"That is the worst boob job I have ever seen" terrible breast implants. Depressed. what do I do?

I am so tired of people telling me about how botched my breast implants are and how I need them fixed. It hurts knowing it yourself, but when other people tell you it's so much worse. I am an exotic dancer so I am not just able to hide my messed up boobs. People always see them and make comments. One of my close friends just made a comment the other day. She looked at me while changing and was like "d*mn you need to get that sh*t fixed. They look bad bad" :(
It really hurts. And it hurts that I can't do anything about it right now I want to hide.
I got breast implants March of 2018. My goal was to have bigger breasts. After having my son my breasts were very deflated and saggy looking. While pregnant I had went from an A to a full C when my milk came in. After I was done breastfeeding, my breasts when back to a very saggy flat A cup. My nipples now pointed downwards and we're larger than before. When I had my consultation I said I wanted bigger breasts and wants to get implants. She asked if I wanted a lift as well. I told her no, unless needed one. So I proceeded to ask her,do I need a lift? She had told me no, my drooping wasn't too severe. She said what she could do was put a big enough implant in that was high profile and over the muscle to fill up the loose skin and "lift" the nipple. I am not a surgeon, so I didn't know what would be best. I trusted her opinion because she seemed sure of what she saying. She originally was going to give me 285 cc hp implants. That's what I was going to get until last minute when I had decided to do 350 hp implants. I went through with my surgery. The surgery experience was not the greatest. The staff was condescending and rude. I was really scared and having a panic attack before operation and no one was comforting to me. Everyone was cold and short with me. After surgery my first checkup the day after was okay. I didn't notice how messed up my boobs were because they were still swollen and high up. I already knew that right afterwards they look crazy. as soon as I could go back to work my boss had pulled me aside and told me that my boob job was really bad, one of the worst he has ever seen and that I really need to get them fixed." I already knew in my head they were but was in denial. After hearing that it shattered me. I was so insecure and sad. My next checkup appointment I expressed that to the nurse. I was already having rippling on the sides and was able to see that they were way too low on my chest and looked like big balls hanging off of me. Just ridiculous. I had told her if they're already sagging I'm terrified to know what they're going to look like years from now. I knew it would only get worse as time goes on. I started sobbing in there and the nurse sent the surgeon in. After expressing how I felt and how I was so upset and dissatisfied with the results she was rude and brushed off all of my concerns and told me that I needed to wait and see what they look like when the swelling is completely down and they drop more. Drop more!? They're already falling off my chest !! She said well you're the one that said you didn't want a lift. I told her no, you said I didn't need one! If I had known I ever would have gotten implants without one !!! She told me I'd have to wait and see before I decide to do anything. I left super defeated. I was super depressed and insecure about my boobs, I just couldn't even deal with thinking about how I'm going to fix them. fast forward to my next checkup, the final one, I expressed how I was still unhappy with my results. Unhappy is really an understatement. I hate them. This time I went in and showed her the rippling and how they flip over themselves when I bed, and how they're extremely low. This time she didn't brush off my concerns. She said "yeah, looks like you need a lift" "those implants are a little big for you too" she had told me the implants were too heavy during pulling my skin making them drool. SHE KNEW THIS FROM THE BEGINNING! Why would she let me go through with doing this or even suggesting it in the first place?! She now said I need a lift and to put them under the muscle and smaller implants. The price quote was somewhere around $15k. She said she couldn't take much off the price. Which I didn't expect it to be free but I feel like more should have been taken off of that. She botched my boobs and knows it. And it was her terrible idea to put a big hp implant over the muscle in place of a lift in the first place. I heard heard afterwards from doctors that you should never replace a lift with the method she went for. They said it was a terrible idea.
I didn't end up going back to her. that was 2 years ago. I still want to get them fixed but I don't know how I'm going to afford that, her mistake. Been depressed about them ever since. I really don't want to see her again but I'm sure it's probably going to cost way more to go to another doctor to get them fixed :(
I'm stuck I don't know what to do.