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Removing a black outline tattoo

UPDATED FROM aleksandrazofia
5 months post

Taking a break!

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aleksandrazofia
$400
Hi! Haven't written anything for a while but I had some time to think about it all and for now I'm taking a break from removing my tattoo or maybe I'll even leave it for good.

I got to a conclusion that it's not that bad and going through the removal is taking a way bigger toll on me than the tattoo itself.

I'm starting university, I'll be in a new city etc so all the excitement won't be disturbed by some ink on my arm :)

But I do wish you guys all the best, and well, maybe I'll come back here at some point but I'm good for now! :)

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Dr Kupczynska

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Replies (5)

M
September 22, 2016
That's great news, go and live your life and enjoy your tattoo.
M
October 14, 2016
ayyy thats great news!!! im happy u seem more comfortable with this. honestly, i just read your whole page and i just wanted to say u have mad respect from me about how u dealt with this. its not just something where you can be like "just get over it, it looks fine!" but im glad u are starting to seem more happy/confident. honestly, i just want to say i think that the tattoo is very beautiful and that whether or not u keep it, those who love you and are there for u will always be there
A
October 29, 2016
Thank you for your comment! I actually feel so much stronger from all of this. And I really like the tattoo now, it's a part of me :) And if I had to go through all of those dark times just to be where I am atm - I couldn't be more grateful. It's crazy that you can feel like you're dead and nothing good is going to happen and then you know that there are all of those opportunities and happy moments to come. I'm so excited about life and so happy to have the knowledge I do now :) x
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M
October 26, 2016
Hey there!!!! I just read your whole page and so glad you are able to concentrate on other things now :) There's something I wanted to share with you - someone very wise pointed out at the beginning of your journey that your fears of not being loved or accepted because of your tattoo, spoke in volumes how much more you care about what other people think, than how you actually feel. You didn't appear to hate the tattoo because it's ugly or meaningless to you, you hated it because it was obvious and your fear of judgement seemed to take you down a horrible spiral of depression. I don't know if your therapist talked to you about this, but I know exactly how that goes as I was the same way. My self worth was determined by what other people thought of me... But I grew older and I wanted to share some wisdom with you. It seems to me that the ladies that you look at online or in person that have tattoos and you admire, it's not that their tattoos are what you admire, it's the fact that they own them. And I mean "own" in the sense of their energy says "Yeah. I have a tattoo. What about it? Idgaf your opinions about it." As it's part of their identity. Now you reminded me so much of my best friend with the things you say and struggling with your own identity, I had to share with you what I say to her, who you are today, is not who you will be tomorrow, or in a week, or in years. I know it's a million times easier said than done but You are, and always will be - you. You are not defined by what is on your arm UNLESS you allow it. You are not defined by the mistakes you make, unless you allow it. You are not defined by anything you don't want to be seen as, unless you allow it. I know it sounds cliché and easy and stupid. But your own attitude toward yourself is the best way for other people to see you the way you want to be seen :) after all - no one has the power to make you accept yourself, except you. As for friends who left you, or lovers you are scared to lose (you said something along the lines of what if a guy won't like me for it? Don't they like clean women?) then rest assured that those "friends" and those hypothetical men ARE NOT your friends, or ARE NOT your soul mates :) as your friends and future (or current) lover, will love you EXACTLY as you are. Your eye color could change, or your hair color could change, or you could tattoo yourself all over from head to toe - these things do not make you. Your a beautiful soul that worries about other people, that cares, that wants to be seen as a professional, responsible woman... Then do it! :) you think if you built 1,000 houses in Africa single handedly and cured Lupis and saved the world from an alien invasion that anyone would be like "well she's such a responsible, giving woman but .... DAT TATTOO THOUGH! :O ". Hell no, girl!!!!! You will be seen for what you are :) I can see it, and I've never met you... Caring to the extent you do is a GIFT. I'm not saying "don't give a fluff what people think" that's like asking a fish to walk on land, but You have a beautiful, caring soul, and you need to do your best to remember that. Care about people the way you do, but that doesn't mean let them define you :) I will leave you with a quote from the band Twenty One Pilots... It's my favorite line and reminds me of this exact situation.. Fight it. Take the pain, ignite it Tie a Noose around your mind Loose enough to breath fine and tie it To a tree. Tell it "you belong to me. This ain't a noose, this is a leash, And I have news for you: you must obey me." Good luck in WHATEVER you decide to do :)
A
October 29, 2016
Thank you so much for those words! I thought I'd come on here again and see what's going on. Actually, I came to a point where I adore my tattoo. It somehow began to be a part of me and I don't really imagine myself without it now. I moved to a different city, met new best friends with whom I live, I totally started to love myself and where I am right now. I don't look at it as a mistake anymore - it was more of a eye-opening experience for me and I couldn't be more grateful for it! I'm so happy I went through this mess because now I know how strong of a person I am :) Again, thank you for taking your time and commenting! Means a lot x
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M
October 29, 2016
I'm so, so glad!!!! What a positive experience it turned out to be for you :)

And its exactly what a tattoo should be!! A reminder of an experience that makes you stronger ;) Do you think you'll get any color on it or do you just love it as an outline? :3
A
October 29, 2016
That's exactly how I wanted it - totally minimalistic so an outline will stay ;) Most people have their rose tattoos colored, either in black or in colour so I want mine to stay like that :) I was thinking of adding some other flowers to it but I guess it would be too much. I like it as it is :)
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A
December 3, 2016
Been awhile. Thought I'd tell you I got my tattoo redone plus two new ones lol. Funny how crazy we used to be about this.
M
April 8, 2017
Hi! Just to say to you that I think that's a pretty tatoo :)
UPDATED FROM aleksandrazofia
4 months post

Mixing lasers? What are your thoughts?

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aleksandrazofia
Hi guys!

Just wanted to ask what do you think about mixing lasers? At the moment my treatments are performed using Lutronic Q-Switch but in some time I will have to go to another place which probably will use differedt Q-Switch laser. Will this be an issue?

Hope you're doing well.

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E
August 31, 2016
I think people respond to different lasers. Like responding better to new equipment. The new clinic that I will be going to has the quanta c plus and she didn't say that it will be a problem. If anything it might just be better on my skin since my clinic now has the Hoya conbio.
K
September 1, 2016
I don't think it should be. I started out using a yag q-switch, then picosure and now enlighten.
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M
September 9, 2016
Hey sorry I haven't commented in awhile! Summer has been SO BUSY for me! I've barely been on Realself at all! Hope you're doing ok!

Nothing wrong with switching lasers! In fact, maybe it will work even better than the one you are using. I say go for it. :-)
A
September 9, 2016
Thanks for commenting! Well, I'm actually considering taking a break from the treatments after all. I'm starting uni in a few weeks and it's all so stressful and I don't want to be even more stressed by the whole removal process. I might take a few months off :)
UPDATED FROM aleksandrazofia
4 months post

Pictures after treatment #2

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aleksandrazofia
Forgot to add some pictures so here they are. I'm waiting to session number 6-7 to see some real changes.

Sometimes it is really hard, I won't lie to you, especially since I feel like I cannot really talk to anyone about how I feel because they won't understand.. I hope things will get better.

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E
August 29, 2016
thats awesome!
I got my first treatment last wednesday and it was a double session and I'm feeling a little low. I haven't seen much of anything other than a lot of redness and blistering even on areas around my tattoo that were not treated. which is very odd to me. idk if it was a allergic reaction? have you had those issues?
A
August 29, 2016
thanks for commenting! it's pretty common for the whole area to be reddish/swollen so don't worry :) it will be fine! look at my pictures after the treatment :)
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S
September 5, 2016
Hey girl, I'm 23 going through ur same emotional rollercoaster.. I come to acceptance then I'm balling then I'm covering it smiling at work, come home and spend all my free time reading, researching, emailing, looking praying searching hoping... For an answer to rid of these mistakes I made . if u ever wanna chat I'm here!