Major Regret After My Breast Reduction
RegretfullyYours27 on 11 Dec 2013 at 9:00am
RealSelf member Regretfullyours is a 27 year-old mom and healthcare administrator from Arizona. After ending a dead-end relationship with a controlling man, she vowed to love herself again.
She lost 50 pounds and opted for breast reduction surgery for her "long, heavy, and saggy" size K breasts. But now, when she looks in mirror, her F cups don't feel "feminine". This is her story. In her own words.
I started thinking about surgery after hearing that NeNe Leakes from The Real Housewives of Atlanta and Queen Latifah had reductions.
I basically had eight boobs. The "muffin tops" at the top of my bra made an extra two, and then I had them sticking out from my armpits and busting out the bottom of my bra.
Huge long "granny" boobs that hung from my waist on my 27 year-old body ... I had a picture with my friend, and my breasts were literally larger than her head!
I started developing in 3rd grade, I probably had an A or B cup by the time I was in 4th. I started getting comments about my breasts from the age of 10 years old to now -- even though they are reduced! I guess that's never going to go away.
When I started researching breast reduction, I came across stories on RealSelf. I read about women going through their insurance, just like I did. I consulted two different board certified doctors, and bugged the hell out of people I knew that had a reduction -- and everything with my surgery went according to plan.
And, I do believe they look great -- if they weren't on my body. I get so many compliments, but something in me psychologically won't accept them. I don't know why. I'm not even that small now, but I miss them sagging and looking womanly. I miss having cleavage and that "jiggle". I don't feel feminine and they look so strange to me.
I'm sure this feeling will pass, and one day I will love them -- but [I'm afraid] there will always be a part of me that regrets this decision.
I talked to my surgeon about it - and he said a lot of women go through this but don't talk about it. You have to see yourself, know you're different and accept that difference, and with some people it takes time.
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