics will tell you it will, but there are too many variables. And if your concern is what others think because you have a tattoo, then understand you are beautiful no matter what. And who gives a shit what others think. I went to therapy for the depression I had over mine. Eventually I learned to look at it as my jerk radar. If someone doesn't want to know me because of a tattoo, I don't want that person in my life. I also started to watch videos of people with deformities. It shed some real light on what some people have to go through. Just my two cents and experience.
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3 days after my third treatment, and my tattoo is pretty darn sore--especially some of the purple part :-( Trying to stay positive today. Those sad thoughts are trying to kick my butt. I think they definitely intensify when the tattoo area is hurting and darkened while it heals. I hope to see more fading relatively soon. I am drinking lots of water, drinking aloe 3 times a day and this stuff called Kefir which is good for digestive and immune health. Applying aloe and healing ointment frequently throughout the day. Hoping to get out for a brisk walk to clear my head. Thanks for listening.
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Hey pal! sorry to hear your feeling down, but your right, seeing it so dark and sore makes all your negative feelings about it feel way worse. Don't worry, you are on the right track and taking very good care of yourself. You reminded me that I have to drink my aloe today, I totally forgot. Walking is great, get out there and do it, I am just getting ready to go myself with my dog Dexter. He is so cute and really picks me up when I am feeling down. He is a great big teddy bear. Whatever makes you feel better, focus on that, and know that even though your tattoo looks bad today, you are working towards removing it, don't forget that, you want it to look bad as that means your treatment was effective.  Have a wonderful evening, and a great sleep and I hope you wake up tomorrow feeling happy and ready to start the day! Take care :)

3rd session update - Itch has come to a halt......

3rd session update - Itch has come to a halt....and the darkness is gone, and it does look a bit faded (as per my lovely husband)

I had the best shopping night with my daughter tonight, she is wonderful, we laughed, and listened to loud music in the car, and I acted like my crazy self tonight which was the best feeling in the world! Her face lit up like fireworks, she was happy to see me back to normal ( We love music and acting crazy) She is like a little DJ in the car, she has all the hits on her playlist, and the fun we had just lifted my spirits, and better yet, hers. Trust me, when you are down, the people, including your pets feel it, which is another reason to pick yourself up.

SO as Pitbull would say in his new song "Alright" (great pick me up song, feeling down, play it and have fun!!!)

"It’s alright, it’s OK
We gon’ party all night and drink all day
It’s alright, it’s OK
We gon’ party all night and drink all day

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Hey blackberry =) ... Had my third session, well, waiting and i dont see much difference =( but maby it is because i check it daily =D Tattoo artist told it started to go slowly... But, i was not confident till i saw this http://www.lastsparrowtattoo.com/forum/tattoo-removal-coverup/1663-my-laser-chronicles-page7.html U can check it and read it from page 1 to the end and it gives kinda much hope that it really works and really well but as u see, my tattoo is black and yours is black to like this guys angelwing parts. This means it works but it just needs more work with it because there is much ink. Im still amazed as i saw this guys back before and after. Right now im sure that i go to end and dont give up the fight. But you know, i learned something... Always listen your innerfeeling because mine was saing that something is wrong before i did step into that bad tattoo studio.
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Wanted to wish all my ink regret siblings a happy holidays... These past two days have been horrible on me and this thing on my arm... Now I want all the tattoos off my arms, I want to start over with clean skin, and I wish I would've listened when my mom said put the tattoos in places you can hide... Ugh! I have two other pieces on my arms, one on my forearm on my left arm and one just above this HUGE mistake.. I want them all gone!!! Especially the one with the mistake... I want to take it off so bad but know I have to wait... I fear the "artist" dug too deep because of how bad it hurt when he did it and how some of it on my inner arm blew out and has like a shadow... :( I pray that this comes off enough to where I can move on... Ugh! Sorry for the ramble, my thought was just to say happy holidays! ;)
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Happy Holiday to you as well. I'm so sorry to hear that the last two days have been rough. Just know that all of us here know how you feel. And we are here. I had a couple of tough days this week as well. It will come off enough to where you can move on. It will... What do you mean "blow out"? Is it scarred? If so, a small scar may remain, but the ink (especially the tattoo which is all black) will come out. Believe me, this girl who works at Dr. Tattoff showed me her wrist where she got a dense black tattoo removed. She told me her artist was really aggressive and went into it pretty deep. She showed me a picture of how it looked before her treatment. And looking at her wrist, you couldn't tell that anything was there. You are going to be okay. Relax... Enjoy your holiday with friends and family. Eat yummy food. and Breathe. Know that you will not be defined by any kind of "blemish" on your skin. It's going to get to where you want/need it to be. Take care of yourself. My heart goes out to you!

Hello everyone :) Hope you had a wonderful...

Hello everyone :)
Hope you had a wonderful Christmas, and are looking forward to a bright New Year! Lets us all end this year and move into 2013 on a positive note!

This week I watched "Eat, Pray, Love" for the 2nd time this year, this time I really connected to it, and I wanted to share some of the things that I learned from the movie.

In the scene when Julia Roberts is in Italy and she is sitting in some ruins, she says "ruin is a gift, ruin is the road to transformation" and it hit me like a load of bricks! My gift from this experience is being able to connect and help build a support network for all of you, and my ruin (tattoo) has transformed me in many ways, and has proven to me that I do have the inner strength to overcome a horrible experience and work at building myself up and finding my balance again.

In Bali when she goes to see her friend he says to her "When you loose balance you loose power" That is so true, we all have power within us and when we loose that we feel lost.

He also tells her to "smile with your face and mind" I love this one! Do you ever find yourself smiling only to feel sad inside, learn to be happy again, feel your inner happiness and remember you are beautiful inside and out.

And last but not least he told her to "fogive yourself"

I have finally forgiven myself, for real, and I feel better.

Take care all!

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Blackberry i am so sorry i didn't wish you a Happy Birthday :( i've been a little wrapped up in myself and i apologise. Hope you had a lovely day hunni!!!!! I go for my first laser session tomorrow and am all nervous and excited and getting bombarded with a new set of 'what ifs' I'm lucky to have found a place i can afford and they will be using the Lumina Q system. I also had a pretty heavy session with my therapist today with a huge light bulb moment and it felt like being hit like a freight train..............feel quite wobbly and havn't eaten very well today keep reaching for the junk food. Oh well i'm doing my best. I keep touching my rock and keep thinking of you guys and i really hope that you are all feeling ok with yourselves.
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Hau'oli La Hanau! Happy Birthday! I didn't know it was your special day. I hope, Blackberry11, that you spent it doing something wonderful.
Thank you :)

4th session completed yesterday afternoon - I must...

4th session completed yesterday afternoon - I must say it was a breeze. I was terrified to go as session 3 was super painful. I mentally prepared myself and brought along my prayer beads and chanted in my mind a mantra "OM MANI PADME HUM" over and over as I spun my beads with my thumb, and I believe that helped. I also experienced very little throbbing and pain after...not sure why, she turned up the laser, I had no additional numbing....hmmmm.

I only have one blister, and the usual redness. Sorry I didn't post a final picture from session 3, but I didn't find the fading that drastic, however there was fading in the windbars.

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I do have one initial question...I notice several of you have mentioned that you got a tattoo, and now either it's not you or you don't like it. Question, why is it not you? Was it ever you? Have you changed because of you or pressure from others? I find in many studies that in fact people make changes in their lives because of pressure from friends and family. In a way we are all still being bullied to like or dislike certain things. Ask yourself, why did you get the tattoo, and why have you come to dislike it? Is it you, or someone else, or just the influence of society? If it is you, then so be it. But if it is others or society in general, ask yourself what is more important...Your opinion of yourself or others opinion of you!
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Thank you for joining this blog Lukas! You are bringing a whole new perceptive, and I want to respond to your question.  Why is it not you? My tattoo was not done to my expectations, and I don't connect with the tattoo at all. Have I changed? Yes and no - I have not changed, but mentally I find this very challenging which at times makes me feel like I have changed as I am not as happy at times as I used to be, but I am working on this.   Why did I get the tattoo? Wanted a beautiful piece of art to express myself, hence why I find this so tragic as the tattoo turned out to be a mess in my opinion.   Is it me ? No, not at all, not the fact that I have a tattoo, just how it turned out. Thanks again for joining the site, I think you may be able to offer some valuable information.  

4th session - 3rd day, healing very well, blister...

4th session - 3rd day, healing very well, blister almost gone, redness subsided, just still feels sensitive.

I am wanting to address a question regarding when Black fades does it turn brown. In my experience and research, yes - in fact all colors fade and may appear differently than the original color, as the tattoo ink is being stripped and faded from the skin, I am no expert, but in my opinion it will not go from black to skin color, it's a process and there may be varying shades of the colors.

My black has turned brownish, the other colors are just fading and look not so bright anymore - like an old tattoo, and appears blurry in some spots.

Also I would like to add a comment about how Yellow is the hardest to remove - not the case in my tattoo, the yellow is responding very well, in fact the quickest....so I don't believe there is one response or conclusion for any results. Our bodies/tattoos are all very different and will respond very differently to the treatment. Some colors will turn darker, hence why a test spot should be completed, and some colors may not respond at all....all you can do is try.

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Hey everyone, I stumbled across this little article today. It looks like there will be an even more effective laser being released this year by Cynosure. IT supposed to be even more effective in terms of time frame and color removal. Just search "Picosecond Laser by Cyanosure" You will hopefully find it as I can't post a link in here for some reason. I just wanted to share that with everyone in case their current laser procedure isn't working as well as they hoped....
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Thanks! I looked into it and here are a couple links that I found for anyone interested! http://www.healio.com/dermatology/lasers/news/online/%7B0576FBA3-B7C0-426B-89FA-EB9B67F9824C%7D/FDA-clears-Cynosure-to-market-picosecond-laser-for-tattoo-removal http://dermatologytimes.modernmedicine.com/news/picosecond-laser-shows-promise-new-era-tattoo-removal

Hi, Im doing my homework, arent you scared from cancer? The U.S. Food and Drug Administration has launched an investigation after new research turned up troubling findings about toxic chemicals in tattoo ink. Recently published studies have found that the inks can contain a host of dodgy substances, including some phthalates, metals, and hydrocarbons that are carcinogens and endocrine disruptors. One chemical commonly used to make black tattoo ink called benzo(a)pyrene is known to be a potent carcinogen that causes skin cancer in animal tests. Coloured inks often contain lead, cadmium, chromium, nickel, titanium and other heavy metals that could trigger allergies or diseases, scientists say. Some pigments are industrial grade dyes 'suitable for printers' ink or automobile paint,' according to an FDA fact sheet. Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/health/article-2032696/Now-tattoos-cancer-U-S-regulator-probes-fears-inks-contain-carcinogenic-chemicals.html#ixzz2IquBNVbV

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I have some updated photos from session 4

I have some updated photos from session 4

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Has anyone tried "Arnica" for pain and swelling? I was thinking of applying prior to laser treatment, a few hours before. This second session the skin went red and I had some bruising. I used arnica afterwards and the bruise was gone by day four but the redness worried me although it's all gone now by day four. The technician did turn up the volume (I think it was 3.9, but may have been 3.6 I was looking at the chart upside down) and he told me that the next time if healing goes well he'll turn it up to 5, which is the highest.
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Hi kahelelani, I have not heard of that before. I didn't use any numbing for my first treatment so I don't know. How was your second session? Was the healing faster than your first?? How is your fading going?? I agree with what you say Bout the money and how expensive it is but we have to keep in mind it WILL be worth it in the end. I think after treatments we all seem to get down a little bit because its a constant reminder of "why did I do that!" I find myself getting a lil better each day. But some days it is so hard to not think about it constantly! Hang in there girl!!
YEs, it is a constant reminder of "what was I thinking!!" especially when I take the bandage off. The second session went fine but I did feel a bit of the zaps on my wrist, I don't think the licodaine shots took there. He did turn the energy up to 3.9 (5 I was told is the highest). I'm not sure of the fading as it's only day four after session two but there are definite signs of elimination even the technician said so. One study I read said that many people think there is no fading but then when they look at before pictures they agree that there is. Yes it will be totally worth it in the end to be rid of this monstrousity and have my wrist back. I'm looking forward to that day and I will dance with my arms waving up in the air. Thanks for the words of encouragement, I will hang in there...there are days when it's tough but then I just bandage it up and don't look at it.

The big day is tomorrow - Session 5! I am excited,...

The big day is tomorrow - Session 5! I am excited, but scared as it hurt so much last time....oh well, with pain eventually will come pleasure.

So I wanted to share a story, because through this darkness, there really has been so much light.

I have a brother who is older than me, we were NEVER close, the reason is because he is a drug addict, and I never got to know him, rather I only knew the user. I knew he was always a great person, has a great heart, but because of his addictions it was very hard to get close to him, he wasn't mentally there.
The ironic thing is, he was the person I turned to for comfort during the beginning of all of this. We live miles apart, in different provinces, yet he was so close. I have not spoken to him in many years, in fact the last time I saw him was over 15 years ago. I was talking with my mom on the phone, he happened to be there visiting her, and my mom asked if I wanted to say hi...of course I said yes. He got on the phone, and in his lispy crackly voice he softly asked "Hi, how are you?" It was the most comforting voice I could ever have heard, and I just broke down in tears...he was so concerned, and repeatedly asked "What's wrong, tell me...whatever it is it will be ok" At first I didn't want to tell him, I was so ashamed, yet I felt he was one person who really would understand and not pass judgement on me. I was brave and told him what had happened, and confided in him completely, I told him how ugly I felt..how stupid I was. He refused to accept my words as truth and insisted they were not true and didn't want to hear me say that. He suddenly became very wise and insightful, he became a father figure, he was so kind, smart, and compassionate. He reassured me none of my words were true. We spoke for over an hour, I think that was the most we ever really spoke to each other our entire life. My brother lived a life on the streets, and was often in jail, he is in his late 40's now and he wanted me to understand that this will pass, to pick myself up..he told me over and over again it was only a mistake, people make them. He also reminded me that I have a wonderful family and they needed me, he didn't want me to wear myself down mentally and get sick as that would be worse than the tattoo, and that regret would be stronger than this itself. He told me he carries regret with him every moment, and he can't take back anything he did, he felt he ruined his life because of his drug addiction, and missed out on family, he also told me that even through all his misary he was able to find good, and he is working on building his life back up, he is not giving up. I felft so much strength in his words, and I think of them when I am down. You know, I always worried about him, yet for some selfish reason I never took the time to contact him and see how he was, I was too wrapped up in my own little world, my perfect little world, I just wrote him off as some absent brother, a junkie, yet there he was there for me, he never turned me away. It suddenly made me realize the true value of "real" people. There are so many fake, and selfish people in this world, and I was sadly was kind of one of them...I never even knew how my own brother was, and so selfish to even reach out to him, yet he was there for me in my darkest moment. It woke me up, in fact it shook me, it was like he knew I needed him, he was never around, my mom hardly saw him (we rarely knew where he was) yet there he was. I was so happy to hear he is in recovery, and working to turn his life around, he was so insightful...so smart, it was amazing. He is doing well, and I plan on keeping in contact with him, and I am very proud to call him my brother. I hope to see him again, and so the moral of my story, as bad as this tattoo is, it has also brought me wonderful gifts.

I hope that you also see the good in all of this, and that you take comfort that you are not alone, we never are, there is always someone out there to help us, and there is always a message that we must pay attention to.

Have a wonderful weekend, I will post some updated pictures soon.

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LOVE your latest update! Keep your chin up, girl!
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Thank you :)

Session 5...I am not going to lie, it hurt! It...

Session 5...I am not going to lie, it hurt! It hurt bad....
The laser was turned up to level 7, and when she started, it felt as though a knife was cutting my back...sorry all, don't mean to scare you, just prepare you. I numbed 45 min before, and if it hurts that much with numbing, then I can not imagine without it. They don't do injections, but do have a more powerful numbing agent that is $30 a session, I am really thinking of getting that!!

As she treated the dark ink, it felt like it lasted forever and I instantly felt the throbbing during the entire treatment. When she switched to the 2nd laser to treat the orange and yellow, my back was throbbing so bad, I didn't even feel the 2nd laser at all...natural pain killer - LOL. At the end of treatment, I was very dizzy and when I stood up I felt sick...I needed a few minutes to recover, and asked for some time to be alone so I could cry and sulk to myself and try and reassure me that I can do this. I felt so weak...all day, and I still do. Some days I feel so strong and inspired, but some days, especially today hopeless. If it wasn't for all the support we share I would have even a harder time getting through this - so thank you to all of you, thank you so much :)

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Oh, I forgot to mention, my nurse was thrilled at...

Oh, I forgot to mention, my nurse was thrilled at my fading after only 4 sessions, and she is excited and reassured me that a full removal is very possible. She told me about others who have been treated, simialar size and colors, and full removal completed, and you can hardly tell there was tattoo, in fact she said some you can't at all.

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How did the 5th treatment go??
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Wow, so powerful... It's often in the darkest of nights the stars shine brightest... When we have the courage to experience our vulnerability, it's then we realize our strength...thank you for sharing! I KNOW you will do great.. even better with this added support ;-)
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Thank you :) I like that "darkest of nights the stars shine brightest" very nice. Treatment 5, well, what a challenge to be honest. I must say, it was the hardest treatment yet, the most painful, but a step closer to the end.   Thanks again :)  

Session 5 - Day after - Can anyone say BLISTERS!!!...

Session 5 - Day after - Can anyone say BLISTERS!!! OMG, it's like one big giant blister....wow! Good news, I slept really well and the throbbing is gone completely. I know your not supposed to drain the blisters, but they were so huge my husband used an insulin needle and poked them, feels so much better. My husband said that he can see spots where ink is completely gone already - color me happy! Hard to tell now, but I actually think the yellow and orange really came out well this time, it's almost skin color from what I can see..but again, very hard to be sure so soon.

I was going to take a photo, but to be honest, it was so gross, I couldn't ...so hopefully in 4-6 weeks I will be posting a photo of a very faded tattoo!

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Thank you :)
:) Hope you are well

Session 5 day 3.... feels a little sore today, but...

Session 5 day 3.... feels a little sore today, but healing well. I have been focusing on drinking tons of fresh green juices which include ginger, apples, kale, dandelion, kiwi, celery...you name it! I have also been eating very little processed food...because I feel the less my body has to work at getting rid of other toxins, then the more it can focus on my ink removal. I do still drink coffee and sneak a bit of dark chocolate..but I am only human!

My thought for today: A very painful lesson learned, but one that I will never forget.

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Hi blackberry, glad to hear your healing is going well. Can't wait to see updated pics soon. I think it keeps us all going and is Inspiring. I have my second treatment today and am pretty nervous again! But I know I have to do it. Take care
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Agreed were alllllll watching you! LOL
Hi Ash77, thanks, I will take some tonight and post this weekend. Good luck with your 2nd treatment.

Sorry for the delay in posting updated pictures.....

Sorry for the delay in posting updated pictures...24 days since session...here you go.

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Wow wow wow! Lookin good!
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Wow! You are having such great fading after 5 treatments! I had my 7th about 3 weeks ago I would say that yours has faded way more then mine! I can see so much break up in your line work! My shading wasnt that dark to begin with and I still have a lot after 7 treatments. My linework is still almost fully there! I hope I start having as good of results as you soon! It's looking great!!
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Thanks so much! That makes me feel positive :) I agree I have some fading in the black, I am worried about the color....it's not changing that much. Time and patience, I keep reminding myself.   Best of luck!

6th Session completed on March 30th! I am well on...

6th Session completed on March 30th! I am well on my way, and feeling great! I am seeing results, especially in the black. The color will take longer to remove/fade, but I expected that. (see attached photo update) The nurse reassured me the black will be no problem, but color takes time.

Pain: Yep, hurt...LOL, really bad especially near my spine and shoulder blade, as well as anywhere the ink is really dense.... this was the first session ( I think) that I actually asked them to stop for a second...no tears though!

Healing: Doing really well, throbbing subsided quicker than any other session, no after pain, just ugly blisters, swollen, and red as per usual. As per the photo looks like it would hurt, but it doesn't, just feels like a bad sunburn.

So how am I feeling after 6 sessions emotionally...I must say better than I have felt in a long time! I have surrendered and accepted my situation, I am letting go of this, I will allow this process to just happen. Trying to control the outcome is a terrible waste of energy. I wanted happiness back in my life, so I have focused on healing. My husband always told me when this all first happened that I would regret the depression and how it impacted my family more than this tattoo....and he was correct in saying that, I would give anything to go back and change how I dealt with my emotions, I wish my kids didn't have to see their mom go through depression and horrible crying and pacing at night.,,.. life happens, it's how we deal with it that matters.

I worried everyday what other people would think of me because of this tattoo, but I realize now it does not matter what other people think, good people don't judge others. I can't be accepted by everyone with or without a tattoo. In the end all that matters is that you are accepting of yourself and you are surrounded by a supportive loving family. Be true to who you are, and don't give into the pressure of what others expect of you - in the end that will be your biggest regret, not being true to yourself. For myself, this tattoo just didn't turn out how I had hoped, so I am removing it, I love tattoos, and I will not hesitate to get another cover up if needed, nor will I hesitate to get another tattoo in the future. I have just learned what not to do to avoid another failed tattoo.

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Happy 4 u Blackberry11. U are an inspiration to everyone and I thank you!!
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Wow girl, lookin good! Once that R20 heals its gonna fade like the dickens! I'm happy you are beginning to feel better :)
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aloha blackberry11, Thanks for your April 1 update. Wow! You have a wonderful perspective on this. I'm day five after session three (the first R20) and I'm feeling very sorry for myself. I don't physically hurt and there isn't much blistering (and they don't hurt) I just have self-doubt, but I think it's part of the process. I remember after my last session in February. And I'm not a patient person when I truly want something. I know who I am...and that's good. But I'm also a work in progress and can learn...or I should say willing to learn. And it seems that you have learned a lot also. We can't turn the clocks back (although I wish I was a superhero and could, I would tell all of us to not get the tattoos) and so we must learn, or should I say we should strive to learn. The depression following ink regret is horrible, it robs us of our energy and robs us of happiness. We are not the ink, we are the person and we should focus on being happy. It takes less physical and emotional energy to be happy than to be sad (I heard that somewhere and I truly believe it). You have a wonderful spirit and I thank you for sharing. I see significant fading in your tattoo, it's comin' off girl, it's comin' off! Pip, Pip, Hurray!! aloha...k
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Session 6 update - 2nd full day since treatment. I...

Session 6 update - 2nd full day since treatment. I am actually very sore today, it feels very raw and the blisters are annoying....but I can handle this :)

I often still do ask myself how I got into this mess, the "why, and how did this happen" questions still do go through my mind. I feel like such a failure at times, however I know that there really is no such thing as failure, the truth is the only real failure is the failure to try, and success is how we deal with failure and dissapointment.

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Hi everyone i've not written for a while as i'm not in a good space at all really and didn't want to pass on any negativity but all your comments have given me the courage to open up and not stay stuck in this silence and isolation i'm creating for myself. I'm struggling with my feelings about myself. I've had 2 laser treatments and can see little fading but its not just my tattoo causing upset........i also had my eyebrows tattooed on a few years back after compulsively plucking them out and i've started to obsess over them also. When i look in the mirror i just want me back and i'm so upset that i went down the road of trying to make myself look better. I wish i could have seen how beautiful i was without all this body modification. I feel so lost right now and yearn for the real me behind all this. I'm currently over-eating as a way to cope and this is driving me mad as i really want to snap out of this self-destruct and get into a more healthy routine but i feel so stuck............I'm feeling jealous when others are feeling so well and angry at myself for getting myself into this state. I really don't mean to bring anybody down and i apologise if i have.
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Hi Maria, welcome back :) I am glad you took the time to reach out to us with your comment, it's important to speak out and not to remain in silence. No one here will judge you, and you are free to be open and honest, which you have, and that is great and steps towards healing. I am proud of you! The treatment results vary from person to person and you may not see the results as much, but someone else might really notice - let's face it, it's on us, we dislike it very much, so anytime we look at it, ususally all we see the tattoo we want gone, and overlook any progress, I did that for a very long time, taking pictures really helps remind me of the progress, as otherwise I would feel the same. but each treatment I do see change. In saying that, it sounds like you have been crippling your immune system in a couple of ways which does not help removal: - Negative thoughts results in stress - over eating - envy ( I know you don't mean you're jealous in a bad way, it's more envy, and that only makes you feel worse about yourself) You have identified that you are on a self-destructive path, and by doing so, that is your way to fixing the issue. What really helped me cope with this is reading, and my relationship with Buddhism. I have really been focusing on the teachings of the Buddha and trying to attain a calm and pure mind. By his teachings I have reminded myself that our body and mind are separate from eachother, they are individual. Each day we are bombarded with desires that our ego wants, when things don't go as planned (our tattoos) we cling to the belief that we have failed, that we are no longer our true self because something externally changed. What I feel will help you is to work your mind. It is said in the teaching "The mind that is not distrubed by things as they occur, that remains pure and tranquil under all circumstances, is the true mind and should be the master" What that is saying is that the true self has not disappeared when something goes wrong and there has been a change in circumstance of life, you are still you despite any external changes, are the one who decides who you want to be. "That which changes with changing conditions is not the true nature of the mind" Let me put it this way, hope this makes sense....When you want to go for a walk, it is your legs that tell you that want to go for a walk or your mind? It’s your mind, it decides if you want to go or not. If you don't want to go for a walk, is it again your legs telling you not to, or your mind? So simply what this is saying is that your mind has ultimate power over your body and thoughts and you have the full control of that, your body has no control, your tattoo and body image has no control, is all your mind, you just have to learn to realize that, it's not easy, there are many distractions and desires that can act as an intruder to our real mind, but we have to learn to overcome these desires that cause us delusion to the real mind/self and the result is suffering. I have stopped compulsive looking at my tattoo in the mirror, I have accepted it is there (acceptance of a situation is key) and I have chosen to move forward and surrendor to the situation. We can't change the past Maria, we can't, what happened in the past is gone, we have to live in the present and move forward. I recommend a very good book written by Viktor E Frankl "Man's Seach For Meaning" This book is written by a psychiatrist and his survival of the Nazi death camps. In this book there are lessons for "spiritual survival" It's all based on true events - Viktor Frankl stresses in his book that we cannot avoid suffering but we can choose how to cope with it, find meaning in it, and move foward. It is an amazing book in which I have learned so much from, it's very powerful. Marie, I have a favorite saying - that everything will be alright in the end, and if it's not alright, it's not the end.

Session 6 - 1 week - I am itchy! Healing nice,...

Session 6 - 1 week - I am itchy! Healing nice, blisters went away about 3 days ago... I updated a photo...here is the start of the fading.

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I have inspirational quotes sent to my email and wanted to share this one with you all.  This definitely applies to me. I want the ink gone now!   But small steps will reap results that are pleasing.    “Exercise to stimulate, not to annihilate. The world wasn't formed in a day, and neither were we. Set small goals and build upon them.” ― Lee Haney
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I am spending the afternoon reading, and in my...

I am spending the afternoon reading, and in my book, the author writes: "It was as if I had been swimming down the same river over and over, and each time I would come across a large rock blocking my natural flow. It was always there. One day, though, I realized that it may always be there. So rather than have to face that same rock, that same blockage, repeatedly, I was choosing somewhere different to swim. I didn't have to set myself up for that hurdle over and over, one that hindered my natural progress, causing blockages and pain every time without fail." ~Bonnie Ware "The Top Five REGRETS of the Dying"

That just hit me like a ton of bricks!

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the progress looks amazing ! ! ! you have come so far and I am inspired and reassured about my own future removals when I see how well you have done !

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Hi, I just found this on google. I've got tattoos on my wrist and my belly and had about 8 sessions but hardly any result. I'm getting really really annoyed now as I did expect more from it. I just want to get rid of these two black blops I've got and only got about 4more sessions to go before my partner and I want to try for a baby. As far as I know laser can cause shock to the baby so won't be having any more sessions then. On the previous two sessions they've used 3.5 and then 3.9 strength on my tattoos and next time they want to try 4.3 but can't I just ask them to turn it up all the way to 6? Even if I would have to sign for it if they'd said No. Not to bothered about possible scaring either, just want to get rid of them tattoos :((
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aloha smallangel,  Welcome!  I understand you're feeling frustrated, ink regret is not fun.  I have read that sometimes waiting a longer time between sessions is helpful.  The laser breaks up the ink but it's up to the immune system to gobble it up.  I've also read that the strength/intensity doesn't affect the speed of fading but rather affects the skin.  I've had five session and the last three were on level 5.  I don't think they plan on going higher.  But I have started investigating other clinics and perhaps if you can you might want to consider doing that.  But if you and your partner want to have a baby, don't let the ink interfer with that.  Live your life and be happy.  aloha...k    

Has anyone know if the Picosure laser is available...

Has anyone know if the Picosure laser is available in Toronto, I have searched and have had no luck....thx

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Fading is looking really good - hang in there. There is definitely light at the end of the tunnel.
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Thank you :)

I am 17 days post 6th session, and with summer...

I am 17 days post 6th session, and with summer coming up, I wanted to show you what I am dealing with when I attempt to wear my favorite type of tank tops, and the reason why I will not probably ever wear them!

Welcome summer, I am going to embrace it, it's only a tank top! There are several nice tops I can wear....

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Hi blackberry11, Did your tattoo ever feel raised about 4-5 weeks after a session??? I feel like its slightly raised and this scares me. Did you come across that ever with any of your treatments?? Thank u hope all is well
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Hi Ash77, yes, I had spots that were raised, and I recall one session, I think the 1st or 2nd - or both, where the middle om symbol was raised for weeks after, but no scar...and it seems to always be that spot that heals last. Don't worry, and if you are ever unsure of your healing process, I would consult with your clinic. Take care :)

I am gearing up for session 7! The big day is May...

I am gearing up for session 7! The big day is May 11th

I think I am seeing some good fading..fingers crossed!

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I am gearing up for session 7! The big day is May...

I am gearing up for session 7! The big day is May 11th

I think I am seeing some good fading..fingers crossed!

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This was shared by a FB friend and classmate:  http://www.wimp.com/forensicartist/   How we see ourselves and how others see us often don't match up but as one woman says how we see ourselves affects how we treat others. Perhaps we need to celebrate the beauty within, it can truly be stunning.  <3
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This was amazing, thank you so much! I encourage other to watch this!

Hello all, I am gearing up for my next session,...

Hello all, I am gearing up for my next session, lucky #7! My appointment is on May 11th. I am already mentally preparing myself for the pain, and I can handle this!

I'll try again to post a picture, but I am having issues uploading them.

A note to all of you going through this, I have been doing so much thinking, and so much self healing and realize how strong this situation has made me. I am so loved by my family, OMG I am so lucky for that, my husband and kids are so amazing! So what I want to remind all of you out there who are battling emotions and depression due to an unfortunate tattoo mistake is look past the tattoo and cherish the many wonderful things in your life. I say this again, the one thing I regret more than the tattoo is how I treated my family while I was struggling with my emotions and battling depression...it was so unfair to the kids, my husband, my friends and even my pets..I wish I could take all that back. Unfortunately the people we love the most usually suffer the most when there is personal issues. I realized that no matter what, they love me and that is all that is important. The tattoo will vanish and either be gone or replaced with something beautiful, you can't take back hurt you cause people, however you can change yourself and treat yourself better and this will reflect on how others feel around you. Don't make another mistake and be so hard on yourself, love yourself no matter what the circumstance.

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your update of May 9th blackberry11 is wonderful.  Yes we are often much too hard on ourselves and in turn hurt those that love us.  We need to love ourselves as much as our family loves us.  Wishing you all the best with your removal, it looks beautifully faded in your last photo.  aloha...k
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Thank you :)

Session 7 completed! Laser turned up to level 8,...

Session 7 completed! Laser turned up to level 8, painful...YES! I really had a tough time with this session, I squirmed and hard a hard time sitting still, but I got through it with some deep breaths and tried to shift my focus...but it was really difficult. Now the good news, there appears to be no blisters, and no blood...she went really fast, it seemed, but she did hit the whole tattoo. I worked out today, did bike and light yoga and had no issues. I am not even sure I need to re bandage it - shrug. I sure hope she hit it enough to let way for some fading! I am going to wait 6-8 weeks, maybe even 10 for my next session, I need a break.

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aloha blackberry11  The healing time is crucial, zapping it is just the beginning then your body needs to deal with the blasted ink (literally blasted, I'm not being PG here).  I'm thinking of waiting some additional time while I'm undergoing the R20 technique.  I'm also listening to my body more.  After a laser session I relax, take it easy on both my body and my mind.  I keep saying "be patient it'll work out", this has become my mantra.  I think April 2014 is a wonderful end goal.  I'm hoping that my tattoo will be removed by December 2014 and I can start 2015 ink free...or at least faded.  I'm so glad that the laser session went well for you, it's always nice to have something positive come out of all of this.  as you say "Happy Fading"  thanks for the update, so happy it went well.   aloha...k
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the guy doing my removal won't do sessions less than 8weeks apart........if i had a laser i would be zapping the damned thing every week :( this process is soooooo slow
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I hear you, I just calculated my removal session to #15, if I do them every 6 weeks I will be done April 2014....I will probably wait 6-8 weeks, no less.

5th day - session #7

Healing almost complete, hardly any itch, not sure how this can be, this session is nothing like the others, I wonder if I will see any fading, but I will think positive. This tattoo needs to go, and I don't want to stand in the way of my body working to get rid of the ink, when I see the photos, I still can't believe that is my back I am looking at, I feel so disconnected from that part of my body, I have never felt this way about any part of my body. The one thing I dislike the most post removal is how dark it looks, yuck!

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I haven't checked your posts in a few months (on purpose) and I'm glad I didn't because I am so pleased and surprised with how good your fading is even after only the 5th session! By this time next year you'll be wearing those tank tops without a care in the world!
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aloha blackberry11,  I understand the disconnection.  As I type my response I look down and am shocked to see a foreign hand on the keyboard.  But I try to look past it, hoping that the ink will be blasted away.  I focus on my latest success and it helps me to be patient.  Look down at your latest success and with the joy think positive thoughts of "out you go" at your back.  It's hard especially after a laser session, the body, the psyche is challenged and then on top of it all the ink looks fresher.  It's all part of the process.  I think to myself "what on earth am I gonna do when it's all blasted away" all this negative thinking will be gone...then I remember a very wise person saying "you'll look back on this time and regret all the negative thoughts as being a waste of time"...that truly helps me to stay focused and stay positive.  Your friendship and your support also helps.  Know that all this negativeness will pass soon, the time will come, it's what we do will waiting that matters.  You have done some fabulous things and have helped so many people.  aloha...k
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Treatment 7 results so far

I am 6 weeks post treatment #7, fading is coming along great. I will post a photo very soon. The black is responding much faster than the color, however yellow and green are responding great as well.

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Thank you so much for your posts - your positivity is amazing! I'm looking forward to my first session in August. Looking forward to sharing support and getting through this together :)
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You're welcome :) Where is the tattoo you are having removed?

A must see!

Today I had some down moments, just frustrated with this situation, it's steals my energy at times. I came across a documentary on the US Netflix called "Happy" it's a must see, if you are struggling with depression or anxiety, or just not happy because of your tattoo regret, promise me you will watch this movie! Or better yet, promise yourself! I needed a lift, and it did just that, there was a moment in the documentary that when this lady tells her story, I just broke down in tears, and suddenly came to terms with my tattoo. I have forgiven myself for making this mistake, but I don't think I have fully accepted my situation. Again, I stress the importance of watching the documentary if you feel you need a lift.

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Hey I figured you were the person to ask regarding homeopathic type remedies for tattoo removal. I've been taking arnica pellets 3 times a day for healing. Figured it can't hurt... Have youtried arnica for your post treatment regimen? Was wondering your opinion on it
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Hello jayja84, I actually don't know all that much about arnica pellets, but I did read up on it and it used to treat inflammation so I would give it a try, let us know if it aids in healing :)

Gearing up for Session #8

As I prepare for session #8 tomorrow I already have thoughts of worry, and self depreciating thoughts about what I did..then on my run today I quickly shifted my thoughts to positive things about myself. I thought I would post this and give you all the opportunity to post the POSITIVE and GREAT things about yourself, rather than the tattoo regret. I will start, and I hope to read others:

I am a wonderful mother, trusted friend, and wife!
I am fit and 40 ( I feel like I am 25!)
I inspire others to live a life that is true to them
I care about the environment
I respect nature and all of its inhabitants
I am smart
I am creative
I am not perfect and I accept that

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Good luck to you this weekend. Hang in there :)
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Thank you so much!

Session #7 results & session #8 update

Here is a picture of my results from session #7

Session #8 left me with lots of blisters....I numbed my back with Mr. Numb for 3 hours before my session, and they used ice, it helped but I could still feel it of course. The laser was set at 8.5

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Hey, happy with the results from session 7? Are they what you were expecting?
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 I suppose, of course I would want more fading, but being that my tattoo was so dense I think my results are fair. 

Session #8 day 3

Well, what can I say...pretty much the same drill...lots of blisters and feels like a sunburn. I don't understand why, but the very next day it does not hurt at all...but the day 2 & 3 it starts to really feel sore. Yesterday I felt really drained, no energy at all, and today a bit like that too...my husband said to just rest as my body is going through alot. I have not worked out since my treatment, I normally do, but I really feel drained after this session. I was just trembling towards the end of the treatment.

I am guilty of obsessing over my tattoo today, BUT on the up side I was able to easily shift my focus back. I had mixed feelings about my results so far, but then checked out my pictures again, and when you see where I started from I feel I have come pretty far.

I want to just send a friendly reminder to everyone who is following my posts and getting removal as well, make sure you drink a ton of water and you can add lemon as lemon is great for detoxification, skin care - it's actually one of mother natures natural antiseptic medicine, plus it tastes great too! You can actually make a nice jug of fresh spearmint or peppermint leaves, combined with lemon and cucumber peel and let it sit in the fridge overnight, it's refreshing.
Have a scoop of honey (yes even I eat honey, I know that's not vegan) Honey is an amazing thing...I am using dandelion honey at the moment. Aloe Vera both internally and externally is great for healing and cleansing, you can add to water, throw in some chia seeds or psyllium husks to aid in cleansing. You can also add this all to a shake of your choice. You really want to focus on cleansing your liver, and Milk thistle and dandelion are great for that. And above all else, work on your stress levels, and ensure you are managing your emotions and getting sleep. I realize through many peoples posts, and direct contact that this is a very challenging time in your life. Just remember you can't go back in change it, so stop focusing on that, focus on resolving the issue and take care of yourself.

And my final note - GET OUTSIDE in nature, and don't forget to exercise vigorously as I believe that if you keep your blood flowing, it will help get rid of the ink.

I think that's it....but just don't forget to be good to yourself, and if you are on line researching tattoo removal and obsessing, GET OFF...RIGHT NOW!

Hugs from B11

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Hey BB11..........your positivity is so inspiring i don't know how you keep it up!!!!!!! I've now had 4 sessions and yes i can see a change but this whole process is wearing me down. I'm really not coping well. Have started drinking again and have just given up on life......its awful!!!!! I've been toying with the idea of getting a razor blade and slicing the thing out. I feel lost and can't seem to find the will to go on. Wish you guys were nearby so we could meet up and i didn't feel so damn alone!
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Maria, i'm worried about you....did you want to call me? I will inbox you    

Itching has begun full force!

I want a tree in my house, and like a bear rub my back all over it! It's just peeling like crazy, feels so good to just gently brush off the dead skin. Gosh, it healed fast considering it was a harsh treatment, tons of blisters.

I am feeling good about my progress...and looking more forward to session 9, no breaks as soon as I am ready to go...I am going!

~ Happiness is not the absence of problems. It's the ability to deal with them. -Steve Maraboli

So stay strong, and do something wonderful for yourself this weekend! I am going to go for a long bike ride with my hubby, have lunch, sit by the lake, and enjoy life!

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defenetly going good... you had there so much ink, atm, seems like it will disepear :) few layers more
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Thanks Blessone, I had a ton of ink, it will be awhile before it is gone. Hope all is well with you!

I just don't care....

Today I have been reading update on other posts, and I can't wait until others catch up and start to heal from the damage this tattoo regret can cause. I think it was Barbiedoll90 that mentioned she was now going to focus on getting fit and healthy and absorb the love and support from her family, that's the spirit!! I myself...I have gotten to the point that I just don't care...nope, don't care...I have so many other great things in my life that oh well...I f'ckd up...and such as life. I would rather spend my day feeling happy, then crazy depressed...when I look back, what a waste of time..BUT I had to go through it to get to where I am today...The sun gets blocked by clouds but it always shines again.

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I noticed you said that you are vegan. I am also on a whole foods, plant diet. I was wondering if you detox after every session and how often? I detox with chia seeds mixed in water but I'm not sure if it is appropriate to do it immediately afterwards every time or more than once, even though I am waiting at least 4 months in between sessions. I've only detoxed after my first treatment in addition to drinking a lot of water and juicing. I had a very fast healing process within 1-2 weeks with no major problems but since this is only my first treatment I can't judge on it as the laser setting may have been low :/
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Hello nevaeh00 After a session, and daily, I focus on getting as many fresh fruits and veggies into me as possible! I juice and make smoothies that contain a variety of superfoods, such as bee pollen, honey, chia seeds, hemp seeds, maca, goji berries to name a few.  I also take some Chinese herbs and teas daily. One Chinese supplement I take, which also aids in weightloss as well, is Trimay-in capsules ( I break them and mix the contents in water) http://www.cheungstrading.com/index.php?main_page=product_info&products_id=365  I see am not aware of any reason why you would need to restrict the use of chia seeds, eat as many as you can. I like the Salba brand. I really encourage bee pollen, yes I am aware it's not a vegan product, and I only eat organic raw/unpasturized honey. One of my favorite smoothies contains: 1 frozen banana, 1 avocado, 1 cup almond/coconut milk, 1-2 dates, bee pollen - it's so good, and the perfect post workout drink!

I did it!

I finally did it, I have been hiding behind T-shirts and high neck tops, being careful to not allow my "tattoo" to show, well today I went to the beach, it was the most beautiful day, I found myself the perfect spot to relax and do some yoga, meditate and read. As I sat there watching the people walk by with their skin bare on display, I felt so envious, and wished I could do that. It was hot, and I had my T-shirt with a rather strappy sports bra under, I thought...enough, what am I so afraid of?! So I got brave and off my top went, and along with my top a rush of relief and all the fear I had built up inside just flowed out of me, it was so liberating. The warmth of the sun on my skin just made me melt inside...... Some thoughts that I had today while I soothed my soul under the sun that I would like to share with you all is...It's really amazing how one poor decision can really shake one's world and in particular, their confidence. It's crazy how much focus we put into our appearance, what people "will think of us" and as I lay there today with the feeling that conquered my biggest enemy, my tattoo, I question why is what we look like so important? and even more I question, why do we care?!! Are we hiding from others, and what they will think of us, are we hiding from ourselves because we made a mistake? What exactly are we hiding from? There are people walking around with burn scars, acne scars all over their back and face, over weight, under weight, too short, too tall...when is this all going to stop!! When will people just accept people for who they are, not what they look like! To all of you that feel you "ruined your body because of your tattoo" I say you added to your character, and are true to who you are and not afraid to be that person. So what, your tattoo didn't turn out the way you had hoped, but nothing in life does...so hang in there, stay strong and be good to yourself, and rather than focusing on the outside, what people can see, focus on your inside, your mind, what makes you happy, not what satisfies others.

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B11 - Thanks for the story, and congrats on getting the "cojones" to show your tat! I wore a short sleeved t-shirt one day early this summer and I felt so ridiculous and so exposed that i couldn't do it again - and I couldn't wait to get home, so I know what it took for you to bare it all. Like Barbiedoll, I also have the added pressure of hiding it from my parents, who live not too far away from me (wish i had thought of that before i ...well, you know). If I loved the tat, I wouldn't mind showing them, but since It's such a mistake, i know they would be even more ashamed and stressed than i am. So, for now, I continue to hide it. You're so right - there are people everywhere with all kinds of scars and skin problems, etc., and I always admire the courage it takes for them to walk proudly and just live. Sometimes we all need a reminder to put things in perspective, so thank you for your wisdom. Maybe I'll be able to do what you did once i start the removal process. Once again - congrats on your milestone :)
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Thanks so much Vybie! I know you will have the courage, it's in all of us, we just need to act on it! B11

Photos - results session 8

Here you go all, my results from session 8, I feel that I still have a long ways to go, but I am making progress. I notice that the brownish stains are fading away, and I hope that helps with all the other people asking about that, it seems to be normals when removing black ink and...it does fade!

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Hi b11, Have you thought about coverup idea?
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I am willing to remove some huge aportion of my tattoo lines, to make cover up, i go to my countrie best tattoo artist next year.
That's great that you have a plan and I know everything will work out perfectly for you!

Getting Ready for Session 9 - and I had an interesting day today!

Well... session 9 is booked for Sept. 14th! So about today, it was amazing!! I woke up and felt like I had to call my mom. We had a wonderful chat, my brother was at her house and he sounded a little stressed (if you recall from an earlier post I spoke of my brother, so this will only make sense if you have read it). My brother asked to speak with me and he began to share his worries. I don't want to share the details, as they are personal to him; however, I was thrilled to listen and be available to him and give him back the support that he gave to me last year. In short, he felt like he had no options in his situation and during our conversation I heard many (isn't it funny how we don't hear them ourselves!) So I said to him, "well you know what, you just gave me a number of ways to solve your problems so the solution is there, now which one do you feel would work best for you?! He paused and said, "well....it's not that easy". I said, "I understand, it never is, and you can do nothing OR you can do something and work towards your solution". In the end, he felt better. I was also able to tell him how important he was and how much he impacted me last year and I thanked him again. The moral of this story is that when we need someone or something, the universe will connect you. Stay positive, and know that things always work out. Keep Healthy! B11

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Good luck tomorrow!! Let us know how it goes! :)
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Hi Canadagirl75, thanks so much for thinking of me! It was intense... I am doing fine though. Hope all is well with you! B11
Glad you are ok! I am hanging in..still have my days!

Session 9 completed!

Hello all, hope everyone is doing great and enjoying the weekend!!! I have completed session 9, it was intense! The laser (Alex TriVantage) has 2 wands that are used during my treatment, one for color and the other for black. The black' s highest level is 10 and I was at 9 today, and the color laser's highest setting was 5 and I am at 5. What am I getting at...well you do the math....it hurt, even after 2 hours of numbing cream and ice packs...I felt like I was being tortured. To make it even worse, the tech was slow, but thorough, she did the black 2 times, with every snap I hear I feel pain as well as happiness, as I know the ink is breaking up!! I am home now, got my cozy wear on, and just made my super healing smoothie to boost my immune system and clear that ink!! I posted a pic of the main healing ingredients and thought I would share the benefits of them. The long list from left to right:

1) Chia Seeds - Rich in antioxidants & omega-3 fatty acids (studies suggest that omegas are not only great for physical health, but also mental health) detoxifies and reduces inflammation.
2) Vietnamese Cinnamon - Anti-Microbial Activity, anti-inflammatory, improves circulation. Note: Strictly for medicinal benefit, Vietnamese Cinnamon is chosen over other more common types of cinnamon due to the higher content, as well as the stronger nature of the oil naturally present.
3) Raw Honey (has not been pasteurized or filtered) tons of vitamins and minerals, contains natural antibiotics. I could go on and on about honey and bee pollen (which I usually add but am out of) It provides a boost of energy, which we all need after treatment, it helps heal wounds both internally and externally. The bees work so hard for us to provide such an amazing food, 1 worker bee produces 1/10 tsp in their life (awe..I know, and we take some of it... sigh) Buy local organic as those bees are treated fairly.
4) Goji Berries - Not just a sweet treat, been used medicinally in Tibet and China for thousands of years...it contains all essential amino acids, antioxidants & polysaccharides that help boost immune, high level of protein, loaded with vitamin C, high in fiber...and it's also an anti-inflammatory.
5) Kelp Powder - used for a dose of iodine, it's also a natural diuretic which helps flush out the body getting rid of toxins.
6) **Oil of Oregano - Among many things, it's antimicrobial and anti-parasitic, analgesic (which means naturally relieves pain) anti-inflammatory, aids in blood circulation, increases white blood cells, detoxes and protects the liver.
7)Tulsi Tea (aka Holy Basil) - purifies the blood and promotes kidney health (we need them to work very well as they remove waste and water from the blood), anti-stress,
8) Raw Hulled Hemp Seeds - One of natures perfect foods, love my hemp!! I could go on and on, but it provides protein, energy, helps recover from injury, reduces inflammation, improves circulation and boosts immune.
9) Hemp Protein Powder - no need to say, it's Hemp...right ;)
10) Aloe Vera Gel - A miracle food that is often overlooked as a weed. Among many things, it promotes healing and recovery from injury, anti-inflammatory, boosts oxygenation in your blood, provides with an abundance of vitamins and minerals, soothes and hydrates skin, and so much more!!

***Please note that I am not a certified nutritionist / expert, and expect that you do your own research before adding any of these foods to your diet.

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Thanks so much bro. It makes me happy knowing I am not in this alone.
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Thanks for the update!! I believe in all those nutritional ingredients and consume them as much as possible! I look forward to seeing more pics of your fading tattoo!! A question for you, are you having your treatments done by a dermatologist or a laser technician?
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Thanks, we all have our days! Don't be hard on yourself, just life and have fun :)

Day 2 Post Session 9

Very sore today, this session was very aggresive. I could not stand my husband rubbing polysporin on the treated area so he bought be this Bactine Spray, which is amazing! It provides instand relief and a bit of numbing. Since you spray it, there is no irritation from rubbing it. I am going to use this from now on.

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How is the healing going from the last treatment? still cannot get into my inbox...not sure why. Hope all is well!
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Hey, I am doing really well, all healed up on the outside, itch is done. I'll give it a week and post some updated pictures. How are you doing?
Good to hear! Anxious to see new pics! I'm doing ok. Still have my days but I'm hanging in there.

Session 9 Update

I am almost 3 weeks post treatment, so how are things going....slow :( I healed up just fine, but I am having signs of scar tissue forming and that is making me worry, bummer, also I have some redness that remains, which means burnt skin, double bummer. Ok, so what are my next steps...I am going to wait longer for my next treatment, 6 weeks is not enough, I am going to wait it out for at least 8-10 weeks, I am going to use tea tree oil to help reduce the scar tissue, this was a tip given to me by my tattoo artists who said that it drastically reduced his scar tissue from a tattoo, he mentioned that as Tea Tree oil is strong, mix it with a natural moisturizer and apply 2 times daily. He was very supportive towards the potential of a successful cover up and cautions me of attempting full removal due to damage to the skin. I am going to tell them to turn the laser down next treatment as well. I have also started treated the area with acupuncture (I get it for free from my husband), this will aid in healing, and reduce scar tissue as well. The good news, my artist is 100% confident that I will have a beautiful cover up, he thinks I will need 3 more laser sessions max. He said to wait a min of 6 months between my last laser session and the cover up. I am in no rush, I am not going anywhere, hopefully just the tattoo is!! I will post a photo later tonight or tomorrow once I get one taken. Hope all is great with everyone!! Oh, I wanted to add, a dear friend of my sent me a wonderful tank top and I wore it today and part of the tattoo stuck out, that same person told me that I will start to feel better about this if I just try to expose it rather than focusing on hiding it. Well, she was correct, she also suggested that by showing it allows an open conversation and the opportunity for others to learn about tattoo removal - today was the perfect example of that, 2 people asked me lots of questions, were very positive towards my situation and was so glad they had the opportunity to ask me.

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I'm happy to hear that you're doing ok..:)
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I use the silicone scar sheets and they work wonders.  I get them from Walmart here in the US but I'm sure you could get them in Canada.  They are amazing and I highly recommend them.  Good luck and I'm glad that you are out there, standing proud, showing off your work in progress.  I'm sure you've helped many people, just like you've helped many people here...aloha...k
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Thank you for all the detailed information. It is remarkably helpful for those of us contemplating removal. I applaud your dedication and your candor in providing us all with a session by session synopsis. Have you considered switching to the PicoSure? I am, but I have a lot of red ink - red seems to be the most difficult color. Obviously removal is a long process & one needs to have an abundance of patience. Does your doctor feel at this point that complete removal can be accomplished?
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Session 9 Photo

I am approaching 4 weeks post treatment. Things are healing well, but there is evidence of scar tissue building, and lasting redness...I am not going to go to my next appointment on Oct. 26th. I am going to lay low for awhile until I decide how to proceed.
Thanks so much for all your continued support :)

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Looks like shit, you should just bite the bullet and get it covered up. What a waste.
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I know it does, but the good news it I am working towards making the situation better, it just takes time. I am not going to rush and get a cover as I could end up in a worse situation.
Sorry about the scarring .(. This is why it's vital to wait at least 8 weeks in between sessions. Happy holidays :)
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Photo Update

I see additional fading and the bumbs has all gone down. There are some visible scars, and lightning of the skin, but it is what it is.

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Wow! Amazing results! Congratulations! Very inspiring example! I have had my tattoo for 20 days only! Can't wait to start the treatment!!! Hopefully everyone here will realize how crucial it is to find a good artist when it comes to getting a tattoo. And I don't mean a person who simply can use a tattoo machine! But a true artist who will talk you out of some bad ideal, explain that things might not look the same on the skin as they do on a paper etc..well looking at the bright side of things we are so fortunate that there is a way out although not as quick and painless but its there! I am so happy I have found this site . Thank you for such a prompt detailed story! That's soooo helpful especially for those who are just getting started! Good luck and keep us posted!
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I second that Liana242 - I feel that even though a client gives the idea, or image the artist should really ensure you understand the process fully...for me when I got my cover up, I now realize the mistakes that could have been avoided if more time was spent communicating and ensuring there was a complete understanding of the process. When I look back I can see the artist was more interested in collecting the money then making me happy. I have since connected with other artists who truly do care, and have been working with a master artist (shop owner/artist 20 years) He cares about YOU and it feels like money is secondary in the process. He takes his time, explains every detail, gives suggestions, outright tells clients when something is not a good idea....wonderful guy!!  


I agree Eva. The artist I saw didn't care. I could have asked for something across my face and he'd do it. It's sad that there are so many artists who don't understand how important it is to discuss everything with their clients (placement, size, design etc).

Session 9 update

Hello Everyone, it's been awhile since my last update, I had nothing to really report as I took a break from treatments. I am now post 12 weeks session 9 and am "ok" with my results so far. Like many of you ( I read every review I possibly can) I understand the up and down days all to well. This really is a tough thing to go through. This community has given me strength to continue on and I am so thankful to each and everyone of you who take the time to share their story and show support.....so what are my next steps...I think I am ready for session #10 - I refuse to give up and will fight this thing until it is no longer possible. I may ask for a less aggressive treatment, maybe have them turn down the laser and I may only treat parts of it, the denser black and color. Any thoughts you want to share are welcome :) And don't worry, I try my best not to take anything negative too personal, it is what it is, I got a crappy tattoo. I have attached a photo. Hang in there everyone and do something fun to take your mind off your worries.

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It looks amazing!! I'm so happy for you!!
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I think it looks amazing. The fading is amazing. Slap those scar sheets on, soften the skin and you'll see more fading. Those scar sheets are amazing! I am also considering another session (it'll be my 11, 12 and 13 as I get the R20) and the fading is different in different areas. Some look a light grey, some a darker grey and some are so faint they are almost gone. I am not so neurotic about it, I see the promising results. Your results are amazing. Eventually it'll be gone and it'll be a distant memory. Hang in there, enjoy life, enjoy your new fabulous ink and rejoice that life is wonderful. aloha...k
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Thank you :) Let us know if you decide to go for another session and that all is well with you!

Been thinking....

Hey everyone, I have a few thoughts I wanted to share, as I continue to go through the process of laser removal and support others going through the same. I read so many stories daily, not only in the Tattoo Removal community but in other laser communities as well, such as: Fraxel, C02, ActiveFX ...and so on. Each situation may be different but often times when something doesn't go as expected the emotional result is the same. Every time I read a story that speaks about the feelings of depression and anxiety it resonates with me in such a powerful way. I understand the regret, the shame, embarrassment..sadness and so on, however I have come a long way in my progress dealing with the emotional burdens that attach instanty to us like a Burdock Burr in the forest. I have learned that with continual effort and focus you can release these feelings -eventually releasing the burr and grow as as they do when released again in nature. It may hurt and take some time, but eventually it does let go. I have come to accept my situation as many of you have as well. I won't deny that I still have moments where my negative thoughts resurface like a faint stain on your favorite T-shirt that you are just about to throw on, but I can decide if I want to wear the shirt or choose another one- I have the power to change my thoughts and remind myself that I am fortunate that this is my only real challenge in life so far...a tattoo. Remaining in the negative state is much like being in a mental prison, so many of you have mentioned you hide behind clothing, you're glad winter has arrived, you don't socialize as much.... and then I wonder who are we hiding from... and why? Isn't this just like an emotional prison?! I admit that I don't flaunt my tattoo, but I don't care anymore if it sticks out, and I welcome summer and look forward to my date with the sun and sand. I encourage you (as a kahelelani encouraged me) to step out of hiding, unlock the prison you keep yourself in and enjoy your wonderful life! The question for me always remains...who are we hiding from? Do you really care if someone passes a judgement on you? Who has that right and who is it for someone else to say we should or shouldn't have a tattoo, or get Fraxel laser, or whatever other procedure we undergo. Now, don't get me wrong, I understand not wanting to throw on a Holiday dress and flashing your half lasered tattoo to the world, but you can still go out and look just as beautiful as you always have with the tattoo!! What's stopping you, why would you give that power to someone else??!! I know how it feels to loose yourself in this, to lose your confidence, but I also know how it feels to get it all back! I recently started teaching again, I volunteer at the local YMCA and I teach bootcamps and spin class...my first class was last Monday and it felt amazing to get out there again...my husband said to me when I got home "You are standing so tall" nobody knows my tattoo is there, nobody knows what I am going through, and you know what..I don't think they really care...they enjoyed my class, they liked me and if I took off my shirt and said "hey check this out" do you think they will never come to my class again? I have said this so many times before this darn tattoo does not define who you are, it does not stop you from doing anything you want to do, you are the one stopping yourself...you have the power to change your thoughts and in turn you will see a change in your life. Sorry for the long post, but I just want to encourage anyone still struggling that you can turn this around. I want you to enjoy the holiday season and look forward to the new year that is approaching, embrace who you are, challenges and all! Thank you all so much for sharing your stories, for continuing to support each other daily, it's truly inspiring!! I wish each of you a wonderful holiday season filled with celebration and love.

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I agree! Your words are truth. I think it's amazing how you can always remain so positive. I'm getting better everyday, but still find myself covering every little piece of my ink. Like Andrew1987 said, I can't wait to look back on all of this and get a good laugh! You, in particular have helped me to stay strong and keep a positive outlook. You were one of the first people to talk to me about all this, and I value that so much. It was great that someone else who didn't even know me, would reach out and be so kind and supportive! Thank you so much bb11!
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Interested in a New Years challenge anyone??

I was thinking tonight about doing a 30 day raw food cleanse. Its a great way to boost your immune system and I always feel my best when I eat mainly raw vegan foods....so I thought that the new year is always the best time to kick off a new challenge and was hoping some of my RS friends would join me. If you are up for it post a comment and ill share some resources to help you get started. Sending you all happy wishes for the new year!!

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I am eating more fresh fruits and vegetables...my husband says it makes his hair shiny. He's growing it out to cut it for LocksofLove. It's amazing! I'm also taking Biosil and Bamboo extract. I had to give up sugar because it gave me hotflashes and I don't need any aggrevation. Ink regret gives me enough and grad school picks up the slack. :) But I'm up for a new diet change.
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Blackberry, I wanted to come in here and say hi... You really inspired me in the beginning... You gave me hope when I found your blog, mainly because our tattoos were the same size... I knew of people that didn't like theirs or regretted them but they were all small and I kept thinking am I the only one who made such a huge mess... I have some hypopigmentation which in research with sun exposure and time can resolve itself some... I knew it was a risk going into this with my warmer skin tone... Still I rather some slight unevenness then the tattoo so forward I go... I also sustained some scarring in some areas from placement as my lines are raised so I know the scar will remain... Still I love around and is see what I do have... YOU helped me realize there's more to us than just the ink so I wanted to come in here and say hi... You are very inspiring and although I've learned to be positive id be lying if I said it was easy... PS I'd be interested in info on a raw food diet :)
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For All of you, have a listen

Happy New Year, this song is for all you, it's so uplifting...enjoy!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=02Fq3u5XyCg

Here's to 2014! No looking back ;)

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Happy new year, this year, u must fix your tattoo and actually i know how you fear to do new coverup all over the coverup but yo, there are amazing artists out there who can make your tatto what u have atm to such a beautiful art. By the way, are you experiacing same like i do. If i do laser session, my tattoo seems darker almost 3 weeks and after a month it goes back to lighter color. I did not find about it much from internet but i am experiancing such phenomen.
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same here. ive read that the tattoo can be darker up to 22 days after treatment, and that's been true for me, my tattoos are usually darker from 3-4 weeks before I notice any fading.
:) Hello Ain74595, hope you had a wonderful New Years celebration! Yes, this my friend will be the year of the cover up....My goal is to get started this summer, if I get the ok. Not sure if my tattoo stays dark for that long, but it does for a week forsure, then once it peels usually it's lighter.

Are you ready?

Welcome 2014!!! It's this time of year we look at new beginnings, it can be overwhelming and magical all at the same time. This is your opportunity to make some positive changes, pack a new "bag" fill it with the tools you need for success, include a mental map of the journey you want your life to take...Don't allow the negative experiences/lessons of the past hold you back...just go for it! In an earlier post I sent an expression of interest to join me in a 30 day Raw Food challenge-(this is at your own risk and if you have any concerns please follow up with your health care provider)I have received some interest, and will get those people started, however feel free to jump in whenever you want, there really are no rules...this is just a means to get us all on the track to better health, which in turn will boost our immune system and help fade away our tattoos, along with boosting our overall well being. You will have more energy, happiness, sleep better..and so on- although the first few days to a week you may experience a strong detox effect, in which you may feel a little sick...drink lots of water, green juices, and herbal tea - along with lots of rest...there are some things you can take to aid the toxins out.. but you should be fine. As your body becomes more alkalized (not acidic) you will begin to feel better. Your goal is to achieve a neutral pH balance (7) I like to call pH - Perfect Health. To help achieve your goal to perfect health I will share some info to help get you started and I will send you some links in your PM inbox, as well as post motivational updates ( I hope others join in) even if you don't do the full 30, try 7 days. Lets start Sunday Jan. 4th, this will allow everyone time to prepare...you can do some research, and allow you time to shop for the foods you need. You don't need many fancy tools to eat raw..the basic staples are: food processor, blender, Juicer (you can use your blender so don't worry) lots of storage containers to keep prepped foods in the fridge...it's so much easier to pre- prep so you can grab what you need. A dehydrator is a bonus, but not necessary. So in a nutshell what is a Raw Food Diet...whole, fresh, unprocessed - minimally heated food. I will send you some links to my favorite recipes but the web is loaded with them, and library's carry raw food books too. Your staple foods (to name a few) will be your greens (Kale, Spinach, collards..etc) fruit, fresh herbs and spices, Nuts (almonds, cashews, walnuts etc..) and Seeds (pumpkin, quinoa, hemp etc), Coconut - dried, filtered water, Oils (Coconut Oil, Olive Oil) Sea veggies are amazing - Kelp Noodles if you can find them, Nori sheets. Oh zucchini's are a huge bonus, so grab em when you see them! Your local health food store or grocery store will have everything you need, just try and keep it organic. Are you excited, let's do this!!!

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Loving yr approach to the new year BB11 *cheers!
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:) Your support in the community has been awesome - Thanks so much!!
So excited to try this raw diet! I recently purchased a vitamix so I'm super excited to try new things in it! I'm on board jan 4th!
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One day away...

For those of you joining in on the Raw Food Challenge we are one day away from kick off! I'm excited because I know that you are going to feel great and appreciate the benefits!! (Canadagirl75 get your Vitamix ready!!) I have sent some links to your inbox so be sure to check them out, hopefully you all got a chance to watch the movie links - those were some of the first movies I watched to spark my interest into raw foods. I love to eat, and I love sweets...so you will see that with raw foods you don't have to restrict yourself and count calories..and you can still have treats. Some benefits will be faster healing after your laser treatments, a sense of well-being - I emphasize the well being because I believe strongly that we are what we eat and there is s mind - gut connection...that's why when we are stressed we can overeat or not eat, we get butterflys when we are nervous, bad foods effect your thoughts and make you sluggish and loose mental focus ..I could go on and on! Your immune system is going to thank you as it can focus on getting rid of the ink rather than having to deal with all the toxin that enter our body through processed foods. I think have set the tone for the reason we are doing this, and I want you to be excited, not stressed about a challenge...think of it as an exciting way to try some new foods, share with your friends, have a raw food potluck, get your family and friends involved..you will be surprised at how tasty these foods are...I love raw cinnamon buns, kale chips, raw burgers...you are not going be just eating salads...use your imagination and if you discover a wonderful recipe please share it with us :) For some other news, I got a new tattoo last night, a beautiful flower of life Mandela on my ribs (I'll post a photo in a bit) I love it!! It's my start to a new beautiful year! 

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A new tattoo!!!??? Awesome!! Can't wait to see it!! I'm researching the diet and watching the links you provided today. Tomorrow will be shopping day. We had a whopper of a snowstorm last night so I'm snowed in today. I think this diet from what I've researched so far will be challenging but I understand and believe in the principle of it so I'm looking forward to trying it! Will just need to make sure I'm creative with meals as to not get bored. Have a good one! - Tara
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Raw food Challenge Kick Off and New tattoo :)

Just a note to say that your Raw Food Challenged started today (sorry for the late post I was so busy today, had to teach 3 classes in a row as no instructor showed up) I did all my shopping on Saturday...I even took a pic :). I have also attached a photo of my new tattoo.
So for those of you joining in on the fun...let's kick off!

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Great tattoo! As for the raw challenge, I'm starting tomorrow!
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GT's kombucha :)
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That mandala tatt is sweet! Sacred geometry- I love them, very cool :)
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Checking in ...

Just wanted to check in and let you know where I am at in the process of my removal, and ask for some feedback. I am really noticing some scarring forming, mostly on the outline of the tattoo. My removal was a difficult one, very dark dense ink...I really am thinking cover up and have been given the green light by multiple artists....I don't want to rush anything..thoughts...would I be crazy? I didn't push the Raw Food Challenge, it's certainly is not for everyone, but for those who gave it a try I hope you saw some benefits from it. It's my lifestyle, and works well for me, I am not 100% raw, 80/20 ...and I learned recently that eating according to your blood type really matters. With me being type A, it makes sense that I am vegan....but the point is, eat the healthiest way you can to boost your immune system and keep your body happy and balanced. Remember the foods you choose to put into your body will impact your energy levels, your immune system - your health short and long term. It's just like your car, the higher quality gas you use the better it runs. The community continues to grow, and I am so proud that everyone takes the time to share and support eachother. I would love for you to check out other communities on the site, such as Fraxel Laser: http://www.realself.com/Fraxel-Laser/restore/reviews they are an amazing group with very much the same support needed as there are some people who have had bad results and feel like they have damaged their life as their face didn't react well to the laser - I would love to see you share your support with them. I am truly inspired by each of you and cannot thank you enough for keeping the flame going in this community.

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I also live in Toronto and am thinking about going to Advantage Laser Clinic myself. Do you have any recomendations? I am going to be embarking on a long journey to remove a whole sleeve. All in blank ink. Im very skeptical about the results. I do not want to completley remove the tattoo. Just enough for a cover up. Do you have any advice for me? =(
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Hi there, They have been great to me at the clinic, very friendly, honest, and try to make a most uncomfortable treatment comfortable. Being that you ink is all black you will get great results. They usually offer package deals, so ask them about that, one thing I know about them is they are willing to offer you the best deal. Good Luck!
Love reading your journey I'm 33 and a vegetarian my stomach tattoo is 2 cover ups and is similar colours and bigger started rearming yesterday it was dreadful and the blisters today so bad had to turn back from a jog after 3 km ;( I'm as depressed thinking why did I start this but think the clinic I'm using the laser mightened be as good from reading through a lot these reviews she's using Candela AlexTriVantage laser see this is a older model but I'm limited because of where I live e and am in ireland
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Checking in

Nothing much to report as I have not had any new treatments, however I will say that my tattoo continues to fade daily - I truly stress not rushing this treatment, let yourself heal and allow your body to cleanse the ink. As I read through each and every review that is posted in this community it takes me back to the days when I never thought I could move past this. I have moved way beyond this, and for those of you who have just been thrown into the ice cold waters of regret, you will jump back out ready to take on the world again. I know this. I have felt so empowered to continue to work on my inner peace and contentment. This situation brought me closer to my spirituality and I realized that every challenge or event that we are faced with in life assists the evolution of our souls. Once you realize and accept what has happened as not necessarily a bad thing rather could be a life changing positive event that teaches you something.

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Thanks for your powerful words :)
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I just noticed that you are also vegan. Just to clarify (I get mixed up with all the reviews) you aren't using the Picosure laser? Also getting any more treatments?
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Hi, so sorry for the delay!! No I am not using the Picosure, it's not available where I live. I am undecided at this point. Hope all is well with you! Thanks for checking in :)

It's official, my laser treatments are complete and my cover up has begun.

Hello everyone :) Well I was going to wait till I had a few more tattoo sessions behind me but I thought with all this cover up talk in the community and the interest in what I was up to that I would let the cat out of the bag. I decided to go ahead with the cover up after months of considering it and confirming with multiple artists I was good to go. I decided to go with a very talented artist who has been my husbands artist for the last 5 years. She clearly understood my wants and the history of this mess, so I fully trusted her and connected with her which is extremely important. So, first off, I am shocked at how little this is looking like a cover up! I am thrilled so far! I have had 2 sittings so far, the first being the phoenix which only a little of the wing is covering the old, and then the lotus and a beautiful Mandala outline. I am feeling a little on the heavy side right now so not willing to show my whole back :( sorry, just need to drop a good 15 pounds...lol. Here is a sneak peak at the cover-up. Keep in mind this is a process so once it all comes together it will look much better. The filler will be filigree.

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BTW I have also been contemplating a mandela to cover my knee instead of the wretched rose! Great idea!
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Yeeeahhh! Mandalas :)
I think that would be a great cover :)

Making progress!!!

I had another 3 hour session on my cover up! I love love love it and am sharing a sneak peak! I have a long way to go but as with the removal process you must be patient and the results will come. I also love the relationship that I have with my artist, she is wonderful and listens to exactly what I want, I am not looking for perfection just something that I connect to and love and feel that she is able to create the art that is an expression of me. I know many of you are waiting for your breakthroughs to happen and may be feeling frustrated, but just hang in there, the breakthrough will happen ...whether you are working towards full removal or a cover up, that moment will come. I look at this process as my mountain...as I work towards my goal (top of my mountain) I may loose site of the peak and may feel frustrated but then I turn another corner and can see the peak again and continue moving up to the top. Just keep taking the steps forward, stay positive and most importantly be happy.

On a side note, I must apologize to someone who has sent me a private message asking for smoothie recipes, I got a bit behind in my inbox and can't seem to find it, please resend if you read this ;)

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Very nice. Just a question, I haven't been able to locate one blog of complete removal. Most just go to a cover up and or consider other alternatives.
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I personally love OneTime story and her removal as her tattoo was similar to mine (location, color). And I saw 2 other reviews here (James Dean tattoo and other with dolphin I think). Just browse on the site and search for earlier reviews. I think people with time just get bored with posting whole process and busy. It is not like there are no successful stories. It is just very long process. I am not sure I will be posting in 1-1,5 years very often.

A Quick Hello

Thought I would check in and say hello. Things have been going really well with me, my cover up is healing perfectly, I do need a few touch ups in the lotus, but that is completely expected. I am trying to book in for this week for more work, if I don't get in I will take the next appointment. I can't express in words what a relief it is to finally have my life back, to not be consumed with the regret, to be able to throw on whatever I want and not care what others think. Don't think that people still don't judge me, I am certain they do, such as life, but the fact that I don't give a darn is all that matters. People can look at me, think what they want, I have learned that it is them that has to deal with that issue. I wanted you all to know that I think of your stories often and even though I have never met any of you, I think of you, and I believe that putting good thoughts out into the universe will help you, so I do that often, when I have dedicated many yoga practices to you all and I will continue to do so.

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Thank you for sharing your journey Eva and your cover up tattoo looks gorgeous! 9 sessions doesn't sound so bad considering how dark your tattoo is but I guess more sessions would've been necessary if you were after full removal. I'm after full removal and hoping to not be left with a ghost image since it's on an exposed area (forearm). My doctor isn't promising anything though and is telling me to expect at least 70-80% fading. I'm still optimistic though especially with the laser she's using.
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Thank you Janwa :) Best of luck on your removal. 
Your new tattoo looks awesome! Congrats
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Another Session Complete - but not laser ;)

My cover up is coming along, I had another session last night, I started to fill in the wing and I am thrilled with the color scheme. I have a long way to go, hours of work ahead of me but I am enjoying the journey.
My inspirational thought for you is that we should not allow past experiences to limit us, everyday is a new beginning.

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Can't wait for new (and bigger) pictures of your coverup! :) Looks really nice!
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Thanks, I will be posting one very soon :) I had another session about a week ago and it's coming along really nice!
I got a tattoo a few weeks ago and was feeling the same agony and regret you were feeling. I was so angry at myself. I have come to terms with it and realized that people make mistakes, we are not perfect. There are options such as tattoo removal by laser treatment if I want. I have decided to live with it for a while. I have gotten used to it and don't feel so self conscious about it anymore. Like you said, who cares what other people think. It is on my upper back and it is a cross. The artist made it very dark and added all this shading that I did not want. I, like you, was beating myself up about it. I realized that it wasn't the end of the world and there is hope should I decide to get it lasered off. It was cool that you shared your story. I think a lot of people have gone through the regret of a tattoo they don't like. Your story will give people hope. I am glad you are happy with your new tattoo. Very pretty.
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More Work Done!

Hello everyone! Can you believe it's the fall already! Well, I have been busy working on my cover up, such a long process. So much more to go!! Here is a snapshot of what's going on recently...keep in mind that there are touch ups needed (i.e. in the mandala) shading and more work to be added...etc...it's really a big project! We will be adding another lotus under the bottom wing and embellishments with some additional stuff around the tale...fun fun! And then for the ribs, OMG - I am scared...it's going to hurt. So here is where I am at so far.

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Very nice, I want to see bigger photos! :)
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It looks incredible!
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Photo's of Cover up

Hey there, Here are some additional photos of my back piece. These are the ones the Artist took and posted on her facebook. I had another session yesterday but those photos are not out yet, but will post when she does. The session last night hurt so bad I almost left half way through, but I persevered, I just want to get this finished. When she tattoos over the lasered part is hurts really really bad and that is what we did mostly. She did use some Bactine to ease the pain and it helped, but she ran out so I had to sit half way through with none. I will numb for next session. I am dreading the ribs! Tell me what you think. 

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I just read you story. Amazing journey. Now I see why you had 9 treatments done. Very brave of you.
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This is an amazing process and journey, coming from an individual who disliked their tattoo so much that it affected their sense of self. And now, like a lotus coming up from the dark mud, a stunning blossom emerges and opens. Although there might be some who continue to dislike their ink, and simply want it removed, there is always hope. We are not defined by our ink, but rather who we are. aloha...k
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Thank you :) It's hard to believe how far I have come in the process....it feels like yesterday that I was sitting in my living room trying to figure out what to do next when the regret set in. I am much more comfortable in my own skin now and have grown so much mentally through this process. Thanks for your support K. 
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