Chin Implant and subsequent removal for 31 Y/o Male - Wroclaw

The Radiesse treaement : compared to having the implant placed, it was a lot less stressful and much quicker. Of course the result only will last for a year or so, but it was also a fairly good solution for the short term.
My doctor told me she was expecting a good result - I'm happy with it, although it is less projection than the implant gave me. She offered me botox in the chin (probably on another occasion) which would relax the muscle and give me a bit more projection.
The procedure was a little bit painful at the beginning. And I had a bruise on the right side of my chin a day after - it has since subsided but was a bit annoying. In the end she told me that it was a challenge because of internal scar tissue (owing to the removed chin implant). But she used a canula to recude the number of times I was punctured.
Given the time taken, stress endured, amount spent etc. I'm really happy with the result.

I'm writing this just before leaving my place to go to the local clinic I've found for Radiesse.
Having failed with the first chin implant, and thinking about it again recently I looked more into fillers. Asked my dr about it when she was doing my Botox and they said I'm a good candidate. I explained my history, and what objective I have (basically I was happy with the result of the chin implant before it was removed).
I'm a bit nervous! It doesn't take too long, but it can't easily be undone. So my main concerns are - am I in good hands? What if they mess up or it looks bad?
I also had to shave my beard for this. And I realise now how I feel that the beard helps give me a better chin and jaw and makes me look better. Well, it'lll grow back and I can obviously wear a facemask!
Wish me luck

Wow, it's been a year since I had my chin surgery. It's good to look back on this and realise how much stress it caused me; having the implant inserted and removed within 3 weeks was a big upheaval and an enormous waste of time. Everyone who I've talked to says I look fine without it, but of course when you have a weak chin it's all you can see when you look in the mirror. A chin implant seemed like a simple solution to something that had bothered me for a long time. Sadly it backfired but I feel like i handled it pretty well - maybe because i knew it was one of the risks. Sometimes I try to remember what it felt like being in that hospital bed, waiting for my removal surgery with a drip in my arm... helps me to put things in perspective.

Do I still think about my chin? Yes i do. I wish I could walk away from this and say 'that was a stupid mistake, I never want to mess around with implants again', but I still feel the impulse to want to give it another shot. it's stupid, and irrational given what i've gone through, i know. But I'm being honest. I would still like more projection in my chin.

One thing is I have had a lot of people tell me i'm handome, which has given me more confidence. But in myself I still feel I could look better. I am hopefully on a journey to self-acceptance but I'm not quite there yet! i'm not sure whether plastic surgery is futile - i just read a comment from someone who's having all of her implants removed... is that an inevitability of all patients?