Jason Torres Spent over $313,000 to Turn Himself into Barbie

Princess 19 on 12 Dec 2011 at 11:00am

Cindy Jackson and Sarah Burge have some competition!  Someone else is vying for the title of "Real Life Barbie."  What makes this person different is that they started out as a "Jason."  Becoming Barbie for him was a bit more...well, difficult.

Regardless of the controversy over wanting to be proportional to the iconic (albeit overly voluptuous) doll, some people still insist Barbie is the epitome of perfect.  Jason Torres was no different.  He, now she, has spent over $313,000 and has had 15+ surgeries to emulate her icon - with no regret.  Now known as Nicole Sanders, she recently gave a in-depth interview regarding her transformation and the tough road getting there to the Daily Mail.

Since a very early age, Nicole has always felt like a girl trapped in a male body.  The thoughts led to depression, a suicide attempt and a falling out with family.  But, that was then.  Now Nicole leads a very happy life as a transsexual and entertainer known as Nikki Exotika - all with Barbie flair.

"Growing up I was always playing with Barbie dolls and I just loved the way she looked," she said.  

Jason Torres pre-surgery  Barbie vs. Nicole  Barbie vs. Nicole

That desire led to numerous surgeries starting at the age of 18. 

Here is the laundry list of how Jason became Barbie:

"I have had pretty much everything done except liposuction - I've always been naturally skinny," she added.

"I didn't want to be natural - I wanted to be glamorous and beautiful, just like Barbie."

Torres/Sanders/Exotika's story may not be the norm when it comes to cosmetic surgery, but we're happy she's found peace in her new form.  And at least she admits that achieving the "Barbie look" and "looking natural" don't usually to go hand-in-hand.

Do you think Barbie is a beauty role model?    

See the video behind Sanders' Daily Mail photo shoot below.  The soundtrack alone is worth the 4 minute watch.  Try to NOT get up boogie.  It will be hard.


Photo credits:  Nikki Exotika, Daily Mail and Flickr by silanak (fely)

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So sad... If that was my son I would have had a heart attack... So very sad. But alas, u never know what made this person hate who they came into this world so much that they would change that
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Respectfully, I'd like to comment on your post since I'm a transgender girl, I relate to the decision-making process, and my mom is fighting a losing battle as to her acceptance of me. Perhaps the key point to address is that this person could never have been anyone's son, when gender is defined precisely to where it is based on the person's mind -- the person's brain structure, not the person's plumbing. Essentially, the parent has a little girl whose crotch makes her look male to the doctor who (in good faith) signed the birth certificate, and to everyone else who sees her. Ignoring for now the special case of hermaphrodite aka intersex people, and Klinefelters folks with XXY chromosomes, the story unfolds in a way where everyone assumes the person is male and the person alone is primarily aware that her mental processes don't reconcile to those of a male. As time goes by and the introspective evidence piles up, the realization becomes ever more stark and eventually reaches the tipping point to where the person has to confront the fact that she's one of those rare individuals who is genetically non-integrated, that the reason she thinks, feels, reacts etc. like a girl is because (plumbing and thus hormones aside) that's precisely what she is - and that a process of integration of her aesthetics will make her then look more like the girl that she basically is, whether that girl has Barbie's style or something more conservative. I'm guessing the preference for the Barbie style is due to Barbie symbolizing extreme femininity and the transgender girl is perhaps so starved for expressing her femininity that she's overreacting -- understandable in the same way as the converse makes sense, i.e., if a male were pressured to live the first x decades of his life as a girl, and then was finally free to reshape his looks, he might (understandably) opt for a very masculine style. As a transgender girl, I can personally vouch for it not being easy for the girl or, as you implied, her mom. But, as deserving recipients of sympathy go, there are more worthy recipients. As a transgender girl, I have a lot of upper body strength that a genetically integrated girl doesn't have. I don't have to worry about birth control when I'm with a man. It's slightly easier to manage my weight ... and so on. There are pros and cons. It's not an easy life, but it's not a tragedy. My main problem isn't so much how life is, but how some members of society treat me. That includes pathologizing this genetic condition as if it were a mental disorder. The latter particular myth has been disspelled, but in the same way as being gay was for a long time classified as a mental disorder, so is being transgender still classified as such, by many. And, that doesn't exactly help my situation. Still, my life is hardly a tragedy. If anything, it has made me appreciate how wonderful it is to be female and to be able to live in a society where for the most part I'm free and safe to rejoice in it, and express it. Worthy recipients of sympathy would more fairly be those who are dying of cancer and other diseases, those who are trapped in a circle of domestic abuse, those who are addicted to drugs or alcohol, those who have lost loved ones. As to transgender girls, we don't really deserve all that much sympathy -- though some fairness, understanding and courtesy is always welcome.
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I totally respect and appreciate your point of view... awesome perpective frim ones own experience is not one anyone can argue with. i, for one, have always thought that being gay is genetic. i have always defended & argued this point to those religious folks in my family -because i have gay family members that deserve a voice in the family. but, i just can't reconcile the amount of money to change oneself to this extreme. if ur gay ur gay don't hide behind operations. It appears to me an extreme form of vanity or opposite =self mutilation.
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I like the benevolent dialog we are having, and I like how you're arguing for more tolerance and understanding, by implication. As to the amount of money ... I'm quite broke and my current transportation is a 20-year old Ford van that doesn't have a reverse gear so I plan ahead as to where I park, and I paid $1000 for it. That's an amount that makes sense to me. In 2007, when I was making $12K a week in my flourishing IT business, I bought two Mercedes sports cars in one day, one of them being a $40K+ car. In each context, the decision made sense. It's very hard to question a particular expenditure unless one is in that context and situation, even if it's the same person and different time-frames. At which point the scale tips from self-improvement to extreme vanity, I don't know. Perhaps it never does and it's simply a too-far apart perspective where person A can't relate to the mindset of person B, and there's nothing wrong with either mindset ...
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Yes,.got it totally. I do wish & pray for understanding & tolerance, love regardless & peace for everyone regardless of who they are. Thank u so much for helping me understand better
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You are most welcome. Thank you for being so positive.
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Someday he will realize all the good things for the world that money could have done and feel horrible with himself.
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Go to any strip club and you will find that all the women there want to look like Barbie and they also idolize an insecure junkie named Marilyn Monroe. Each one thinks she is the ONLY one who deserves to have Marilyn Monroe as her idol. I say, do you really want to OD at 36? I am trying to get away from this false idolatry -- there is a way to get surgery that goes with your own natural beauty -- and yes we all have this, no matter who you are -- rather than erase all ethnic identity the way some doctors do. Just look at what Adrienne Malouf has done to herself -- tried to turn herself from a beautiful Armenian woman into a plastic, overblown Barbie. Those who idolize Barbie, who is not real herself, are only going to find that this is false idolatry. Their own beauty was there all along, and it too can be cultivated and appreciated.
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I'd like to comment on nadiahoney's post of July 22nd. Basically, I read this is as cautioning against a sincere attempt to arrive at an unachievable goal, when falling short is destructive, and when choosing an achievable goal would be a better option. I agree. As to how this translates into surgeon-shopping: I am basically attractive but there were some things that, when changed, would remove significant obstacles to looking better. I found that the approach of Dr. Tiffany McCormack reconciles well to this "let's work within the context of who you are" approach. Now that she's done her work, I still look like me, just a younger, prettier version. If you live within a reasonable traveling distance of Reno, you might want to consider this surgeon. Not a day goes by when I don't appreciate her approach and the effect she's had. I'm no Barbie and never will be, but I'm happy with how she's managed to put ... how should I put this ... nicer icing on the cake. I also hasten to add that surgery is one part of the puzzle, but an integrated look-better, be-healthier approach goes way beyond what .. dare I say "mere" .... what mere surgery can achieve. And in this too, this Doctor's office provides an integrated set of services.
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Tanya Barbie was a plastic porn star who never got to live, only was manipulated and ultimately unfulfilled in any human way. (This it true, but I say it jokingly bc I find it hilarious to this day that the Mattel couple found this doll hanging in a porn shop window and thought how much their little girl would like it -- yeah like the truckers do.) It's interesting on many different levels. In college my nickname was Barbie -- actually even after, and I am pretty sure it was NOT meant as a compliment. In San Fran a few yelled it at me and then said, Go Home Barbie!!! I didn;t have ANY surgery it's just something about my look? I am tall and thin, with bushy hair, so that;s the only similarity I see except I always wore unusual clothes due to poverty and interest in fashion. I felt at times people yelled it at me in a bullying fashion, but since I know I am nothing like Barbie -- never even played with that boring figure as a kid -- it didn't bug me as much as being teased about other things. And now I would say the Barbie look is 'out' because so many women in Hollywood took it too far, getting pig-like noses and trying too hard. Like in the prison movie The Escapist, in which the rulers in the prison only have control over that tiny area, but somewhere not too deep down they KNOW that it is all meaningless, and anyone worth their while knew it too. Ok gettin; too far off base. But Tanya I have followed yr posts and you have such an interesting, beautiful mind -- and you say "I'm no Barbie" but Tanya the T Gurl rocks more than any Barbie ever could, for sure! You are smart enough to appreciate that it is those MINUTE changes, not over the top carving, that can add to beauty. So...I bet you look HOTT and good for you! I relate to so much of what you say and I trust yr judgement so kudos to Dr, McCormack's vision. Docs like her ARE out there -- and I wish they were all like her.
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Wow nice person, I greatly appreciate your kind words -- and eloquence of the reply raises the cultural level of the postings on this site immensely. I'm sorry to read that you were picked on too. Dangit. And, lastly, thank you for your openness. :-)
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Looks just like an ugly ManWoman....

Doctors who aided this troll should be stripped of their license!
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Barbie does NOT has ass like that! Must be the Nikki Minaj version...
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Ha Remy3116 -- I was thinking about Barbie's real-life proportions recently. She (the doll) has such a screwed-up body, but worst of all , no nipples or vagina. No wonder we women are so screwed up! And her knees don't bend so no.....you know whats!
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Since Ariana has now made this a serious discussion, I'll add to it. Since I'm personally taking this stuff, I have some insights from personal experience; they might be relevant.

Hair loss is the result of a combination of factors, fundamentally genetic but with hormones playing a huge role. The testosterone hormone in some cases creates another type of hormone and that can in turn cause the hair follicles to go dormant. This can be reversible up to a point.

The medications to which Ariana refers include two mainstream ones, Propecia and Avodart. I've taken Propecia and it helps in 50% of the situations and now that I can afford Avodart I'm taking that instead since it helps in more of the situations yet.

I'm not going bald but my hairline is too M-shaped for my liking, and these medications reverse that too when they work, which is much of the time. They build up hormone blockers specific to the hormone that makes the hair follicles unhappy. It's a threshold process so it takes some months to take effect.

At the cellular level the DNA is just a blueprint and the RNA then pursues a particular agenda which is why your bone cells are so different from your skin cells, muscle cells, retina cells etc. even though the DNA is essentially identical. Hormones play a large part in what that agenda is, for any particular cell -- which is why at and after puberty, there's such a difference in the development between testosterone-influenced cells in general vs. not hair, bone, voice box, breast, hips, etc.

As an example, about 30 years ago or so the East German prisons put their most violent criminals on female hormones. The subjects became less violent and also put on fat in places that caused them to have relatively hourglassy figures.

One solution to the hair loss problem is to get rid of the, um, site of the testosterone production -- and with it go away all the downstream problems. However, even though it's a logical progression, it's a huge step with massive implications, which is why I'm still doing much planning and reading and question-asking as to that particular procedure.
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Until he goes bald.
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If you would like me to provide more information on that topic, please ask. You have very good word economy so it's hard for me to read whether you're raising a serious point or making a remark without much interest in more information. (I mean this respectfully.)

~Tanya
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GENETIC Women could go bald also. But normally there is medication that you can take if your transgender to prevent that from happening =)
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Well I might need some of that medication Ariana do U know it by name? where to get ti? Im trans and loosing some hair! :(
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Hi, please see my post below, dated 28 Jun 2012 -- as to Propecia and Avodart.

My hair stylist also recommended Invati by Aveda (external use only) though I'm not aware of how scientifically proven its effectiveness is.

Good luck!

~Tanya
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Thank you so much Tanya. I am going to look into all of the suggestions. Wow, imagine, financial advice along with all the other advice you can get on this site! I really do think you have potential as a life coach or something like that, Tanya. I so agree with all the points you made, and now I am gonna go re-read them.
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Go Tanya Go! You tell'em girl! Just saying hi and sending some love to the coolest chick on this site!!!!
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I agree Helen67. Just re-read that and I wanna forward it to my sister who just started her own business. I love the positivity! I am getting those books asap, and I am going to write down a real plan to achieve my goals. Maybe it just took hearing it from the right person at the right time, but she (Tanya) presents it in such a clear way that it is inspiring.
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They could have done a better job at feminizing his face. Some fillers to widen the eyebrows and fill in the temples, and fillers to his submalar and lower cheek, and also on the chin. That would provide more balance for the cheek implants so they don't 'jump out', and will also help to fill out and shorten his long face. The body shape looks really good though! But still not very balanced with the very thin legs...I think he went a wee bit OTT with the figure, he should've gone a little easier on the sillicone so the hips/thighs still stay in proportion to his legs.
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